Authors: Duane Swierczynski
How she's been living in Houston the past three years to get back on the straight and narrow but has only ended up fucking up her life even more.
How she had an affair with an older married musician guy and ended up getting pregnant and thought she'd just get rid of itâboom, done, move on. But couldn't bring herself to do it, couldn't even tell her parents about it, not right away anyway, because they'd just want to swoop in and try to “fix” things and control everything, and she didn't need that shit at that particular moment.
She tells him how her only lifelineâin a weird M. Night Shyamalan twistâwas the parents of her baby daddy, a retired black couple who took her in and helped take care of Bryant while she worked and attended classes. Who are watching Bryant right now, back in Houston, while she's getting shit-faced and puking on the side of the building where her grandfather was shot and killed fifty years ago.
“Waitâhow does that work? With the guy's wife and all, seeing that they're her in-laws?”
“Badly,” Audrey says.
So no, married guy's wife doesn't know. Her own friggin' in-laws and she has
no
idea
. She thinks the Tennellsons are just kindly old people helping some chubby white girl in trouble with a biracial baby get back on her feet.
“What's really weird is when the baby daddy comes over and pays extra-special attention to Bryant, right in front of her, and he gets this weepy look in his eyes, because you see, I guess the wife's tubes are tied, and they're never gonna have kids.”
“Oh, that's not going to end well,” Pizza Counter Guy says.
Even the homeless people tucking into the cold pizza look at her like,
Boy, and I thought my life was fucked up.
The Tennellsons aren't even all that nice to her. They adore their secret grandson, of course, and as far as they're concerned, the less Audrey's around, the better. She feels less like a mother and more like the babysitter who squeezes in a little kid time between work (bartending at a seafood joint) and studying (CSI school). So when she told them she had to fly back to Philly to attend her grandfather's memorial service, they were overjoyed. Told her to take her time. Don't hurry back now, you hear?
The more she surrenders control to the Tennellsons, the more tenuous her connection with her son.
But it's a war she feels ill prepared to fight, with no one on her side. She rebels, they kick her outâand probably fight for custody.
“You need to get out of that situation,” Deacon Pizza Counter Guy says.
“What I need,” Audrey says, “is to finish this independent project, finish my degree, get a job, then get my own place, my own phone, my own utilities. Preferably in thirty days or less.”
“What about your parents? I've got to think they'd want to help.”
“Yeah, you would think, wouldn't you? I'm used to doing it on my own. I've been on my own since I was a kid.”
By 1 a.m. the food is gone and the Deacon drives her up to Mayfair.
“Soâ¦if it's not too personalâ¦what were you doing out by the shop tonight?”
After all that purging, however, Audrey can't bring herself to tell Deacon Pizza here the truth. That her cop brother killed himself this afternoon. (She doesn't want to accept it as real. Not yet.)
And that all this drama in her life and screwed-up family began at that corner of Seventeenth and Fairmount, in a dive bar. And maybe she's holding on to this foolish dream that if she can figure out what happened back then, she can try to understand what the fuck is happening to them now.
March 10, 1965
Every night and every morning they sit in their big red machine and watch a house on Queen Street down in Southwark.
Southwark is
way
out of their bailiwick. They could land in serious shit for being here. And they've been doing this for a week now. Wildey calls it “applying pressure.” Stan doesn't care what he calls itâhe doesn't like being down here. Too many bad memories.
Southwark is where Stan grew up, and he would rather be patrolling the Jungle than sitting here right now. A lot of Poles came to the Washington Avenue port just a few blocks away when they immigrated to this country. The ones with enough money hopped the trains to destinations north and westâsome as far as Chicago and Milwaukee. Those with no money ended up stuck here, competing for space in dirty, overcrowded rowhomes and scrambling for work along the docks with everyone else.
If
you could find work that the Irish, the Italians, and the
murzyns
hadn't picked up for themselves.
Still, the Poles called this area
StanisÅawo,
meaning “the neighborhood around St. Stanislaus Church,” which was the center of their social life. To the peasants back home, the word conjured paradise and a promise of better times.
The reality was much differentâunless you knew someone with money or connections.
Stan has never been one of those people, even though he was named for this goddamned place.
StanisÅaw
. He would have liked to ask his father why.
The place looks more or less the same, though cleaner. They're tearing down the slums of Society Hill to the north and blasting through some of the old blocks along the riverfront to build I-95. Tons of construction work to be had nowâif you know the right people.
Same as always.
Of course Stan can tell Wildey none of this. Because none of this matters to the business at hand. All Stan can do is protest on the grounds that this is very stupid for their careers.
The first night Stan sat there in the cold machine, looking around, terrified to be recognized by someone.
“We're going to get recognized,” he said.
To which Wildey replied,
“That's the idea, partner.”
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Wildey has followed up on their big bust from the previous month. Seems the black buyerâBey-Beyâis still facing serious narcotics charges. But the white dealer has been let go, case dismissed, get out of jail free. How is that even possible?
