Authors: Chris Dolan
Hazellie Cottage
Roseneath 1834
Mother, Father,
I sit alone on this late-summer morn at the table of our house, perhaps for the last time, though I cannot bear to think of it so. The sun is not yet risen and the burn gushes speedily behind our cottage. If I could I would temper its rush, and hold back forever this dawn.
My brothers left before I was awake and took off to the furthest fields. You, my beloved mother and father, lie so close to me, behind the curtain that, had I the temerity, I could pull back and touch you both.
I must leave before the sun breaks. I have seen for the last time the light on my home and on your beautiful, loving countenances. You wake, yet you do not come to me. You feign sleep. I know you do so with good intent. What could we possibly say to one another on this melancholy morn?
That which must happen cannot now be stopped. Already in the distance I hear footsteps. My childhood companions putting the first of many thousands of miles behind them. Girls, daughters, sisters and nieces. How will this town be without us? There has been so much silence between us all, these last months. You have averted your eyes whene’er I looked pleadingly into them. You, strongest and dearest of fathers, who taught me to write and to think, to ask questions and understand God’s mind, now you give me no words, no answers.
I pray that your education of me will be ample to sustain me through the hard choices that no doubt lie in wait of me in my new land.
Let me say in writing what I could not pronounce in speech. I do not blame you. You have given your lives to me. Everything I am I learned from you both. I will endeavour always to follow your teachings and your fine example. I will write as you have taught me. Perhaps distance will dispel the silence between us, and once I am gone you will find the explanations for our exile that you could not speak to my person.
I will not let go of the hope that I will return, though you have never encouraged the prospect of it. Every prayer I utter will be to that end. Why should the God to whom we have dedicated our lives sunder us now?
I hear you weep, mother, and am glad of it. The next time I will hear your tears I shall be holding you in my arms and the weeping will be cries of joy at my return.
Stay well, I beg you. Care closely for one another, as we girls shall care and guard ourselves. Stay well so that I might see you again, though I will be less a maiden and you both old.
Diana
Early on an overcast morning at the end of August, not quite four years after her own crossing, Elspeth stood on the bluff and looked out over the ocean, eager to catch the glimpse of a passing ship.
The women would of course disembark at Carlisle Bay, but she hoped that the absence of a decent trade wind might force the ship to tack close by the eastern coast of the island. It was bright the day she herself had first caught sight of this island, and windless like this morning, so that Captain Douglas had sailed close in to land,
possibly
within sight of North Point, though the place was unknown to her then. About mid-morning a ship did appear on the horizon. A large, slow-moving three-masted clipper of a type she had seen many times before docked near Bridgetown slipping subtly past the Lyric. Less elegant than the schooner she had come on, the ship sat heavily in the water, freighted to the gunwales, so that it looked like it was already scuttled and sinking into the horizon. She waved though she knew she could not be seen from such a distance. Then she returned to the house to see off the cane-wagons which would bring the women and girls tomorrow.
It would not be a pleasant journey for them. There was only one carriage at the Coak Estate fit for a body to travel in but it could not contain so many people. The road from Bridgetown was rough and the poor ladies would be tossed around on the planks of the three carts with a jolting that not even the Atlantic could have inflicted on them. Elspeth would make up for the inconvenience by
preparing
a hearty welcome. An elderly cutter who had been with Lord Coak since the earliest days could still remember a tune or two on an old patched bagpipe, and he would play them in – a jovial march to rid them of their aches and pains. A roster had been drawn up to allow each of the girls to wash in a tent especially mounted at
the back of the house. A generous meal was prepared for them by Annie and Dainty – the only one of Mr. Overton’s servants to survive the storm of ’31 and the infections that came in its wake. Elspeth, hearing her old housegirl’s name in passing, had asked Albert to bring her to Northpoint, which he did within the month. She had been delighted to see Dainty again – a real person from those golden days in Bridgetown. She’d run to her when the black girl stepped in from the kitchen with Annie. Dainty had not run to her, but simply smiled. She had, however, brought her old mistress a present: the dress that George had bought her for her debut.
“I foun’ it on Tuesday’s back, but it too small fuh her. Anyway, she dyin’ o’ the pestilen’.”
“Did you find the tunic and slippers that go with it?”
“Didn’ see no slipper, mu’m.”
The wagons trundled up through the trees towards the house – William McNeill playing an air he claimed to have written himself, entitled Mr. Patterson’s Voyage to Darien. Elspeth came out to see the girls leaning out perilously from their open-ended carts. Their hair glinted gold and auburn in the sun and their first words, caught by the wind, took wing and danced around her ears.
“Hallo!”
“There’s the wumman!”
“Lookit the fancy hoose!”
