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Kirsty Eagar grew up on a cattle property in central Queensland. After studying economics, she worked on trading desks in Sydney and London before changing careers, wanting a life where she could surf every day. She travelled around Australia in a four-wheel drive, worked as a cook and personal trainer, and began writing fiction. Kirsty is married with two daughters and lives on Sydney’s northern beaches.

www.kirstyeagar.com

RAW BLUE

Kirsty
eagar

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Thanks to Coastalwatch (
www.coastalwatch.com
) for permission to use their name and forecasts in this book. Thanks also to Bernard Zuel and the
Sydney Morning Herald
for permission to quote his work on
pp. 17
,
51
and
134
.

ISBN: 978-1-74-228640-2

1

him

Coastalwatch
Swell size 1–1.5 metres – Swell direction E
Certainly some surfable waves around today …

Friday morning. I’m heading down to the break, feeling antsy because I slept in. I’d meant to surf early, but maybe it’s not such a bad thing. Getting there after nine means I’ll miss the pre-work crew. Instead, I’ll join the old boys, students and shift workers who have rearranged their lives to better suit their surfing. They’re more relaxed about things, not jamming waves in. On weekdays people surf the break in shifts: the dawn service, the mid-morning slackers, the lunch-hour rush, the after-school grommet fest and the just-got-off-work party. When guys at the break ask me what I do, what they’re really asking is, how is it you can surf mid-morning on a weekday? How are you making it work? That’s the big question in surfing: how do you work less and surf more?

As I drive past Car Plus all the flags out front are being blown by a northerly, which is good because the break loves anything from the north and gets nasty in a southerly. It’s a relief to know I’ll be in the water soon. By the time I pull up in the top car park it feels like my stomach has been scooped out. I always feel like that until I get my first wave. Whether it’s good or not doesn’t matter; I’m put back into my body again.

I head over to the lookout spot, twirling the Laser’s keys around my finger. It’s the forty-ninth time I’ve paddled out here. In the beginning I was nervous, but now I’m reasonably sure that the whole clump of surfers won’t turn around and order me out of the water. Besides, I’m never the only blow-in, there are others. And I’m female, so it’s easier for me. Outsider guys have it harder; the local guys drop in on them deliberately, teaching them a lesson. But only if they go to the arrowhead, where the waves peak first and the rides are the longest. If they know their place they’re left alone. I try not to look at people. I sit on my board and stare hard at the horizon like the next set is the most important thing in the world. Which it is.

There’s a guy standing on the bench seat at the lookout spot. The seat’s been bequeathed – it says so on a plaque fixed to its back. It’s in memory of someone who was a surfer and a friend. Two nice things.

I want to stand on the seat beside the guy so I can see, but I feel intimidated. Instead, I hover to the side where the grass is patchy from hundreds of surf checks a day. He doesn’t give any indication that he knows I’m there, which is unusual because people always look around when you walk up. If they’re local, they expect to see someone they know. If they’re not, they expect to see a local. They’ll usually give you a nod, but this guy stares out at the surf as if it’s the only real thing and the rest of the world is just advertising.

I feel like I’ve interrupted a funeral and now I have to pretend I’m not here. I stand on my tiptoes so I can just see the water over the scrubby vegetation behind the pine railings, then my gaze slides back to him.

The air around him is snap frozen. He’s in his mid-twenties, his face so shut off and wary I wonder what’s happened to him. His skin is the sort that burns easily. The ridges of his ears are pink and freckled. They stick out a bit through his hair, which is light brown and lank. It’s scraggy, seventies style; he hasn’t had a cut for a while. He’s wearing old jeans, thongs and a white T-shirt, and he wouldn’t be out of place in a pub or a TAB.

After he’s walked off towards the car park, I take his place on the seat. Finally I have a clear view of the surf and I feel an electric charge. It’s a glitter skin day. The ocean is a vivid emerald colour and the wind ruffles the wave faces so that they shatter the sunlight like glass. Seeing that glittering skin always tightens my throat with joy. It’s stupid, but that’s how I feel: joyous. I forget about the underbelly of things, my secrets, and I feel easy and free. I know that I’m meant to stay on the surface and be happy. Just enjoy being alive.

