Paycheck (2003) (36 page)

He did not say this aloud, though - for their sake.

‘Maybe you bumped into something,’ the girl said.

Glancing at the others, Benz said sardonically, ‘Maybe we “bumped into something”.’

‘The TV commentators kept saying that,’ Merry Lou said, ‘about the hazard in reentry of being out of phase spatially and colliding right down to the molecular level with tangent objects, any one of which—’ She gestured. ‘You know. “No two objects can occupy the same space at the same time.” So everything blew up, for that reason.’ She glanced around questioningly.

‘That is the major risk factor,’ Crayne acknowledged. ‘At least theoretically, as Dr Fein at Planning calculated when they got into the hazard question. But we had a variety of safety locking devices provided that functioned automatically. Reentry couldn’t occur unless these assists had stabilized us spatially so we would not overlap. Of course, all those devices, in sequence, might have failed. One after the other. I was watching my feedback metric scopes on launch, and they agreed, every one of them, that we were phased properly at that time. And I heard no warning tones. Saw none, neither.’ He grimaced. ‘At least it didn’t happen then.’

Suddenly Benz said, ‘Do you realize that our next of kin are now rich? All our Federal and commercial lifeinsurance payoff. Our “next of kin” - God forbid, that’s us, I guess. We can apply for tens of thousands of dollars, cash on the line. Walk into our brokers’ offices and say, “I’m dead; lay the heavy bread on me.” ‘

Addison Doug was thinking, The public memorial services. That they have planned, after the autopsies. That long line of black-draped Cads going down Pennsylvania Avenue, with all the government dignitaries and doubledomed scientist types -
and we’ll be there
. Not once but twice. Once in the oak hand-rubbed brass-fitted flag-draped caskets, but also … maybe riding in open limos, waving at the crowds of mourners.

‘The ceremonies,’ he said aloud.

The others stared at him, angrily, not comprehending. And then, one by one, they understood; he saw it on their faces.

‘No,’ Benz grated. ‘That’s - impossible.’

Crayne shook his head emphatically. ‘They’ll order us to be there, and we will be. Obeying orders.’

‘Will we have to
smile
?’ Addison said. ‘To fucking
smile
?’

‘No,’ General Toad said slowly, his great wattled head shivering about on his broomstick neck, the color of his skin dirty and mottled, as if the mass of decorations on his stiff-board collar had started part of him decaying away. ‘You are not to smile, but on the contrary are to adopt a properly grief-stricken manner. In keeping with the national mood of sorrow at this time.’

‘That’ll be hard to do,’ Crayne said.

The Russian chrononaut showed no response; his thin beaked face, narrow within his translating earphones, remained strained with concern.

‘The nation,’ General Toad said, ‘will become aware of your presence among us once more for this brief interval; cameras of all major TV networks will pan up to you without warning, and at the same time, the various commentators have been instructed to tell their audiences something like the following.’ He got out a piece of typed material, put on his glasses, cleared his throat and said, ‘ “We seem to be focusing on three figures riding together. Can’t quite make them out. Can you?” ‘ General Toad lowered the paper. ‘At this point they’ll interrogate their colleagues extempore. Finally they’ll exclaim, “Why, Roger,” or Walter or Ned, as the case may be, according to the individual network—’

‘Or Bill,’ Crayne said. ‘In case it’s the Bufonidae network, down there in the swamp.’

General Toad ignored him. ‘They will severally exclaim, “Why Roger I believe we’re seeing the three tempunauts themselves! Does this indeed mean that somehow the difficulty—?” And then the colleague commentator says in his somewhat more somber voice, “What we’re seeing at this time, I think, David,” or Henry or Pete or Ralph, whichever it is, “consists of mankind’s first verified glimpse of what the technical people refer to as Emergence Time Activity or ETA. Contrary to what might seem to be the case at first sight, these are
not
- repeat, not - our three valiant tempunauts as such, as we would ordinarily experience them, but more likely picked up by our cameras as the three of them are temporarily suspended in their voyage to the future, which we initially had reason to hope would take place in a time continuum roughly a hundred years from now … but it would seem that they somehow undershot and are here now, at this moment, which of course is, as we know, our present.” ‘

Addison Doug closed his eyes and thought, Crayne will ask him if he can be panned up on by the TV cameras holding a balloon and eating cotton candy. I think we’re all going nuts from this, all of us. And then he wondered, How many times have we gone through this idiotic exchange?

