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“Oh, no, please,” Julia blurted before she could stop herself. “Could they stay? I . . . I really do miss my young sisters, and I'd be happy to play with them if you'd like to return to your card game.”
Gloria looked doubtfully at her, but then nodded and agreed. Before she stepped away, while the girls were still distracted and capering about in glee at getting to remain with the adults, Julia asked her if she might give the girls each a coin. “For their Christmas boxes,” she explained.
This time Gloria's smile was real and warm. “Thank you, Miss Herington,” she said. “I think they would be delighted.”
She bit her lip and looked anxiously at her mother. Lady Matheson was consulting her cards and looking impatient for the game to resume. “Thank you for thinking of my girls,” she added in a rush, and with a nod, returned to the table.
Julia grinned back at her, pleasantly surprised. James had once said he had little in common with his sister, describing her as excessively proper. Julia had expected her to be reserved and haughty, and so she had seemed throughout dinner. But she clearly had a heart to be touched; she loved her children so much. Her chill manner, Julia thought, had probably been made worse by the recent loss of her husband, and by having to live with her terrible mother—who, so far, seemed to have no such warm heart as her daughter.
Julia dug into her reticule to find half crowns for each girl. Naturally, they shrieked with delight and thanked her eagerly, over and over, as she wished them both a happy Christmas.
In the flurry of movement, James broke away from the card table and came over to join Julia. He crouched with her to greet his small nieces.
“Well, so these rascals are staying with us for a bit?” he teased, ruffling the hair of the adoring young girls. They clutched at his coat and clamored to be hoisted into the air, and he at once obliged them.
Julia watched, wonderingly, at his comfort and happiness with the girls, so like his sister's own joy in them. “So this is how you knew so well how to play with the children at Stonemeadows,” she reasoned.
“Hmm?” James said, distracted by small fists pounding him in the shoulder as Sophia begged to be lifted up again. “Oh, well, maybe so. Your four there were a bit much for me to keep up with sometimes, but I like children. And I do love these young ladies,” he said, lowering his voice. “They lost their father very suddenly, and they had to leave the country for London, so they lost their home, too. No dower house for them on the Roseborough estate.”
He swooped Sophia in a wide circle as she shrieked with laughter, drawing an irked stare from Lady Matheson that James and Julia both ignored.
“London's no place for children, not year-round. I can say that from my own experience. I'd like to get them back to the country someday. That's part of the reason why I'm interested in restoring Nicholls,” he explained. “I hope my sister will send them to live with me.”
Julia's heart warmed at his affectionate words. It was so like him to be warm and welcoming—and like him, too, to be a bit impractical. He seemed not to have thought of the one major flaw in his plan. She hated to say it, but it needed to be said. “James, I don't think your sister would part with her children. She loves them so.”
He looked surprised. He opened his mouth to speak, but first laid the giggling Sophia over his shoulder, and picked up Anne with his now-free arms.
“Oof.” He pretended to have trouble lifting the older girl as she collapsed bonelessly into giggles. “You've grown so much, you must weigh eighteen stone.”
Nieces momentarily assuaged, he returned his attention to Julia. “What do you mean? Gloria never cared for the country.”
“Maybe not,” Julia replied, “but she cares for her girls. Why, she lit up like a, a”—she searched for an appropriate simile, and finished—“like a Franklin stove when they came into the room.”
“Very poetic,” James congratulated her with mock gravity.
“I'm serious,” Julia insisted. Then, recollecting herself, she continued quickly in a hushed voice pitched low for his ears, “I've only met her this once, and you've known her your whole life, so of course I don't know her as well as you do. But she wasn't all that welcoming at first. I mean, she was welcoming, but not really
welcoming
, if you know what I mean? But then when her daughters came in, she was much more comfortable and she was actually quite kind and lovely.”
James blinked at her and set down his nieces one by one. He sent them off to their governess and bedtime with one last hug apiece, then looked back at Julia.
“I see. Ah . . . well . . . thank you for letting me know what you think.”
Julia flushed. “James, I'm sorry,” she assured him in a rush. “It's not my place to say anything about your family. What I meant was, I think they're lovely children, and your sister obviously cares about them very much.”
“I'm not at all offended,” he replied mildly. “I suppose I'd better invite them all.”