Their plain burr spoke of home and honest guilelessness, words and shouts sang of lapping of lochs and the smir over rowan woods; they echoed the songs of her mother, and the laughter of her sisters. Not until that moment had she felt a single pang of homesickness. She remembered Shaw’s father – no matter how much the Captain reviled him, Elspeth could not help but like him. Still, yearning for that old dreich home was a nonsense. Nothing could befall her in this land that would be worse than the dreary trudge of her old life. But for a heartbeat, as the trio of sugar-wagons rattled up the drive, as if fresh from a mild Lowland morning, she remembered shade and peat fires and the shelter of home.
The wagons girned to a halt on the stony path, and the hallos and shouts stopped dead with them. Elspeth counted twenty
women, and checked her tally twice over. The weary cautious
travellers
stared back at her. And she recalled something else: it’s as weel t’ gang as tae get there. Her father had always said so, along with other dire warnings about knowing your place and never
getting
above yourself. The women’s hunched shoulders and furtive glances reminded her why she had so gleefully waved goodbye to the land of her birth when the Alba slipped into the Atlantic.
The girls ranged in colouring from oaty to ruddy, their locks pale as the bark of birches and dark as rowan leaves at the turn of winter. Freed from the wagon they stood there eyeing the ground and
shuffling
. Until the last of them descended, a woman a little taller than the rest, wearing a clean linen gown, the only arrival bedecked with millinery, a simple bonnet that gave her a religious air. She made her way to the head of the queue forming haphazardly in front of Elspeth, and turned to address the women.
“None of you drowned in the ocean, but perhaps your manners did. Let us introduce ourselves. You say your name, and ‘Thank you, Mistress Baillie’.” She turned and gave Elspeth a little bow. “Diana Moore, Ma’m, at your service. Please excuse us – we have had a long journey and perhaps are not at our most mannered.”
Elspeth had not considered how the women ought to address her. She had no proper position in this house; was merely a guest like them, albeit dwelling at the owner’s personal request and expense. “I have not long made the journey myself and remember how it empties the mind.”
Diane Moore introduced the women one by one.
“Mary Fairweather. Seventeen years. Plenty of experience of the fields… Eliza Morton. Twenty-three years old. Has had some
experience
of service in the Laird’s scullery, but also practised in
agricultural
work. A curtsy, I think, Eliza?”
Eliza, a sharp-featured woman with bright, peering eyes, curtsied grudgingly and moved quickly aside.
Diana listed all the names, like a litany of saints. Twenty girls in total. Mary Fairweather and Eliza Morton followed by Mary Riach and Mary Murray. Mary and Margaret Lloyd. Martha Glover. Sarah Alexander. Jean MacNeill. Jean Homes. Bessy Riddoch. Moira Campbell. Jean and Mary Malcolm. Mary Miller. Susan Millar.
Rhona Douglas. Elizabeth Johnstone. Martha Turner. And Diana Moore herself.
“Aren’t there four short?” Elspeth asked Diana.
“One may yet arrive, ma’m. Another was inconvenienced before we set sail from Scotland. Misses Lorna Johnstone and Elspet McLean sadly took ill en route.”
“Poor mites.”
“They are enjoying at this moment a welcome even greater than this, ma’m, if that were possible.”
Elspeth led the twenty successful pioneers into the house, as a thunder shower threatened. The table was set and fresh mauby made. Elspeth busied herself between the kitchen with Annie and Dainty and serving the nervous incomers in the dining room. Some of them opened up a little, having had a wash and a refreshment. Elspeth glad for the bustle and chatter they caused in this
hinterland
that had been so deathly quiet. The girls lowered their eyes whenever she came near, save for Diana and Mary Miller, being older and evidently having earned some authority over the others during the sailing. They volunteered to help Elspeth and the maids. After they had eaten, all were dutifully respectful of Elspeth’s
rendering
of Scots songs, and the “Out damn spot” soliloquy of Lady Macbeth. Some, as the night wore on, shed a tear or two for families or sweethearts thousands of miles away. One girl – the Fairweather lass who, scrubbed clean, shone moon-like and meek – became bold enough to sing.
“I’m wearing away, Jean,
Like snow when it’s thaw, Jean,
I’m wearing away tae the land o’ the Leal.
There’s nae sorrow there, Jean,
Neither cauld nor care, Jean
The day’s always fair, in the land o’ the Leal.”
Elspeth smiled encouragingly at the rude rendition and squeezed a tear from her eye in solidarity with the sentimental girls as they mournfully chorused “Lochaber no more!”
Diana and Mary confided in Elspeth the strengths and
weaknesses
of the contingent – those who were likely to slack, and those who would work hard; the delicate lasses prone to sickness, and
the hearty and thrawn ones; the girls likely to have an eye for their male associates, and the God-fearing decent women.
“Few can read or write, alas, Miss Elspeth. I have been using the excuse of letters to teach them. I hope I may find time to continue to do so.”
“You most certainly shall, Diana.”
