On His Honor (22 page)

“Good. I’m going to go upstairs and bring Violet out quietly if I can. Put your number in my phone, and I’ll let you know when I have her safe, then the rest of you get out, too.”

“What about Avery?”

He couldn’t tell her Lofton was hurt. No predicting what she’d do. “I can only take one at a time, but my team will be coming for him.”

“He’s a good man.”

Not you, too.
But he didn’t argue. “I’m trusting you to keep things calm down here.”

Her gaze was resolute. “You can count on me.”

“Thanks. Can you think of something to call Sage about, to distract her while I get Violet away?”

“I’ll figure out something. How soon?”

“Spread the word to your people as fast as possible, then call Sage as soon as you can. Three minutes cutting it too close?”

“I’ll manage.” She entered her number on his cell then retraced her steps.

JD followed silently, but detoured to the left to mount the stairs.

* * *

B
EING
STUCK
BEHIND
A
SOFA
let the mind run rampant to create every possible nightmare scenario. Violet longed to go to the window to see what was going on downstairs, to listen at the door.

Don’t be that idiot heroine in the Gothic novel who goes into the darkened basement. You’ve already created problems enough.

She subsided against the corner wall. She flexed her fingers, realizing that she’d been gripping the knife handle as if it was her one remaining hope.

But JD was nearby. That thought brought her more comfort than she was entitled to, given the lack of faith she’d shown in him.

He’d deceived her, yes—repeatedly—but she could look at the situation with new eyes now, and she realized how difficult the situation must have been for JD. He was an undercover cop—he had to be a convincing actor, too, only the stakes were life or death, not mere box-office receipts.

What happened between us was no job, Violet. You felt it, too.

She had. And if she got a chance to be with him again, she wouldn’t squander it.

Please. Give us that chance. Keep him safe.

A noise outside. A moan, like someone in pain. Avery? What if JD was hurt? She wanted to act, to help.

Then a sound, a key in the lock. She edged toward the end of the sectional nearest the door.

Her phone vibrated.
Unlockd but dont come out.

JD.
Relieved by his nearness, Violet eased closer. She would be ready for whatever happened next.

* * *

JD’
S
GOAL
WAS
TO
SPIRIT
V
IOLET
out without anyone noticing, to send her away before the raid went down. He listened to Sage talking on the phone to what he hoped was Leslie. From the sound of it, Sage wasn’t happy, and he knew he couldn’t count on her being preoccupied for very long.

Just then he heard footsteps in the office across the hall, the one Violet said was Lofton’s. He sprinted to the wall next to that door and flattened himself against it, his weapon at the ready.

The door opened, and the burly man walked out, weapon drawn.

Headed for the room Violet was in.

“Don’t move,” JD said quietly. “Police. Drop your weapon.”
Be smart, please.
JD didn’t dare fire because Violet was somewhere behind the man. Bullets could go through walls.

The man whirled, instead. Fired.

JD tried to dodge but there was no time. The bullet slammed into his shoulder, knocked him back against the wall. His weapon tumbled from his grasp.

“JD!” Violet’s voice.

The man kicked in that door.

The team would hear the gunfire on his mic and move in, but quickly enough? He scanned the floor to see where his weapon had landed, gritting his teeth against the fire in his shoulder.

While Joe was looking away, JD grasped his weapon in his left hand and braced himself against the wall.

The man yanked Violet out, brandishing her in front of him like a shield.

“You’re surrounded. Let her go,” JD said. He wanted to look Violet over to be sure she wasn’t hurt but couldn’t afford not to watch Joe closely.

“I’ve got him, Joe,” Sage said from her doorway.

JD couldn’t watch both at once, and the goon was closest to Violet. He could sense Sage nearing and spared her one quick glance. She was armed and approaching.

A form hurtled through the door beside JD and barreled into Sage.

Lofton.

He knocked Sage to the ground.

JD eased back so he could see both Joe and them.

Lofton struggled with Sage for her weapon.

“Avery, watch out!” Violet cried.

Joe raised his arm and fired a head shot. Lofton collapsed on top of his partner.

“No!” Violet screamed and lunged for Lofton.

“Violet, don’t!” JD shouted.

But the man grabbed Violet and yanked her in front of him again, one beefy arm around her throat, his weapon rising toward her head.

JD’s vision wavered. He couldn’t get a clear shot.

Violet’s right arm rose from her skirt. JD spotted the gleam of metal.

She jammed it into the man’s thigh.

With a roar, he backhanded her into the wall. She collapsed like a rag doll.

JD fired. The goon fell to the floor.

JD staggered toward Violet.

A sound came from his left. He whirled to see Sage’s weapon aimed at Violet.

JD threw himself in front of Violet.

The bullet plowed into him.

“Violet—” he called.

But there was no answer as he collapsed.

