River Walk: Ten Kinky Collaborations (46 page)

Arriving back home I snuggled my head into my pillow thinking about my pending non-date. I’d be kidding myself if I didn’t admit to giving in to my sense of excitement about seeing Marc tomorrow. Turning the light off, my head snuggled into the soft fluffy pillow. Yes, I was so tired and...

I was up in Belinda Huntington’s house, not alone. Marc was there. We were not kids anymore. We were adults. I was naked. He had on that business suit. He told me he knew what I needed. I was naked and sitting up with my breasts thrust out. For some reason, I was leaning forward as he slapped my breasts from side to side. My nipples were hard. My arms were tied behind my back at my elbows with some weird rope. I wanted more and I felt my vagina pulsing, becoming so wet. I kept thinking...hey, why am I naked in this, and you’re not? Hits to all areas of both breasts. He towered over me and was in command. He kept saying that he knew what I wanted, needed. I remember I loved the feeling, slapping my tits. It was so erotic, being slapped like that. It stung and felt so good at the same time. I loved it. I was worried about someone coming in through the door. He told me to hush and not to worry. He used those man hands I saw in the elevator and teased my nipples. I watched his thumbs manoeuvring around each nipple, enticing them. He was not like any other lover. Somehow he flipped me over the back of the couch. The one we sat on at that party. Then all I remember is him grabbing my hips tightly and pounding me from behind, filling my hole made just for him. It felt out of this world. I wanted to see him, but I couldn’t. He wouldn’t let me. Filling me with his cock...made for me. He was fucking me in my dream, and I loved it.

I came in my sleep. Or so I thought. It woke me up.

What the hell was that?
I have never dreamed like that before.
Or had sex like that!
Plus, no guy has
ever
slapped my breasts. That was Marc in my dream, and he fucked me.
Lovers exist like that?
I’ll have to find me one of those. I’m now wide awake. Being so turned on like that I had to feel myself; and so my hand traveled down to my naked lower half. I was soaking and swollen. That was one hot dream. I liked, no I loved, him punishing my breasts. I felt my nipples. They were rock hard. What was happening to me?

I turned over, brought my knees up, moved my hand back down and found my clit that was yearning for attention. Easily found, I pressed on it rubbing my
dream
juices all around. I shut my eyes, envisioning my slapped tits being sucked by him. I wasn’t sure if I had ever felt myself this wet or swollen. I came too quickly. Minutes later, I snuggled back into my pillow. Not surprisingly, I slept well for the rest of the night.

CHAPTER FOUR

In the late morning, I took extra care in getting ready. My hair softly framed my face. Again, my makeup was minimal. I was fortunate to have inherited my mother’s skin and blue eyes. He had sent me a text, telling me to dress casual. So, cream pants and a baby blue blouse were fitting. I wasn’t sure exactly what Marc had in mind for the afternoon. Maybe he could only spend an hour with me?

My phone buzzed, and he was waiting for me downstairs. I grabbed my purse and made my way down the elevator. He’d probably be waiting in his SUV out in the front of my building. Stepping off the elevator, I was looking down at my cute new patterned flats, and walked right into...

I almost fell; I was walking fast, with my head down. Damn! Second time I bumped into him.
What the hell?
Someone must have let him into the lobby.

Marc steadied me with his hands on my arms and said, “Whoa, I’ve got ya”.

My face went red; I did not think he would be in my lobby waiting for me here.

I said too loudly, “Oh, you surprised me. I thought you would be outside in your car. But this is nice. Yeah, it’s nice. Thanks for coming into my lobby.”
Ok, shut up now Vivian
.

We stood there and for a minute just looked at each other, smiling. It was if we were just meeting for the first time. It felt awkward and comfortable at the same time. He really had the most beautiful eyes.

Marc continued to look at me and finally broke our silence with, “Your hair looks nice like that.”

All I could do was smile back. Just like being back in school, I was happy just be being close to him. He placed his hand on the small of my back and motioned me toward the front door. His hand felt so right being placed there, guiding and protecting me. I wondered at that moment if he could feel my heart pounding.

