Authors: Leslie Caine
because I was so wrapped up in you and that Matthew
Hayes joker."
"Oh, Steve! You can't seriously be blaming yourself for
not reading Richard's mind, can you?"
He was grinding his teeth, avoiding my eyes. "I know
in my gut that Burke's guilty."
"But . . . Burke's a successful M.D. He's well respected
in the community. All this green design stuff he does is
just a sideline for him. He doesn't need the winnings.
And he's already won community service awards, so he's
got whatever respect and status he could want."
He sighed. "Maybe that was the problem, Erin." He
was finally calming down a little, thank goodness.
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utation was going to get damaged, thanks to Richard.
He's got his pride on the line."
"So you think he decided to murder the contest judge?
Seriously?"
"Image is everything for some people. He loses his
self-image, he's dead. He killed to protect it."
"I guess there have been worse reasons to take someone's life. But . . . he might be innocent." My heart ached
for poor Steve. I felt strongly that he was being much too
hasty to condemn Burke, but at the moment, he needed
my support, not my critique. "We have to honor our contract with Burke, but I think it's best if I handle all our interactions myself, for the time being," I suggested gently.
"Okay?"
Sullivan sighed again, his shoulders sagging. "Why
the hell didn't I insist on taking Richard to a doctor?
What was I thinking?"
He'd already answered that question. He'd been thinking that I was flirting with Matthew Hayes. "I know this is
harsh, but the fact is, Richard was the only person who
could have known for sure how sick he was feeling. His
pride got in the way of asking for help, even when his life
depended on it."
Steve gave me an anguished gaze. "I've got to get out
of here for a while. Clear my head." He grabbed his coat
and headed out the door without a backward glance.
I sank miserably into my chair. Why had I argued with
him? Just once, couldn't I have said what I'd really been
feeling? Thrown my arms around him and told him how
much I cared?
Even as I asked myself those questions, an answer niggled at me. I'd been afraid to test his reaction. It would
have been unbearably painful for me if Sullivan had
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pushed me away and blamed me for distracting him from
Richard's plight last night.
A minute or two later, the door opened, and I whirled
around, hoping Steve had already returned. Instead it
was Burke Stratton. I remembered we had an appointment this morning and as usual, he was right on time.
His face looked ashen, though his complexion was always quite pale. He was a bookish man in his early forties
with Nordic coloring--blond with gentle blue eyes behind his thick wire-framed oval lenses.
With no preamble and without removing his parka,
Burke asked, "Did you hear what happened to Richard
Thayers?" He winced immediately and held up a palm.
"Never mind. You must have." He dropped into the
Sheraton chair in front of my desk. "I bumped into Steve
just now. He wouldn't talk to me. He barely even looked
at me."
"He's upset."
"The two of them were friends?"
"Yes. Thayers used to be his favorite professor, and
they'd kept in touch over the years." I peered at him,
thinking how ironic it would have been if Richard had
made it to the emergency room last night, and if Burke--
his arch enemy--had been there. "How did you hear
about his death so quickly? Were you at the hospital
when they found him?"
He shook his head. "I phoned Earth Love first thing
this morning, trying to get a handle on when they're going to hold my hearing. The receptionist was in tears."
"I wonder how they found out."
"The police. Richard probably had a business card in
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his wallet." He searched my eyes. "Is this going to be a
problem?"
"Pardon?"
"Steve Sullivan. And his friendship with Richard
Thayers. The way he looked at me . . . the glare on his
face . . . it was as if he thought I had killed the guy."
"I'm sure that's not true," I lied. "He glares all the time
when he's thinking. It's one of his standard facial expressions."
Burke stared at the maple flooring by his feet. "If
somebody actually murdered Richard, it wasn't me, Erin.
I'm a doctor, for God's sake. I save lives. Or at least, I used
to, and will again. I've been doing medical research the
past few years."
"You have? I thought you worked at the hospital."
"I do. But in the lab. I used to be a pediatrician, but
when my son died, I needed to take a break from patient
care."
"Your son died? Oh, how horrible! I'm so sorry to hear
that!"
He nodded. "Almost four years ago. Before I moved
here from Denver. Childhood leukemia. I thought I'd
mentioned that when you were looking at the pictures in
my house."
"No. You'd just said it was your ex-wife and your son. I
assumed your wife had full custody." It had been a reasonable conclusion; I'd seen for myself already that he
had no boy's bedroom or toys in his home, just a Raggedy
Andy doll in the corner of the master bedroom.
"I wish that was all there was to it. Then Caleb would
still be alive." He was battling such sorrow that my heart
ached for the poor man. "But in any case, Erin, I swear. I
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could never take a life. I'm not a killer. I don't have it in
me."
"I'm so sorry. I've dealt with a couple of clients over
the years who've lost a child, and I know there's no
greater loss."
He nodded, wringing his gloved hands. "There's nothing more painful. If I could have switched places with my
son, died instead of him, I would have gladly done so.
Your hopes are gone. You lose your future. Gone."
"I'm so sorry," I repeated quietly.
"Thanks." He squared his shoulders and looked at me.
"That's what led to my rift with Richard. Now he's suddenly dead."
"Your falling out with Richard was related to your
son's illness?"
He closed his eyes and nodded, swallowing hard.
