Questing (Cosmis Connections, Book One) (26 page)

“You say you don’t know whether to run or hold on. Every instinct I have is screaming for me to hold onto you and never let go. But, I said I won’t pressure you and I won’t. For now, know that I want you with me, forever if it’s up to me. This discussion is far from over. You have a lot of decisions to make. I already made mine.” He’d been leaning on the door, talking softly and Kiley was having trouble breathing. Not only did his voice alone excite her but his words made her heart race. “I’m going in now.” He opened the door. “I’ll be a very happy man if you come with me.”

Wordlessly, she walked past him and up the stairs. When he followed her into the kitchen, she took their purchases and put everything away while he waited. When she took off her coat, Jordan relaxed enough to do the same.

“You’re right, Jordan,” she began, finally facing him. “I do have a lot of decisions to make, major decisions that will affect both our lives. I’m sorry if it disappoints you but I need some time to think this through.”

“I’m not disappointed,” he declared, not moving. “I’d much rather have you be honest and admit that than jump into something you’re not positive about just because I said it’s what I want. Something I’ve always believed is that to be half of a couple means you’re willing to give and take, to compromise. That you may not see eye to eye all the time but when sharing lives it’s usually better to be open about whatever’s on your mind than it is to keep it to yourself. Both partners should have the freedom to be who they are. Maintaining a long-term relationship is damn hard to begin with without the added pressure of attempting to hide your true nature. Kiley, never, ever be afraid to say anything to me even if you know I won’t agree. When that happens, we’ll find a way to resolve it together.”

“Thank you, Jordan. I appreciate what you just said. And I think you’re right about needing to settle the whole Malcolm mess first too. I feel like I’m going to look over my shoulder and find him standing right behind me about to do something again. I know that’s impossible because you’ve made sure I’m safe. I like that by the way, knowing that you’ll protect me if I need you to. And I like the thought that we’ll take care of each other if we end up together. But I’m also overwhelmed at how fast all this is happening.”

“Then we’ll slow down,” he stated. “From now on, the direction we take is up to you. I’m game for whatever you decide. I don’t want to lose you by being impatient. I’m not going anywhere. Take all the time you need. All I ask is that you let me spend some of it with you.”

“Oh, don’t worry I intend to spend a lot of time with you.” She inched nearer. “As far as making decisions goes, yes, I will take it slowly. And about arguing? I think a good argument now and then is essential. I should probably warn you that I can be very stubborn. I might even yell sometimes. Promise you won’t walk away if I do?” He did. “Good. As for the rest, we’ll see how it goes.” She had gotten very close. “Do you know what I want right now?”

“Why don’t you tell me?” Jordan fought not to touch her.

“Well Jordan, you’ve been talking to me in that sexy tone of yours. I’m tingling all over but I can’t help wondering if listening to you now is making the memory of what we did earlier seem better than it actually was. So, if you don’t object,” she slid her hands up his chest, “I’d like both of us to take off our clothes and find out.”

“All right Kiley, in the interest of satisfying your curiosity.” He pulled his shirt over his head as he kicked off his shoes. “And because I’m positive we’re even better together than you remember.” He slid off his jeans, briefs and socks in one motion, “Hey, you’re not naked.”

Kiley was laughing so hard she had to hold on to keep her balance. “You are too cute.” She raised her arms so he could pull off her sweater. Soon, she was naked too.

“My God, woman, do you have any idea how much I want you?” he asked while his gaze devoured her.

“Yes, I think I do.” She blatantly glanced at his fully erect shaft.

“But it’s more than physical, more than just sex.”

“I know, Jordan. I feel it too. I love your body.” She trailed a fingertip down his chest. “You look so strong, so powerful, so capable. But this morning you were so loving with me.”

“That’s because you make me feel loving. I should have been gentler with you, taken more time. I meant to.”

