Authors: Joy Dettman
âWas so,' he said. âAnd she's twenty-two.'
âI hate you.'
âJoin the queue. I'm public enemy number one in the Willis clan. They're going to sue me for breach of promise and stick my head on a spike at their gate.'
âWhy?' she moaned.
âThey like trophies.'
âJesus, God and Mother Mary, save me from drunken jesters!' she wailed. Picking up her case, bag, coat, she opened the door. âWhere can I call a taxi?'
âTry the Willis place. Down the hill and to your right. Though your head could end up on a spike when they hear your accent.'
She pitched her zip bag at his legs, sent her case spinning after it, then her coat. He picked the items up, one by one, placed the bag and coat on the bed, the case on a wooden trunk beneath a window.
âShe's been pursuing me since she turned fourteen â or maybe thirteen. She knew I was married. I was paying her father to get you free of me. Around the time your solicitor started sticking his nose into it, the relationship underwent an alteration and she got herself pregnant.'
âWith no help from you.'
âShe near rode me into the ground, lussie. The wee bairn jumped ship, so I jumped behind him.'
âGet out of my sight. Get the hell out of my room and stay out of it!'
He left, but left the door open.
*
The roof room was heated by a water-filled radiator, though not overheated; or perhaps more of the outside air seeped in. She'd struck those radiators from Cornwall to Scotland and found them effective clothes dryers. No washing today. In thirty-odd hours she'd be on a plane and on her way home to Myrtle's washing machine, a clothes line and summer. She draped two wet towels over the radiator, then looked up at the exposed overhead beams, heavy beams, blackened by the patina of years, the mark of the builder's axe still on them. Knew she couldn't sleep beneath them in that four-poster bed. Knew she had to get a lift back to the station, or to a local hotel.
The land outside the two small windows already fading into night, she could see little. Wanted to see more, much more.
She shook her head. No pain this time. Shook it again to test it. Her stomach felt queer; perhaps more hungry than queasy. She'd eaten nothing since mid-morning, when she'd bought coffee and a cake so she might use the café's toilet.
Leaned on the wide sill to look down on a leafless tree, then over it to more distant leafless trees to the left, and beyond them to what appeared to be a cluster of rooftops, in the darkening distance.
She'd ask him to give her a lift down to those rooftops. The situation had been complicated enough when there'd been a wedding tomorrow and a house full of Grenvilles. It had become more complicated now. She couldn't stay here.
No movement of life outside that window. No cows, sheep, horses, no roads. This place would have been a hive of activity a hundred years ago, two hundred. When England had started shipping her convicts to Botany Bay, there would have been poachers in those woods, and this house swarming with maids.
She'd seen no sign of a maid. They must have had one, two. The house was huge. When Myrtle had been growing up, her parents had employed half a dozen live-in maids. This place was three times the size of the Amberley she'd known as a kid.
She wiped at the sill with the palm of her hand, feeling for dust. Someone had dusted, had made up the bed. Letty hadn't appeared capable of much more than a duck-like waddle. Men may make up a bed, but not as the four-poster had been made; and the men she knew didn't understand about dust. She wanted to stay here and find out how this place worked. And what a talking point that bed would be at Helen and Michael's next dinner party.
No more dinner parties. Chris and his junior solicitor would be there.
She shrugged, opened her case and dug deep for the frock she'd spent days searching for. When she'd found it, nothing else would do. It was black and white â stunning, the saleswoman had said, and it was; and exactly what Cara had wanted. Something that would knock his eyes out. Crushed for two weeks in a limited space, it no longer looked so stunning. She shook it, then looked for a place to hang it overnight. No wardrobe, but a door to the left of the bed, which argued loudly about being disturbed. When she won the war, she wished she hadn't. There was something dead in the dark behind it.
He returned, with two glasses and a bottle.
âThere's a dead rat in there,' she said, indicating the door.
âIt's Henry. Or one of his ancestors. Close it.'