He darted a glance over at the card table, and, once assured that the four players were all occupied in their game, confided, “My sister and I have never been particularly close, and our parents led us toward very different lives. She married very young, and I . . .”
He trailed off, then admitted, “Well, I never had to do very much with my time, so I ran in, er, some different circles from those in which I was raised. Anyway, it's been quite a while since Gloria and I have dealt much together. Perhaps it's time I get to know her again.” He smiled and rested an encouraging hand on Julia's shoulder.
Julia smiled back, relishing the feeling of his hand. She wished she had just a bit more courage—with only a bit more, she would touch his hand with her own; she'd entwine her fingers with his.
She felt lucky to be a party to his plans, to be standing here with him, enjoying his company. The last time she'd felt so happy was . . . well, probably when she'd seen him earlier today. And before that, not for quite some time.
But here, in this moment, with him, there was nowhere else she would have wanted to be, and she was glad,
glad
, that she'd come to London for Christmas.
The intimate moment lengthened, and as so often happened, she spoke without thinking. “What happened to her husband? He must have been very young when he passed on.”
James's mouth tightened, and he dropped his hand from her shoulder. Julia realized she must have blundered terribly. “I'm sorry, I don't mean to pry.” She crossed her arms tightly across her chest, wishing she had a fan to flap around to occupy her hands, which felt awkward and heavy.
James sighed and rubbed a hand across weary eyes. “It's all right,” he replied, dropping his voice even lower.
“Your aunt would probably tell you eventually, though it's not really fit for the ears of a young woman.”
Julia bit her tongue, hard, to keep from hurrying James along. This promised to be quite interesting. She had long been convinced that some of the things most worth hearing were those deemed unfit for the ears of young women.
“How much Latin do you know?” James asked, fixing her with a piercing gaze. His green eyes were hard and tired.
She didn't know the right answer, but suddenly this didn't seem amusing anymore. She wanted to lift that terrible look from his face. She'd say anything to ease it; she'd caress the furrows from his forehead and kiss the sorrow from his mouth.
But all she said was, “Not much, I'm afraid. No more than most women.”
James nodded, as if this was the answer he expected. “Do you happen to know the phrase
in flagrante delicto
?”
Julia's mouth fell open. That was one phrase she
did
know, though she'd never have admitted it to her mother.
“I see that you do,” James continued in his grim near whisper. “That's how the rat died, with a mistress my sister didn't know he had. A mistress who ran out into the street, screaming for help, wrapped in only a bedsheet, for all the
ton
to see and hear.”
“Good God.” Julia forced her mouth closed, but she couldn't think of what to say next. Poor Gloria, to suffer a loss and betrayal at once, and then be sent to live in this cold pile of a house with her even colder mother.
“God had nothing to do with it,” James said. His mouth tightened into a hard line she'd never seen before. “Her fool of a husband all but made her a laughingstock, and our family by extension. I wish . . .”
He trailed off, and looked over at Louisa, who sat unawares next to a woman who, Julia now knew, hid a great wound with her haughty expression. “I had hoped to marry soon, and thereby be in a position to help undo the damage. With a wife at my side, and Nicholls restored, I could offer them respectability and a real home in the country, away from all of this.”
He closed his eyes for a long moment, but Julia could have sworn she saw bright unshed tears in them before he did. He gestured to the stairway up which his nieces had vanished. “For their sakes, you know. For all of us, but especially for those girls, I hoped to marry as quickly as possible and give our family a chance to be decent and happy again.”
The reminder of his upcoming marriage affected Julia with the physical force of a horse kick to the stomach. She nearly choked on the sudden shock of it.
“Yes, of course,” she managed to say.
What was she doing, heating herself up with thoughts about James? She was such a fool. He might enjoy her friendship, but there was another lady here with a much greater claim on his attention. Why, his very expression became wistful as he looked from her to Louisa. He wished to be with Louisa now.
Of course he did; that only made sense. But she still ached to think of it, and she was relieved when the party broke up soon afterward.
They all wished each other a happy Christmas again, and Lady Matheson was as glacial as ever in her farewells. But when Julia spoke with Gloria, the widow clasped her hands with genuine warmth.
“Thank you again for your kindness to my daughters,” she offered. “I'm so very glad to have met you.”
“And I you,” Julia replied with equal candor, stammering under the weight of her too-deep understanding. “You have lovely daughters. I'm . . . I'm delighted to have met you all.”
