Authors: Alison Knight
I'm halfway up the path when a horrible droning sound starts up. I stop and listen. It gets louder, rising in tone. Oh. My. God. A real life air-raid siren. In the dark sky columns of light appear, searching, criss-crossing, like they're dancing.
The back door opens and the girls run out.
âDon't just stand there, get in the shelter,' says Nelly.
But I can't move. The lights are almost hypnotic. I could watch them for hours.
âCome on, get under cover,' Nelly pushes me along the path. âThis ain't a game, you know. Every night we get this. Every bloody night.'
I stumble into the shelter, nearly ending up on my knees as I didn't realise there were a couple of steps down. They follow me in, pull the door shut and drag a curtain across it before May lights a lamp.
It's not very big in here, and it smells like Dad's potting shed. There are benches along the longer walls, and shelves at the back with books and boxed games and various âodds and sods' as Gran would say, including some blankets. May picks one up and gives it to me.
âHere, put that round you, Queenie. It gets bloody cold down here.' She sits down, wrapping herself up. âThis your first air raid?'
âYes,' I say, sitting down next to her and snuggling into the blanket. It feels a bit damp, but I expect it's just the cold. I hope so. âHow long will it last?'
May shrugged. âGod knows. Some nights we're here until first light. But if our boys do their job, they'll send Jerry packing before too long. Either way, we have to wait for the all-clear.'
Nelly sits opposite and pulls a book off the shelf and starts to read, ignoring us. I don't know how she can see in this light. The lamp gives the shelter a hazy glow, but it's not exactly bright. May just lays down and curls up. She looks like she's going to doze off. Neither of them seems that bothered. I suppose they're used to it. I pull the blanket round me and sit here, listening.
In the distance I can hear a low rumbling, then it starts â the rat-a-tat-tat of the guns; the howling of the bombs as they fall. Explosions shake the ground, making dirt and dust fall on us from the roof of the shelter.
I won't lie, I'm shit scared. I've never experienced anything like this. I could actually die â right here in this crappy, smelly, rotten shelter â and no one would know what happened to me.
The planes are right overhead now, and even May and Nelly are looking tense. I can feel the vibrations of their engines right through my chest. My mum took me to a Olly Murs gig once at Westonbirt Arboretum and we got right up the front, by the giant speakers. When the music started the sound was so big it flowed right through my chest, just like this is doing now. Only it's nothing like this. Me and Mum were having a great time, and I wasn't in danger of getting blown to bits then.
Thinking of my mum is quite upsetting, you know? I mean, what if I get killed here? We had an awful row before they left. I can't get my head round the idea that I might never see her or Dad again. Didn't Gran and Great-aunt Eleanor say Queenie disappeared? They thought she was dead. Jeez, now I'm totally freaked. Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God!
âYou all right, Queenie?' asks May, peeking over the edge of her blanket.
Crash! A bomb explodes somewhere close. I cover my head with my hands, waiting for the world to fall in on my head. âI don't want to die!'
âAw, don't fret, love,' says May, sitting up and putting an arm around me. âNone of us do, do we Nell?'
Nelly shakes her head. â'Course we don't. But if it's our turn, there ain't much we can do about it.'
The smell of burning wood floats under the door. I can hear sirens, guns, and the droning of the airplanes going on and on and on.
âHow can you be so calm about it?' I shout. âThis is really serious.'
âAll right, keep your hair on. Getting in a state won't make no difference.'
âAre you telling me you're not scared?' I ask her. More bangs, more bombs landing. I try not to flinch.
âOh, I'm scared all right,' she said. âDon't let no one tell you they ain't scared, 'cause they'd be lying. But you can't give in to it, can you? If we do that, we might as well just put our hands up and surrender.'
âShe's right,' says May. âI don't know about you, Queenie, but I don't fancy talking German, do you?'
âYou can hardly talk proper English,' says Nelly.
âCheeky mare,' says May, grinning at her sister.
I shake my head. They don't understand. I know they're going to be all right. But what about me?