Glitter skin days are my favourite kind of surf conditions.

On my walk back to the car I pass him. He’s pulling a shortboard out of the back of a battered metallic-blue Commodore station wagon and doesn’t pay me any attention. I strip down to my bikini and pull on my spring suit. I’m painting my face with zinc cream when I notice he’s pulled his T-shirt off and he’s wearing a white singlet underneath. I’m surprised by that; it seems old-fashioned and for some reason I like it. I wonder what he smells like then I push the thought away, feeling like I’ve swallowed a snake.

I make a deal with myself as I walk down to the Alley – where the lagoon empties into the ocean and a rip runs alongside the rocks of the tidal pool, making for an easy paddle out – I can’t come in until I’ve had ten waves.

The water is clean and glassy. I open my eyes while I’m duck diving under the lines of foam and see the white water rolling overhead like storm clouds. There are a lot of bodies in the line-up. I paddle out with no real idea of where to go and somehow end up in the middle of the crows.


Faark
, Davo. What’d ya fark it up for?’

‘Ya didn’t, did ya?
Faark
.’


Eeeeeuurgh!
Up it, Bobby!
Go son!


Faark
. Good one, eh? Wave of the faarken day.’

There are five of them clumped together in Alley Rights, on the inside of the arrowhead. They’re zinc-faced, balding, tanned and wiry, and straight off a beer ad:
A big faarken thirst needs a big faarken beer
.

I float belly down on my board, just to their left. They hassle each other for everything coming through. It’s funny. Occasionally two of them get up at the same time and the one on the inside chases the other one across, whooping and hooting. They’re loving it, being out here together in their little club. Salty old cods.

There’s a big one out the back and it looks like it’ll peak towards me. The nearest crow starts heading across and I paddle hard because I don’t think he’ll be in position to get it. He’s only a couple of metres away when the line peaks. I feel the surge of it and I stare across at him. In my head I know he won’t have it, but my instinct is to back off and let him take it. But he shouts, ‘Go, go, go, go, go,’ at me, meaning, I can’t make it, it’s all yours.

The peak passes us by. We both lean back on our boards, pulling them up short in the wave’s wake like galloping horses.

‘Shit,’ he says, looking across at me. ‘Would have been a good one.’

I give him a tight smile and say nothing. I’m no good at talking to people I don’t know.

I realise I won’t get anything near them and decide to try further over, halfway down the line-up. I tiptoe through the middle, trying not to get in anybody’s way, hoping they won’t think I’m snaking. Then I sit up, take a look around.

The waves are shifting around more today. Every now and then one breaks further down and closer in, near me. So as long as I’m ready, and prepared to paddle my arse off, I’ll be in the clear.

My first wave is awesome. It’s mine from the start because there is nobody on my right. It surges beneath me and the lip pitches forward, throwing me on my board. I see the shoulder of the wave on my left, walling up, and in that moment I’m nothing more than the sum of sensations: power, push and speed. I shift weight onto my back foot, driving the board up the wave face and swooping in a turn off the top. A blond guy paddling back out stares down the line at me and gives me a
Eeeeurgh
! I make another turn. The length of the wall rears up, curving like a cupped palm, and I crouch lower, picking up speed before kicking out as it finally closes down, my ride ending pretty much at the sand, in line with the middle of the top car park. I let myself fall into the froth. Oh. Oh, oh,
oh
. This big burbling laugh gets knocked out of me and I give myself a hoot, so full of fizz that I’ve got to let some of it out. I feel light and free and that there’s only this.

And I know it’s quicker to get out and run all the way back up to the Alley rip and paddle in there rather than trying to fight the sweep. It’s while I’m running, seeing the blur of sand, water, sky, grinning like a goofy kid, that I feel for the first time I’m allowed to be here.

But on my next wave I pass the guy from the lookout spot. He’s out wide, paddling back up to the arrowhead. He’s watching me as I get to my feet, and he watches me pump across the face, and I see him turn his head to keep watching me as I pass him. I’m sure, then, that he must have noticed me at the lookout spot. He was watching me there too, I’m certain of it.

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