He opened the passenger door, but it wasn’t his SUV. Instead, I found myself sitting in this nice Lexus coupe. I wasn’t a car person, but I knew that most people treat their cars like their pets: they like it when you pay them a compliment.

He got into the driver seat, and turned to look at me. “You have a nice car,” I said, a little awkwardly.
Insightful comment Vivian
.

“Thanks, I usually drive my SUV, you know with the kids.” He started to pull away, turned briefly to look at me, winked and said; “Besides I save this car for taking pretty women on Sunday afternoon joy rides”.
Yes, buddy, I would love to joy ride you.

With that I put my sunglasses on. This way, he couldn’t see where my eyes were focused. Whenever I could, I would sneak a glance at his hands on the wheel or his thick man knees pressed against the fabric of his pants or the way his bicep moved when he made a turn. I enjoyed seeing his hands handle the steering wheel. I could tell by the nicely fitted shirt he was wearing, that he too belonged to a gym. His driving skills were impeccable, and soon I relaxed beside him, as he played tour guide.

We spent the next hour sightseeing. Between work and family, I’d spent very little time enjoying San Antonio. Essentially, I was seeing things I hadn’t seen in years and some new things too. Marc was giving me a welcome home tour. We never stopped talking the entire way. We even talked about Belinda’s party. Thankfully, we spared one another an embarrassing moment by not bringing up the memory of our little love session. He told me that he was the one who asked her to invite me; because he liked me back then. So, the mystery was solved. I remember wondering why she’d invited me.

“I took the liberty of packing us a picnic that I think you’ll like. You hungry?” He asked, looking like a young boy.

“Umm, sure am,” I wouldn’t want to disappoint him after he went ahead and made the effort, but the truth be told, my tummy had those butterflies that were taking up residency whenever he was near.

“Good then, here we are,” he whispered as he leaned over. For a minute I thought he was going to kiss me, but he backed off. I was sure that would be crossing the line. We arrived at the Landa Library Gardens.
A library
? He explained that this was a quaint charming little park attached to a library that he often brought his children to.

It was quaint with: arches and pillars, sculptures, fountains, small plaques and book shaped tablets located in the perfectly manicured gardens.

“I’ve never been here before. It is enchanting,” declaring my appreciation for him showing me this lovely place. He looked over at me and told me he had only ever brought his family here, and it was a special place.

We walked until we found the perfect place to sit for our picnic. True to his word, he had packed my favorite type of lunch. He thought of everything, even a blanket to sit on. A French baquette, with different cheeses, some fruit and freshly baked chewy raisin oatmeal cookies. The tastiest cookies ever. He brought plastic wine glasses along with a smaller bottle of Merlot. Our conversation flowed.

“I remembered that you like raisin oatmeal cookies. Once, in class, we had to do a poem about our favorite cookie,” he smiled and leaned in and said, “you were the only girl in the class with a poem about raisin oatmeal cookies. Everyone else had chocolate chip, surprise, surprise.” Then he looked upward and rolled his eyes.

I watched as he took a sip of wine. An insect decided to invade our picnic. He swiftly swatted it away. Instantly, the memory of my previous night’s dream came flooding back into my mind. Him slapping my breasts. I felt a tightening in my pelvis, and my nipples pressed against my bra. My face flamed to the colour of the wine.

“Are you alright?” Marc asked gently.

“Oh yes, just a little flushed from the wine,” I whispered. If only he knew.
Maybe he likes that sort of thing. Apparently, I do too.

“Can I ask you a question?” he said.

“Ask away,” I replied.

“What happened to you in school? Why did you disappear like that?” He asked.

I wasn’t expecting him to ask about that. “Oh, umm. Well, I got quite sick Marc. A childhood disease that I was immunized for but for some reason, didn’t take. So, yeah. I was in the hospital for a long time, and then my mom kept me home. Same hospital that I work at now. Funny coincidence,” I said in a quiet voice. It was something that I didn’t talk about often.

He leaned over and focused on my face as I continued.

“That’s why I’m not really with anyone. I’m...I’m unable to have children because of that illness.” My eyes started to tear, so I put my sunglasses back over my eyes. No one would see me cry over that, not even Mark Tullford.