* * *

F
OOTSTEPS
POUNDED
UP
THE
STAIRS
, and Violet stirred. “JD—”

She heard Sage screaming with rage, but the sound was getting farther and farther away. She saw double and closed her eyes, trying to rise.

“Easy now. It’s Vince Coronado, Violet. Don’t get up. Someone will be here to take a look at you.”

“Vince?” She tried opening her eyes again. Blinked hard to focus.

“Yeah. Where are you hurt?”

“Just my head. JD—is he—he got shot. Where is he?”

“He’s alive.”

But the look in Vince’s eyes made her heart stop. “How bad?”

“Don’t know yet. He took two hits. Lost a lot of blood.”

“Two?” She’d only seen one. “What happened?”

Vince stared at her. “Sage tried to shoot you. JD took the bullet to save you.”

“No. Oh, God, Vince.” Grief bent her double.

“Sage and her henchman are in custody. JD’s in the ambulance now.”

“Where are they taking him? I have to go to him.” She struggled to her knees but swayed.

“You’re not going anywhere yet.” Vince caught her. “He’ll be taken to University Medical. It’s a level-one trauma center. He’s in good hands.”

“This is my fault.” She wrapped her arms around her middle and rocked herself. “All of it. He told me to stay away from Avery, but—” Then she remembered more. The vision of Avery charging Sage, and his head— She swallowed back the sour sickness. “Avery… .”

“I’m sorry.”

“He’s been my best friend for years.” Violet clapped her hand over her mouth in horror at what she’d set in motion. Forced herself to meet Vince’s gaze.
Don’t fall apart. You don’t have the right.

“I did this, Vince, all of this—if I’d believed JD, none of this would have happened.” She gripped his arm. “JD has to be okay. Are the doctors good enough?”

“We have to hope so.”

Hope? She wanted a guarantee. “If he needs anything…anything, Vince. I’ll give every dime I have if it will save him.”
But you weren’t willing to give him your trust, were you? You were too busy feeling sorry for yourself.

Once again, she tried to rise on unsteady legs. Vince assisted her, but she felt the distance in him, saw the looks on the faces of his men.

They knew why JD was hurt. Knew she was the reason he might not make it.

She’d placed her faith in someone who didn’t deserve it.

And hadn’t believed in the best man she’d ever met.

“You would be right to despise me, but—” She fought to steady her voice. “I want to be there at the hospital to wait until—” Her voice broke.
He has to make it. Please.
“However little I deserve the privilege.” Once again she lifted her eyes to the man beside her. To her surprise, his gaze was more sympathetic than judgmental. “Would you—please, Vince…could you get me a cab or…?”

“After you let the paramedics check you out, I’ll drive you. If you’ll wait right here…”

“I will.” This time she’d listen. Do what she was asked.

She made herself straighten when she wanted to huddle, searched for a dignity she didn’t deserve.

No matter that she’d set the wheels in motion, could she have prevented JD being wounded so badly or Avery being killed? If she hadn’t screamed… If she’d been farther back from the door… If she hadn’t let that man grab her, if she hadn’t stabbed him or she’d stabbed him somewhere else or…?

Too late, all of it.

Please,
she beseeched God and fate and every force in the universe.
I’ll do anything.

But God hadn’t done this. Fate hadn’t acted.

She had.

She might have a lot of money, possess the world’s adulation…

But right now, when the life of the man she loved hung in the balance—

Everything else in her world was empty and meaningless.

Violet stared ahead blindly into a future that was forever altered.

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

A
WEEK
LATER
, V
IOLET
STOOD
in Forest Lawn Cemetery in L.A. to say goodbye to her friend Avery. He hadn’t been able to achieve the acting fame he’d sought, but she could give him this, a final resting place among those he’d admired.

It wasn’t enough.

But she wasn’t sure what would be. Didn’t even know how to feel about what she’d learned about him, the person she’d trusted most outside her own family.

Instead of believing in the man she should have.

But thinking about JD now…she couldn’t. He’d nearly bled out, but the second shot had hit him in the right side and missed critical organs. Once the doctors had said that he would live, she’d left.

As she walked toward the waiting limo, she was intensely grateful that JD had survived, that he would recover.

She didn’t know if she ever would. For a few days, she’d experienced something beautiful and amazing. A rare gift she didn’t expect to ever find again.

And she was the one who’d tossed it aside.

“Violet! Over here!” cried a voice from the crowd outside the gates.

She didn’t even care. She was finding it hard to care about anything these days. She simply looked straight into the cameras and let the shutters snap.

“Ready, Ms. James?” her driver asked.

“Yes, thank you.”

“I’ll get you home in a snap.”

“Thank you.” Home.
Home is where the heart is.
In that case, she was hopelessly lost.

She’d left her heart halfway across the country, and she couldn’t even ask for it back.

