Orgonomicon (24 page)

Eventually I quit. I'd covered everything I
could get to and that's about as much as I can do with it for now.
I sincerely hope it made some kind of positive difference and
wasn't just a bunch of wasted time and money. I did get a lot of
good exercise with all the biking around.

If I'm to be absolutely honest with myself, I
have to admit the very real possibility that I was seeing faces in
clouds, that I was exercising nothing more than wishful thinking,
that I'd wasted time and money that would have been better spent
taking care of more worldly business. There were plenty of reasons
for me to latch onto an achievable quest as a way of bolstering a
waning self-esteem; there are many very good reasons to doubt
everything about the orgonite situation. The other people I met who
were also into orgonite were off-puttingly dogmatic about
unprovables and given to fanaticism; yes, I am aware of the irony.
There are any number of mundane explanations one could go to that
would be perfectly reasonable and explain everything away nicely.
There are a million different scenarios to explain it all away, and
any one of them could be true.

I don't know, and I might not ever get the
chance to find out.

I will say it again here, in case the message
has been missed: I do not care whether or not people think it was
all "real" or if it "worked" or not, or whatever. I was doing
something that I thought might help. Maybe I was saving the world.
Maybe I was dismantling a mind-and-weather control tower-network.
Maybe I was inspiring others by the 'hundredth monkey principle'
with the call to action. Maybe I was deluding myself and wasting my
time spreading garbage around. In the end, it doesn't matter; I did
what I thought needed to be done.

Yeah, I know how stupid it sounds—don't
care.

FWIW,

BDS

8/13/13 - 7/10/2016

(NOTE – "Orgonite" is the registered
trademark #78342280 belonging to Karl Hans Welz, who holds the
rights for the name. I did not invent it.)

May any benefit derived from this Work be
dedicated to the welfare of all living Beings.

ABOUT THE
AUTHOR

0001 RUN [Cycle
ON/1-bd
s
_1+x
]

0010 LET
xy
^(AB+)
= Boris D. Schleinkofer = [BDS]

0011 GOSUB (ego) = [BDS + x + y]

0100 IF [BDS] >= 1 , THEN
(abort/re-try/fail?)

0101 IF [BDS] <= 0 , THEN [BSOD ; GOTO
1001]

0110 IF [BDS] = 1 , THEN [fuctifino? ; U
tell me , IF U figure it out]

0111 GOSUB (eat) = [BDS +
bds
_x+y+1
]

1000 GOSUB (sleep) = [Cycle OFF/0-111]

1001 REM **nothing goes here

1010 RETURN [BDS - BDS = 0]
, THEN [BDS - bds
_x+y
= 0]

1011 RETURN [BDS = BDS - 1]
AND [BDS - bds
_x-y-1
= 0] , THEN [Cycle OFF/0]

1100 GOSUB (death) = [BDS - BDS]

1110 RUN [Cycle OFF/∞]