Revel (Second Chance Romance #1) (18 page)

My father died on a Tuesday.

The day I found out is a recollection I wish I could repress, but it sits on the very front of my memory, always. There’s a distinct split in the timeline of my life. Before I knew, and after I knew.

So before I knew, I was in class at the University of Virginia. Chaucer. It was my second semester studying him and it was proving to be just as arduous as the first semester had been. I sat in the back of the room, looking down, pretending to be furiously writing notes. But I wasn’t writing notes, I was writing plans. Adding up figures, writing down ideas and dreams.

I was ready to graduate, to get out of Charlottesville. I’d turned twenty-one in November and as soon as I had a degree I would also have my trust; the one my mother had set up for me before she passed away from brain cancer when I was thirteen years old.

With that money I would travel the world. I would see things, meet people, have an adventure. My life had been a strange sort of childhood prison up until that point. I had been in boarding school since my mother died, and before that I had been kept in a mansion away from the rest of the world, only seeing my nannies and tutors most days.

My mother was an anxious person, constantly afraid of bad things happening to me. I never understood why and it was never explained, not even in the end. I supposed that the fear she’d held had been her intuition speaking to her. But it wasn’t me she needed to worry about. It ended up being Mom who had the black cloud of fate over her head. She’d been diagnosed a mere six months before her death.

And now my father was gone. Although I didn’t know it yet.

I’d never known him, at least not how most daughters know their fathers. He was practically mythical. I saw him once every few years and received gifts on my birthdays and Christmases without fail. But he was more like a distant uncle than a father. There wasn’t a single photo of us together, just he and I. And now there never would be.

I could hear my iPhone buzzing in my bag which rested against my leg. I glanced up at my professor to make sure he couldn’t hear it, which, fortunately, over the sound of his droning was impossible.

I rarely got texts during class, most of the few friends I had were in classes of their own, so I was curious who it might be.

I feigned needing a restroom break and slipped out of class with my phone in the back pocket of my Levi’s. As soon as I was outside the classroom and down the hallway, I pulled it out and stared at the screen.

It was a text from my Aunt Beth, my mother’s sister. She texted me at least once a week to check up on me but it was always on the weekends, usually Sundays.

Call me ASAP.

I dialed her number, wondering what could be wrong. Aunt Beth didn’t have kids and was going through a messy divorce at the moment. I couldn’t imagine…

“Cami,” she answered on the first ring. “Cami, where are you right now?”

“In class,” I said. “Where else would I be?”

“I didn’t know if you were in your dorm,” she said, her voice flat. “I don’t know how to tell you this, so I’ll just say it. Your father has passed away.”

The news smacked me hard. Despite our lack of a relationship, it was one of those things I always knew was there. I had figured maybe once I was older I would have time to get to know him. But even after losing my mother, I still assumed too much.

“How?” I managed to ask.

“Not sure,” Aunt Beth said. “I only know that he died, I’m sorry I can’t give you more than that. They’ve been trying to get in contact with you, but I requested you hear it from me first and not some strange asshole attorney.”

“Who are
they
?” I asked. I leaned against the wall and slowly slid down it until I was sitting, my knees pulled to my chest. No tears were coming. I just felt numb.

“His firm,” she said. “They’re in charge of his estate. You’re his only remaining living family member.”

“Oh,” I said. “So what does that mean?”

“It means you might want to take some time off,” she said. “And if you need me, I can come for the funeral, help you with arrangements. I can’t stay gone too long, but I can do whatever I can. There’s going to be estate stuff, probate. It’s going to be overwhelming.”

I shook my head. I wouldn’t make her do that. I was old enough to handle this.

“No,” I said. “I can handle it. Where is he?”

“Tahoe,” she said. “He died at his home in Tahoe.”

“He has so many homes, I lose track,” I said. “I haven’t been to the Tahoe one before.”

“Well, I hate that your first visit has to be like this,” Aunt Beth said. I could hear her exhaling. She was smoking a cigarette. Normally I would lambast her for it, but I didn’t have it in me at the moment.