“Maybe he had a better lawyer,” Stan offered.
“No, you're not understanding me. He was let go. All traces of the arrestâgone. At least, the white half.”
Now, the narco unit is small, Wildey explained. Only ten guys under one commander. But the city claims the problem is equally small. According to the US Department of Health, there are only 557 known addicts within city limits. (“Shit,” Wildey said. “I think I know five hundred and fifty-seven addicts personally.”) To dismiss these guys caught with
that
much dope makes
no sense
whatsoever.
Soon as he found out, Wildey went to their lieutenant for answers. The loot had nothing to give them, except that it was narco business, implying that the white guys were undercover cops.
“I know a little something about undercover narco work,” Wildey told Stan. “Usually, the job doesn't involve bringing the shit. Undercover cops are the ones
buying
the shit, then making their arrests.”
“You were narco?” Stan asked.
“Lifetime ago.”
“So what do we got?”
What they had were two namesâthe two dealers they arrested at Twenty-Second and Diamond. Samuel “Bey-Bey” Baynes was the bulldog with the shotgun. Buzz-Cut turned out to be Sherman “Bud” Van Meter.
“I know Bey-Bey's deal,” Wildey said. “He doesn't interest me. Van Meter, though, is of supreme interest.”
“Maybe he's undercover narco after all,” Stan says that first night on stakeout detail.
“If he's narco, he'll give us the professional courtesy to tell us to fuck off. But I don't think we'll be seeing Bud.”
“Then what are we sitting out here in the cold for?”
“To see who else shows up.”
That knowing smile of his, like he's figured out the clue in a crossword puzzle long before anyone else. Drives Stan nuts.
“Sometimes I don't understand half the shit you say.”
“Look, I'm kind of hoping he
is
narco,” Wildey said. “Because if he's not, then Terrill Lee's crazy-ass stories have the ring of truth to them. And that, my friend, means we're living in a much scarier place.”
Yeah, there goes Wildey on his crazy conspiracy flights. The whole world's against him and his people. Well, guess whatâthe whole world's against everybody. But Stan doesn't say any of this, because it'll just get Wildey excited all over again. Tonight, though, day seven of this, he's tired and cranky and can't resist.
“Tell me again why we're doing this?” Stan asks.
“Because we're good cops.”
Stan has to admit, that rocks him on his heels a bit.
Because we're good cops.
He's long since stopped thinking about the job in terms of good and bad. There's the job, you do it, and your goal is to come home alive.
“Sometimes I wonder why you go looking for trouble. Don't you want to come home to Junior every night?”
“Sure,” Wildey says. “But don't you want Jimmy growing up in a better city than this?”
So they sit on Queen Street, day in, day out, with nobody approaching. Their red police car isn't exactly inconspicuous. Then they start sneaking down from the Jungle to cruise the area at odd times, checking out 226 Queen StreetâVan Meter's given addressâat random times. Still nothing.
But now, tonight, the seventh night of this, someone does show up.
And it's not “Bud” Van Meter.
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They park themselves on Front Street, right next to the construction site that will someday be I-95. Stan remembers the houses along here. Tight, cramped little immigrant homes that were Polish in his day but Irish a generation before that and German and Swedish generations before that, before there was even a country here.
From his angle on Front, though, they can keep an eye down Queen, see who's coming and going.
A sedan with bright lights crosses Front, moving the wrong way up the street. Soon they're headlight to headlight.
“Here we go,” Wildey says. “Good things come to those who wait.”
“This looks like the opposite of a good thing,” Stan says, moving his hand to his revolver.
“Uh-uh. If I'm right, you're not gonna need that. Just follow my lead.”
Two stocky men in suits come out of the car, walk up to their machine on either side. Their coats are parted and Stan can see their sidearms. They're not exactly reaching for them. More letting them know that they're keeping the option open.
“You fellas lost?” the one on the right asks.
Wildey sticks his head out of the passenger side. “Evening, Inspectors. No, we're not lost. Just following up on a suspect.”
The guys trade looks. How the hell can Wildey see that these guys are inspectors? The other one, more heavyset, is coming up on Stan's side. He makes a show of checking out the numbers on the side of their machine.
“You're a long way from the Jungle.”
“Yeah, well, sometimes the inhabitants, they do sneak out,” Wildey says.
The one on Stan's side says, “This one is Walczak.” Pronounces it right:
wall-CHAK
.
“And we got Officer Wildey over here.” Another correct pronunciation.
(Later, Wildey will say this was the moment he knewâthat nobody gets their names right on the first try. Again, Stan doesn't understand what he's talking about.)
“You go on back to the Jungle, boys. Leave Southwark to us.”
Wildey nods as if he agrees. And then he slams open his passenger side door, nailing the guy in his knees. Guy drops to the ground before he has the chance to reach for his revolver. Wildey slams the door into him again, metal crushing his nose, spurting blood down the side of their machine.
