Authors: Patricia Briggs
“Safe now,” she said at last, panting a little. “The plague cannot kill you or pass from you to anyone else. Best I could do. When you leave. Close the gates. Two weeks before this town will be safe to enter. Make certain. Keep people out.”
“I remember how,” Lehr promised. “I can keep people out for two weeks.”
“Careful.”
“Always, grandmother,” he said.
She squeezed his hand, but didn't speak again. After a moment he felt her relax into sleep.
Jes cleaned out the
karis
while Lehr held the old woman. He found fresh bedding from somewhereâLehr didn't ask where. Then Lehr put her in her
karis
and sat with her.
Jes put a hand on his shoulder, then left them.
When the light headed toward evening, Lehr bestirred himself to look after Cornsilk, but he found her unsaddled, brushed, and fed in a smallish corral that had, from the height of the fences, served to keep goats rather than horses. Jes was nowhere to be seen, so Lehr went back to Brewydd.
She had saved him when he'd been wounded to the soul.
He'd killed men. He snuck up on them under the cover of night and sliced their throats from behind before they had even known he was there. He'd killed them coldly, planning
out each of his moves ahead of time. No honest, fair fight because he could not afford it at the price of his mother's life.
Brewydd had taken him under her wing afterward and taught him about being Hunter and humanâand he was almost certain she'd practiced some of her healing art on his soul. Under her overbearing manner and sharp tongue lurked a soft heart.
“Here,” Jes said.
Lehr looked up and took the dry flatbread Jes handed him. It was from their packs, not from this town. Lehr took a small bite and swallowed. “Where have you been?”
“Checking for the living,” Jes said, his gaze sliding away from Lehr's. “We couldn't leave anyone. But everything is dead here. Human and animal.”
“I won't leave her here,” Lehr said. He didn't say that she was dying or that moving her would be senselessly cruel. Jes would know.
“I'll wait with you,” said his brother, and sat down on the ground to do so.
She didn't awake again, but drifted off sometime in the night while Lehr was dozing.
Jes found a shovel and helped Lehr dig a proper grave near the maple tree. He buried her wrapped tightly in the bedclothes.
Jes stood beside him when he was finished. “Somewhere,” he said, “a new lark flies.” He squeezed the back of Lehr's neck with gentle affection, though he released him quickly. “We need to leave before others come.”
Lehr saddled Cornsilk and walked beside her and Jes until they came to the gates. Then he sent Jes out with the mare while he shut the gates and barred them. Climbing over the top from the town side was easier than from the outside, and he dropped to the ground near Jes.
He put both hands against the wall and did the easy part first. Walls are built to keep people out, and he reinforced that with power. No one would be able to get over them or through them until the energy he left here wore away. That would probably take a month or more, he thought. Those walls had been stoutly built: they wanted to keep people out.
The gate was more difficult. By the time he finished, both the mare and Jes were getting impatient.
“At least there's only the one gate,” Lehr said, when he was finally satisfied. The wall had shown him that much.
“Walls and gates,” said Jes. “Why, Falcon?”
“Because Hunters set traps.” Interpreting Jes's aborted speech without much trouble, Lehr climbed tiredly into the saddle. He patted an apology on Cornsilk's neck for his awkward mount. “Brewydd told me that fences, walls, doors, locks, and gates listen to me because they keep things in, so they fall under my Order.”
“Hunters trap or cage their prey,” said Jes thoughtfully.
Lehr set Cornsilk on the trail toward home and concentrated on staying on. He'd not slept much last night, and the magic he'd worked had drained him.
“The bag,” he said suddenly worried. “Did you get the bag Brewydd wanted us to give mother?”
“Yes,” Jes said. “It holds
mermori.
Rongier the Librarian's and the others that Benroln had. There were five of them. Mother won't be happy. She already has too many of them.”
The sun was warm, and Lehr found himself fighting to keep his eyes open. His eyelids burned, and his throat hurt.
“Go ahead and doze,” said the Guardian at Cornsilk's shoulder. “Jes and I'll keep you safe. There's nothing more you have to do.”
“I'm sick,” said Lehr in surprise.
“Yes,” said the Guardian. “Rest.”
“You should have gone out fishing with the children,”
Tier observed mildly, without looking up from his carving.
That of the “children”âHennea, Phoran, his guardsmen, and Rinnieâonly Rinnie really still qualifiedâdidn't make them any less his children, Seraph knew. Everyone Tier cared about, he took under his wing, up to and including Ciro, who was a contemporary of Tier's grandfather.
“You're as anxious as I am,” she told him, turning to pace the other direction. “That's the only time you ever carve.”
Tier held up the unrecognizable object he'd spent the better part of the morning shaping with his knife. “Obviously a good decision on my part,” he said.
Seraph sat down next to him on the porch bench and rested her head against his arm. She sighed. “It has two eyes, but the right one is too big and a little lower than the other.”
“That's the mouth,” he said. He set the carving on his lap and ruffled her hair. “They should have been back by nowâeven if they were bringing the whole clan here.”
“According to the map,” she reminded him. “None of us have ever been that way. Maps are unreliable.”