“He died at his house?” I asked. “Heart attack?”

“Maybe,” she said. “I wish I knew more, but I don’t, baby. But I have a number for you to call. You have a pen?”

“No, I’m outside my classroom, my pen and paper are inside,” I replied. “Just text it to me.”

“Okay,” she said. “I’m so sorry, Cami. This isn’t right.”

“It’s okay,” I said, now ready for the conversation to be over. “I’ll be fine.”

I sat for a long while, just staring. There was a chip in the floor a few feet in front of where I sat. I’d probably walked over it a thousand times or more during my four years at UVA, but I’d never before noticed it. How could it have happened, I wondered? I just stared at it a long while, thinking about how it was probably here before I ever arrived from Choate and how it would be here long after and never miss me for a moment. That it would go on being walked over by Wahoos in perpetuity, no matter how many mothers and fathers died. The world was still spinning, professors were still droning on, students were still fighting to stay awake. Nothing had changed. Yet everything was different. Because after I knew, nothing would ever be the same.

I’d slipped back into class, my professor staring me down, clearly unhappy about how long I’d been gone.

He’s going to feel like such an asshole when I tell him why,
I thought.

Twenty minutes later when class was finished, I explained what had happened. And I was right, his haughtiness immediately turned to sympathy.

“You’ll need to talk to the dean. Make sure they get you withdrawn from your classes since you’ll be gone the rest of the semester,” he said.

I looked at him, confused, “Why would I need to withdraw? I’ll be gone a week max.”

He looked at me, clearly befuddled. “I just assumed you’d need time to grieve…”

“My father wouldn’t want me to dwell on this,” I explained. “And it’s my last semester. I graduate in May.” It was the end of January. The semester had just begun. There was no way I was withdrawing from school. Not that I wasn’t sad about my father, but what would missing school accomplish? It wouldn’t bring him back.

If only.

“Well,” he replied. “I can get your coursework together and email it to you later during my office hours.”

“I would appreciate that,” I said, slinging my bag over my shoulder. “Thank you.”

“And I’m sorry for your loss, Miss Hunt,” he said.

I was already walking away when he said it. I didn’t bother looking back. The tears had started, finally. No need for him to see them.

********

As a 4
th
year at UVA, I was fortunate enough to have a dorm room to myself. My roommate from fall semester was traveling abroad. Her side of the room was where I piled all my dirty laundry.

As soon as I was in my room I was able to let go a little bit, emotionally. I lay in my bed for a while, staring at the ceiling, tears sliding down the sides of my face and into my long, now tangled, hair.

“What happened?” I said out loud to no one. “I barely got to know you at all. And now you’re dead?”

I looked at my phone. Aunt Beth had texted me the name and number of the contact at Dad’s firm.

NOLAN WESTON 202-555-7895

I sat up. I guessed I should call him. I wasn’t in the mood for it, but I needed to at least know the details of what had happened. And figure out what my next move was. If I was going to miss school, I needed to figure out how long I’d be away so I could email my professors and my adviser. I dialed.

The phone rang for so long that I almost hung up; finally, he answered.

“This is Nolan Weston,” he said, his voice clipped and professional. He sounded like an attorney.

“Hi,” I said, suddenly not sure what to say. “I’m Cami Hunt. The daughter of Richard Hunt. My aunt gave me your number.”

There was a long pause. For a moment I wasn’t sure if he knew my father or if I’d somehow lost the call. I pulled the phone away from my ear and looked at the screen. We were still connected.

“I’m sorry for your loss,” he said. But he sounded cold and disinterested. Not sorry at all.

“I’m sure you are,” I snapped. “What happened? My aunt was told nothing.”

“That’s because she’s not a relative,” Nolan replied. “Your father suffered a stroke in his home. I found him this morning after he failed to appear at a meeting.”

“Did you call 911?” I asked, my voice shaking.

“He was already gone by the time I found him.” Nolan’s voice had softened, but only slightly.

“I see,” I said. “Well, where is he now?”