“Vivian, I am really sorry. Truly, I am. Any man would be lucky to be with you. With or without children. I’m sorry you feel like that.”

I shrugged, “I am sure it is different for those couples that find that out after they fall in love. But I know now. I’m alone for a reason. So, that is how it has to be. It’s better like that. It’s my coping mechanism, or so I’ve been told, if I don’t get close then I don’t have to deal with the loss. The loss of not being able to conceive,” I paused and whispered, “for some women they make the decision and are happy with it, but for me, it was made for me. And besides, I don’t want to ruin that or take that away for anyone.”

Marc reached for my hand and just held it, looking at my face. I almost burst into tears, but instead, stiffened my back and said, “I’ve never told anyone this, especially not my family. You know, I don’t want them to feel sorry for me, or worry about me. I wanted to have children and a family of my own.” I shook my head, choking back tears and said, “Hey, let’s not let this ruin our delicious picnic. Change of topic, please Sir?”

With that, we enjoyed the food, the rest of the wine and the fine Sunday afternoon weather. Marc lightened the atmosphere by telling me silly kid jokes. It was easy being with him. There is no agenda or expectations, we just enjoy one another.

In the late afternoon, he took me home and insisted on walking me to my front door. I thanked him for a perfect Sunday afternoon. I told him that I would be seeing my family for dinner, and he said that he would be doing the same.

We spent the next month, meeting for lunch and taking the occasional walk. He was very respectful and didn’t push the boundaries in any way. But I felt this electricity between us. Every time I was with him, he made me melt. I wanted him. I imagined him. I wanted another woman’s husband and it was so wrong. I knew my heart would be broken one day. He spoke openly about his children and seemed to be a real hands-on father. I started to feel guilt about our growing relationship. He never spoke about his wife and I dared not ask.

I was so confused. My vagina was in competition with my head.

CHAPTER FIVE

About three weeks later, he had to go out of town on business. Europe he said. We kept in contact through texting. One night I drove by his house, just to look at it and secretly wondered if he was really out of town or that was his way of getting rid of me. We were just friends, but I knew we were starting to cross the line because the relationship was becoming more and more intimate. After work, I took the long way home. Driving by I spotted his SUV in the driveway, I could see his beautiful wife in the living room. She was dancing with his little Jennifer. Frozen in my seat, I watched until I couldn’t take it any longer. I sped away.

That’s when I knew, feeling sick to my stomach. I just knew. I had to cut him free. No more lunches, no more fun messages, no more mid-day phone calls, no more walks along the River Walk. I crossed the line. How could I do that? I was in love with this man.

Somehow I drove home that night, walked straight to my bed, kicked my shoes off, and with my clothes still on, cried myself to sleep. I did this, and I only had myself to blame.

The next week, I deleted his text messages without reading them, along with any emails. Call display showed his work number. I ignored those calls too.
Call your wife Marc, not me.
I was really missing him. My heart was crushed. I couldn’t continue with this kind of relationship or do this to his children or wife. Right from the start I was asking for trouble. And so was he.

One night I arrived at my condo after my walk along the River Walk, and he was waiting at my front door. My heart flipped.

“Vivian, why have you been ignoring me?” He seemed concerned.

“You’re married Marc. I can’t do this anymore. This dance we have going on. Please just leave me alone.” I raised my voice, straightened my back and said, “go home to your family Marc.”

With that, I turned on my heel and escaped into my condo, the security door closing behind me. I left him standing out there. I did not look back, even when I heard him knocking on the glass.

The next week I continued to ignore his calls; I listened to one just to hear his voice and he said we needed to talk.
Not with me Marc, not this time
.

One night, I decided to go back to the park where we had our picnic. I could walk and cry it out. Self-induced therapy. I pulled out of my condo and drove. Another car ride conversation with myself as I confessed. “You knew this would happen Vivian. Congrats, you are the other women. Yup, guess what happens to the other woman? She ends up heartbroken and alone. You’re a fuck head Marc.”

I pulled into a parking spot, relieved there were few cars in the parking lot and ready to walk it off. It was a beautiful June night; I had some time before the sunset to enjoy the gardens. I walked by the pavilion and I heard, “Vivian. Vivian, stop...please, just give me a minute.”