Promise Me (33 page)

“Right,” he said. He opened the drawer and brought out a handful.

Twenty minutes later Kevin shouted, “Dinner's ready. Everyone to the dining room.”

Charlotte and I helped Kevin carry the last of the platters to the dining room, where we all congregated.

“Where do you want us to sit, Mom?” Charlotte asked.

“Kevin, you're at the head. Rox and Ray, you sit right there by me, Matthew, you and Charlotte sit right here.”

When we were seated, Kevin took my hand. “Would you mind saying grace, dear?”

“I'd love to, thank you.” I bowed my head. “Dear Lord, thank you for this beautiful Christmas season and for Christmases past. Thank you for our many blessings and abundance. Thank you for family. We ask thee to bless this food to our good and us to thy service. Amen.”

There was a chorus of amens, the loudest, of course, being Roxanne's. Kevin said, “
Buon appetito
.” He turned to Matthew. “Did I say that right?”

“Like a native,” Matthew said.

“What have you made us?” Charlotte asked.

“I thought I would try Italian this year.
Prima piatto
,” he said, slaughtering the language, “Manicotti. And for our favorite girl's special diet, manicotti wrapped in spinach, sausage soup and veal Parmesan.”

Charlotte smiled. “Thanks, Daddy.”

“My pleasure, honey.”

Kevin ladled sausage soup into our bowls. When everyone had been served, Charlotte asked Roxanne, “How's Jan?”

“You know, busy ‘momming' Ethan junior. He's five now.”

“We're Facebook friends,” Charlotte said. “She posts pictures of Ethan almost every day.”

“The boy's a monster,” Roxanne said. “And he's only in kindergarten.”

“He's not a monster,” Ray said, putting a spoon into his mouth.

“He's a monster,” Rox said, pointing a fork at Ray. “You give birth to a ten-pounder, then you can talk.” She turned back to Charlotte. “When I married Mr. Right, I didn't know his first name was
Always
.”

Ray shook his head.

Charlotte laughed. “I always knew she'd make the best mother. She was such a fun babysitter. I was sorry to hear that she wasn't coming back for the holidays. Christmas isn't the same without her.”

“She never visits anymore at Christmas. Go figure, especially now that her last name is Klaus. I never thought my
daughter would be Mrs. Klaus. I was heartbroken when I found out she wasn't coming, wasn't I, Ray?”

“Heartbroken,” he said.

“I guess that Tim is just so busy with work right now. He's now a partner in the clinic, so he has all that responsibility. So how are you doing? Your mom said you've had some morning sickness.”

“It's nothing. Mom always worries about me. Actually, it's Matthew who's not feeling well tonight. He has a really bad headache.”

I had been listening in to the conversation and turned to him. “I'm sorry. Can I get you anything?”

“No, I'm okay,” Matthew said, looking embarrassed by the attention. “It's nothing.”

“Nothing?” Charlotte said. “On the way here he started driving the wrong way.”

I looked at him curiously. “Where were you going?”

Charlotte spoke before he could. “He was headed north on Twenty-third, up towards the old house.”

I looked at him and our eyes met. “Are you feeling okay now?”

“I'm feeling better.”

“Good.” I took a drink of wine and looked away. A few minutes later I said, “Kevin and I have a little gift for you all.”

“Honey, I thought we were going to wait until after dinner,” Kevin said.

“I'm sorry, I thought it might be fun to mix it up a little. Is that okay?”

He smiled. “Of course. Whatever you please, princess.”

Kevin was always that way. He not only called me “princess,” he treated me like one. He had since our first date.

I walked to our parlor and retrieved four small wrapped packages and brought them back to the dining room. I handed one to each of our guests.

“
Muchas gracias
,” Roxanne said. “Wait, I should say
grazie
.”

“
Prego
,” I said.

“Ooh, it feels like a CD,” Charlotte said. “Wonder what it is.”