“He’s being taken care of. Your father was prepared for this kind of event, though of course none of us expected it this soon,” Nolan said. “You need to get here as soon as possible. I’ve sent a plane for you. It should be touching down in Charlottesville within the hour.”

A plane? He sent a plane for me?

“How did you know where I was?” I asked, realizing it was a stupid question.

“Your father has very clear instructions on how something like this is to be handled,” Nolan replied. “Obviously the firm is aware of where the owner’s daughter attends school. Do you need me to send a car for you? To get you to the airport?”

“Yes. I don’t have a car here, it’s at my aunt’s house in Richmond,” I said.

“Very well. I’ll give the driver your number. He’ll text you when he’s there. Pack what you can as quickly as you can. I’d like you in the air as soon as possible.”

“I’m sure you would,” I muttered.

If Nolan noticed my anger, he didn’t let on. Or he just didn’t care.

“See you soon, Camilla.” He hung up.

Camilla? Only my father called me that.

My father had flown me private one time. It had been on my sixteenth birthday.

I hadn’t expected to see him. Once my mother died I’d been shipped off to boarding school in Connecticut. I spent most holidays with Aunt Beth, seeing my father maybe once a year, if that. He emailed me mostly. He seemed to be better with that type of communication. His emails are why I loved him, despite the distance and borderline abandonment.

But for my sixteenth birthday, Richard Hunt really came through. He’d surprised me up at Choate, the school I went to throughout high school. I wasn’t exactly the most popular girl in my class. I was just another girl in a sea of Hollywood kids, politician spawn, and global royalty. I was surrounded by kids with better stories than me, people who shrugged at me being a partial orphan. Their parents were movie stars and Senators. My dad was an attorney and my mother had been a mentally ill shut-in. I couldn’t compete with any of them in almost any sort of way.

The girls in my class all had been taught things I’d somehow missed out on. They had glossy hair that never frizzed, long legs, and a way of making our uniforms look chic and modish; they were walking J. Crew ads, and they intimidated the shit out of me.

I mostly stayed in my room. I concentrated on academics and lost myself in books on the weekends. Tried not to think about my mother too much. The few friends I had were like me; regular kids who would have probably stood out more back in their hometowns, but who were just rich kid nobodies at Choate.

But that all changed when I turned sixteen. Or at least it changed for a day. But sometimes that’s all you need- one great day to make up for the mundane ones.

It was a Friday. School was out, and for whatever reason a lot of kids were staying on campus that particular weekend.

I had been bundled up in a charcoal pea coat and Burberry scarf as I walked across the lawn and back toward my dorm room. The cold snap had started early in New England and I was already dreading the next few months of gray, slush, sleet, and snow. My mind wasn’t even on my birthday so much. I wasn’t one of those girls in the movies who was going to get a brand new car delivered to her with a big red ribbon on it. I didn’t have a boyfriend to kiss me, or take me further, to mark my sweet sixteen. I wanted those things, but that wasn’t my life. I’d made peace with that.

As I got closer to my dorm, I saw him. My father, in a crisp suit, his salt and pepper hair slightly tousled from his nervous habit of running his hands through it. I could see other girls walking by and staring at him. My father was a handsome man, tall and formidable, with a presence that commanded attention and respect. But he was a sweet man, and despite his lack of direct involvement in my life, I knew he was good.

I also knew there were things that kept him from me that he wouldn’t share. I used to think he might have another family somewhere. I’d never asked him, of course. I never asked questions I didn’t want to know the answers to.

“Dad!” I said, a broad smile across my face. “What are you doing here?”

“It’s your sweet sixteen,” he said, as if I should just know.

“Yeah but I didn’t know you were coming,” I said. “It doesn’t matter! I’m so happy you’re here.”

I threw my arms around him, something that wasn’t easy to do with his height. I had inherited my mother’s stature and figure. I was average height, and curvy- something I hated about myself. I’d had to wear a woman’s sized bra since sixth grade. I’d never been quite comfortable in my own skin. I’d always wished I could be more like him, long, and lean. Confident. Like I owned the universe.

“Well, it’s not a surprise if you know about it,” he said, holding onto me tight. “I missed you, Camilla.”