She took her leave from James with a friendly handshake, then turned away in order not to see whether he kissed Louisa good evening. All the way home, she remembered his wounded eyes, and she could swear she still felt the warmth of his hand on her shoulder.
Chapter 12
In Which Her Ladyship Recarpets the Morning Room
Julia didn't really want to think or speak about the evening once they all got home, but Louisa sought her out in her bedchamber later that night as she was completing her preparations for sleep. She had already changed into her nightdress, and the knock on the door sounded just as she was splashing her face with water.
“Go away,” she grumbled, and Louisa immediately walked in.
“Sorry, what did you say?” Louisa asked. She seemed nervous and distracted, so Julia took pity on her.
“Nothing, nothing. What's going on? Are you all right?”
The tall girl sat carefully on the edge of the bed to avoid creasing her dinner gown. “How do you think it went?” she asked hesitantly.
“Oh, it was fantastic,” Julia replied at once with her brightest smile.
Louisa's dark eyes bored into her. “You're a terrible liar. Was it disastrous, or just merely bad?”
Julia flung herself onto the bed and wiggled her feet thoughtfully, sighing as she considered her answer. She didn't know whether Louisa wanted lies or the truth.
She settled for ambiguity. “I don't exactly know. It definitely wasn't like a cozy Christmas Eve at home. But I don't think there's anything you could have done differently to make it go better. Does that help?”
Louisa blew out a breath between thinned lips. “Maybe a bit. But the fact remains, they don't really want me to marry him, do they?”
“As long as he wants to marry you, what does it matter?” Julia replied.
She knew that was dodging the question, but she didn't really want to talk about this. She felt uncomfortable, even a bit envious. Which was ridiculous, she knew, since her season would begin soon and she would have her chance to find the same happiness Louisa had.
Except Louisa didn't seem happy right now; she still seemed worried. “I suppose it was kind of them to have me join their game, but then they excluded you, which again seemed impolite to me. Not very hospitable. Do you agree?”
“Yes, and Lady Matheson was very rude to me at dinner, too,” Julia said. “I could hardly believe she called me common.”
Just the thought of it made the desperate annoyance wash over her again. Although . . . then James had come to her defense. And then he had told her his future plans and family secrets. Had he told them to Louisa? Or had Julia somehow earned a special confidence?
The thought cheered her, although the memory of James's bleak eyes was as painful as a wound.
“So, doesn't that seem like a problem to you? If they aren't willing to accept my family as well as me?” Louisa pressed.
Julia struggled to focus on her sister's worried words. “It won't bother me a bit, as long as it doesn't matter to you,” she replied honestly. “I probably won't meet up with them often. Though I did like James's little nieces. I meant what I said about inviting them to Stonemeadows.”
Louisa was insistent. “But we should all have good relationships, shouldn't we? Do you think James should marry without the support of his family?”
Now it was Julia's turn to blow out a breath impatiently. She knew she should be giving Louisa her full attention, but she just wanted to stop thinking about the whole situation. “Louisa, he can do whatever he chooses to. He is a grown man who's already come into his title and estate. He's what, almost thirty years old?”
“Twenty-seven.”
“Fine, twenty-seven. Anyway, he's self-sufficient. And if he wants to be engaged, which he
does
, his mother had better get used to the fact. She may be too top-lofty to notice anyone below her own rank, but it would be the devil of a scandal if she tried to break things up.”
A scandal. Julia could almost laugh, if it wasn't so sad. It was precisely that, a family scandal, that James was trying to suppress through his marriage. Now that he was engaged, his mother ought to be more judicious about suggesting other young women for him to run off with.
Louisa acknowledged these pragmatic words with a miserable half smile. “That may be true, but what kind of life would it be for his wife if she couldn't get along with his mother?”
“Why are you speaking in hypotheticals?” Julia demanded. “You're the woman in question; you're going to be his wife. And then you'll be a viscountess, too, as well as the mother of his heirs.” She thought for a moment. “Actually, if she's too much of an evil cow to you, you could simply refuse to have any children but girls.”
She almost smiled at the mental image of the dowager viscountess being presented with a squalling baby granddaughter.
But the idea of James, the father of another woman's child—that thought was enough to wipe any smile from her face.
“Evil cow,” Louisa repeated, much struck. “She was a bit, wasn't she?”
