Rock Springs (3 page)

“What goes on in that plant or whatever it is back there beyond these trailers, where all the lights are on?”

“Gold,” the woman said and smiled.

“It's what?” I said.

“Gold,” the Negro woman said, smiling as she had for almost all the time I'd been there. “It's a gold mine.”

“They're mining gold back there?” I said, pointing.

“Every night and every day.” She smiled in a pleased way.

“Does your husband work there?” I said.

“He's the assayer,” she said. “He controls the quality. He works three months a year, and we live the rest of the time at home in Rockford. We've waited a long time for this. We've been happy to have our grandson, but I won't say I'll be sorry to have him go. We're ready to start our lives over.” She smiled broadly at me and then at Terrel, who was giving her a spiteful look from the floor. “You said you had a daughter,” the Negro woman said. “And what's her name?”

“Irma Cheryl,” I said. “She's named for my mother.”

“That's nice. And she's healthy, too. I can see it in your face.” She looked at Terrel Junior with pity.

“I guess I'm lucky,” I said.

“So far you are. But children bring you grief, the same way they bring you joy. We were unhappy for a long time before my husband got his job in the gold mine. Now, when Terrel starts to school, we'll be kids again.” She stood up. “You might miss your cab, Mr. Middleton,” she said, walking toward the door, though not to be forcing me out. She was too polite. “If
we
can't see your car, the cab surely won't be able to.”

“That's true.” I got up off the recliner, where I'd been so comfortable. “None of us have eaten yet, and your food makes me know how hungry we probably all are.”

“There are fine restaurants in town, and you'll find
them,” the Negro woman said. “I'm sorry you didn't meet my husband. He's a wonderful man. He's everything to me.”

“Tell him I appreciate the phone,” I said. “You saved me.”

“You weren't hard to save,” the woman said. “Saving people is what we were all put on earth to do. I just passed you on to whatever's coming to you.”

“Let's hope it's good,” I said, stepping back into the dark.

“I'll be hoping, Mr. Middleton. Terrel and I will both be hoping.”

I waved to her as I walked out into the darkness toward the car where it was hidden in the night.

T
he cab had already arrived when I got there. I could see its little red-and-green roof lights all the way across the dry wash, and it made me worry that Edna was already saying something to get us in trouble, something about the car or where we'd come from, something that would cast suspicion on us. I thought, then, how I never planned things well enough. There was always a gap between my plan and what happened, and I only responded to things as they came along and hoped I wouldn't get in trouble. I was an offender in the law's eyes. But I always
thought
differently, as if I weren't an offender and had no intention of being one, which was the truth. But as I read on a napkin once, between the idea and the act a whole kingdom lies. And I had a hard time with my acts, which were oftentimes offender's acts, and my ideas, which were as good as the gold they mined there where the bright lights were blazing.

“We're waiting for you, Daddy,” Cheryl said when I crossed the road. “The taxicab's already here.”

“I see, hon,” I said, and gave Cheryl a big hug. The cabdriver was sitting in the driver's seat having a smoke with the lights on inside. Edna was leaning against the back of the cab between the taillights, wearing her Bailey hat. “What'd you tell him?” I said when I got close.

“Nothing,” she said. “What's there to tell?”

“Did he see the car?”

She glanced over in the direction of the trees where we had hid the Mercedes. Nothing was visible in the darkness, though I could hear Little Duke combing around in the underbrush tracking something, his little collar tinkling. “Where're we going?” she said. “Fm so hungry I could pass out.”

“Edna's in a terrible mood,” Cheryl said. “She already snapped at me.”

“We're tired, honey,” I said. “So try to be nicer.”

“She's never nice,” Cheryl said.

“Run go get Little Duke,” I said. “And hurry back.”

“I guess
my
questions come last here, right?” Edna said.

I put my arm around her. “That's not true.”

“Did you find somebody over there in the trailers you'd rather stay with? You were gone long enough.”