“It was perfect just the way it was.” The way he was stared had Kiley feeling extremely desirable. “We’ll get to slow and gentle eventually. As you said, there’s plenty of time. I intend to do this often. I thought you should know that.” Jordan took a deep breath but before he could respond, she said, “Do you know I can practically feel it everywhere you look at me? How can I be so excited, so ready for you when you haven’t touched me yet?”

“The same way I am.”

“Oh yeah,” she giggled.

“You’re beautiful, Kiley. I could look at you forever.”

“Oh really?” She smiled seductively. “Just look, not touch?” She backed away and slowly turned all the way around. “You make me feel like doing things I’ve never imagined even wanting to.”

“Like what?” Jordan was fascinated.

“Well, like last night. The thought of touching myself in front of someone…of actually wanting to do it again.” Kiley lifted her breasts to him, caressing herself, squeezing her nipples before she slid her palms down her sides, over her hips, finally settling on her thighs. “Did you like last night, Jordan?” She inched her hands between her legs.

“You know I did.”

Jordan groaned when she slid her fingers along her slit, dipping one in inside only to remove it quickly and put it in her mouth. “Hmm, I liked that better on your tongue.”

“Kiley.” Jordan reached for her but she took another step backward.

“Hold on, Jordan. I’m getting an idea here.” She smiled again. “I liked tasting you too. I’m wondering what we’d taste like together. Would you be too sensitive for me to lick right after you come?”

She was killing him. “Immediately after, yes but if you let me rest inside you for a minute I could probably take it.”

“Good. I wonder why I want to do these things with you?”

“Because you know I love you.”

“Could be. Or maybe I trust you and know I can do anything without needing to be afraid of you hurting me.”

“You’re right about that. You may drive me absolutely wild but I’ll never hurt you no matter how savage you make me feel.”

“I never had a conversation with an erect, naked man before. I think this turns me on.”

“Do you have frequent conversations with naked, limp men?”

“No,” she giggled.

“That’s because no man could ever be limp with you naked.”

“Do I really make you feel wild, Jordan?” She was walking around the table.

“Hell yes, Kiley!”

“Savage?”

“Absolutely.”

“Do you want me right now?”

“You know I do.”

“Do you want to be inside me, filling me, feeling me clenching around you?”

“Kiley,” he growled.

“Would you push all the way in and then slide almost out? Would you pump into me over and over, harder and faster until I screamed from the pleasure you gave me?”

“Oh my God.”

“When you feel me come, would you lose control and come too? Deep inside me?”

“Hell yes.”

“I’m so wet, Jordan. Just thinking about it makes me so hot, so ready for you. I never felt so sexual or so desirable. I can see that you’re barely able to stand there and not take me. You want to be in me so much, don’t you?”

“Damn it, Kiley. Stop pushing me!”

“Why? Can I push you too far? What happens if I do? Will you ravish me? Toss me on the floor and do what we both want?”

“Stop, Kiley. Please.”

“No, Jordan. You make me wild too. I’ve never felt like this before. I want to try everything with you. Everything from tender lovemaking to lusty, out-of-control sex.” She rolled her nipples between her fingers again. “Will you be uncontrolled for me now, Jordan?”

“Don’t do this, Kiley. Once we start, we’ll have to ride it out.”

“Ooh, ride it out. That’s it! I’ve never done this either.” She moved in front of him and turned to lie facedown across the table. “Ride me, Jordan,” she urged, resting on her forearms, peeking over her shoulder.

Jordan couldn’t breathe. Kiley was bent over in front of him. He could see the moisture on her lower lips. She hadn’t been exaggerating when she said she was ready. When she slid back slightly, opening herself more fully to him, looking at him with raw desire on her face, saying his name with her voice full of need, Jordan gave in. Though he wanted to resist and show Kiley how sweet they could be together, she seemed determined to bring out the beast in him.

“Jordan, please. I want you. No, I need you. I have to have you.” She wiggled her ass at him. “You’ll feel so good, so hard, I know it.”

