Philippa Gregory 3-Book Tudor Collection 1 (69 page)

The king rose slowly from his seat and I thought, childishly, ‘Dear God, how awfully embarrassing this is going to be. He has left it too late. It has all gone wrong. He forgot to speak in time.'

But I was wrong. He did not leave it too late, he did not forget. He wanted my uncle to die before the court so that everybody might know that there was only one king, and that was Henry. There could be only one king, and that was Henry. And there would be a son born to this king – and even to suggest otherwise meant a shameful death.

The court returned quietly to Westminster Palace in three barges, rowed up the river. The men on the riverbank pulled off their hats and kneeled as the royal barge went swiftly past with a flurry of pennants and a glimpse of rich cloth. I was in the second barge with the ladies of the court, the queen's barge. My mother was seated near me. In a rare moment of interest she glanced at me and remarked, ‘You're very pale, Mary, are you feeling sick?'

‘I didn't think he would be executed,' I said. ‘I thought the king would forgive him.'

My mother leaned forward so that her mouth was at my ear and no-one could have heard us over the creaking of the boat and the beat of the rowers' drum. ‘Then you are a fool,' she said shortly. ‘And a fool to remark it. Watch and learn, Mary. There is no room for mistakes at court.'

‘I am going to France tomorrow and I shall bring your sister Anne home with me,' my father told me on the stairs of Westminster Palace. ‘She's to have a place in the court of Queen Mary Tudor as she returns to England.'

‘I thought she'd stay in France,' I said. ‘I thought she'd marry a French count or somebody.'

He shook his head. ‘We have other plans for her.'

I knew it was pointless to ask what plans they had. I would have to wait and see. My greatest dread was that they would have a better marriage for her than I had made, that I would have to follow the hem of her gown as she swept ahead of me for the rest of my life.

‘Wipe that surly look off your face,' my father said sharply.

At once I smiled my courtier's smile. ‘Of course, Father,' I said obediently.

He nodded and I curtsied low as he left me. I came up from my curtsey and went slowly to my husband's bedroom. I had a small looking glass on the wall and I stood before it and gazed at my own reflection. ‘It'll be all right,' I whispered to myself. ‘I am a Boleyn, that's not a small thing to be, and my mother was born a Howard, that's to be one of the greatest families in the country. I'm a Howard girl, a Boleyn girl.' I bit my lip. ‘But so is she.'

I smiled my empty courtier's smile and the reflected pretty face smiled back. ‘I am the youngest Boleyn girl, but not the least. I am married to William Carey, a man high in the king's favour. I am the queen's favourite and youngest lady in waiting. Nobody can spoil this for me. Not even she can take this from me.'

Anne and Father were delayed by spring storms and I found myself hoping, childishly, that her boat would sink and she would drown. At the thought of her death I felt a confusing pang of genuine distress mixed with elation. There could hardly be a world for me without Anne, there was hardly world enough for us both.

In any case, she arrived safely enough. I saw my father walking with her from the royal landing stage up the gravelled paths to the palace. Even from the first-floor window, looking down I could see the swing of her gown, the stylish cut of her cloak, and a moment of pure envy swept through me as I saw how it swirled around her. I waited till she was out of sight and then I hurried to my seat in the queen's presence chamber.

I planned that she should first see me very much at home in the queen's richly tapestried rooms, and that I should rise and greet her, very grown-up and gracious. But when the doors opened and she came in I was overcome by a rush of sudden joy, and I heard myself cry out ‘Anne!' and ran to her, my skirt swishing. And Anne, who had come in with her head very high, and her arrogant dark look darting everywhere, suddenly stopped being a grand young lady of fifteen years and threw out her arms to me.

‘You're taller,' she said breathlessly, her arms tight around me, her cheek pressed to mine.

‘I've got
such
high heels.' I inhaled the familiar perfume of her. Soap, and rosewater essence from her warm skin, lavender from her clothes.

‘You all right?'

‘Yes. You?'

‘
Bien sur
! How is it? Marriage?'

‘Not too bad. Nice clothes.'

‘And he?'

‘Very grand. Always with the king, high in his favour.'

‘Have you done it?'

‘Yes, ages ago.'

‘Did it hurt?'

‘Very much.'

She pulled back to read my face.

‘Not too much,' I said, qualifying. ‘He does try to be gentle. He always gives me wine. It's just all rather awful, really.'

Her scowl melted away and she giggled, her eyes dancing. ‘How is it awful?'

‘He pisses in the pot, right where I can see!'

She collapsed in a wail of laughter. ‘No!'

‘Now, girls,' my father said, coming up behind Anne. ‘Mary, take Anne and present her to the queen.'

At once I turned and led her through the press of ladies in waiting to where the queen was seated, erect in her chair at the fireside. ‘She's strict,' I warned Anne. ‘It's not like France.'

Katherine of Aragon took the measure of Anne with one of her clear blue-eyed sweeps and I felt a pang of fear that she would prefer my sister to me.

Anne swept the queen an immaculate French curtsey, and came up as if she owned the palace. She spoke in a voice rippling with that seductive accent, her every gesture was that of the French court. I noted with glee the queen's frosty response to Anne's stylish manner. I drew her to a windowseat.

‘She hates the French,' I said. ‘She'll never have you around her if you keep that up.'