âIt's a rat. We had one under the floorboards in the boarding house. Dad had to get in a builder to rip up the floor of the lodgers' kitchen.'
âMy money's on old Henry. He's sticking around to make sure Letty doesn't sell up.'
He placed the glasses on the window ledge, then came to her side to close the door. She stepped away from him too fast.
âWatch your head,' he warned. âIt's not a room to be darting around in.'
âWhat's in there?'
âDry rot. We're in the original Langdon Hall, and it needs big money spent on it. The old section was locked up and forgotten until '58 when we moved in. I unlocked it and found this room â it had been used as a junk room for a hundred years. That old chest of drawers was here, the trunk.'
âDid you find anything in it?'
âOld clothes, a few documents.'
âYou kept them?'
âThey're still in it.'
âYou rented this room to strangers and left a trunk full of history here?'
âIt added to the authenticity.'
âThey could have . . . shredded them!'
âVandals couldn't afford our prices,' he said.
She was still holding the frock. âGuests need wardrobes.'
âFew could afford more than one night. For those who could, Mum and I played maid and valet.'
She was only staying one night â if she stayed.
She shrugged and draped the frock over her case. âOnly in England could one family hold the deeds to the same house for five hundred years. This is what Jenny was writing about:
Patient writer of life's journal, caretaker of time
,' she quoted.
âI fell in love with its permanence at seventeen,' he admitted. âAnd out of love with its weather before we'd been here for a week.'
âI haven't had my coat or boots off since I got here, and my coat is going mouldy.' She picked up one of the glasses and sipped. He knew she liked white wine, and not too dry. âYou said once that you rented out your paddocks?'
âFields, lussie.'
âYou don't grow anything?'
âA local chap puts a crop in.'
He came to her side at the window, his head more than high enough to hit those sloping beams. But he knew them well, ducking beneath one as he reached for the second glass.
Her hair was drying wild, as it did when she had no tools to tame it. She placed her glass down and with her fingers attempted to lift her curls into some form of shape. He reached out to touch an exposed earlobe.
âNo diamond stud,' he said. âAre you going to marry him?'
Back in '69 she'd removed Chris's diamonds for Morrie.
âNo,' she said and sipped more wine.
âYou're moving back to Sydney?'
âI hope to spend at least twelve months there; get a job in an office maybe, get some of Dad's bank loan paid off. He won't be able to work next year.'
âI thought he'd retired years ago.'
âHe's been tutoring at night. He's incapable of driving unless he swallows a couple of painkillers half an hour before he leaves.'
âArthritis?'
âProbably a bit of that, but mainly a war injury. He came home with half a ton of shrapnel in his knee, and apparently it's moved to where it shouldn't have moved. He's probably addicted to painkillers.'
âAre you still writing?'
âI was until my flat was robbed.'
She told him the tale, omitting the names of the perpetrators. Told him the tale of her black overcoat, the only item returned to her. Told him about the sorting of four hundred unnumbered pages, and how she'd considered herself lucky that her other two novels had been away at the publishers'.
âThey came back, both of them, before I left. I brought one with me to send to an English publisher, but haven't had time to find one.'
âWhich novel?'
â
Rusty.
The one you edited.'
So good to speak to someone about her writing. Those who didn't do it failed to see why those who did did.
âWhat's the other one about?'
âIt's written as the diary of an unmarried seventeen-year-old girl. The publishers kept it for so long, I thought they were going to accept it.'
Ran out of things to say then, and silence wasn't good. She emptied her wine glass.
âWhat do you do all day?' she asked.
âNot a lot.'
âWhen did Phyllis lose the baby?'
âThree weeks ago.'
âYou could have sent me a telegram. I was still at the dogbox until the morning of the eighteenth.'
âThe phone was somewhat tied up â until I disconnected us. I phoned, belatedly â phoned Cathy, who in turn phoned your mother. But by the time she did, you'd already flown the coop.'
âI got to see a bit of London, a bit of the country,' she said. âWhere are your aunt's dogs?'