When night came down, and the girls began to tire, Diana,
following
Annie Oyo holding aloft a blazing torch, led the group out through the trees and shrubs to their new homes. Elspeth stood on the porch and surveyed her now complete community. Some skipped behind their leaders, peering into the darkness of their strange new world; others hung their heads, walking towards long prison sentences.
At the far end of her herb garden – now neatly organised into flowerbeds, vegetable patches and herb plots – sat the long-serving workers of Coak. The Endmondson family, who rented a narrow rig of land from Lord Coak on the southern side of the estate, sat a-staring from the shadows, to show their loyalty on this grand day. The white labourers, in their hodden grey, faces scratched and dusty from work, stood silently, smoking with Shaw. There was a brawny black man – a more gnarled version of Henry. Five or six younger negro men – day-workers – and a gaggle of children stood in the shade of the bluff. The whole group was muted, veiled in the smoke of cheroots and pipes.
Early in the morning, Captain Shaw made his formal address to his new recruits.
“There is a war going on in the heavens, and we are its
reflection
on earth. We are the footsoldiers – yea, even poor
uneducated
women – not only of God but, perhaps more importantly, of Progress. For Progress is the Lord’s gleaming sword, lighting the darkness.”
The women hung their heads. More, Elsepth thought, to conceal their bafflement at what their overseer was talking about than in humility. Sweet Sarah Alexander stared hard at him as if she might get the hang of it from his carved features. Mary Fairweather’s tresses shone through the dowdy cloud of fustian jackets, dingy
dresses and oaty skins, her plain face made plainer by the Captain’s flowery words.
“‘Get thee out of thy country, and from thy kindred, and from thy father’s house, unto a land that I will shew thee. And I will make of thee a great nation.’” No matter how much vigour Shaw gave his words they fell like dead birds from the branch. Only Diana seemed to be moved by his speech, giving him her full attention, nodding subtly at every pause. “You have been chosen, each and every one of you. Have pride in what you bring to this New World. The Scot is the most dependable of the Races.”
“Aye,” Elspeth heard Susan Millar mutter to Bessy Riddoch, “tae talk shite.”
“You are staunch, but not obstinate; adept without being wily. With God’s grace and good planning, you will find here men of other races appropriate to your own natures: Saxon and Nordic, who will compensate for your deficiencies and together with whom we shall build a new nation.”
“Christ, Susie, we’re in for a servicin’.”
“I’ll hae Elspet’s and Lorna’s too. I wouldna have them die for nought.”
“You will work hard,” Shaw continued through the sniggers at the back of the group, “but I promise you a fine future. Where the battle is being lost in the old world we will restore the advantage…”
Shaw droned on for nearly an hour until the assembled company were dead on their feet.
“Cane cuttin’ canny be ony worse than this.”
But there was indeed worse to come. Captain Shaw lined up his new recruits and inspected each in turn. He asked them their age, interrogated them on their working lives to date, then pawed at their arms and thighs, checking muscle, then teeth, and finally holding a burning torch close to the women’s eyes. Mary Murray, the girl who was already squinting in the light of the sun, cried out when the flame touched her lashes.
“Watch out wi’ your caundle, Captain,” Susan called out.
“Ach, let him be,” another shouted. “If e’er a lassie needed a glint in her ee.”
Shaw assigned each girl to either a domestic or agricultural duty
or a combination of the two. No discussion was permitted and he did not for a moment reconsider after he had made a decision. These were verdicts to last the full length of the women’s lives. Elspeth shuddered at the Captain’s gruffness, but there could be no doubt he knew his business.
Mary Miller was appointed head housekeeper; Diana Moore was responsible for crockery and cutlery, and commissioned to
supervise
all the women outwith the house. None of the domestic staff would have the luxury of working in the big house all year round. All would be needed at harvest – a rotation of three in different parts of the estate in any given month. Elspeth had informed Shaw of Diana’s plan to teach the girls writing by helping them with
letters
home. Although the time he allotted to letter-writing was not generous, the Captain agreed to have their dispatches sent home from Bridgetown.
The girls worked for only a few hours on their first day, before returning to their shacks to wash and eat. Elspeth came down from her room and accompanied them, making sure none of them got lost.
She was not the best person to be their guide. Elspeth had never visited the workers’ shacks, segregated from the house by lines of jacaranda trees and several huge figs. Diana Moore, after only one day at Northpoint, knew the route better than she did. On coming through the trees into the clearing south of the cove and west of the house, Elspeth was amazed at what she saw. A cluster of tiny brick buildings, dun-coloured and cold-looking, sat squat and glum under in the evening light. Each chattel-house consisted of only one room, no chimneys or windows, just four grey stone walls and a stone roof, a simple wooden door. Their new homes contrasted starkly with the liveliness of the girls as they walked, unperturbed, to the hovels they would spend every other night of their lives.