Queen of the Summer Stars (29 page)

“He sleeps in a Crystal Cave,” she said levelly, with another flick of an eyelid in Pelleas’s direction. “He sent me to protect you until such time as he rejoins us.”

“You must be chilled to the bone,” I interrupted, and asked Pelleas to fetch some heated wine from the kitchen. He paused long enough to get Arthur’s nod of approval, then left the chamber as Arthur pulled up a chair for the doire.

“In the Glass Castle, on the Isle of the Blessed?” Arthur was using the Cumbrian terms for death.

Nimue was silent for a long minute before answering.

“Merlin knew he was dying at the first Round Table. The wasting illness had been eating him for some time, and nothing he or I did could stop it. It’s why we went to Brittany…so that no one at Court would see him weak and feeble. And he made me promise to tell no one but you two, lest your enemies grow bold in the knowledge that the Sorcerer no longer protects your reign.”

She reached out and took both our hands, though whether for her own comfort or ours was unclear.

“He died in my arms on May Day, beneath a flowering of hawthorn, in that wood they call Broceliande. It was at dawn, with the sky full of gladness and the anthem of birds all around…when the moment came, the whole of the Universe paused, and for just a heartbeat all was silent, all was still, in honor of his passing.”

A similar silence descended over us, and Arthur swallowed hard against it. Nimue’s voice was steady and her touch light, though she stared into a world we could not see. The grief she had struggled with at the cave was well worn through, but an immense sadness engulfed her.

“I brought the body back to Bardsey Island, because he said he was fond of it. I…I wasn’t ready to face the Court, so settled into the cave at Carmarthen where I was close enough to reach you, in case you needed my help. Merlin taught me all he could, and though I may not cast the same shadow of fear over your enemies, I’ll always come to your aid if you need me. However,” she concluded, looking at each of us, “we’ll have to decide on a story for the people—I swore they’d never know that Merlin the Sorcerer is dead.”

“Anything we tell them is going to have holes in it,” Arthur sighed, the news of his mentor’s death making his voice husky. Tears began to glisten in his eyes and it dawned on me that we were both facing the demise of a loved one.

Pelleas came into the room with a steaming wine pitcher and goblets. Arthur turned away, and Nimue, the most composed of the three of us, moved smoothly over to the young Companion.

“I’ll take that,” she said, relieving Pelleas of the tray. “Do you want some, too?”

Pelleas, never brash or forthright, nodded shyly. Even in rages Nimue possessed a wonderful poise; like Igraine, no matter what the Fates called on her to do, she would be equal to the task.

Once we were all served she turned to Arthur. “I think you should head south as fast as possible—before Cerdic rallies too many people to his cause.”

“
His
cause?” Arthur barked. “The man claims my title and flaunts a Celtic name while leading Saxon sea wolves. What sort of ‘cause’ is that?”

“In his eyes, a very good one.” Nimue took a deep breath and let it out slowly. “Remember Vortigern’s young Saxon wife, Rowena? Once the tyrant married her, he had to stake his future on the Federates. He even went so far as to declare himself to be one of them—‘I am a Gewis!’—making their cause his cause. When Ambrosius deposed him, the Saxons had a double reason to spirit his widow back to the Continent; not only was she of their own blood, her child was the son of the British High King. The boy was nine years old at the time, and his name was Cerdic.”

“My God,” Pelleas whispered, hastily crossing himself as Arthur’s eyebrows lifted in surprise.

“So now he claims royal blood through his father’s line, and the loyalty of his troops through his mother’s.” Nimue grimaced. “It’s a neat bit of political genealogy.”

“And casts me as the usurper.” Arthur nodded, brow furrowed and jaw set. “Besides being clever, what sort of man is he?”

“Nearing forty—tough, experienced, and very good at rallying people to his side. He’s brought several warrior sons with him, though the youngest, Cynric, is barely old enough to be a squire. I think he hopes to found a dynasty.”

Arthur had begun to pace. “And the Federates? How many of them have joined him?”