âThey spent their lives tripping Pops. We had to find them new homes. We kept an elderly female until three months ago. She died.'
âYour father needs to be in a nursing home.'
âI'll drink to that.' He refilled the glasses. âLetty won't hear of it. And I promised Mum I'd look after him.'
âDoes he know where he is?'
âLetty knows. She likes talking things over with him. He never argues.'
âHave you got maids, Morrie?'
âA German woman comes in daily to clean and cook, but she won't last long. Letty hasn't forgiven the Germans. They killed Henry's only cousin. We've got a male nurse who comes in morning and evening to get Pops in and out of bed. It's party time when he gives him a shower. Pops is slippery when wet.'
âThat nurse probably costs you as much as a nursing home. And deathbed promises are made so the dying can rest easy, not to saddle the living with guilt. Find a place close by, and buy Letty a dog to talk to.'
âBernard's more her son than her brother. His mother died when he was five, and Letty and Henry's many offspring died at birth or soon after, so they ended up raising Bernard. He took their name before he married Mum â or tacked it onto his own.'
Her stomach groaned, gurgled, the wine and aspros at war. âHave you got a dry biscuit, a bit of cheese â something?'
He clattered again downstairs.
Later, standing side by side at the window, a packet of biscuits between them, a square of cheese and a knife, they stood crunching and sipping wine while watching night swallow the last of the day. Watched a squirrel jump down from the large tree beneath the window, then scamper across to a smaller tree and up it.
âThey're so cute,' Cara said. âAustralian possums look like rats. Everything is so different over here. Trees, houses, land, shops. Everything.'
âI miss here when I'm over there, and miss there when I'm over here.'
âYou said in one of your letters that your grandfather left you a farm and houses back home?'
âYou read them.'
âI read them,' she admitted.
âThere's only one reason I'd go back,' he said.
âYou've got four good reasons in Woody Creek.'
âThey be my reason for bein' over 'ere, lussie.'
She ate another biscuit. He topped up her wine glass and she sipped a little more.
âI spent the night with Jenny not long ago. She said she still looks for you every time she's in a crowd.'
âYou didn't mention me?'
âI wanted to.' She sipped wine, cut more cheese. âI should have.'
âI know who I am,' he said.
âYou're hiding from who you are, Morrie, like you hid it from me.' He crunched another biscuit, so she did likewise. âShe told me how she lost you.'
âLost, meaning to misplace. Sold, meaning to accept payment in return for goods received.'
âShe didn't sell you. She loved you, and they stole you from her while she was half-dead with pneumonia.'
âI've got a bill of sale stating how much she loved me â two thousand quids' worth. I was signed over to my grandfather in December of 1947, and for her signature she received what must have been a king's ransom back then.'
He took his wallet from his pocket and removed a wad of paper, which he unfolded carefully before offering it to her. The light was too poor to read and she frowned at the page. He pointed to the figure, and it was there:
2000 pounds
.
âYour grandfather stood over her hospital bed to get that signature, and your ghoul of an aunty kidnapped you while she was getting dressed to take you to the hospital,' Cara said.
âAs nice a piece of fiction as I've heard in a while. You ought to write it.'
âHospitals keep records. You've got the date. Check it out, smart-arse.'
âDid you?'
âI don't need to. I believe her.'
âI believe this.' He reclaimed the bill of sale, folded it and placed it back into his wallet.
âIt deserves burning. The fact that your grandfather kept it shows me exactly what an evil old coot he must have been.'
âIt's not every man who knows his true value. Will ye be puttin' in a bid for me, lussie?'
âAre you in touch with the ghoul?'
âWe correspond. I tell her to get her skinny arse over here forthwith; that the will states that she is obligated to live with me until death do us part. She tells me what I can do with England and
that pathetic pile of pommy horse droppings
â namely Bernard. I invited her to my wedding. To quote her non-acceptance:
You were born of a slut's desire to break up her sister's wedding and are no better than the slut who whelped you
.'