âCome on, Queenie, don't fuss. You stick with us and we'll see you all right. Your first air raid is always the worst. I don't mind admitting I nearly wet meself the first time. I'm still scared â like Nelly says, everyone is. But you get the hang of it.'
I seriously doubt it. But I'm not going to go on about it. I don't want them thinking I'm a wimp.
âI don't suppose you brought any food with you from the country, did you? It's all farms in Wiltshire, ain't it?' says Nelly.
For a few seconds I don't know what she's on about.
We're being bombed here, in case you hadn't noticed!
Then I realise she's trying to distract me. I try to concentrate.
âEr, no. Sorry. I live in a village, not on a farm.'
âI'll bet you've got a big house though, eh, Queenie?' says May.
âNot really. I'm not as posh as you think.' They look like they don't believe me. âHonestly, I'm not. Our house isn't any bigger than this one.'
âWhat does your dad do, then?' Nelly wants to know.
âOurs is at sea,' says May.
I know that already, but I try to look like I don't. But what can I say about my dad? He works with computers, but I can't tell them that â were they even invented in 1940? Wasn't the first computer used to break the German's secret codes? I remember seeing it on the telly on one of those history channel programmes Dad likes to watch. Enigma â that's it! I don't think that was until later in the war, though.
I'd better keep as close to the truth as possible. âUm ⦠he works on machines,' I say. Woomph! Another explosion rocks the shelter.
âWhat sort of machines?' asks May, ignoring it. I try to concentrate on her instead of all the chaos going on outside.
âI don't know. He doesn't talk about it.' Or rather, I realise, I never bother to listen. I feel guilty about that now. I might never get the chance to find out.
âAnd he works on these machines in Wiltshire, does he?' Nelly asks. She doesn't look convinced.
âMost of the time, yes.' I say. âHe works for a big company in Swindon. But he's in France at the moment.'
Nelly and May looked gobsmacked. What's the matter with them?
âBut France is in German hands,' says Nelly. âHow can he be there?'
Oh, great! How was I supposed to know? I've never been much interested in history. Hang on, what did we learn about the war at school? I think it started in 1939. So it's being going on for about a year now. The Germans took over most of Europe. They didn't get to us because of the English Channel, so they sent their planes and bombs. Yeah, and I've landed in the middle of it! Just to emphasise the fact there's another almighty bang and the door blows open. In the distance I can see flames and smoke and searchlights. Nelly jumps up and pushes the door shut again.
I know we won the war eventually, of course, but not for years and I can't remember the details. Something to do with beaches in France and atom bombs in Japan. This is getting sooo complicated!
âI shouldn't have said that,' I say. âForget I said it.' I feel like Hagrid from the
Harry Potter
films. He always seemed to be saying that when he put his foot in it. And it always led to trouble for someone.
âAh,' says May, tapping the side of her nose. âSecret work.'
âYou'd better not make a mistake like that at the factory, or someone'll report you,' says Nelly. âYou should know better. “Walls have ears”, remember.'
âYes, sorry,' I say, feeling stupid. I'll never get away with this. I just seem to keep getting things wrong. I wish I was a bit cleverer, like the companions in
Dr Who
. They always seem to know what to do and say. But then again, they've got a bloody script to follow, haven't they!
âWhat about your mum?' says May while Nelly glares at me, just like Great-aunt Eleanor does. âShe doing war work 'n'all?'
âEr ⦠yes.' I'd better play it safe. I tap my nose and wink at May. âI can't talk about it.'
She nods, not even a bit suspicious, bless her. But her sister is.
âHow come you've been sent here?' asks Nelly. âSeems a bit daft to me, you getting a job in London when it's a lot safer in the country.'
God will she ever give up?
âI really don't know,' I say. âI didn't have any choice.' And that's definitely the truth.
âDone any sewing before?' asked May.
âNo.'
âWhat did you do back home, then?' Nelly frowned.
âI'm still at school. I'm doing GCSEs.'
âG what?' she says.
âEr, you know. Exams.'
âNow, hang on a minute,' Nelly is getting right worked up now. âYou've been sent here to work at Cohen's, but you reckon you're still at school? How old are you?'