They'd had several variations of this conversation over the past week. This was the second one that morning, and it was
her turn to point out the harmless things that might have delayed the boysâat least, she assumed Jes had gone off with Lehr.
At their feet, Gura lifted his head and turned his head to look at the trail that Lehr had taken away from the house. Seraph felt Tier's pulse speed up to match hers, but then Gura flopped over on his back to expose his belly to the late-morning sun.
Tier sighed. “At least Hennea took everyone else, so Phoran's not pacing the floor, too. For a man with a reputation as a lazy womanizer, he sure doesn't sit still for long. I thought the two of you were going to start colliding.”
“When he's still, he manages to look as though he'll never move again,” Seraph said.
Tier laughed. “I'll grant youâ”
Gura rolled to his feet and gave a soft woof, staring at the trail. Seraph looked with him, but couldn't see very far down the trail because it curved back and forth up the forested hillside.
Tier set his carving aside and walked to the end of the porch. He put his hand up to shadow his eyes as if that would improve his chances of seeing around corners. Gura's tail began to wag.
“It's the boys,” said Seraph.
“Or the others returning from fishing by a roundabout way.” Despite the laconic words, Seraph heard the eagerness in her husband's voice.
Gura's tail wagging doubled in speed, and he let out a series of thunderous barks.
“Go get them,” said Tier.
Gura didn't wait for a second invitation before he took off up the trail as fast as he could run. Tier gave Seraph a wide, relieved grin and waited for the boys to appear around the corner.
But they didn't.
“Too long,” said Tier, echoing Seraph's thoughts.
“Go ahead,” she said.
He leapt off the porch with much the same speed as Gura had exhibited, and ran up the trail with the wolfish gait that she'd seen him use to eat up miles in the woods. There was no sign of his limp, and she hoped he'd been truthful about how much better his knees were doing. Knees or no, he'd not stop running until he found them.
Seraph went into the house and got out the bread she'd baked last night and began to slice and butter it. The boys would be hungry; her boys were always hungry.
They would be fine. She repeated it to herself like a mantra.
The front door opened at last, and instead of the cool greeting she'd composed to cover her pleasure, Seraph said, “Lay him on the bed. Did you carry him all the way down the hill?”
She stripped Lehr's bedding down so her grim-faced, sweat-drenched husband could lay their son in his bed.
“No, the horse did that,” Tier said as he helped her strip boots and dirty clothing off Lehr, who didn't even twitch. “Jes is out tending the mare.”
When they were through, Tier helped Seraph tug the bedding around Lehr.
“I'll go out and finish taking care of the horse,” Tier said. “Jes doesn't look much better than Lehrâthough he's still on his feetâbut he wouldn't leave that damned mare to wait on me.”
“Someone taught him to be stubborn,” Seraph said coolly.
Tier grinned at her tiredly and touched her cheek. “They're all right, Empress,” he told her. “Worn-out, not hurt. Relax.”
Seraph waited until Jes finished the stew and bread she'd warmed for him before she folded her arms, and said, “Tell me.”
Jes smiled faintly in her direction, the expression making him look even more exhausted. It made her feel guilty for pushing him. Guilt always made her angry. Even when she had no cause. She raised her eyebrows.
“Don't know where to start,” he said, the smile dying more quickly than it had come. “Rongier's clan is dead. So is the town of Colbern. Lehr sealed the walls so that no one will go in there until it's safe again.”
Seraph sat down, careful to keep her back straight and her face controlled. Control was important.
“You found the entire city dead?” asked Tier. “Of plague? There aren't many diseases that will kill that many.”
Lehr groaned from the bed, then sat up. “Gods take it,” he sworeâa common Rederni oath, though Seraph had never heard him use it. “If I let Jes tell it, you'll never figure out what
happenedâbut when I'm finished I get to go back to sleep.”
He sat up cross-legged, put his elbows on his knees, and rested his head on his hands as if it ached. “Jes showed up before I was a full day out. We followed the map, and it was a shortcut to Colbern.”
In concise, tired sentences Lehr described what they had found. Seraph listened without interrupting as he told them about Brewydd and shadow plague.
“I think she thought she'd made us immune to it,” Lehr mumbled. “But we caught it right enough, both Jes and I. I don't know why we didn't die like everyone else.”
“The Guardian thinks that Brewydd saved us,” added Jes. “I'm not a healer, but I could drive the shadow awayâhe says that ifâif it were buried in illness, I wouldn't have been able to do it. So we got shadow-sick, but not the actual illness that the Shadowed used to carry the taint.” He took a bag off his belt and handed it to Seraph. “Brewydd told me to give you this.”
She could feel them though the leather of the bag.
Mermori
. Each one standing for death and more death. Benroln had had five, he'd said.
“Both of you go to sleep, now,” said Tier, his eyes on her face. “Your mother and I are going for a walk. Lehr, do you want food? Jes has put enough food away for any four men. You have to be hungry.”
Lehr shook his head, once, very firmly, rolled back flat, and pulled his bedding over his head.
Seraph left the bag on the table when she got up to go to the door. It wouldn't matter. If she threw them in the sea, they would still come back to her. She couldn't escape them. The symbols of her dying people and of her guilt.