"Truth, Erin? Richard had good cause to hate me. We'd
hired him to help us rid the house of carcinogens. Caleb
died anyway, of course. We all knew it was going to happen. But . . . I stiffed Richard on the invoice. He presented it to me the day I got back from intensive care,
when they told me Caleb wasn't ever coming home. I
was crazed. I . . . took it out on him. Called him a con
man."
"And was he?"
"No. He did what we hired him to do. He'd told my
wife and me up front that there was nothing he could do
to reverse the cancer . . . but we all hoped he could slow it
down. He taught us what we should have done originally
with our interior paints, and so on. He lowered the radon
emissions in our basement and garage. Hooked us up
with a dietitian." He shrugged. "About a year ago, I paid
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ten to me." He frowned and added under his breath,
"Though he cashed my check."
"You told me yesterday you fired him for his shoddy
work."
"That was just the easiest explanation. And was partly
true. I did fire him . . . but I only claimed it was shoddy
because I needed to blame him . . . blame somebody for
my loss. And he does hate me."
"Why did he hate you, though? Anybody in his position would have understood how . . ." I let my voice fade
as the color rose in Burke's cheeks. "Oh. Did you damage
his reputation afterwards?"
He averted his eyes and said, "At the time, I felt I was
justified in telling people he was a fraud, you know?
Then, once I returned to my senses, I told myself my behavior was understandable. I'd lost my only child. My
marriage was in ruins. Who wouldn't need to lash out?
But after a year went by . . . things finally dawned on me.
Right around the time I was building my house in
Crestview. That's when I discovered that I'd managed to
hire the same architect as Thayers, so--"
"Jeremy Greene was Richard's architect?"
"Yeah. Of Greene Home Architecture. Guess the
name appealed to both Richard and me. Anyway. It finally hit me that personal tragedy doesn't give anyone the
right to verbally abuse others. What I'd done to Richard
was just like if I'd lost a terminal young patient, and the
parents had sued me or made me into a scapegoat for not
being able to perform a miracle. Yet . . ." He paused and
hung his head. "I hate having to talk about this. But. For
the first few weeks after Caleb's death, I really went out
of my way to spread the word that Stratton's products
weren't actually reducing carcinogens. I'm a doctor, so
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people think I know what I'm talking about on all healthrelated subjects. I've since felt horrible about my behavior. Ironically, last night, it occurred to me that maybe
this whole thing with Richard becoming my judge was
paving the way out for me . . . for Richard to get even, or
for me to get him to accept my apology and put it behind
us. But now that's never going to happen." He closed his
eyes. "Instead, this just brings some of those feelings back
to mind. Of holding my dead son in--"
He couldn't continue. I retrieved an unopened bottle
of water from my desk, handed it to him, grabbed a tissue
for myself, then slid the box over toward him. He availed
himself of both. I could only imagine the paralysis he
must have felt as not only a grieving parent, but a children's physician as well. After a lengthy pause, he rubbed
his forehead and said, "Enough of this subject. But . . .
do you know how it happened? The receptionist said
Thayers had been poisoned."
"He drank what he thought was his own nontoxic
product, but the cans had apparently been switched and
relabeled."
He gaped at me, incredulous. "What product was it?
Paint? Varnish?"
"It was a can of gold paint."
"Gold paint! Oh . . . crap!" He sank his face into his
hands. "My God. I'm being set up."
"What do you mean?"
He took a few seconds to collect himself. He rose and
paced. His eyes remained wide with fright, and he kept
clenching and unclenching his fists. "Do you remember
the cans of generic paint we had on display in my garage
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lected gold, because it was more toxic than nonmetallic
colors?"
"Yes." We'd put a display together for the open
house--the dos and don'ts of home building. I put two
and two together. "Someone took the paint can out of
your garage?" I asked incredulously. "The 'don't' can was
stolen?"
"Right. I'd noticed it was gone, but I figured it just got
mislaid someplace. Or that the cleaning crew I hired after the open house had put it away in the wrong spot."
"The police didn't say anything about fingerprints."
"That doesn't mean they didn't find any." He hugged
himself, even though he was still wearing his heavy
parka. He sighed, looking weary and defeated. "Maybe
it'd be best if I went to the police station myself to tell
them this. Instead of waiting for them to come to me."
My heart ached for the poor man. "That might be
wise. And . . . I'd get a lawyer, if I were you."
He gave me a grim smile and headed toward the door.
"I'm so sorry about all of this, Burke. I'll try to help in
any way I can."
"Thanks, Erin. I appreciate that. I just hope it isn't going to cause friction between you and Steve."
"I'm sure it won't," I lied again.
Fifteen minutes later, Steve returned. "Burke was
here," I told him. "For our scheduled meeting this morning. He says he ran into you."
"Yeah. Erin? We need to cut him loose. I can't give
him the kind of service he deserves."
"Like I said before, I'll handle our interactions for the
both of us, but I don't think I can drop him as a client.
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Not after what he told me. He says his only child died of
leukemia. He'd hired Richard to try to help extend his
son's life. But when he died, Burke was so grief-stricken
that he took things out on Richard. He went so far as to
lie about Richard's products and skills. He'd tried to apologize later, but Richard wanted nothing to do with him."
"He's lying. That doesn't sound like Richard."
I held my tongue, wondering how well Steve could
possibly know his professor, considering their limited
contact during this past decade. "Steve, maybe you
should take the day off."
"Maybe I should," he said. And just like that, he left.
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