I want to slap myself on the head. Why can't I keep my stupid mouth shut?
âI'm fifteen, nearly sixteen.'
âBlimey!' says May. âI said she was posh, Nell. Still at school and taking exams.'
â'Course she ain't,' Nelly snaps at her sister. âShe's one of us workers now. Mr Cohen said she's here for the duration, not just the bleeding school holidays. And I ain't never heard of no GC whatever exams. English people take the School Certificate. So where are you really from, eh?'
I feel sick. Doesn't âthe duration' mean until the war is over? I can't stay here until 1945! âLook,' I say, raising my voice to drown out the noise of the explosions and crashes and gunfire outside. âI'm only here because my mum said I had to come. As soon as Dad's job is finished in France, I'm going home to Wiltshire, OK? And I'm going back to school to take my exams because my mum and dad said I have to, and I don't care if you've never heard of them, OK?'
âAll right, don't get your knickers in a twist,' says Nelly, backing off a bit. âWe didn't have any choice in this either, you know. You sort it out with Mr Cohen and the Ministry. It's no skin off my nose if you go back where you came from. But I wouldn't count on it, Miss Posh. We've all got to do our bit.'
Another bang. More ack-ack-ack of gun-fire. She really has no idea. Not a clue. I can't count on anything right now. I wonder what she'd think if I told her the truth? Not that I'm going to â seeing as how I don't know what the truth is right now.
âNell didn't want to leave school, neither,' says May, ignoring the tension between me and Nelly. âMe, I couldn't wait. I'd rather be working and earning a few bob. It's a good laugh at Cohen's. You'll like it.'
Before I can reply there's an almighty crash. The whole shelter shakes and May squeals and dives under the blanket. Even Nelly ducks, holding her book over her head. I'm so shocked I just sit here with my mouth open. My ears are ringing. I shake my head, trying to clear them. Dust is floating through the gaps around the door curtain, and I have to shut my mouth as it's making me cough.
âBlimey, that was close,' May peeps out from her blanket again.
âToo bloody close,' says Nelly. âI hope it ain't blown out our windows.'
I can hear bells and whistles outside. âShould we go and see? They might need some help.' I hope not. It sounds way too scary out there.
âNo,' says Nelly. âThe wardens and the firemen will do what they can. They'll shout if they need help. If we go out there gawping we'll only get in the way.'
âOur Dad said we should stay together and keep safe,' says May. âIt's too dangerous to go out before the all-clear. Better stay here. Worrying don't make it no better, Queenie. Try and get some rest.'
Rest? How am I going to rest? It's chaos out there! I know she's only trying to make me calm down, like someone telling me to chillax when I get all stressed about how totally unreasonable my parents are. But there's a bloody war going on and I'm sitting here in the middle of it when I should be out shopping for a new phone charger and some skinny jeans in Oxford Street!
I pull the blanket over my head and put my fingers in my ears and start singing to myself to drown out the noise. âLa la la la la la la la la la la.'
âAnd you can shut that bloody racket up,' Nelly yells at me.
A couple of hours later I'm trying to stretch the kinks out of my neck when Nelly raises her head, listening. âI think it's dying down,' she says.
âThank Christ,' says May. âLet's hope there ain't no more on the way. I want me bed. I'm bleeding shattered.'
Me too. I'd give anything to be back home in Wiltshire right now.
CHAPTER FIVE
It seems like hours before the all clear siren goes off. We fold up the blankets and turn the lamp out. In the garden we stand and watch the searchlights doing their dance again, only this time the sky's not black but orange and grey from the fires and smoke. In the distance we can hear the sound of fire engines and the hiss of water as it hits the burning buildings.
âThey're getting closer every night,' says Nelly.
âI hope our boys got a few of them,' says May.
âIt looks like there's a lot of fires.' In a strange way it looks beautiful. Smoke is swirling around the flames, dancing with the searchlights.
âYeah,' says May. âPeople's homes, they are. Jerry don't care what he hits â houses, schools, shops. The bastards.'