On Her Own (2 page)

“Death comes to all,” Mavis said in a hushed tone. “It was Dan’s time to go.”

Barbara had heard the bishop and others in their Amish community say the same thing when someone passed away. Some said that if the person hadn’t died one way, he or she would have died another. “When your time’s up, it’s up,” someone had told Barbara on the day of David’s funeral. She wasn’t sure she
could accept that concept. Accidents happened, true enough, but they were brought on because someone was careless or in the wrong place at the wrong time. If David hadn’t gone to town the morning of their anniversary, she felt sure he would be alive today.

Barbara saw no point, however, in telling David’s mother how she felt about these things. She’d probably end up arguing with her. “When is the funeral?” she asked instead.

“In a few days. As soon as Dan’s brother, Paul, gets here.” Mavis patted Barbara’s shoulder. “You’ll not be expected to go since you’ve just given birth and need rest.”

Barbara nodded. Rest. Yes, that’s what she needed. She closed her eyes as the desire for sleep overtook her. “Tell my boys they can see their little
bruder
soon. After Davey and I have ourselves a little nap.”

When Barbara heard a familiar
creak
, she knew Mavis had risen from the chair. The last thing she remembered was hearing the bedroom door click shut.

Alice Raber sat at the table where her three grandsons were drawing on tablets. “Your mamm just gave birth to a boppli,” she said. “You have a new little bruder.”

“What’d Mama name him?” Aaron, who was almost nine, asked as he looked up from his drawing.

“David.”

“That was Papa’s name,” said Joseph, who would soon be turning six.

Alice nodded. “That’s right. Your mamm wanted to name the baby after your daed.”

“Nobody will ever take Papa’s place,” Aaron mumbled.

She touched his shoulder. “Of course not. Your mamm just thought it would be nice to give your little bruder your daed’s name so you could remember him.”

Aaron grunted. “I’ll always remember Papa, no matter what. Me and him used to go fishin’ together, and he promised to give me his harness business some day.”

“When can we see our little bruder?” Joseph asked.

“After your mamm and the boppli have had a chance to rest awhile.”

“Are they tired?”

Aaron punched Joseph’s shoulder. “You ask too many questions, you know that?”

“Do not.”

“
Jah
, you do.”

“Let’s not quarrel,” Alice said as she reached over and scooped Barbara’s youngest boy, Zachary, off his chair and into her lap. The little guy had been the baby of the family for three and a half years. She figured he would need some extra attention now that a new baby had come on the scene. Maybe the other boys would, too.

“Are Mama and little David tired?” Joseph asked again.

“Jah.” Alice patted his arm. “It takes a lot of work for a little one to get born. And it was very tiring for your mamm to do her part so the little one could come into the world.”

“How come?”

“Just does.” Aaron grunted and nudged Joseph’s elbow.
“Now quit askin’ Grandma so many questions.”

“Who would like some cookies?” Alice hoped a snack might put Aaron in a better mood.

Joseph bobbed his head up and down with an eager expression. “I would.”

Alice placed Zachary back in his chair, then retrieved the cookie jar from the cupboard. She had just set a plate of cookies on the table when Barbara’s mother-in-law entered the room.

“How’s my daughter doing?” Alice asked. “Are she and the boppli sleeping?”

“She was looking pretty drowsy when I left her room. I imagine she’s dozed off by now.” Mavis took a seat at the table.

“I’ll take the boys up to see their bruder as soon as she wakes up.” Alice pushed the plate toward Mavis. “Would you like a cookie?”

“Don’t mind if I do.”

Mavis selected a cookie and was about to take a bite, when Joseph nudged her arm. “Want some milk for dunkin’?”

She glanced over at him and smiled. “Where’s your milk?”

He shrugged. “Grandma didn’t give me none. Figured if she gave you some, she might give me some, too.”

Mavis chuckled, and so did Alice. “I’ll see to it right away.” She looked at Aaron. “Do you want some milk?”

“Jah, okay.”

“I’ll get all three of you some—Mavis, too, if she’d like.”

Mavis nodded. “Jah, sure. Why not?”

After their snack, Alice asked the boys to play in the living room. As soon as the boys left the room, Alice turned to Mavis and said, “I’m worried about Barbara.”

“I thought the birth went okay. Was there a problem I don’t know about?”

Alice shook her head. “The birth went fine. It’s after Barbara is back on her feet that has me worried.”

“What do you mean?”

“She wants to return to work at the harness shop, and I’m not sure she should.”

“That shop was my David’s joy.” Mavis pursed her lips. “It’s my understanding that Barbara likes it, too, so it’s only natural that—”

Alice shook her head. “She might like it, but it’s hard work. Too hard for a woman to be doing all by herself.”