“That's not a thing to say,” I said. “I was just trying to make things look right, so we don't get put in jail.”

“So
you
don't, you mean.” Edna laughed a little laugh I didn't like hearing.

“That's right. So I don't,” I said. “I'd be the one in Dutch.” I stared out at the big, lighted assemblage of white buildings and white lights beyond the trailer community, plumes of white smoke escaping up into the heartless Wyoming sky, the whole company of buildings looking like some unbelievable casde, humming away in a distorted dream. “You know what all those buildings are there?” I said to Edna, who hadn't moved and who didn't really seem to care if she ever moved anymore ever.

“No. But I can't say it matters, because it isn't a motel and it isn't a restaurant.”

“It's a gold mine,” I said, staring at the gold mine, which, I knew now, was a greater distance from us than it seemed, though it seemed huge and near, up against the cold sky. I thought there should've been a wall around it with guards instead of just the lights and no fence. It seemed as if anyone could go in and take what they wanted, just the way I had gone up to that woman's trailer and used the telephone, though that obviously wasn't true.

Edna began to laugh then. Not the mean laugh I didn't like, but a laugh that had something caring behind it, a full laugh that enjoyed a joke, a laugh she was laughing the first time I laid eyes on her, in Missoula in the East Gate Bar in 1979, a laugh we used to laugh together when Cheryl was still with her mother and I was working steady at the track and not stealing cars or passing bogus checks to merchants. A better time all around. And for some reason it made me laugh just hearing her, and we both stood there behind the cab in the dark, laughing at the gold mine in the desert, me with my arm around her and Cheryl out rusding up Little Duke and the cabdriver smoking in the cab and our stolen Mercedes-Benz, which I'd had such hopes for in Florida, stuck up to its axle in sand, where I'd never get to see it again.

“I always wondered what a gold mine would look like when I saw it,” Edna said, still laughing, wiping a tear from her eye.

“Me too,” I said. “I was always curious about it.”

“We're a couple of fools, aren't we, Earl?” she said, unable to quit laughing completely. “We're two of a kind.”

“It might be a good sign, though,” I said.

“How could it be? It's not our gold mine. There aren't any drive-up windows.” She was still laughing.

“We've seen it,” I said, pointing. “That's it right there.
It may mean we're getting closer. Some people never see it at all.”

“In a pig's eye, Earl,” she said. “You and me see it in a pig's eye.”

And she turned and got in the cab to go.

T
he cabdriver didn't ask anything about our car or where it was, to mean he'd noticed something queer. All of which made me feel like we had made a clean break from the car and couldn't be connected with it until it was too late, if ever. The driver told us a lot about Rock Springs while he drove, that because of the gold mine a lot of people had moved there in just six months, people from all over, including New York, and that most of them lived out in the trailers. Prostitutes from New York City, who he called “B-girls,” had come into town, he said, on the prosperity tide, and Cadillacs with New York plates cruised the little streets every night, full of Negroes with big hats who ran the women. He told us that everybody who got in his cab now wanted to know where the women were, and when he got our call he almost didn't come because some of the trailers were brothels operated by the mine for engineers and computer people away from home. He said he got tired of running back and forth out there just for vile business. He said that
60 Minutes
had even done a program about Rdck Springs and that a blow-up had resulted in Cheyenne, though nothing could be done unless the boom left town. “It's prosperity's fruit,” the driver said. “I'd rather be poor, which is lucky for me.”

He said all the motels were sky-high, but since we were a family he could show us a nice one that was affordable. But I told him we wanted a first-rate place where they took animals, and the money didn't matter because we had had a hard day
and wanted to finish on a high note. I also knew that it was in the little nowhere places that the police look for you and find you. People Fd known were always being arrested in cheap hotels and tourist courts with names you'd never heard of before. Never in Holiday Inns or TraveLodges.

