Authors: C. J. Cherryh
Different Fitch than she'd ever heard… tired man, mostly civil man, with a
muscle tic in his right arm and skin cold as a corpse right now.
Hell of a pair they made, Fitch complaining, finally, hoarsely, "What the fuck
you doing, Yeager?" when she was shaking so bad she couldn't get the screwdriver
seated. "Sorry, sir," she said. She was shaking, he was shivering, the thing
kept slipping, Fitch being turned at a godawful angle at the time, while she was
trying to get the main body joints to max-set.
Somehow, she was mostly on auto by then, she got the plastron put together, got
the right sleeve and gauntlet on, and she bit her lip and did little screws
until Fitch himself made a com-call to Goddard for hot coca and sandwiches.
Breakfast or supper, she didn't even remember. Mike Parker brought it up, didn't
say anything. She remembered dimly that Parker and NG were down there committing
an act of mutiny, that all Fitch had to do was discover that somebody'd screwed
with the lock downside…
Five quick guesses who'd go up on charges.
She didn't have any appetite left. She just chewed and swallowed big lumps,
washed them down with coca and wished it was beer.
Wished it was a good stiff drink of the vodka down in their makeshift quarters,
most of all. But if alcohol hit her system right now she'd just be gone, out,
zee'd in ten seconds.
Something came in that Fitch didn't like. She watched him listening to Goddard
or whoever-it-was, frowning, shaking his head a little.
"I got that," he said to Goddard, which was as much as he had ever said.
"What's going on, sir?" she finally asked, just to have tried.
Fitch gave her a cold look, said, finally, "Just an on-going problem.—Let's get
the rest of it. Promise you, if this thing runs, you get a sleep break."
If this thing doesn't run, she thought, thinking about pumps and servos blowing,
filters going, all over the rig, I'd rather shoot myself.
"Let's get it then," she said, and picked up the right sleeve, to mate it up.
All those little joints, all those little screws, right down the elbow and wrist
and finger-joints.
She was half-blind when she finished. She really thought about powering Fitch on
without a warning, because Fitch was shaky-wobbly himself, and she had this
vision what Fitch could do when the wobbles hit the body sensors.
But she didn't—didn't want to start a war where one wasn't, right now, didn't
want to take a halfway civil Fitch and make a fool out of him.
"Tell you, sir," she said, in the croak of a voice she had, "you been standing
long enough, if we got time, you better get some rest. If you power on when you
got the shakes it'll throw you, don't want it to pitch you on your ass."
"Where's the switch?"
She showed him. He threw it, threw it back off damn quick, because it rattled.
"It runs," she said. "Wobbles is you." And being diplomatic, as Teo would say:
"Most take a fall, straight off. Rather you didn't, sir. Better you get some
sleep."
"When it runs," Fitch said. "Runs means when it works, Yeager. Works means when
it works for me, so you show me the switches, you show me the technicalities,
you show me the systems, so we both know it works, then we'll both talk about
getting some sleep. Hear me?"
Damn you, I do, sir. "Yessir. I hear you."
First thing you did, if you were instructing somebody, you put your own rig on.
Fitch objected. "No need," he said; and she said, "There is, sir. Or I can call
out the instructions from outside this locker till you got that rig under
control. Sir."
Do him credit, Fitch did get the idea what she was talking about. And Fitch
listened when she said Relax, and stood there watching while she stripped down
and got into her own rig the right way.
She rattled and chattered too, when she powered on. She damped it down. "That's
your adjustment, number three switch, sensitivity on the pickups. If you get the
chatters you just screw it tighter till it stops. If you rattle loud enough you
can draw fire."
Fitch didn't think that was funny.
"You got gyros that keep your balance," she said, no missed beat. Fitch was a
helmeted, faceless form, bracketed in green-glowing readouts from her faceplate
display, 360° vision compressed and projected in a green shadow band on the top
and bottom of her faceplate—Fitch's slight movement getting his hand and
alternately his body bracketed in a stutter of yellow, his sounds amped up with
a decibel readout ticking and flashing in her lower left. She took his hand and
guided it to the first of the controls under the collar.
"You can see your hand, bottom 360 display, you got to get used to the
distortion. This is lock, this is gyros, this is free-movement, three position
switch, first over, see the blinking display, right corner of your screen, tells
you that's switch two, position B, that's stabilizing on, A is lock, C is free.
Got that?"
"A is lock, B is gyros, C is free."
"Rig tends to feel like it's out of balance. Different center of gravity, but
don't forget those big boots under you. Put it on B, the gyros keep your balance
and you got to really fight it to kneel or fall down. I'd advise you keep it on
B a while. Switch three's your sensitivity. I'd put it 85%. It's going to wear
on you some, but better that than falling down. I keep mine at 150, amp to the
rig's max at 300, but I been using these things twenty years. You don't need
switch four, we got no base station, so that's no good.—Feel steadier at 85?"
"Cumbersome," Fitch said. "Stiff."
"You can designate sections for different amps, but it's overall sloppy. Put
three up to 90, just up a point or two as you feel like it, but be careful when
you start passing the hundred mark. Higher you set that amp-switch, that's the
way the rig reads all your muscle twitches. At a hundred it'll move that much
faster, hit that much harder, grip that much tighter. It's incremental. At 150,
a guy can break a gunstock with a squeeze, and most guys never set the total rig
over 250. You move gentle, handle everything like it was blown glass, don't
jerk. Everything you do is amplified. Mass is more. When you get moving, you got
to allow more to stop. Running stride's a float, light as you can, max-set
walk's a lot the same. You got to be light on your feet. If you fall, don't
fight it, don't jerk, fall won't hurt you, just take it and get back up.
—Going to take the gyros off, now. Relax. Just stand. Lift the arm. Gently."
