Run to Him (12 page)

She almost always took back an empty plate. Hardly ever had Daisy returned a biscuit to the kitchen.

If ever a mother was too polite or too scared to allow her children to take one, Daisy would press a few into her hand at the front door, wrapped in greaseproof paper and tied up with string.

‘Go on now, take it,’ she would say. ‘Have them for later.’

Daisy would have loved to have had children of her own.

She had arrived in Liverpool from Dublin to take her position at the Priory whilst still a child. She became an assistant to the fathers’ cook, Mrs Malone, and like most young girls she had a head full of dreams and plans.

Father James had disposed of those faster than a speeding bullet.

‘You will have one day and one night off per month,’ he told her, within moments of her being summoned to his study.

Daisy was a little disappointed by that news. She had been told by the sisters at the orphanage in Dublin that she would have one day a week to herself and a week’s holiday each year, during which she could travel back to Ireland and visit the only place she knew to be home, the orphanage where she had been raised since she was a baby.

Now, all these years later, Daisy could count the days off she had taken on one hand.

‘You must work hard and help Mrs Malone in the kitchen,’ the sisters at the orphanage had told her. And, sure enough, working hard was what she had done every day since.

Without a moment’s pain or illness and certainly without any warning at all, Mrs Malone had dropped dead, almost ten years to the day following Daisy’s arrival.

Mrs Malone had often told Daisy what a good worker she was.

‘I don’t know how I would manage without you, Daisy,’ she said, at least once a day. ‘The sisters may have said you were simple in the head, but I didn’t want you for brains, brawn was what I was looking for and you have plenty of that.’

Daisy smiled with pleasure. Being told that she was simple was not news to her, sure, she had heard it so often before. But the sisters had also said, ‘You can hold your head up with no shame, you were born to a very good family, Daisy Quinn.’

Daisy never thought to question why she was in an orphanage and not with her family. She had no real understanding of what a family was.

Being a good girl and coming from a good family must have been why she was sent to take up such an important job in England and for one of the fathers too.

‘You have simple ways, but they can be put to good use if you can be protected from the sin that preys upon girls like yourself,’ the sisters had told her. Daisy had no idea which sin would prey upon her or what it would do, but she was grateful for the protection.

Neither the sisters nor Mrs Malone had ever mentioned to Daisy the other reason that she had been sent to the Priory.

Daisy presumed that they could not have known, because Father James forbade Daisy to speak to anyone about it.

‘To speak of anything that occurs in this Priory would be the greatest sin for which no forgiveness would ever be forthcoming. Ye will be left to burn alone in the eternal flames of hell and damnation. Do ye understand, girl?’

She was asked this question on a regular basis and her answer was always the dutiful same: ‘Yes, Father.’

Daisy took over the housekeeper’s role in full. She coped well and never took nor was offered a day off.

However, there had also been a number of welcome changes following Mrs Malone’s death.

Neither Father James nor any of his friends had bothered her again, and the nuns began to invite her over to the convent for tea.

She had only the bishop to tolerate now.

She sometimes wondered if Father James would have preferred someone other than herself as housekeeper, but on the night of Mrs Malone’s funeral, on her way to her modest room, she had overheard raised voices coming from the study.

‘The money for the Priory would stop if she left. It must follow her wherever she is and, anyway, the sisters in Dublin would have too many questions to ask should she be moved.’

That was the bishop speaking. A fat man, distinguishable by his thin, weedy whine, which as it whistled into the air struggled past the blubbery folds of lard gathered under his chin.

‘I suppose we are safer if she is here,’ said Father James in a tone loaded with disappointment.

‘Aye, we are that, but anyway, she is simple. No one would ever believe a word she said. I will write now that she is happy and improved. That she is running the show and, sure, isn’t that the truth? Wasn’t that just the grandest bit of rabbit pie we ever ate for supper?’

Daisy grinned from ear to ear with pleasure. They had loved her rabbit pie.

On this wet morning, Daisy padded across to the south side of the empty house. Sister Evangelista had popped a note through the door late last night to let her know she would be visiting the Priory this morning to help Daisy pack up the father’s room, ready to send his belongings to his sister in America.

