Overdosed: Fury's Storm MC (26 page)

“Where’s this coming from? The way I heard it, you just about got yourself killed trying to stop them from taking my kid. That sounds like something a mother would do, doesn’t it?”

I shook my head. “You don’t understand. I should have been here with her instead of at my house. I didn’t take you seriously when you said we were in danger—that she was in danger. I sat around, hanging out, while that pig was kidnapping her. He might have killed Erica. She fought back at least. She did what she had to do.”

“Right, and it didn’t matter either way. You can’t see things that didn’t happen—I mean, you can’t sit there and say you would have fought him off. He would’ve hurt you. He hurt you in that room, didn’t he?” He touched the back of his head, referencing my injury.

“Yes, that’s true.”

“You did what you could when it counted. You went there to protect her.”

“I should’ve called you.”

That stopped him. He frowned, thinking it over. “Maybe you should have. Yeah. Now we know.”

“What? We know I should call you the next time your daughter is kidnapped?”

He cocked his head to the side, smirking. “We know we’re a team. You can’t take everything on by yourself. I can’t take everything on alone either. We have to work together. Especially if we’re gonna be raising a little girl.”

It took a moment for his words to sink in. My face went slack, my jaw hung open. He smiled, closing my mouth with a finger under my chin. Then he caressed my jaw—gently, hardly touching me, his brow furrowed.

“What are you saying?” I asked in a whisper.

“It’s a lot to ask. I know that. But I was thinking…you’re right. I can’t do it alone. And yeah, I have a lot of people here.” He nodded toward the lounge outside the office, and I knew he meant the club. “It’s not the same as having a mom, though. I know you love her. She loves you. I know you would lay it all down for her, too. I don’t hafta to be a genius to know the right thing here.”

I was speechless. When I finally stopped screaming in my head long enough to think straight, I whispered, “How? How would we do this?”

He looked at my hands. “I thought…you would stay. Maybe. If you wanted to.”

I could hardly breathe. It felt like my chest would explode from the size of my heart as it grew and grew.

“You mean it? Like…what, as a nanny or something?” I hoped it wasn’t what he meant, but I couldn’t take any chances. I didn’t want my heart broken when I assumed the wrong thing.

“No.” He looked at me, frowning. “That wasn’t what I meant at all. I want you. You. I want you to stay.”

“Oh,” I breathed. It was all I could do.

“You’re not gonna make this easy on me. Okay, fine.” He took a deep breath. “I love you.”

The tears in my eyes made his face blur in front of me, but it looked like he was smiling.

“You’re not just saying that after tonight?” I asked.

“Why can’t you ever make anything easy? I love you. Isn’t that enough?”

“Of course it is. I just want to be sure. I don’t want you to feel like you should say it after everything that happened tonight.”

“No way. I love you. I fucking love you. That’s it. Even if you don’t wanna stay with me, I’ll still fucking love you.”

I laughed, my hand shooting up to my jaw when pain zipped through it. He frowned.

“I could kill that bastard for touching you,” he growled.

“It’s okay. He’ll get what’s coming to him.” I could hardly believe how happy that thought made me.

“So? What do you think? I mean, no pressure. Don’t feel like you have to just because I love you and would probably die if you left me.”

I shook my head, grinning. “No pressure at all.”

“None.” He grinned, too.

“You know I love you.” I took his face in my hands, marveling at the way life worked out sometimes, before his lips met mine in a gentle, sweet kiss I wished could last forever.

Lance

The next morning, I woke up with the sun in my eyes. I never closed the blinds before falling into bed. I was probably asleep before my head hit the pillow.

I slept so deeply, in fact, that it was a surprise when I woke up and found Gigi in bed with Jamie and me. It made sense. I wouldn’t want to sleep alone if I were her.

They didn’t look anything alike, but I had never seen two people remind me more of a mother and daughter. Jamie was on her stomach—her tailbone and head wouldn’t let her sleep on her back—with one arm over Gigi. Gigi looked comfortable, relaxed. Even with her dark hair and face that looked just like mine, she could have been blonde-haired Jamie’s little girl.

I closed my eyes and said another prayer. I was getting big on the whole praying thing, but I had a lot of time to make up for, too. I thanked whoever was listening for the chance to be with Jamie and Gigi again. I was never so thankful in my life as I was then.

I wondered what Gigi dreamed about after the night she had. Jamie, too. I hadn’t dreamed at all. I was out cold. I hoped they were the same. I didn’t want my daughter to have nightmares after what happened. I would do everything in my power to make sure she never had to go through anything like that again—or anything like she went through living with Rae.

She said she would see the lawyer with me the next day. He’d have the papers ready. I couldn’t wait for her to sign them. I never thought I would be so excited about being a father. Was this me? Really? The same Lance who used to kick women out of bed when he woke up with them? Who didn’t know their name or remember anything about what they did together?

I liked myself more than I did then. That was a big deal.

Gigi moved, rubbing her face on the pillow. I watched and waited, wondering if she would wake up. She opened her eyes. I smiled.

“Good morning,” I mouthed.

“Good morning.”

“How are you?”

“Okay.” Then she mouthed, “Bathroom.”

I nodded, lifting Jamie’s arm so she could slide out from under it. We slowly, carefully, slid out of bed. She went to her bathroom; I went to mine. We met in the hallway.

I didn’t know what to say to her. We hadn’t said anything to each other since the night before, really, when I screamed at her to run away. She was a good girl, too. She did just what I told her to do without asking questions.

