Red Rider's Hood (21 page)

I
will always remember the lights, stark and hot, shining on me from every angle. They exposed my face for the whole world to see. Being onstage in front of hundreds of people should have been a high point of my life, but those lights… I felt naked beneath them. My pores had opened—I could feel sweat running down my face, coursing around zits and moles like boulders in a river, then pouring down my neck, to soak the collar of my blouse. I knew even before we began that things were going to go wrong.

“Contestant number thirteen,” the head judge said, his voice booming into the microphone. “Cara DeFido.”

I stood up. There were hundreds of people in the audience. I couldn't see them, but I did hear whispers. I tried to make myself believe they weren't whispering about me.

“Spell the word
unprepossessing.
”

That's an easy one,
I thought. There was a little tittering from certain members of the audience when he said the word, but I didn't let it get to me.

“Unprepossessing.” I said. “
U-N-P-R-E-P-O-S-S-E-S-S-I-N-G.
Unprepossessing.”

“That's correct.”

There was some halfhearted applause as I sat back down.

Everyone's good at something. I can spell. I guess it's just an inborn ability—something to do with the way my brain is wired. It's the kind of skill that goes unnoticed except at spelling bees. Kids can win thousands of dollars at the national level. “There's a market for every skill,” my dad says, “even the weird ones.” So once a year I get to go up onstage for the county spelling bee, and I always win it. I never go on to the state or national spelling bees, though. I could, but I don't. Those bigger contests are televised; I got my reasons for not getting in front of cameras.

As I sat there and waited for my next turn, the word I had just spelled stuck in my throat like a pill, just dissolving there, tasting bitter.

Unprepossessing.

It was another one of those nice words for “ugly.” Even nicer than
plain.
It was just a coincidence that the judge's computer came up with that word for me to spell, but still it bothered me. Momma would have called it ironic. The Almighty showing He's got Himself a sense of humor. I'm sure that's what she was thinking out there in the audience.

Well, she's not me. The contests she went out for when she was my age were beauty contests, not spelling bees. She was possessing,
pre
possessing—there was no “un” about it.

“Contestant thirteen,” the judge's voice boomed.

In the previous round, there had been five more eliminations. Only six of us remained. I stood up and felt the searing spotlight on me again.

The judge looked at the word that had been thrown up on his computer screen, and he hesitated. He glanced at the judge next to him, who only shrugged. He took a deep breath and turned to me.

“Please spell
abomination.
”

Some gasps of surprise from the audience. A few snickers.

The heat I felt in my ears, then cheeks had nothing to do with the lights. I knew I was going blotchy red. I tried to tell myself it was just coincidence again, but deep down I knew it wasn't. This word was too easy. The other kids were getting words like
cairngorm
and
pneumonectomy.
Whether this was the Almighty having a major laugh or something other, I couldn't figure out yet.

“Abomination,” I said. “
A-B-O-M-I-N-A-T-I-O-N.
Abomination.”

“Correct.”

I sat back down and looked at the crack-nail toes sticking through the tips of my sandals.

There's that old joke: “Beauty is only skin deep, but ugly goes right to the bone.” But they're wrong—because with me it goes deeper than the bone. It goes right to the marrow. I once overheard our pastor say to one of the other parishioners that looking at me was enough to question your belief in God. Momma overheard it, too, so we left that church and found another.

Four more contestants were disqualified, one after another. It was down to me and some brainiac who kept nervously cracking his knuckles.

“Contestant thirteen,” came the booming voice.

I stood.

When the judge looked at the computer screen this time, he took his time. He called all the other judges over. They conferred, then sat down again, looking back and forth to one another. When the head judge got on the microphone, he didn't offer me a word to spell. He offered me his apologies.

“I'm sorry, Miss DeFido…but the rules are very strict,” he said. “We have no choice but to give you the word that comes up on the screen. You understand?”

I nodded.

“There's nothing we can do about it.”

I nodded.

He took a deep breath and said, “Please spell…
grotesque.
”

And this time there was unrestrained laughter in the audience; the chuckling, twittering voices of students, and parents, too. This was no accident. Somewhere out there, I knew, there was one kid, or two, or a whole gaggle of them who were secretly gloating over having somehow pulled this prank.

I knew what I had to do. Holding my head as high as I could manage, I spelled the word.

“Grotesque,” I said.
“G-O…”
I leaned closer to the microphone.
“T-O…
” I grabbed the microphone stand like a rock star.
“H-E…”
I looked out over all those people in the audience. “
L-L.
Grotesque.”

Silence from the judges. Silence from the audience.

Finally, the head judge leaned toward his microphone. “Uh…I'm sorry,” he said. “That is incorrect.”

Then, in the front row, a newspaper photographer stood up and brought his camera to his eye.

Go on, take my picture,
I thought.
Go on. I dare you.

And I smiled for him, as wide as I could, stretching my lips over my terrible teeth.