Seraph let her grief-fed anger power her strides as she walked up the steep path that the boys had ridden down. As she walked, she remembered the faces of the people of Rongier's clan. They were all dead, as her own clan was dead. As Tier would be dead. All her fault.
Control,
she thought.
It was dangerous to be angry when you were a Raven. Ravens don't cry. Tears don't solve anything. Angrily, she wiped her eyes.
She was aware that Tier followed behind her, letting her set the pace, letting her keep a little distance between them.
If we hadn't been in such a hurry to get home,
she thought.
If we'd gone with Benroln, then there would have been Jes and Lehr to see the shadow and Hennea and me to help fight it.
A Traveler shouldn't have a homeâit was just one more distraction from their job of fighting the Stalker and his minions.
“What's done is gone, lass,” said Tier. She didn't know if she'd spoken her thoughts out loud, or if he just knew what she was thinking. “Your clan had Raven and Eagle and assorted other Orders, and no one was able to stop the plague that killed them. If we'd gone with Benroln, like as not, we'd only have died, too. Of all the people in the city, Brewydd managed only to save our sons. If I die from this problem with my Order, that won't be your fault either. You didn't put the spells on meâthe Path's wizards did.”
Seraph stopped. The thought of Tier's possible danger had put an odd icy calm between her and her anger. It was soothing to feel nothing.
“You're right,” she said. “The plagues that killed my clan and so many othersâand allowed the Path to sew its minions amongst the Septs like poison weedsâit was all shadow-driven. The Shadowed is . . .
has
destroyed my people apurpose. Is trying to destroy you.”
Pain flared through her as she spoke the last sentence.
A pain that was buried behind ice, she reminded herself swiftly. She didn't feel anything now. She was Raven. She was in control.
“That's how I see it,” Tier said, his voice wary.
The tone surprised her: she was calm now, why was he worried? She turned but before her eyes fell upon him there was a loud crackling pop beside her.
A rock on the trail beside her exploded into powder. Bits sliced by her, leaving small cuts in her Rederni skirts and the skin within them. Had she done that? The shock of it broke through the ice.
“Emotion and magic don't mix,” said Tier softly, taking her hand. “Burying the anger and grief just makes it worseâhaven't you learned that much from Jes?”
She closed her eyes. “I can't be angry. I can't grieve. I can'tâ” She bit her lip. “Whining doesn't seem to help either.”
Hard arms closed around her and surrounded her with his scent and his warmth. “Let me help,” he said. “And I'll let you help me, too.”
He led her off the trail and through the trees to a small clearing with a small creek, soft grass, and shade. In that small private place he took her anger and his own, turning it to something else with touch and soft murmured wordsâsomething warm and alive and triumphant.
Afterward, naked, breathless, sweaty, and temporarily at peace, Seraph said, “We are going to Colossae to find the wizards' great library. Brewydd thought that was the advice she'd stayed alive to give usâsuch things have their own power. We'll find what we need to fix what the Path has done to you. We'll find the means to combat this new Shadowed. Then we'll destroy him so that he will cause no more harm.”
She didn't tell him they didn't know where Colossae was. She didn't tell him that even if they managed to find the library, it was unlikely either she or Hennea would be able to find what they needed or even read it if they did. She didn't tell him that even if they found everything Brewydd had told Lehr they might find, the chances that she could help Tier with it were poor. She didn't tell him a Shadowed who had lived almost two centuries was unlikely to be easily dealt with. She didn't have toâhe already knew.
“All right,” said Tier, his voice a comforting rumble under her ear. “Where do we start?”
Jes was sitting on the bench on the porch when she and Tier returned. Although his face was still grey and drawn, he all but vibrated with repressed energy.
“They're all here,” he said. “Hennea, Phoran, and his guardsmen. Lehr woke up long enough to tell them about Colbern and Benroln's clan, but he went back to sleep.”
“Are you all right?” Tier asked. “Are you getting sick?”
Jes shook his head. “Lehr got it first, and the Guardian cleaned the shadow from me when he cared for Lehr. Just tired. Too many people inside.”
“You can stay outside,” Seraph told him. “Brewydd told us we needed to find Colossae, so we're going to get out those maps and see if we can figure out where it is.”
“I'll come in,” he said. “The Guardian sometimes knows things that I don't.”
Seraph opened the case and, with the help of a dozen rocks to weigh down the corners, laid the maps out on the table where everyone could see them.
Brewydd had told the boys that they needed to find Colossae if they wanted to save Tier and Phoran, though she hadn't been certain just what it was in the city that would help them.
Looking at the maps, Seraph was less optimistic than she had been. Other than the city map, there were four maps that had Colossae on them in the satchel Rinnie had found. Three of them were normal-looking, but the fourth was covered with so many lines it was hard to tell what was road and what was city. Even on the maps that were easily read, the roads and landmarks were a thousand years out-of-date.
Tier surveyed his troops.
“Between all of us,” he told them, “we've ridden over most of the Empire. We're going to study these maps and see if anyone finds something familiar.”