“Only one way to find out,” Kevin said. “Open it.”

Roxanne opened hers first. “Oh, shut up. Josh Groban!”

I laughed. “I love that you're so easy to buy for.”

Ray was next. “The Grateful Dead, niiiice. Jerry Garcia lives on.”

“You got him pegged,” Roxanne said.

“I'm not psychic,” I said to Ray. “Rox told me what to get you.”

“My turn,” Charlotte said. She carefully unwrapped her gift. “Oh, Michael Bublé. I love his music. Thanks, Mom and Dad.”

“You're welcome, honey,” I said.

Roxanne said, “Okay, Matt, it's just you.”

I had been watching Matthew out of the corner of my eye. He had just been sitting quietly watching everyone else open their gifts.

“Hey, yours is twice as big as ours,” Charlotte said. “Feeling special?”

“I was torn between two CD's,” I said. “So I got him both.”

“Thanks,” Matthew said. He slowly unwrapped the box and lifted out the first CD. He started laughing, then lifted it for us all to see.

“Holy cow,” Roxanne said, “I haven't seen that since Ray and I were face-sucking in the back of his Galaxy at the Olympus Drive-in.”

“
Saturday Night Fever
,” Matthew said. “Fantastic.”

Charlotte started laughing, “Was that a white elephant gift?”

Roxanne piped up, “You're talking about the Bee Gees, girl. Speak with reverence.”

Matthew looked at me and smiled. “The Bee Gees. Perfect. Thank you.”

“I just didn't want you to go through life not knowing who they were.”

He looked at me and there was a sparkle in his eyes. “How could I forget?”

“What's the other one?” Rox asked. “Don't leave us hanging.”

Matthew lifted it out of the box, though we saw the smile on his face before the CD. “Savage Garden,” he said.

“Oh, that's a good one,” Charlotte said. “You like them, don't you,” she said to Matthew.

He nodded. “Love them.”

“There's a song on there that I especially like,” I said. “ ‘Truly Madly Deeply.' ”

“Oh, I just love that song,” Charlotte said. “I knew how
hip Mom was when she brought home the CD before my friends and I did. I think she got it the day it came out.” She turned to me. “I remember once you were playing that song in your bedroom and I walked in on you and you were crying.”

I looked down, a little embarrassed. “It's a sweet song.”

Matthew nodded. “It brings back memories.”

“What kind of memories?” I asked.

He looked into my eyes. “Fond memories.”

The conversation suddenly fell into silence. Kevin exhaled. “Okay, okay, I wasn't going to do this until after dinner, but since Beth has opened the floodgates, I have a little surprise too.”

I turned and looked at him. “A surprise?”

“Yep, I know you hate surprises, but this time you'll just have to suffer through it.” He lifted a flat, beautifully wrapped package he had kept on the ground next to his chair. He handed it to me and kissed me. “Merry Christmas, darling.”

“You totally surprised me. I had no idea.”

“Listen up, everyone,” Kevin said, lifting his hands into the air. “I want you to witness this. For once, I have surprised Beth. You have no idea how hard it is surprising this woman with anything.”

“I do,” Roxanne said. “The woman's psychic. She can practically predict the future.”

“Really?” Matthew asked.

“Last ten Super Bowls and she's five for five on
American Idol
.”

“Enough, Rox,” I said.

I pulled the ribbon aside, then stripped back the red foil paper. Inside there was a white and green cardboard envelope. I pulled back its flap, exposing its contents. “What's this?” I pulled out two airline tickets. “Fiumicino, Roma.”

“Plane tickets to Italy,” Kevin said.

For a moment I was speechless. My mind was spinning in a million directions.

Kevin looked at me intently. “Well, is this a happy surprise?”

I leaned over and kissed him. “Very happy. Thank you, sweetheart. You're way too extravagant.”

Kevin beamed. “Not for my girl. Merry Christmas, sweetheart.”