“So far the danger is contained in the south. The older families along the Thames are still loyal to you, and most of the Fen people as well, while the northern Saxons are too disorganized themselves to help anyone else. Neither Octha of Kent nor Aelle of Sussex have committed themselves, waiting to see what sort of support this newcomer commands—but the landholders of the Weald such as Wihtgar and Maegla and Stuf have thrown their lot in with Cerdic’s.”

The names brought a sinking feeling to my stomach, for they were the very leaders who had hosted us on the Saxon Shore.

“And they are picking up others on their march to Winchester.”

“Winchester?” Arthur exclaimed, suddenly freezing. “Have they taken the town?”

Nimue shook her head. “Not yet.”

Arthur was scowling fiercely, everything else save Cerdic forgotten. “If he winters over in Winchester, in the spring his men will be fresh for an assault on the Goring Gap, with the chance to march on London…From there, if he gains the support of the Federates along the Thames, he could drive a Saxon wedge clear across Logres to the Severn plain…”

All thought of Merlin and my father’s dying had disappeared from Arthur’s world. Here, in the very moment when we both balanced on the edge of the abyss, stripped naked before the specter of death, the Gods were striking us asunder. If ever we had a right to cling together, a need to console each other, it was now. I needed him as never before, and suspected he needed me as well.

Yet Britain needed him, too, and I turned away, stifling a sob as he ordered Pelleas to waken Gawain and set up a small room for a conference. There was nothing I could do but stand by and watch as Arthur prepared for war.

Engrossed in my own thoughts, I jumped when Nimue pressed a mug of something warm into my hands. “It will help you rest,” she whispered. “Arthur doesn’t need you at the conference, and I’ll wake you before he leaves.”

I started to argue with her, but Arthur was already out the door, so I drank the potion gratefully and flung myself into a deep and dreamless sleep.

***

The sky was going gray before the dawn, and in the willows along the river the warblers began to sing. I stood before my husband, shivering in the nippy air.

“I’m taking Cabal, but Griflet and Caesar stay with you. At Appleby you’ll have Bedivere and your father’s men to protect you.” Arthur glanced around the room, checking for things he didn’t want to leave behind. “Did you and your father discuss what would happen to Rheged after his death?”

“We agreed Urien could stand for Regent until such time as I have children,” I answered numbly. “That was part of the treaty you had us sign at the end of the Great Battle, remember? The one that stopped the border raids.”

My husband paused to look directly at me, then cleared his throat. “Aye, and important it was, too; the rest of the Cumbri followed suit because of your father. Do tell him”—his voice dipped slightly—“how grateful I have always been for that.”

I nodded miserably, and then his arms were around me and we clung together like children in the shadow of night. Visions of Saxon traitors and hawthorn blossoms and a great man lying dead in a cave somewhere swirled all around us.

“Ah, lass,” Arthur whispered into my hair, “it’s time we found that place to build our own retreat, and leave off traipsing about the land. I’ve a bellyful of strangers’ ways and diplomacy, and would like nothing better than to choose a place to call home and settle in for a while.”

It was such an unexpected sentiment, I stood very still, wondering if I was hearing him right.

“I’ll send for you as soon as I’ve put this Cerdic in his place.” He stepped back, holding me at arm’s length. “This is one of the safest spots you could be, with nary a barbarian for leagues around. I’ll leave Maelgwn in Gwynedd to keep the Irish from sneaking in the back door while I’m busy with the Saxons—-but the rest of the Kings will follow me. Now give us a smile,” he commanded as Nimue arrived with word that the men were ready to leave.

“I’m going with you,” she announced, coming to stand before us in her beggar-boy guise. “I promised Merlin to look after you, whether you want it or not.”

“Well,” Arthur answered cautiously, “I’m much obliged.”

He moved to the door and pausing to look back at me, gave me the “thumbs up” sign. I answered him in kind, and for a moment we grinned. Then he turned on his heel and left.