It was one of the best hugs of my life.

“So what are we going to do?” I asked. “Go to dinner? Go into the city?”

On the rare occasion my father visited, we usually made a weekend of it. We’d drive to Boston or down to New York; have a huge dinner and see a show if we were in New York or go to a Celtics or Red Sox game in Boston, depending on the season.

“I have something bigger in store,” he said. “You have your passport?”

I looked at him, stunned.

“Yes,” I said. “But school…”

Dad grinned, “I made arrangements. You don’t have to be back until Wednesday. So let’s go on a really great adventure this time. You only turn sixteen once, right?”

I nodded and started jumping up and down, clapping my hands, the way only teenage girls seem to. I tried to be poised and reserved most of the time, but this was all too much. I was overwhelmed with joy.

“How long will it take you to pack?” he asked as we walked back toward my dormitory. “Because I’ve made some pretty unique arrangements for our travel.”

“I can throw all my stuff in a suitcase and be packed in… 15 minutes?” I said, hoping that would be enough time since I wasn’t sure if I would even be able to manage that.

“That works,” he said, giving me a wink. “Now hurry up, sweetheart. The sooner you’re packed, the sooner it all begins.”

********

I’d never left the country before, unless you counted a trip to Niagara Falls with my freshman class in which we briefly crossed over into Canada, I think mostly for the benefits of the “normals” at Choate, kids like me who didn’t go globetrotting every summer break. As I threw every decent outfit I had into my suitcase, my mind raced with all the possibilities. Not only was I getting to leave school for almost an entire week, but I was doing it with my dad. It was something I saw other kids do all the time. I’d envied them, even though most of them would roll their eyes anytime their parents came near them. If only they knew how lucky they were.

I finally stuffed my suitcase to its breaking point; I’d had to sit on it to make it zip closed. I glanced in the mirror above my dresser. My skin was flushed, my long brown hair a wild mane of curls and waves. It was the first time I noticed that I was at least half pretty. I’d mostly avoided mirrors since puberty when my body began to betray me. But now it seemed most things had caught up to one another and I had to admit, I didn’t look half bad. Maybe I’d meet a cute foreign boy and have my first make out session. Who knew what awaited me?

When I walked outside my dorm to meet up with my father, I awkwardly lugged my overstuffed luggage behind me. I noticed kids were gathered outside staring at something. I looked around to see what fuss was about.

I heard it before I saw it. I thought it was the sound of a plane at first, but it was too loud for that; whatever it was, was closer than any plane could be. The trees around Memorial Hall whipped around in a frenzy. My father was waving to me with both arms in the middle of the green field in front of Memorial, a gigantic smile on his face.

“Is that a fucking helicopter?” A boy a few feet away from me asked his friend. “Someone’s getting picked up in a heli?”

I looked up, and sure enough there was a helicopter landing in the middle of the lawn in front of my dorm. For a moment, I wondered who it was for. But as my father continued to wave to me and yell out my name, it suddenly dawned on me.

The helicopter was for me.

“Holy hell,” I muttered, somehow making my legs move forward toward the waiting chopper. “My father brought in a helicopter.”

“You mean that’s for you?” A girl I recognized from my English Honors class was standing next to me. She was one of the intimidating ones- her mother was a famous television actress and her father owned an NFL team. She’d never spoken or acknowledged me, even having been in at least three or four of my classes over the years.

“Yep,” I said, trying to sound cavalier and bored with the whole thing. “My dad’s here for the weekend. We’re flying to Europe.” I had no idea if this was true yet, but what did it matter?

“Wow,” she said, clearly impressed. “I had no idea. Have fun.”

“Sure,” I said, walking past her toward my adventure. “I always do.”

********

“Since when do you own a helicopter?” I asked when we finally landed in New York. It had been almost impossible to talk in the “heli,” even with headphones. It was loud and I was still speechless and in awe that I’d just been picked up in front of the entire school in a Bell 430.