"Damn!" Fitch said, when the rig hummed and flexed. A little jerk. Her arm and
his crashed together and he broke a locker handle stumbling backward and
forward.
She caught him, steadied him. She could hear the breathing, heavy gasps over the
helmet-com.
Man not used to not being in control.
Man exhausted, mad as hell, and maybe a little scared.
He jerked, a rattle and stutter all up and down the joints, he lurched free and
swung the arm further than he wanted, but he caught himself.
"That's pretty good," she said. "If you swing like that, you got to brace back
harder than you would. Mass again. —Who're we supposed to use these on, you mind
to say, sir?"
He didn't say anything for a minute. But she could hear the breathing.
"Suppose you just do your job," Fitch said, "explain the rest of these switches
and stick to business."
"I got no problem with that, sir, except we got hundreds of switches, I take it
our time is limited, and if I knew precisely what we got to deal with, I could
figure out what functions you better know. Sir."
Silence. Then: "Suppose you don't be a smartass, Yeager, and you got a notion to
stay alive. Let's just learn to move this thing."
"Yessir," she said hoarsely, with the wobbles in her joints and the readouts
blurring and a real tight grip on her temper. "You got a good initial balance on
your switches. Let's try walking."
He managed it fine at 95 and a hundred, upped it to 110 and did tolerably
well—managed to stand the first time at 110 with the gyros when she hit him in
the gut; didn't fare so well on the second try without—hit the lockers, but he
didn't hit her hands hard when he bounced forward on the recovery.
"You got a real aptitude, sir." She adjusted her amp, shoved him at 130. He hit
the lockers, bounced forward, she bounced him back, he got better at staying on
his feet.
"You want to find out about the targeting, sir? Question of weapons?"
She kept after him, put her suit on lock finally and just rested, drilled him on
the basics, droned through the standard new-skut lecture, sometimes with her
eyes closed, but he couldn't know that.
"You got four settings, one's for right-handers, one's for left, some don't
care, number one's autofire, skip that, we ain't got it, set it to 2, see the
yellow bracket pop up on your foot there, sir, that's a fiber-optics in your
right glove, gives you a fair idea what you got your gun generally pointed at.
You can adjust the focus, rig understands spoken commands, you say Program On,
Target, Manual, you say Cancel to stop it—" Flutter of grid and markers across
her own rig's faceplate, that stopped with Cancel. "You can tell it left/right,
up/ down, tell it Set when you're happy—"
"Got it," Fitch said. Fitch wasn't sounding real focused himself.
"Think we got the basics," she said. She hoped. "Give you the verbals next try
if I got time. Toggles are more reliable, some voices the pickup just doesn't
get a hundred percent, don't know why somebody can't make a programmable that
can tell sit from shit.—You want to get out of that thing, now, sir?" She didn't
wait for a confirmation, she didn't want to hear no, she just came up and guided
his hand to the master release. "There's your tension-straps. Left is on, right
is off, you let 'em up and you unlatch, ever'thing just exactly like a
hard-suit, once she's built and mated, same direction on the latches—sleeves
first, top, boots and breeches—hold on, there, let me get the hanging-hooks,
sir."
She unscrewed the sleeve-rings, helped him unmate the right one, he got the
left, got his own top-section off, helmet and all, once she had it hooked, and
he ducked out of it, sweat and grease to the waist, while she got her own joints
unscrewed and unmated, and her own hooks on the shoulder-rings.
Fitch looked like he was going to fall on his face, white and sweating and
wobbly as he wiped off and started to get his clothes on.
No sympathy, you sum-bitch. Her back reminded her of old debts, and oh, God, she
wanted a beer.
Fitch was mopping his face, standing there with his clothes half together while
she was putting hers on. "All right, Yeager, you're off. You got maybe six
hours."
She blinked, too stupid to find the catch in that.
"Get!" he said.
She zipped up. "Can I draw a beer, sir?"
"Screw any skuz you want, drink, get some sleep, any way you can, long as you
can get your ass up here cold sober when I want you. Hear me?"
"Yessir! Thank you, sir."
"Get!"
She shoved her feet into her boots, wobbled her way out onto the bridge where
Goddard was still on watch, got into the lift, propped herself against the wall
and leaned there with her head pounding and her knees trying to melt under her.
She didn't even go to the locker where their quarters was set up, she went
staggering on up the curve, into Engineering, up to where NG was working, and
startled hell out of him.
"Got a six-hour," she said. "We got Fitch's sweet goodnight. How you doing?"
CHAPTER 27
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She wasn't navigating well, was just about fit to lie there in the seat at
number three boards, breaking a half-dozen regs—Bernie'd die, she thought,
sipping a cold beer NG had gotten her out of Services, beer and not the vodka,
because beer seemed more like food and there was more of it. Her hands would
hurt if she weren't halfway numb, her back did hurt, she was afraid to take one
of Fletcher's pills, as tired as she was, and she had the feeling a lot of
things were going to hurt, if she sat still any time at all.
But NG was there. That was what she wanted most. NG was still speaking to her,
he was standing there against the counter-edge with this desperate look, like
he'd earnestly like things to make sense more than they did.
There was that lock downside, that was an option, one he'd risked his neck
on.—"We've got a way out," he'd whispered to her, before he went down to
Services for the beer. "It'll work."
And she'd said, not sure she wasn't wrong: "Not yet."
"When? When you're stuck topside?"
"Don't do it," she'd said. "Don't do it. It's not that simple. Something's wrong
out there. Something is wrong, I got it listening to com up there."
NG didn't look happy. But he listened to her. He leaned against the counter now
and said, "Better?"
"Lot," she said, and he just stood there. Waiting.
Because she said so.
Man, you never asked, did you, what ship I come from, what I've done, where I
been? You never said about yourself, either.