“God, Kiley,” he growled as he rubbed the tip of his cock through her slit, coating it with her juices. Leaving his shaft lying against her, he squeezed her cheeks with his hands before running them up her back to her shoulders. From there, he grazed them along her sides, stroking the edges of her breasts before returning to her cheeks.

“Jordan,” she panted his name, pressing back against him.

With a savage groan, he guided his engorged cock to her opening.

“Yes!” Kiley cried. “More! I need all of you.”

Jordan plunged in fully, feeling Kiley shudder. He put one hand on her shoulder, forcing her harder to his body and grasped her breast with the other. Over and over, he repeated the actions she had described, pumping in completely before pulling back only to fill her again.

Kiley was moaning, urging him on. “Yes, oh Jordan, yes,” she cried as he pushed faster. Thrusting back to meet him, Kiley arched her back, pressing her breast into his hand. She was unable to breathe as her orgasm began. Soon she was screaming just like she said she would be when taunting him.

When Jordan felt her muscles constricting tightly around him, he couldn’t hold back any longer. A few more deeply penetrating strokes was all it took for him to join her. As he fought not to collapse, Jordan struggled to slow his ragged breathing. Even though most of his weight wasn’t on her, Kiley was still pinned to the table beneath him.

“Oh wow,” Kiley finally said. “That was amazing.”

“Told you we were better than you remembered,” he teased, nuzzling her neck.

“I’ve never behaved so wantonly before.”

“You won’t hear me complaining. Nope, no need for you to be inhibited with me, ever.” He began to pull out.

“Wait,” Kiley stopped him. “Has it been long enough?”

“Long enough?” Jordan wasn’t thinking clearly yet.

“Long enough for me to taste you. Remember? You said I could.”

“You were serious?”

“Is it too weird?”

“Not if it makes you happy. You’re very adventurous, aren’t you?”

“Actually, no. I never even considered most of this before you. I really don’t have much experience.”

“Then I’m honored. And flattered. And thoroughly enjoying every second of it. You want to experiment, fine by me. I do draw the line at causing you physical harm. You can push all you want but I will never hurt you.”

“Jordan, I may be daring and curious with you but I’m still not interested in pain.” She turned to face him after he stood. Kiley couldn’t help but stare at his cock, still wet from their pleasure.

Jordan noticed. “Go for it, sweet. I’m at your disposal. But you realize that you have to indulge me too?”

“That’s fair.” She pushed him into a chair and knelt between his thighs. Gingerly, Kiley took him into her mouth, sucking gently. When he didn’t object, she ran her tongue over his length.

“Well? What do you think?” he asked, thinking how spectacular she was.

“Interesting, definitely not something that I’d avoid in the future.”

“Really?” She nodded as he surprised her by lifting her from the floor. “Maybe I should see for myself.” Jordan parted her thighs, scooted his chair closer and slid her to the edge of the table. “Lay back, love.” She did, with him between her thighs. “Definitely not to be avoided,” Jordan seconded after sampling their combined flavor. He couldn’t resist claiming her clit and soon his tongue was stroking it, circling it, flicking it.

“Jordan,” Kiley gasped his name when he reached out to find her breasts.

“Hmm,” he hummed with her still in his mouth.

“I’m on the table.”

He replaced his mouth with his hand to continue stimulating her while he spoke. “So? We were on the table a minute ago too.” She moaned when his fingers filled her. “Turnabout is fair play, woman. You push a guy like you did, you gotta expect side effects. My cock might not be completely hard yet but I’m certainly not finished with you. You are so hot, so sexy. You turn me on and I’m going to keep you ready until I am again.”

“I don’t believe this.” Kiley’s toes curled against him when his mouth coaxed her to new heights of pleasure.

This time, Jordan kept his fingers buried inside. He was watching her face and knew when she calmed enough to realize he was moving them ever so slightly again. Once she had, he increased the pressure, still only touching her with his fingers.