“Samuel helps out. Isn’t that right?”

Mavis nodded. “But his arthritis bothers him more all the time, and I don’t know how much longer he’ll be able to continue helping her.”

“Maybe she can hire someone.”

“Like who? Do you know anyone in these parts who does harness work?”

“No, but—”

“I’m wondering if she should sell the shop and live off the profits until she finds another husband.”

“Another husband?” Mavis flinched. “Ach, David’s not been gone quite a year. How can you even talk of Barbara marrying again?”

Alice sighed. “I’m not suggesting she get married right away. But if the right man comes along, I think she would do well to think about marrying him.” She smiled at Mavis and patted her arm. “David was a fine man, and I’m sure Barbara will always
carry love for him in her heart. But now she has four sons to raise, and that will be difficult to do alone, even with the help of her family.”

Mavis dabbed the corners of her eyes with a napkin. “I guess we need to be praying about this, jah?”

Alice nodded. “That’s exactly what we need to do.”

Paul Hilty’s hand shook as he left the phone shed outside his cousin Andy’s harness shop, where he worked. He still couldn’t believe the message on the answering machine that Dan, his oldest brother, was dead.

Dazed, Paul meandered back into the shop. “I’ve got to go home. My brother passed away this morning,” he said when he found his cousin working at his desk.

Andy looked up from the pile of invoices lying in front of him. “Which brother?”

“Dan. I went out to the phone shed to make a call and discovered that Pop had left a message on your answering machine. Dan died of a heart attack early this morning.”

“I’m sorry to hear that. He was helping your daed on the farm, isn’t that right?”

Paul nodded. “Him, Monroe, and Elam. Now it’ll just be Pop and my two younger brothers.” He grimaced. “No doubt my daed will be after me to come back to Missouri so I can help him work in the fields.”

“You’ll be leaving Pennsylvania, then?”

“Not if I can help it.” Paul swallowed hard. “I will need to
go back for Dan’s funeral, though. I’d like to leave right away if I can get a bus ticket.”

“Of course. No problem.” Andy grunted. “I’d close the shop and go with you, but I just got in several new orders, and I’d get really behind if we were both gone. Having just hired Dennis Yoder, I can’t expect him to take over the shop and know what to do in my absence.”

Paul shook his head. “That’s okay. You’re needed here. I’m sure the folks will understand.”

“Please give Dan’s widow my condolences.”

“I will.” Paul turned toward the door.

Faith Hertzler had just stepped onto the back porch to shake one of her braided rugs when she spotted her mother’s horse and buggy coming up the driveway.

“Wie geht’s?”
she asked as Mom stepped onto the porch moments later.

“I’m doing all right, but Margaret Hilty’s not holding up so well this morning.” Mom’s face looked flushed.

Faith draped the rug over the porch railing. “What’s wrong with Margaret? Is she
grank
?”

“She’s not sick physically, but in here she surely is.” Mom placed one hand against her chest. “Dan had a heart attack this morning and died.”

“Ach! That’s
baremlich
!”

Mom nodded, and her blue eyes darkened. “I know it’s terrible. Poor Margaret is just beside herself.”

Faith drew in her bottom lip. “I can only imagine. Dan’s always seemed healthy. I guess one never knows when their time will be up, so we should always be prepared.”

“Jah. Always ready to meet our Maker.”

Faith opened the screen door. “Won’t you come in and have a cup of tea?”

“Don’t mind if I do.” Mom’s glasses had slipped to the middle of her nose, and she pushed them back in place before entering the house.

The women took seats at the table, and Faith poured some tea. “Would you like some cookies or a slice of cake? Noah made some lemon sponge cake last night, and we still have a few pieces.”

Mom gave her stomach a couple of pats. “I’d better pass on the cake. It’ll be time for lunch soon, and I don’t want to fill up on sweets.”

Faith blew on her tea, then took a sip. “Will Dan’s brother, Paul, be coming home for the funeral?”

Mom shrugged. “I don’t know, but I expect he will.”

“I’ll try to see Margaret later today. Maybe I’ll take her one of Noah’s baked goods with a verse of scripture attached.”

“That’d be good. Margaret’s going to need all the support she can get in the days ahead.”

The back door flew open, and Noah’s mother, Ida, stepped into the room. “I just talked to Mavis Zook, and she told me that Barbara gave birth to a healthy little
buwe
this morning.”

“Another boy?” Mom asked.

Ida nodded. “She’s already tired enough trying to run the harness shop and deal with three energetic boys. Now she’ll
really have her hands full.”

“I guess I’d better get over to see Barbara soon,” Faith said. “Even though the birth of her son must be a happy time for her, she’s probably feeling a bit sad because David isn’t here.”