* * *

“I
T
'
S
BEEN
NEARLY
FIVE
WEEKS
,”
JD grumbled. “I’m sick of lying around.”

“You’re not sitting around, you’re doing physical therapy,” Jenna, his current babysitter, pointed out. “Maybe you ought to walk ten yards for every time you bitch. You’d have finished a marathon by now.”

He had to smile. “Smartass. I’m not that bad.”

She rolled her eyes. “Shall I get your mom on the phone and let her give her opinion?”

“Maybe not.” His folks had just left a few days ago. They’d been badly shaken by the seriousness of his injuries. It wasn’t the first time he’d been hurt on the job, but he’d always bounced back fast. They’d hung around even after he’d been released from the hospital and had done everything imaginable for him. “But in my defense, I wasn’t in my right mind.”

“Yeah, but what’s your excuse after the first few days?”

“Watch it, kid.”

She smiled. “They sure put in time on this house of yours. It looks a lot better. You actually have three livable rooms now.”

“Hey, I’d have gotten there eventually.”

“In this century?”

The kitten he’d named Spot leaped from the floor and landed on his belly. “Oof! Not there, okay?” Gingerly he used his good left arm to shift her away from the healing wound just above his hip.

“You with a cat…who’d have thought?”

Not him, for sure. His neighbor had cared for the cat while he’d been in the hospital, and, as it turned out, no one had come to claim the kitten, so he had. It was pretty pathetic that he wanted her because she connected him to Violet, but…there it was.

He wondered, as he did every day, how Violet fared. If she’d gotten over Lofton’s betrayal and his loss. She must hate the publicity that had still not fully abated. The police had managed to keep some of the details out of the press, but the media had had a field day with the salacious nature of Avery’s death and Violet’s connection to him.

He devoured every picture of her he saw on TV or in the papers or online.

She looked…sad. Weary.

“Thinking about her again?” Jenna asked. “Violet?”

“No point.” He glanced over at the TV. “So what should it be today, Judge Judy or Dr. Phil?” He lifted the remote.

Jenna snatched it out of his hand. “Are you just going to sit here and let her go?”

He didn’t have the spirit to engage in his usual battle with her. “Leave it, Jenna.”

“Why? Because, for the first time in your life, a woman’s not falling at your feet?”

“That has nothing to do with it. You don’t understand the first thing about what happened.”

She settled on the coffee table beside him. “Then why don’t you explain?”

He shoved to a sitting position and winced. Slowly he rose and glowered down at Jenna. “I said leave it.” He stalked to the back porch. Stood there and looked around.

Even here Violet haunted him. He could see her, languid in his arms…crouching over the kitten…bare legs beneath his shirt…kissing him with such sweetness…

He’d never had his heart broken before.

It hurt like ten kinds of hell.

“JD, I’m sorry,” Jenna said from the doorway.

He glanced back. “It would never work, can’t you see that? She’s—she’s Violet James, and I—I’m…this.” He gestured around him. “Nothing wrong with it, but there’s no midpoint, no compromise, even if—” Even if she’d ever bothered to contact him since that day.

“She refused to let them admit her to the hospital for her own injuries so that she could stay near you until she knew you’d make it. Does that say she doesn’t care?”

He’d been told that, but he had no memory of her being there. “She left town before I ever woke up.”

“She told Vince she’d cover the cost of the best specialists available.”

“Oh, yeah, that’s just what I want, her throwing around money on my behalf.”

“I never got the sense that money was all that important to her.”

He snorted. “She’s one of the richest women in the country. Hell, in the world, for all I know.”

As an artist, you don’t perform for the money.

He ignored the memory. Easy for her to say—she had buckets of money.

“So your pride is more important than your heart?”

“What else do I have, Jenna? I can’t be a kept man. And I don’t want to live in L.A., anyway.”

“Zane’s figured out a different path.”

“Zane is the one with the money in that relationship.”

“If you weren’t hurt, I’d smack you. So you can only love a woman who makes less than you? You are such an idiot, JD. What does money matter compared to love?”

“A whole damn lot.” Again he tried to shrug her off with a mock-leer. “You can only spend so much time in bed.”

“Ooh!” She glared at him. “Do not be deliberately thick-headed. I saw her at the hospital. She was devastated. She feels guilty, JD, that’s why she left. She thinks what happened was her fault.”

“It was.” Suddenly he was furious in a way he hadn’t allowed himself to be before. “It absolutely was. I told her to stay away from him, but she didn’t listen.”

“So you need a woman who’s obedient
and
poor before you’ll fall in love?”

“No!” It was too late for that. He’d already fallen. But still… “She didn’t trust me, damn it!”

“You were undercover. You lied to her—by necessity, yes, but she’d just gotten divorced from a man who lied to her constantly. You’re good at what you do, very convincing…so somehow she’s magically supposed to trust you even though you were deceiving her, too?”