I asked him to drive us to the middle of town and back out again so Cheryl could see the train station, and while we were there I saw a pink Cadillac with New York plates and a TV aerial being driven slowly by a Negro in a big hat down a narrow street where there were just bars and a Chinese restaurant. It was an odd sight, nothing you could ever expect.

“There's your pure criminal element,” the cabdriver said and seemed sad. “I'm sorry for people like you to see a thing like that. We've got a nice town here, but there're some that want to ruin it for everybody. There used to be a way to deal with trash and criminals, but those days are gone forever.”

“You said it,” Edna said.

“You shouldn't let it get
you
down,” I said to him. “There's more of you than them. And there always will be. You're the best advertisement this town has. I know Cheryl will remember you and not
that
man, won't you, honey?” But Cheryl was alseep by then, holding Little Duke in her arms on the taxi seat.

The driver took us to the Ramada Inn on the interstate, not far from where we'd broken down. I had a small pain of regret as we drove under the Ramada awning that we hadn't driven up in a cranberry-colored Mercedes but instead in a beat-up old Chrysler taxi driven by an old man full of complaints. Though I knew it was for the best. We were better off without that car; better, really, in any other car but that one, where the signs had turned bad.

I registered under another name and paid for the room in cash so there wouldn't be any questions. On the line where it said “Representing” I wrote “Ophthalmologist” and put
“M.D.” after the name. It had a nice look to it, even though it wasn't my name.

When we got to the room, which was in the back where I'd asked for it, I put Cheryl on one of the beds and Little Duke beside her so they'd sleep. She'd missed dinner, but it only meant she'd be hungry in the morning, when she could have anything she wanted. A few missed meals don't make a kid bad. I'd missed a lot of them myself and haven't turned out completely bad.

“Let's have some fried chicken,” I said to Edna when she came out of the bathroom. “They have good fried chicken at Ramadas, and I noticed the buffet was still up. Cheryl can stay right here, where it's safe, till we're back.”

“I guess I'm not hungry anymore,” Edna said. She stood at the window staring out into the dark. I could see out the window past her some yellowish foggy glow in the sky. For a moment I thought it was the gold mine out in the distance lighting the night, though it was only the interstate.

“We could order up,” I said. “Whatever you want. There's a menu on the phone book. You could just have a salad.”

“You go ahead,” she said. “I've lost my hungry spirit.” She sat on the bed beside Cheryl and Little Duke and looked at them in a sweet way and put her hand on Cheryl's cheek just as if she'd had a fever. “Sweet little girl,” she said. “Everybody loves you.”

“What do you want to do?” I said. “I'd like to eat. Maybe
I'll
order up some chicken.”

“Why don't you do that?” she said. “It's your favorite.” And she smiled at me from the bed.

I sat on the other bed and dialed room service. I asked for chicken, garden salad, potato and a roll, plus a piece of hot apple pie and iced tea. I realized I hadn't eaten all day. When I put down the phone I saw that Edna was watching me, not in
a hateful way or a loving way, just in a way that seemed to say she didn't understand something and was going to ask me about it.

“When did watching me get so entertaining?” I said and smiled at her. I was trying to be friendly. I knew how tired she must be. It was after nine o'clock.

“I was just thinking how much I hated being in a motel without a car that was mine to drive. Isn't that funny? I started feeling like that last night when that purple car wasn't mine. That purple car just gave me the willies, I guess, Earl.”

“One of those cars
outside
is yours,” I said. “Just stand right there and pick it out.”

“I know,” she said. “But that's different, isn't it?” She reached and got her blue Bailey hat, put it on her head, and set it way back like Dale Evans. She looked sweet. “I used to like to go to motels, you know,” she said. “There's something secret about them and free—I was never paying, of course. But you felt safe from everything and free to do what you wanted because you'd made the decision to be there and paid that price, and all the rest was the good part. Fucking and everything, you know.” She smiled at me in a good-natured way.

“Isn't that the way this is?” I was sitting on the bed, watching her, not knowing what to expect her to say next.