Nimue’s arms went around me, and I clung to her as I had once clung to Brigit—frightened, exhausted, and desperate for some kind of reassurance.

“The bards will call this one of his great victories,” the doire said, stroking my hair as she led me toward the bed. “He’s wearing the cape you made him…the one with the symbols of the Goddess, and no harm will come to him.”

Her voice carried the same conviction that Merlin’s had whenever he spoke of Arthur. But when I was under the covers and she had turned to go, I asked if she couldn’t give some similar assurance about my father.

***

Nimue hesitated only a moment. “Remember, Gwen, your husband will live,” was all that she could offer.

The Funeral

We were halfway to Appleby when I saw Bedivere galloping toward us. The tone of his greeting told me my father had already died.

“Yesterday afternoon,” he confirmed, his voice full of compassion as he reined in next to me. “We heard you were as close as Dumbarton, but he couldn’t last any longer.”

The words came from across a great gulf, as if they pertained to something else entirely. Tears congealed into a lump in my throat, blocking any sound I might have made. I thanked him with a nod and stared straight ahead as we continued down the Stainmore.

Among the best roads the Romans ever built, it stretched bright and friendly through my memory. It was here that Mama and my father had laughed and raced and loved, back before death stole her and my little brother away. Those were the days when Kaethi taught me of the Old Gods who lived in trees and sacred groves, and I spent every free moment down at the stables with Rhufon, learning as much as I could about the horses until Mama discovered it and banished me to the weaving room.

The breeze that whispered around me now carried voices of that bygone time. I blinked in the summer sun, convinced that if I turned quickly enough, I’d find my family all come back again, making the noisy, cheerful trips between forts and roundhouses and moldering Roman towns. Surely this talk of death was just another bad dream.

But the household members who greeted me at Appleby were already in deep mourning. I accepted their condolences with a silent nod and turned toward the double doors of the Great Hall.

“He was very proud of you, Gwen.” Bedivere’s voice was hushed as he stood next to me, his good hand at my elbow should I need support. “He talked about you often, and asked me to make sure you received the Ring of State.”

I stared down at the heavy golden band Arthur’s foster-brother put in my palm but saw instead the small enamel ring of Mama’s that my father had given me when I left to go marry Arthur. My fingers closed on the vision without a word as Bedivere and I made our way silently through the doors.

The room was empty and hushed, and far smaller than I remembered. But the shadows under the lofts still offered a quiet spot to exchange secrets, and the carved pillars still rose proudly to the high-pitched roof, though now the faces that peered out from the twining vines wept as we passed slowly under their gaze.

My father’s body lay in state on a bier set up beyond the fire pit. I looked down at the weathered face, wondering once more where the life and warmth and spirit of living goes when it forsakes the human husk.

He had not changed much in the years since I’d been gone; his beard was a little grayer, but the furrows of pain from crippling arthritis had been deep-carved almost since I could remember. I stared at the knobby, twisted hands and reached out to touch the little finger where he used to wear Mama’s ring.

“I lost it in a good cause,” I whispered, hoping he’d understand.

And then I was sitting at a table, going over the funeral plans with Bedivere, leaving Enid to take care of my ladies and thinking how fortunate I was to have a loving household to help me through this time.

***

“Oh, Missy,” Gladys exclaimed when I came into the kitchen. Her red hands and stolid frame were just as I remembered, and she threw her arms around me in a hug as though I were still a child living at home.

“’Tis a delight to have you back again, and a shame that it’s at such a time,” she blubbered before pulling back and looking me thoroughly up and down. “The High King’s cook seems to feed you well enough. Or maybe you just quit growing up, and decided to fill out.”

I smiled in spite of my grief, for she hadn’t changed a bit, and her brusque tones and common sense were as bracing as ever. Even her kitchen was as it had been when I left—bannocks baking on the griddle stone, a haunch turning on the spit. Over by the door a scullery maid scrubbed the paving stones. I clung gratefully to the familiar, unchanging warmth of it.