Anne shrugged. ‘They're the most fashionable. Whether she likes them or not. What else?'

‘Spanish?' I suggested. ‘If you have to pretend to be something else.'

Anne let out a snort of laughter. ‘And wear those hoods! She looks as if someone stuck a roof on her head.'

‘Ssshhh,' I said reprovingly. ‘She's a beautiful woman. The finest queen in Europe.'

‘She's an old woman,' Anne said cruelly. ‘Dressed like an old woman in the ugliest clothes in Europe, from the stupidest nation in Europe. We have no time for the Spanish.'

‘Who's we?' I asked coldly. ‘Not the English.'

‘
Les Français
!' she said irritatingly. ‘
Bien sur
! I am all but French now.'

‘You're English born and bred, like George and me,' I said flatly. ‘And I was brought up at the French court just like you. Why do you always have to pretend to be different?'

‘Because everyone has to do something.'

‘What d'you mean?'

‘Every woman has to have something which singles her out, which catches the eye, which makes her the centre of attention. I am going to be French.'

‘So you pretend to be something that you're not,' I said disapprovingly.

She gleamed at me and her dark eyes measured me in a way that only Anne could do. ‘I pretend no more and no less than you do,' she said quietly. ‘My little sister, my little golden sister, my milk and honey sister.'

I met her eyes, my lighter gaze into her black, and I knew that I was
smiling her smile, that she was a dark mirror to me. ‘Oh that,' I said, still refusing to acknowledge a hit. ‘Oh that.'

‘Exactly,' she said. ‘I shall be dark and French and fashionable and difficult and you shall be sweet and open and English and fair. What a pair we shall be. What man could resist us?'

I laughed, she could always make me laugh. I looked down from the leaded window and saw the king's hunt returning to the stable yard.

‘Is that the king on his way?' Anne asked. ‘Is he as handsome as they say?'

‘He's wonderful. He really is. He dances and rides, and – oh – I can't tell you!'

‘Will he come here now?'

‘Probably. He always comes to see her.'

Anne glanced dismissively to where the queen sat sewing with her ladies. ‘Can't think why.'

‘Because he loves her,' I said. ‘It's a wonderful love story. Her married to his brother and his brother dying like that, so young, and then her not knowing what she should do or where she could go, and then him taking her and making her his wife and his queen. It's a wonderful story and he loves her still.'

Anne raised a perfectly arched eyebrow and glanced around the room. All the ladies in waiting had heard the sound of the returning hunt and had spread the skirts of their gowns and moved in their seats so that they were placed like a little tableau to be viewed from the doorway when the door was flung open and Henry the king stood on the threshold and laughed with the boisterous joy of an indulged young man. ‘I came to surprise you and I catch you all unawares!'

The queen started. ‘How amazed we are!' she said warmly. ‘And what a delight!'

The king's companions and friends followed their master into the room. My brother George came in first, checked on the threshold at the sight of Anne, held his pleasure hidden behind his handsome courtier's face, and bowed low over the queen's hand. ‘Majesty.' He breathed on her fingers. ‘I have been in the sun all the morning but I am only dazzled now.'

She smiled her small polite smile as she gazed down at his bent dark curly head. ‘You may greet your sister.'

‘Mary is here?' George asked indifferently, as if he had not seen us both.

‘Your other sister, Anne,' the queen corrected him. A small gesture from her hand, heavy with rings, indicated that the two of us should step forward. George swept us a bow without moving from the prime place near the throne.

‘Has she changed much?' the queen asked.

George smiled. ‘I hope she will change more with a model such as you before her eyes.'

The queen gave a little laugh. ‘Very pretty,' she said appreciatively, and waved him towards us.

‘Hello, little Miss Beautiful,' he said to Anne. ‘Hello, Mistress Beautiful,' to me.

Anne regarded him from under her dark eyelashes. ‘I wish I could hug you,' she said.

‘We'll go out, as soon as we can,' George decreed. ‘You look well, Annamaria.'

‘I am well,' she said. ‘And you?'

‘Never better.'

‘What's little Mary's husband like?' she asked curiously, watching William as he entered and bowed over the queen's hand.

‘Great-grandson of the third Earl of Somerset, and very high in the king's favour.' George volunteered the only matters of interest: his family connections and his closeness to the throne. ‘She's done well. Did you know you were brought home to be married, Anne?'

‘Father hasn't said who.'

‘I think you're to go to Ormonde,' George said.

‘A countess,' Anne said with a triumphant smile to me.

‘Only Irish,' I rejoined at once.

My husband stepped back from the queen's chair, caught sight of us, and then raised an eyebrow at Anne's intense provocative stare. The king took his seat beside the queen and looked around the room.

‘My dear Mary Carey's sister has come to join our company,' the queen said. ‘This is Anne Boleyn.'

‘George's sister?' the king asked.

My brother bowed. ‘Yes, Your Majesty.'

The king smiled at Anne. She dropped him a curtsey straight down, like a bucket in a well, head up, and a small challenging smile on her lips. The king was not taken, he liked easy women, he liked smiling women. He did not like women who fixed him with a dark challenging gaze.

‘And are you happy to be with your sister again?' he asked me.

I dipped a low curtsey and came up a little flushed. ‘Of course, Your Majesty,' I said sweetly. ‘What girl would not long for the company of a sister like Anne?'