I looked down at her. She looked up at me. Then she wrapped her arms around my legs and squeezed. I did one better—I picked her up, holding her to me. It felt right.

“I’m starving,” I whispered. We went downstairs together and fixed cereal. She surprised me when she had no problem talking about the night before.

“It was scary,” she said. We sat together on the prep table, side by side. “I didn’t know what was gonna happen.”

“He was a bad guy,” I agreed.

“But Jamie told me I should be brave, so I did my best.”

“She told you that, huh?”

“Yeah. She was brave, too. Braver than I was. She wouldn’t let me go. They fought and fought and screamed and hit her, but she wouldn’t let me go.”

I was too choked up to eat. I couldn’t imagine it. Gigi seemed strangely calm. Maybe it wasn’t real for her yet. It seemed like talking helped, though.

“Did anybody hurt you?”

“No. And I know what you mean, too.” She took a mouthful of cereal. I almost spit mine out.

“You do?”

“Mm-hmm. Mommy told me about it a long time ago. She said I should tell her if a man ever hurt me.” I didn’t know whether to thank Rae for that or to kill her for putting my daughter in a place where she had to think about that kind of thing at her age.

“So nobody did?”

“No. He just pulled my arm.” She shrugged. “It doesn’t even hurt. It’s not like what happened to Erica or Jamie.”

“I guess they love you, huh? They fought for you and all. You’re a lucky kid.”

She thought about it for a minute with a serious look on her face. “Yeah. I guess I am.” I didn’t laugh, but I wanted to. She was such a grown up kid.

“Jamie told me you would come, too. And you did.”

That stunned me. “She told you that?”

“Yeah. She was right. You came. Everybody came. It was a lot of people.”

“It was a lot of people. Everybody wanted to make sure you were safe.”

“I couldn’t believe it. She was right.” My daughter smiled up and me, and my heart just about shattered.

“I’ll always come for you, when you need me. I promise.”

***

Two hours later, after everybody else in the clubhouse got up or showed up, and Gigi took the time to hug every one of them and thank them for coming to get her, we went upstairs to wake Jamie up. I carried a tray with food and pain meds, since I figured she would need them.

She was already awake, but not up yet. I helped her sit up, but it was too much, so she stayed on her side while she ate.

“How are you today?”

“I’m doing great.” She smiled at me. “Really great.” She looked at Gigi. “And you?”

“Excellent.” They smiled at each other. I hoped it would always be that way, but wasn’t sure. All we could do was wait to see how she dealt with it.

“I’ve been thinking.” Jamie took a bite of her toast. “About where to live.”

“What do you mean?”

Jamie glanced at Gigi, then back at me. “You didn’t tell her yet?”

“No.”

Gigi looked confused, of course. “What’s happening? Where am I going?” Her chin trembled. Just like she was two seconds away from crying. She wasn’t so excellent.

I put an arm around her. “You’re not going anywhere you don’t wanna go. I mean it. It’s your choice, okay?”

“Okay.” She didn’t look convinced.

I looked at Jamie for help, but I could read the look on her face.
She’s your kid. You’ve gotta do this yourself.
I cleared my throat.

“What do you think about living with me from now on?”

She looked up at me, surprised. “I thought I was gonna already.”

I had to laugh. “Oh, you did?”

“Yeah. I thought Mommy left me with you.”

Her words stung. She already knew. “Well, I talked to Mommy. She’s gonna go get better. You know what I mean? Get better?”

“Yeah. She was sick.” Gigi nodded.
Oh, kid, you don’t even know.

“Right. So we talked about it, and even when she gets better…she’s not sure she’s the right mommy for you. She has a lot of stuff to fix. Like, inside. Does that make sense?”

“Sometimes she would forget to get food for me. Or she would put summer clothes on me in winter.” That was all the answer I needed.

“Right. Stuff like that. She has to fix the reason she’s like that. So when we talked about it, she said it was okay for you to live with me from now on. But like I said, it’s up to you.”

She thought about it, but not for very long. “I wanna live with you. If you want me to.”

“Of course I want you to.” I squeezed her, and she leaned into me with a giggle.

“Here, though?” She looked skeptical.

Jamie cleared her throat. “This is where I come in. This is what I was thinking about.”

It was news to me. “What were you thinking?”

“I was wondering if it was a good idea for Gigi to live at your house. It’s probably pretty small. Not ready for a little girl to live in it. Far away from school.”

“Yeah. All those things.” I watched her. She had something she was dying to say.

“Well, maybe you could…I don’t know…come live with me.” Her voice was very small, almost a whisper.

“What?” Gigi’s eyes got very big.

“Only if you wanted to, like your dad said. It’s up to you.” She looked at me. “You too, Dad.”

I smirked. “Nothing like being put on the spot, you know?”

“Jeez, Lance. I didn’t mean to do that. I thought we talked about things last night.”

“Yeah, well, we didn’t talk about moving in together.”

“So you don’t want to?”

“I didn’t say I didn’t want to, but it would’ve been good if we could talk about this alone before we talked about it with other people.”

She cracked a smile, and looked at Gigi. “I think that’s a yes,” she said.

“I want to! I want to! Can we?” My daughter looked up at me. So did Jamie. Fuck. I was screwed for the rest of my life between the two of them.

“Yeah. We can. We’ll live in Jamie’s house.”