The murder of Father James in the graveyard had taken place only feet away from the Priory and everyone was still in a state of profound shock.

Everyone except Daisy, that was.

Daisy wasn’t sad and didn’t miss the father at all. Not in the way she had missed Mrs Malone when she died.

In fact, Daisy missed Mrs Malone a great deal. She had always told Daisy what she could and could not do, and with no one to guide her, Daisy was lost.

Father James had told her what she could and could not say.

What should she say now and who to?

Her mind was in torment.

Daisy pressed her forehead against the cold window and, looking down, watched the children walking to school. She saw Sister Evangelista close the convent door, make her way down the path and turn right along the pavement towards the Priory. The Reverend Mother waved to Kitty Doherty from number nineteen, who was making her way towards the school steps on the opposite side of the road to the convent. Kitty was herding along the two sets of twin boys and that lovely girl, Nellie Deane, from number forty-two was helping her. The girls waved back to Sister Evangelista, all smiles.

The Kitty girl. Daisy had often seen Father James visit her house, very often at night, but he never visited Nellie’s.

Nellie, whose mother, Bernadette, had died so tragically young and whom Daisy still saw sometimes in the dead of the night, running up and down the four streets.

It was Nellie’s Nana Kathleen who had woken Daisy late on the night the father was murdered. She had been talking to Bernadette as she left the Keating girl’s wedding and followed the river, down towards Nelson Street.

Daisy wasn’t scared to see the ghostly Bernadette with Kathleen. She often saw her in the graveyard and up and down Nelson Street, as she flew straight through the wall into what had once been her home, number forty-two.

Daisy, uneasy, had been unable to return to sleep on that particular night. She had wandered out of her bedroom, the static from her peach, brushed-nylon nightdress crackling and snapping at her feet as she walked. She had leant over the dark, swan-necked banister that swept away steeply, and gazed down the long stairwell. The hall light was still on. The father had yet to return home from the wedding. He would switch the light off when he returned to the Priory.

From the window, Daisy had watched Nana Kathleen and Bernadette, and waited. And then she had seen the father in his large hat and cloak, turning the corner into the back entry just ahead of them both. He hadn’t come back to the Priory as ususal that night.

Daisy knew she should tell someone what she had seen. But Daisy wasn’t allowed to tell anyone anything.

‘I might be simple,’ she had said to herself as she got back into bed on that fateful evening, ‘but I’m not an eejit. There’s no way I am spending eternity stood in the fires of hell.’

When the bell pull rang, Daisy almost fell down the stairs as she ran to open the Priory door for Sister Evangelista. She had been unhappy sleeping in the huge house on her own since the murder. Today she would beg Sister Evangelista to take her to the convent right away. She would be safe there, just as she had been at the orphanage.

‘Morning, Daisy.’ Sister Evangelista sounded brighter than she felt.

She was dreading this job but the bishop had been very strong indeed on the telephone.

‘Make sure you clear up every single thing that belonged to Father James, Sister, and I shall be with you later in the morning in my car to cart it all away to send on to his sister in America, everything, do ye understand?’

Of course Sister Evangelista understood. Did the man think she was witless?

‘Yes, Father, there will be no problem. The housekeeper Daisy will help me and it shouldn’t take long.’

‘Ah, yes, Daisy, the girl is a bit simple, is she not, Sister?’

‘She is, Bishop, but she is a good housekeeper, Mrs Malone trained her well.’

‘I am sure she did, but she is bound to be very upset indeed and may be prone to rambling. We must be careful to protect her, as she has no family of her own, except for us. I wonder if a spell in the peace and quiet of the convent might be a good idea?’

This had never crossed Sister Evangelista’s mind and she was far from happy. Disruption in the convent always upset the nuns’ routine and, sure, didn’t she have enough to do with a school to run as well?

However, even she dared not argue with the bishop.

‘Aye, well, I’ll see how she is, Father, when I get there, shall I? She will need to prepare the Priory for the father’s replacement.’

