Rising Fears (2 page)

She pulled her son back with her into the kitchen, feeling him relax, until....

Click. She turned off the light again, then gestured for her son to try. "Now you," she said. Sean tensed immediately, his small muscles going rigid under the lightweight cotton of his T-shirt. "Go ahead," she urged. "There's nothing down there, honey."

He looked at her, and she was dismayed to again see tears shimmering at the corners of his eyes. But she steeled herself and continued. No son of hers would be driven by fear the way she had been for so much of her adult life. No boy of hers was going to have to be beholden to his own terrors, was going to walk in the shadow of anguish, unable to break into the sunlight that came once you exhibited courage in the face of fear.

She guided his hand forward, forward, forward. She let go, and was relieved to see that, though his lip trembled and his arm shook, he kept reaching, reaching, reaching for the light switch.

She could see him feeling along the wall. She was proud of him.

The monster must be asleep
.

(
no pulled, he was pulled, oh God and Jesus something
pulled
him)

into the basement.

Amy-Lynn reacted instinctively, barreling into the doorway before the first scream came, but as fast as she was the door was faster, moving on well-oiled hinges and slamming shut in front of her.

She heard her son, screaming on the other side of the suddenly closed door. She heard the click of a latch engaging, and shook the door handle even though she knew it would be a futile gesture. When it was locked, as she had somehow known it would be, she barreled into the door, pounding at it maniacally with all the force she could muster, listening to her baby boy screaming on the other side.

She attacked the door, clawing at it like a feral beast. Screaming sounded on both sides of the door now: the panicked shrieks of a boy in terror, and the blood-curdling mews of a mother trying to get to her child.

Mother-screams, child-screams, and the door was buckling and shaking, incredible violence causing it to quiver on its hinges, and Amy-Lynn could not be sure if the shaking was because of her or because of some other terrifying, unknown force on the other side of the door.

She kept clawing at the door, at the door jamb, at the doorknob, frantic, the movements sending shocks of sound through the house as her panic-soaked muscles worked frenzied music on the wood and metal.

Then she slowed as she became aware of another noise, one underneath the sounds she was making. Low, guttural, growling. The sound of damnation come to visit.

And at the sound, the doorway
splintered
as something hit it from the basement side. Something powerful. Deadly.

But still she tried, until exhaustion drove her inexorably to her knees in front of the door, a weeping mass of threadbare muscle and pain-ridden mind.

Amy-Lynn looked into the basement. Only a few moments before it had been clean and inviting, full of light and the easy order of a house well kept. Now, it was dark. Dim. Frightening.

And was still screaming three hours later, when Ron came home to find her curled on the floor in front of the basement, shrieking and screaming and praying to God to send her back her son.

***

***

He follows his prey from a distance. Wouldn't want them to know about him. Not yet, at any rate. Not when there is still fun to be had.

He is in his thirties. Some would say plain, some would say handsome; his is the kind of face that attracts many, but repels just as many.

He knows the woman ahead of him will be attracted. He knows. And smiles.

He watches them walk for almost a quarter mile. At one point they almost spot him, but he manages to look behind a street vendor's produce stand in time, and they continue on unaware.

The woman is in her late twenties. He knows this, for he knows everything about her. He knows that she is twenty-eight, just as he knows that she loves to watch butterflies in the spring and her favorite food is chocolate chip waffles with real maple syrup.

He also knows everything about the boy. The boy is only a few years old, but beautifully precocious. One of the boy's hands holds onto his mother's hand; the other clutches a pad and a handful of crayons. Both the pad and the crayons were a gift from the boy's father: a man who does not deserve either the woman or the boy.

The man increases his speed, coming to within a half block of his quarry.

He reaches into his jacket, his fingers brushing the cold steel of the gun that he always holds there. But now is not time for a gun. Instead he reaches past it. He brings out a cell phone; dials.

Ahead of him, he can barely hear the electronic chirp as the woman's own cell phone rings. He knows her number.

She pulls her phone from her purse, and he hears her click the button to answer. "Hello?" she says.

The man does not answer. That would not be fun. Instead he merely...
breathes.

"Hello?" she repeats.

"I see you," he whispers, and sees the woman stiffen for a moment.

"What?" says the woman. "Who is this?"

The man breathes heavily into the phone. Perverse. "You know who it is," he says, and knows from the way her posture changes that she does indeed know. She knows him well. A moment later he says, "Who's the little boy?"

It's a game he likes to play. He knows how she will answer.

"It's," she says, and pauses as she thinks of a lie. "It's the gardener's kid."

The man's face changes suddenly, drawn long in a gross parody of surprise as he shouts, "I knew it! I knew you were sleeping with him!"

The woman laughs up ahead, a tinkling laugh that could cut through the worst fears of the worst day like a Ginsu knife. The man laughs, too.

"Don't tell my husband, though," says the woman into the phone, still laughing. "It'd break his heart."

The man laughs all the harder at this. "You're killing me, Elizabeth." And ahead of him, the woman, Elizabeth, laughs even harder, great belly laughs now that are causing the few passers-by on the street to look at her in askance. "And after I did all that sexy breathing for you and everything." He pants into the phone some more.

"Stop, Jason, not in front of our son," Elizabeth answers. "Aaron's getting too smart for you to keep pulling this kind of nonsense."