The other inspector is cursing and starting to draw his weapon. Stan knows his own speed. By the time he climbs out from behind the wheel, this guy could draw his weapon and open fire at them through the windshield. So there's really only one option. Stan lunges out with his left arm, grabs up a fistful of the guy's shirt and tie, and yanks him forward with all his strength. Guy's forehead slams into the top of their machine, busting it open. He's still struggling, though, so Stan gives it to him again, feels the fight go away, then drops him.
“Drive, drive drive!” Wildey is shouting at him.
“Did we just assault two inspectors?”
“No,” Wildey says, “we most certainly did not.”
November 5, 1995
Tread lightly.
Good advice, despite the source.
As much as Jim would like to nail Sarkissian for this, he knows it doesn't fit. Sarkissian has an alibi for the rest of the night and morningâhome with his family in Narberth. Doesn't mean he's in the clear, but nothing about it feels right.
So Jim goes back to his timeline of Kelly Anne Farrace's last twenty-four hours alive and again considers the mysterious JDH. Those initials match no one at the magazine, nor anyone in Kelly Anne's circle of friends. He realizes he has to go back to Circa. See if anybody can remember Kelly Anne leaving. And if soâwas she alone?
But now the hard part: selling this to Claire.
“You're just upset that Audrey kicked your Sorry! ass.”
“It's true. I lose one more time to my five-year-old daughter, I won't be able to show my face around town.”
A wounded expression shows on Claire's face for an instant before she smiles. Jim reviews what he said, trying to figure out what upset her.
“You sure this is about the girl's murder,” she says. “Or would you rather not be here?”
“I want to be here,” Jim says. “You know that.”
Claire doesn't answer, which is her way of disagreeing with her husband. She claims she's over what happened five years ago, but the old suspicions emerge now and again. Especially when the job takes him away from home more hours than usual.
“Go,” she finally says. “Otherwise you're going to mope around here like a bear with a sore butt.”
“I'm sorry,” he says, and kisses her forehead.
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At Circa Jim orders a tonic and lime, starts chatting up the waitstaff. He recognizes a few faces from Wednesday night. But no one remembers Kelly Anne, let alone her leaving. A check of Wednesday's receipts reveals nothingâapparently, Sarkissian bought all her drinks. Halfway through the pile Jim sees his own card receipt there. Somehow he spent $89. He thought he'd popped in here for one drink, then moved on. How had he spent that much?
(Because one doesn't do it for you anymore, Jimmy. You know that. Takes at least three to make a dent in that armor of yours. Or turn you into a real killerâ¦)
Briefly he considers taking his receipt, pocketing it, so that no one will know he was ever here. Some defense attorney could have a lot of fun with this.
Ladies and gentlemen of the jury, do you know who else had a drink in the same bar as Kelly Anne Farrace the night she diedâ¦
No. He's not that kind of cop. The receipt stays.
Jim steps outside Circa into the cold November night. Walnut Street is sleepy. Not many pedestrians.
Help me out here, Kelly Anne.
You stepped outsideâwere you with someone, or were you alone?
We're only a few blocks from your apartment. Did you go home, get lonely, then call someone over?
Or did you in fact just go to bed so you could rise early the next morning for a jog before work?
Jim stands on Walnut Street, watching kids leave the bar. Some in pairs or triplets, some alone. So carefree. They're all so impossibly young, and they have no idea what's out there in this city.
Wait wait.
“Thirty Under Thirty.” The last piece Kelly Anne was reporting. Working alongside her mentor, Sarkissian. She wasn't out here socializing. She was out working. Nine p.m., the family man has to go home, but the young aspiring writer is still on the beat. Maybe she met up with an interview subject.
Jim hurries over to Kelly Anne's apartment, flashes his badge at the super, gains access. CSU has been and gone, but that doesn't matter. He searches through her cluttered little desk until he finds the file folder containing the legal pad he was hoping to find. Her notes on the “Thirty Under Thirty” package. She was the kind of girl who brought her work home with her. This job was her life.
He spins through the names of candidates, looking for his match:
Max Kennedy. Carolyn Odell. Lisa Jablonski. Eric Lindros. Jeff Steen. Traci Lynn Burton. Jeffrey Gaines. Jim's just north of forty and he has no clue who any of these people are. Well, Lindros, sureâhe's a Flyer. (Though hockey's not Jim's thing.) But come on, where's the Mysterious Mr. JDH?
And then, scribbled on the legal pad:
John DeHaven.
The name fits.
But who the hell is John DeHaven?
Kelly Anne's notes don't shed much light on it.
pol
Politician?
fundraising genius
Young guy from money, then. The smartest fundraisers always seem to be people born into loads of the stuff.
If you're such an up-and-comer, Mr. DeHaven, why didn't you up and come forward when Kelly Anne turned up dead in a stairwell?
easy on the eyes
So an attractive rich guyâand possibly the last man to see Kelly Anne Farrace alive.