No sooner had the words left her mouth than her throat began to thicken with emotion and tears swam across her eyes.

‘I mean, what are the arrangements, Bishop? Where is Father James to be buried? We need someone in authority here. Everyone is dreadfully upset. Will you definitely be coming soon?’

The bishop had promised to visit days ago. But something both mysterious and urgent had occurred daily to prevent him. Sister Evangelista had carried the entire burden alone and now she felt exhausted.

She had almost broken down earlier in the morning when speaking to her friend, Miss Devlin, a teacher at the school.

‘Our own Father James, found murdered in the graveyard, and the bishop still hasn’t arrived to help deal with the police or bring some authority to the church, and now, here I am, about to pack up all his personal possessions in the Priory with only simple Daisy to help.’

Into one of her hands Miss Devlin had quietly placed a hankie, and into the other a cup of tea with a couple of Anadin on the saucer.

Tea and Anadin, hailed as a miracle cure by all of Liverpool’s women. A headache? Take a cuppa tea and two Anadin. A toothache? A cuppa tea and two Anadin. A priest found murdered in the graveyard? A cuppa tea and two Anadin. Anadin sat on the wooden shelf next to the Woodbines in the local tobacconist’s and they sold almost as many of one as the other. Acknowledged as an effective alternative to gin to help with the pains of afterbirth, mastitis, monthlies and the constant headaches brought on by looking after a dozen unruly children.

Miss Devlin had spoken in her customary gentle tone. ‘It has been very hard indeed on yourself. Drink the tea and take the Anadin now, Sister, and it will all be easier to face. The bishop will be here soon.’

Sister Evangelista’s distress on the telephone had been apparent. Sensing that she was losing patience, the bishop had tried to pacify her as an adult would a three-year-old child.

‘I will be there this afternoon, so keep calm now. Everyone must remain very calm. We cannot bury the father until the police release his body, but we know how the police can behave. Remember how pushy they were about coming into the school and upsetting the children. You must say nothing to them about anything. They will be looking for someone to blame and we mustn’t let that be us, Sister. Of course when I say us, I mean the Church. This is all a dreadful mess but be sure, Sister, we have a responsibility to protect our work.’

Sister Evangelista was speechless. She had no idea what the bishop was talking about. The police didn’t have anyone in their sights? He was right. In fact, they had taken themselves down a few embarrassing blind alleys, but none of them had led towards the school or the convent.

She replaced the receiver with a prayer that the bishop would make haste. As God was her judge, if she had to deal with much more on her own, likely she would go mad.

Now at the sight of Daisy’s relieved face, she was glad she had come.

‘Hello, Sister.’

Daisy grinned from ear to ear in that inane way she had. Her dark hair with its thick fringe was kept short and tidy with the help of a pudding basin and the kitchen scissors. Her nose dribbled slightly, as though she had a cold, but she seemed not to notice and her eyes always appeared bright, as though full of tears.

Sister Evangelista sighed. Her heart suddenly felt very heavy. Daisy would be of little help.

‘The bishop is arriving this afternoon to remove Father James’s belongings, Daisy. We need to pack up the father’s room and all of his personal possessions. I hope to God he sends another priest to us soon to take charge. Everyone is in such a state.’

Daisy’s heart sank into her boots. Whenever the bishop visited, he slept over at the Priory and often popped into Daisy’s room before retiring for the night. Father James had accompanied him the first time, but ever after he had visited her alone.

Daisy’s expression never altered, and she didn’t speak.

‘Have you any sacks, or the father’s suitcase, Daisy?’

Sister Evangelista’s mind was already focused on the task ahead. Daisy nodded. ‘We have hessian flour sacks folded up in the scullery and there’s a suitcase on top of Father James’s wardrobe in his room,’ she said.

‘Good girl, bring them to the study, we will start in there. And, Daisy, you had better bring a tray of tea for us both, we could be a while.’

Daisy disappeared into the kitchen, as Sister Evangelista walked across the highly polished parquet floor of the square hallway and, in a businesslike manner, threw open the study door.