“I don’t,” Dad said. “The firm uses it sometimes. But I was owed a favor and I wanted you to make a grand exit.” He looked at me, serious for a moment. “I know sometimes that kind of thing can help at a school like Choate.”

That’s what I loved about my father. He knew a lot about how the world worked, even without me having to tell him. Most parents were so clueless.

“It was pretty cool,” I said. “Where to now?”

“Austria,” he said. Nothing else. He walked ahead of me, leaving me to ponder what was next.

********

A couple hours later we were gliding above the Atlantic Ocean in a Gulfstream jet, my father punching the keys on his laptop as I sat next to the window in a soft leather seat, a Diet Coke in my hand. I couldn’t remember the last time I was ever this happy.

“Sorry, I have a little bit of work to do before we get to Vienna,” he said. “I promise, no work once we’re there. We’re going to see everything.”

And we did. We landed a few hours later and were picked up in a sleek, black SUV which took us to The Ritz Carlton. We napped and then had dinner at Steirereck.

It was the most amazing meal of my short life; so many different dishes. There was hearty goulash, plates of
tafelspitz
(beef), all kinds of strudels, and then desserts I’d never even dreamed could exist. The menu was completely in German, but my father seemed to understand and speak it as fluently as if he were Austrian himself. He confidently ordered for us and I sat in complete admiration of my cosmopolitan father who didn’t seem to be a stranger to any place he walked into.

After my third strudel, and a glass of wine (“Being that it’s legal here for you to drink, you may have one glass,” my father had said.), I felt loosened up enough to talk more openly with my father, to ask him things I’d rarely had the chance to before.

My father was the ultimate unexplored frontier for me. I knew very little about him, other than the essentials. He was an only child, born on Long Island. He’d been the son of wealthy parents, grandparents I’d never met, and he’d gone to boarding school too, but at Groton. He’d gone to NYU for undergrad and Columbia for law school, where he’d met my mother. They’d had me a year after meeting, to the day. They never married, but they were always together, until one day my father left and didn’t come back for four years. My mother was devastated; she only knew he was alive because he sent money every month from places all over the world. She assumed it was an affair, another woman. But that was all she knew; one day he loved her, the next day he didn’t.

Something happened when I was seven that changed her, something to do with my father, but I never knew what it was. She stopped being angry with him and instead just became scared for him, for me, and terrified of the world in general. She kept me home for school, had tutors come to teach me my lessons. Part of me always assumed it was when the cancer must have started. It had made her ill, made her not think about things rationally. But that was all speculation on my part. I knew very little about her, something I realized once she was gone. It made me sad how little I knew the people who made me. Not knowing who they were meant I didn’t completely know who I was either.

But on my sixteenth birthday, at a beautiful restaurant in Vienna, I finally had my chance (and the courage) to ask my father more about himself.

“How do you know German?” I asked, as he bit into his pastry. He smiled as he chewed.

“Picked it up in college,” he said. “I’m good with languages. Have a knack for them, I suppose. And German is not so terribly different from English in many ways. Well, the basic words anyway. Here in Vienna there’s a Bavarian dialect…”

He started going on and on about language and the differences between all the different German dialects and I quickly grew bored, realizing he’d done what he always did when it came to me getting personal- he’d changed the subject.

After dinner we took a car down to the famous Vienna State Opera House to watch the Vienna Philharmonic Orchestra, which I knew I should be stoked about, but it meant I wouldn’t get to talk to my father, which was the only thing I was interested in doing. I knew after this trip I probably wouldn’t see him for a while, so I wanted to take advantage of all the time we had.

That night when we finally got home, we were both too exhausted to socialize. We retired to our rooms, but not before my Dad came over to give me a peck on the cheek and a long hug goodnight.

“Camilla, I’m so happy,” he said, as he squeezed me tight. “This was one of the best days of my life.”

My heart swelled and my prior agitations were forgotten immediately.

“Me too, Dad,” I said. “I love you. Goodnight.”

“Goodnight, my darling girl,” he said. “I love you always.”

********

The next morning, after a delicious breakfast in the grand living room of our suite, my father informed me we were heading to Salzburg.