“Yes—no—she should have known me, damn it. What we had was real. She felt it, same as I did, but in the end, she didn’t trust me. And she walked away from all of it.”

He stared out at the trees, at the yard he’d had such plans for. Had even pictured Violet there in those heady few days, even when he’d known he shouldn’t. “It was real. I love her. And none of that matters.”

“So you’re going to sit around here and mope? Just give up without even trying?”

Her needling didn’t bother him this time, not when the pain inside his chest had claws like a saber-tooth tiger.

He wasn’t a quitter, no.

But recognizing the truth wasn’t quitting, it was simple logic. The chasm between their worlds was too huge to span.

“I can’t travel for another week, anyway, the doctor said.”

“And then?” she prompted.

“I don’t know.”

“I think you do,” Jenna said softly. “Sit down, JD. You’re pale as a ghost.” He fell into the porch swing, she sat beside him and they rocked in silence.

* * *

“V
IOLET
,
DARLING
,
YOU
’
VE
LOST
WEIGHT
.”
The photographer fluttered around her. “You’re delicious, of course, but we have to take in this gown, just like the last three.” He sighed. “Someone get the seamstress again.”

It was the last outfit of the shoot at the beach house the magazine had booked, and she couldn’t wait to be done. She was in more demand than ever for magazine covers. On the heels of a scandal involving adultery, possibly the only thing more tantalizing was being in the midst of gunfire and bloodshed. And when rumors included a knife-wielding star…

Human skin was tougher than she would have imagined. Her stomach rebelled whenever she thought of it.

So she tried not to.

Not that her nightmares cared.

She stood like a mannequin, eyes closed, while her makeup was refreshed, while hands moved over her body, tucking here, pinning there. Music that sounded entirely too much like that played in Avery’s club pounded, and voices chattered at insane speeds, speaking on inane topics…

She wanted to run away.

But the only place she wanted to be was off-limits.

“You can’t come in here,” the magazine booking agent shrieked suddenly. “We’re doing a shoot.”

“I came to see Violet.”

That voice. She felt her insides quiver. Her eyes flew open.

“Well, you can’t. I don’t know how you ever got in here. Get out or I’ll call the cops.”

She swallowed hard. “He is a cop.”

JD stood perhaps twenty feet away, gaunt and weary, his arm in a sling but so very beautiful to her.

“I’ll wait outside until you’re done. Will you talk to me?” He was curiously stiff and formal.

“I will,” she managed to say.

“All right.” He turned to go.

Fear shot through her at the thought that he would leave and never return. “Wait!” She searched frantically for the photographer. “Franco, please. Can he stay?”

“No!” the booker complained. “He’d be a distraction, Violet.”

Violet looked back. He was nearly to the door. “JD, please don’t leave. Franco!”

The photographer approached. Framed her face in his hands. “I don’t enjoy shooting a rag doll. There’s life in your eyes now.” He nodded. “For you, precious Violet, he can stay.”

“Thank you, Franco.” She pressed a grateful kiss to his cheek, then immediately sought out JD again. He was looking at her, but she couldn’t decipher his expression. She grabbed her skirt and lifted it, racing to where JD stood.

Up close, his beautiful smoky eyes were unreadable. Once again, fear shivered through her.

But he’d come. That meant something, didn’t it?

Her throat crowded with everything she wanted to say. Was afraid to. “Please. Will you wait in here for me, instead? We’re nearly finished.”

His eyes softened. “Go ahead. I’ll be here.”

She wanted to touch him so badly, to throw herself into his arms.

To find out how he was feeling, to be sure he would be okay…she couldn’t hope for him to tease her or smile at her again, though that would be the best kind of miracle.

But everything had changed. She had changed it. She had no right to her hopes.

“I’ll hurry.” But she hesitated. She didn’t want to leave him.

“Go on, Hollywood,” he said gently. “Let him take pictures of you in that dress you’re almost wearing.”

The nickname undid her. She glanced down and blinked hard so the makeup artist wouldn’t have to start over. “It will be all the rage,” she said, and her voice was almost steady.

“Tissues held together with pipe cleaners never go out of style.” And there it was, that old twinkle she’d thought never to see again.

She drew a ragged breath. “I’ve missed you so much.”

He nodded. “They’re waiting for you,” he said softly.

She made herself turn around and walk over to Franco.

She only looked back twice to be sure JD was still there.

“Honey, girl,” Franco stage whispered. “You’ve been holding out on us.” He winked. “It might be worth reshooting the other outfits, the bloom he puts on you.”

She gripped Franco’s arm. “You’re not serious.”

“I am tempted, precious.” He winked. “But I wouldn’t do that to you.” He clapped his hands. “All right, people, let’s get this done.”