“I'm so happy for you two,” Charlotte said. “Mom hasn't been to Italy since . . . Mr. Matthew.” She looked at me. “Wow. It's been a long time since I said that name.”

“Who's Mr. Matthew?” Kevin asked.

“Old flame,” Roxanne said, waving a hand at him, “Long extinguished, poof, smoke's gone, vanished, no need to worry about him.”

“You never told me about a
Mr. Matthew
,” Kevin said to me lightly, raising an eyebrow.

“Well, a girl has to keep some secrets,” I said, avoiding Matthew's gaze. “It keeps her interesting.”

Kevin leaned over and kissed me. “Just the way I like you.”

“Mom,” Charlotte said, “didn't you throw a coin into the Trevi Fountain?”

“I saw that movie,” Roxanne said, “
Three Coins in the Fountain
. If you throw a coin in the Trevi Fountain, you will return to Rome. If you throw two . . .” She stopped. “I don't remember.”

“You will find love,” Matthew said. He looked at me. “How many coins did you throw, Beth?”

“Two.”

“And did you get your wish?”

My eyes welled up with tears and I looked at Kevin. “I got both of them.” I put the tickets back in the envelope. “Thank you.”

“You're so romantic, Dad,” Charlotte said. “Just like Matthew.”

“Well,” he said, grinning like a Cheshire cat, “did anyone happen to notice the date on those tickets?”

He looked at me and I shook my head.

“We're leaving the day after tomorrow. We're spending New Year's Eve in the Piazza del Popolo.” He turned to Charlotte and Matthew. “And by ‘we' I mean the four of us. We need to go before our baby girl gets too far along with her own baby.”

Charlotte screamed. “Really?!” She got up and walked around the table to Kevin and hugged him. “Thank you, Daddy.”

He beamed with joy. “You're welcome, sweetheart.”

“Thank you, Kevin,” Matthew said. “That's very generous.”

“Well, I thought it might be a nice getaway while it's still just the four of us. Kind of a last hurrah of the empty nesters.
And besides,” he said, winking, “this way I don't have to hire an interpreter.”

“Thank you, darling,” I said to Kevin. “It's a wonderful surprise.”

He raised a glass. “A toast. To family.”

“To family,” I said. “And that includes you, Rox.”

“Darn right,” she said. “So how 'bout it, Kev? You springing for us too?”

“Next time,” he said.

“The story of my life.” She raised her glass. “To family.”

“To family,” Matthew said.

I took a drink of wine, then slowly panned the room. It was perfect. There was so much joy and warmth. There was so much to be grateful for. Everyone was so happy. Everything was perfect.

When the excitement had died a little, I said, “Matthew, why don't you come with me and I'll get you some Tylenol.”

He set his napkin on the table. “Thank you. I'll be right back,” he said to Charlotte.

I hurried up the stairs to my bedroom. When Matthew walked into the upstairs hallway, I grabbed his arm and pulled him into my room and shut the door behind us.

“Beth,” he said.

I threw my arms around him. “It's been so long.”

“It's like it was just this afternoon,” Matthew said.

I stepped back. “It's been eighteen years. I look old, don't I?”

He shook his head. “You've never looked more beautiful.”

I smiled sadly. “You have no idea what it's been like holding this secret with no one to share it with.” I squeezed his hand. “
Mamma mia
, the day Charlotte brought you home for the first time and pretending that we'd never met”—I brushed a tear from my cheek—“then waiting for Charlotte to get sick . . .”

“Charlotte doesn't have cancer,” he said, as much a question as a statement.

“No, she doesn't. You came back to save me and you saved her too. You saved all of us.”

“How long have you been married to Kevin?”

“Thirteen years.”

“Do you love him?”

“With all my heart. He's a wonderful man. And I have you to thank for him.”

“Me?”

“After Marc, I didn't think I could ever trust a man again. You gave me the courage to trust. You gave me hope that there were men out there like you.”