"I know," answers Jason. "He almost spotted me cold a few blocks ago. Gonna be a police detective like his daddy someday."

And upon hearing his name, the boy shouts, "Is that Daddy?"

"He's on the phone," says Elizabeth, and hands the boy the phone.

"Hi, Daddy," says Aaron. "Where are you?"

"Right behind you, kid," answers Jason. Aaron turns and sees his father. He waves the hand with crayon and papers at Jason. "I drawed you a picture, Daddy," he shouts into the phone. Jason laughs at the confusion his son still has regarding the cell phone: he knows it is to help you talk to people far away, but still thinks he has to shout to be heard.

"Can't wait to see it, bud," answers Jason. "Your pictures are the best."

And ahead, he sees his son thrust the phone back to his mother, then grab her hand and start pulling at her. "Hide from Daddy, Mommy! Hide from Daddy!"

Jason can hear his son's laugh, and it warms him like a cup of hot chocolate on a cold winter's day. Elizabeth has barely a second to say into the phone, "Looks like you're going to have to chase us, honey," before she hangs up and runs with her son.

Jason puts his own cell phone back into his pocket, almost scratching himself on the LAPD badge that hangs from his belt. He laughs and gives chase, going slowly so as not to gain ground too quickly - wouldn't want to disappoint Aaron - but catching up, bit by bit.

His family disappears around a corner, and he follows the laughter, bright as sunlight in this moonless, starless city of the Angels where the city has chased away the sky. He turns the corner as well, moving quickly onto an adjoining street, laughing like the worst kind of madman: the kind of man who has somehow managed to find a way to be truly happy.

Then the laughter dies in his throat. Like most cops, Jason has a kind of sixth sense that often activates before his other five senses have picked up on anything; a subconscious feeling that something is amiss.

He casts his gaze about, looking for his family.

They are nowhere to be seen.

Then he hears a short yelp. A child's cry.

He looks to the sound and sees...his wife's feet, kicking, flailing as
something drags her into a dark alleyway.

Aaron is nowhere to be seen.

"Elizabeth!" shouts Jason, and draws his gun at the same instant. He flicks the safety off, which is technically a violation of LAPD rules, but dammit this is his family and he's not going to wait until the last second to be ready to kill or be killed.

He runs to the alley.

And as he does, time...

...slows...

...down....

All sound fades. All Jason can hear is his own tortured, panicked breathing; his own arrhythmic heartbeat.

Elizabeth's feet disappear into the darkness of the alley.

Jason is almost there. But too slow. Moving too slow.

Something rolls out of the alley: a single crayon. Black.

Complete silence, save only the sound of blood pumping in his ears.

He runs as though through syrup, cloying and nasty, pulling him one step back for every two steps that he takes.

He can hear his watch ticking. Slow. Everything is slow. Tick...tick...tick....

Then, at last, a pair of hard, fast sounds pierce the night: two gunshots.

Jason screams. And riding the crest of that wave of sound, he feels it end as it always does. He feels time speed up again, feels sound return to the universe. But only for a moment. Not long enough to see their faces, thank God. Just long enough to know that all is gone, just a single moment of terror and loss before...

***

...Jason Meeks, ex-cop, ex-husband, ex-father - ex-
everything
- woke up.

He looked around. As they always were when he awoke from what he thought of as The Dream, his fingers were stretched out in front of him, reaching toward the sky as though hoping to grasp the fleeing souls of his family before they escaped to a Heaven he no longer believed in.

How could there be a God when He has taken everything from me? he thought for the thousand-thousandth time. And for the thousand-thousandth time, he got no answer.

He closed his fingers, which were cramped from the exertion of his night terrors, which were the worst kind: the kind that are real. Memories were more fearful to Jason than any kind of fictional concoction his subconscious could possibly have discharged.

They're gone
.

He sat up, feeling the gnarled bark of the tree he had been sleeping against bite at his back ruthlessly, as though he had offended it by taking his rest at its base. He cricked his back, feeling old, older than his years warranted. He flexed his fingers, working the cramps and stiffness out of them, then stretched in the gray twilight of predawn, the first singular shards of sunlight slicing across the horizon like blood in dark sand, not illuminating so much as highlighting the darkness that still remained.

Jason's mood matched the ambience perfectly, whatever joy he had felt at the beginning of The Dream marred and overshadowed by the darkness of the end.

He felt stinging tears at the corners of his eyes and wiped them quickly on his jacket, the rough fabric of his camouflaged hunting jacket scraping at his skin, waking him up through the heady salve of discomfort, the healing balm of pain. He reveled in the pain, let it hold him like a mother holds a child, let it take away the greater pain of his memories, leaving him exhausted and broken in its wake...but alive.

For what? he thought. Why go on?

He looked around him for an answer. He was in the forest outside of Rising, the thick foliage his only ceiling, the trees his only walls. No cell phones, no radios, no nothing. Just him and the hunt.

He came out here every year. Every year on the anniversary of his loss, he got as far from city life - as far from
everything
- that reminded him of that night as he could. Came away to hunt and be alone. He usually came back with some kind of animal, which he dutifully had the town butcher cut into portions that he doled out to the less affluent members of Rising's populace, saving only the roughest cuts - the only parts he deserved - for his own freezer.