I can’t prove it, he thought wearily. But I know it’s true. We’ve sat here, done this minuscule scrabbling, listened to and said all this crap, many times. He shuddered. Each rinky-dink word …

‘What’s the matter?’ Benz said acutely.

The Soviet chrononaut spoke up for the first time. ‘What is the maximum interval of ETA possible to your threeman team? And how large a per cent has been exhausted by now?’

After a pause Crayne said, ‘They briefed us on that before we came in here today. We’ve consumed approximately one half of our maximum total ETA interval.’

‘However,’ General Toad rumbled, ‘we have scheduled the Day of National Mourning to fall within the expected period remaining to them of ETA time. This required us to speed up the autopsy and other forensic findings, but in view of public sentiment, it was felt …’

The autopsy, Addison Doug thought, and again he shuddered; this time he could not keep his thoughts within himself and he said, ‘Why don’t we adjourn this nonsense meeting and drop down to pathology and view a few tissue sections enlarged and in color, and maybe we’ll brainstorm a couple of vital concepts that’ll aid medical science in its quest for explanations? Explanations - that’s what we need. Explanations for problems that don’t exist yet; we can develop the problems later.’ He paused. ‘Who agrees?’

‘I’m not looking at my spleen up there on the screen,’ Benz said. ‘I’ll ride in the parade but I won’t participate in my own autopsy.’

‘You could distribute microscopic purple-stained slices of your own gut to the mourners along the way,’ Crayne said. ‘They could provide each of us with a doggy bag; right, General? We can strew tissue sections like confetti. I still think we should smile.’

‘I have researched all the memoranda about smiling,’ General Toad said, riffling the pages stacked before him, ‘and the consensus at policy is that smiling is not in accord with national sentiment. So that issue must be ruled closed. As far as your participating in the autopsical procedures which are now in progress—’

‘We’re missing out as we sit here,’ Crayne said to Addison Doug. ‘I always miss out.’

Ignoring him, Addison addressed the Soviet chrononaut. ‘Officer N. Gauki,’ he said into his microphone, dangling on his chest, ‘what in your mind is the greatest terror facing a time traveler? That there will be an implosion due to coincidence on reentry, such as has occurred in our launch? Or did other traumatic obsessions bother you and your comrade during your own brief but highly successful time flight?’

N. Gauki, after a pause, answered, ‘R. Plenya and I exchanged views at several informal times. I believe I can speak for us both when I respond to your question by emphasizing our perpetual fear that we had inadvertently entered a closed time loop and would never break out.’

‘You’d repeat it forever?’ Addison Doug asked.

‘Yes, Mr A. Doug,’ the chrononaut said, nodding somberly.

A fear that he had never experienced before overcame Addison Doug. He turned helplessly to Benz and muttered, ‘Shit.’ They gazed at each other.

‘I really don’t believe this is what happened,’ Benz said to him in a low voice, putting his hand on Doug’s shoulder; he gripped hard, the grip of friendship. ‘We just imploded on reentry, that’s all. Take it easy.’

‘Could we adjourn soon?’ Addison Doug said in a hoarse, strangling voice, half rising from his chair. He felt the room and the people in it rushing in at him, suffocating him. Claustrophobia, he realized. Like when I was in grade school, when they flashed a surprise test on our teaching machines, and I saw I couldn’t pass it. ‘Please,’ he said simply, standing. They were all looking at him, with different expressions. The Russian’s face was especially sympathetic, and deeply lined with care. Addison wished - ‘I want to go home,’ he said to them all, and felt stupid.

He was drunk. It was late at night, at a bar on Hollywood Boulevard; fortunately, Merry Lou was with him, and he was having a good time. Everyone was telling him so, anyhow. He clung to Merry Lou and said, ‘The great unity in life, the supreme unity and meaning, is man and woman. Their absolute unity; right?’

‘I know,’ Merry Lou said. ‘We studied that in class.’ Tonight, at his request, Merry Lou was a small blonde girl, wearing purple bellbottoms and high heels and an open midriff blouse. Earlier she had had a lapis lazuli in her navel, but during dinner at Ting Ho’s it had popped out and been lost. The owner of the restaurant had promised to keep on searching for it, but Merry Lou had been gloomy ever since. It was, she said, symbolic. But of what she did not say. Or anyhow he could not remember; maybe that was it. She had told him what it meant, and he had forgotten.

An elegant young black at a nearby table, with an Afro and striped vest and overstuffed red tie, had been staring at Addison for some time. He obviously wanted to come over to their table but was afraid to; meanwhile, he kept on staring.

‘Did you ever get the sensation,’ Addison said to Merry Lou, ‘that you knew exactly what was about to happen? What someone was going to say? Word for word? Down to the slightest detail. As if you had already lived through it once before?’

‘Everybody gets into that space,’ Merry Lou said. She sipped a Bloody Mary.

The black rose and walked toward them. He stood by Addison. ‘I’m sorry to bother you, sir.’

Addison said to Merry Lou, ‘He’s going to say, “Don’t I know you from somewhere? Didn’t I see you on TV?” ‘

‘That was precisely what I intended to say,’ the black said.

Addison said, ‘You undoubtedly saw my picture on page forty-six of the current issue of
Time
, the section on new medical discoveries. I’m the GP from a small town in Iowa catapulted to fame by my invention of a widespread, easily available cure for eternal life. Several of the big pharmaceutical houses are already bidding on my vaccine.’

‘That might have been where I saw your picture,’ the black said, but he did not appear convinced. Nor did he appear drunk; he eyed Addison Doug intensely. ‘May I seat myself with you and the lady?’

‘Sure,’ Addison Doug said. He now saw, in the man’s hand, the ID of the US security agency that had ridden herd on the project from the start.

‘Mr Doug,’ the security agent said as he seated himself beside Addison, ‘you really shouldn’t be here shooting off your mouth like this. If I recognized you some other dude might and break out. It’s all classified until the Day of Mourning. Technically, you’re in violation of a Federal Statute by being here; did you realize that? I should haul you in. But this is a difficult situation; we don’t want to do something uncool and make a scene. Where are your two colleagues?’

‘At my place,’ Merry Lou said. She had obviously not seen the ID. ‘Listen,’ she said sharply to the agent, ‘why don’t you get lost? My husband here has been through a grueling ordeal, and this is his only chance to unwind.’

Addison looked at the man. ‘I knew what you were going to say before you came over here.’ Word for word, he thought. I am right, and Benz is wrong and this will keep happening, this replay.

‘Maybe,’ the security agent said, ‘I can induce you to go back to Miss Hawkins’ place voluntarily. Some info arrived’ - he tapped the tiny earphone in his right ear - ‘just a few minutes ago, to all of us, to deliver to you, marked urgent, if we located you. At the launch site ruins … they’ve been combing through the rubble, you know?’

‘I know,’ Addison said.

‘They think they have their first clue. Something was brought back by one of you. From ETA, over and above what you took, in violation of all your prelaunch training.’

‘Let me ask you this,’ Addison Doug said. ‘Suppose somebody does see me? Suppose somebody does recognize me? So what?’

‘The public believes that even though reentry failed, the flight into time, the first American time-travel launch, was successful. Three US tempunauts were thrust a hundred years into the future - roughly twice as far as the Soviet launch of last year. That you only went a
week
will be less of a shock if it’s believed that you three chose deliberately to remanifest at this continuum because you wished to attend, in fact felt compelled to attend—’

‘We wanted to be in the parade,’ Addison interrupted. ‘Twice.’

‘You were drawn to the dramatic and somber spectacle of your own funeral procession, and will be glimpsed there by the alert camera crews of all major networks. Mr Doug, really, an awful lot of high-level planning and expense have gone into this to help correct a dreadful situation; trust us, believe me. It’ll be easier on the public, and that’s vital, if there’s ever to be another US time shot. And that is, after all, what we all want.’