“More than a bit,” Julia agreed. “She's lucky our aunt wasn't in an attacking mood tonight. I wasn't either, really, but I wished they'd been more friendly.”
Louisa stared forward and nodded. “Yes, definitely that. A woman like that can put a lot of pressure on someone.”
Julia looked at her curiously, but Louisa seemed to be in a reverie.
“Well, I don't mean to bother you,” she said, standing abruptly. “I just wasn't sure what to make of the situation.”
She still looked uncertain, and Julia felt ashamed of her own reluctance to talk. If she had sensed unfriendliness in the air that evening, how much more so must Louisa feel it?
“I'm sorry,” she said at once, reaching for her sister's hands. “Stay, talk as long as you need to.”
“No, I'm fine,” Louisa assured her, managing a more sanguine expression. “I just have a lot to think about, I guess.” She squeezed Julia's hands. “Happy Christmas.”
Julia responded in kind, and relaxed back onto her bed. It hadn't really been much of a happy Christmas Eve, but there was still tomorrow to come, and pieces of the evening had been pleasant nonetheless. Eating a large, delicious dinner. Playing with two young, shrieking children. And, of course, seeing James. Feeling the warmth of his trust in her.
It took awhile, but she eventually drifted off into a troubled sleep, dreaming of her sister's betrothed husband.
 
 
She was awoken the next morning by a gentle scratch on her forehead. Her eyes snapped open, expecting in the fog of half-sleep to see a man with green eyes peering down at her.
Instead, Louisa grinned at her and waggled a sprig of mistletoe across her face again. “Happy Christmas, Julia. Put on your wrapper and come see what our aunt has done.”
Julia yawned and shuffled after her sister, struggling toward wakefulness, away from the lingering threads of disturbing dreams. “Was it necessary for you to swat me awake with a plant?”
“You're lucky it was I,” Louisa replied. “It's mistletoe, you know. Our aunt wanted to send a footman in to embrace you awake, but I convinced her that would be vulgar.”
Julia choked. And then, when she entered her aunt's morning room, she choked again. The sharp scent of evergreen slapped her fully awake in an instant.
“Did a pine forest anger our aunt?” she murmured to Louisa. The entire morning room was carpeted with evergreen branches; the ornate chandelier was twined with mistletoe and holly. Pine garland swooped around the delicately plastered walls and snaked around the legs of the chairs and sofa.
Julia crunched slowly across the room, wishing she'd donned her slippers. “Happy Christmas, Aunt Estella. What—”
“It's Christmas morning, is what.” Lady Irving, festive in a men's red brocade banyan and a bright apricot turban, rose from her perch on the morning room's sofa. “I know you girls like to have your holiday folderols about you, so I've done my best. As you can't go tramping about a forest in the heart of London, I've had the forest brought to you.”
As Louisa thanked their aunt with the pretty manners that always made Lady Irving demur with gruff pleasure, Julia sank onto the bed of pine and laced her fingers through the fragrant branches. Their waxy texture was fresh and pleasant, needling her into an awareness of the difference between last night and this morning.
Her aunt had turned her house into a holiday bower to please her nieces, knowing they would miss Christmas in the country. James's poor nieces would have no such warm greeting this morning from Lady Matheson.
Aunt Estella interrupted Julia's thoughts by shaking a string of nuts in her face. “The queen covers a pine tree with candles,” she said. “Rubbishy idea, if you ask me. One of these years, she'll burn down half the City with a scheme like that. Still, I thought you girls would like her idea of almond garlands. Eat.”
Julia was always willing to obey such an order. She took the nuts and nutcracker her aunt handed her and began to tease the almonds free from their string, handing every other one—well, every third one—to Louisa.
Lady Irving rearranged herself on the sofa near her nieces. “Perhaps we ought to have invited your young rooster over, Louisa,” she mused. “Think he'd like to meet you under the mistletoe, my girl?”
Louisa scrabbled for the end of the almond garland, her cheeks reddening. “I'll see him a little later. His mother invited me for Christmas dinner, you know.”
So James would not come here. Julia tugged her wrapper more closely around her suddenly chilly form. “Atonement, I hope?”
“Or she wants to dangle the promise of a better bride in front of James again,” Louisa said in a resigned voice.
Lady Irving raised her eyebrows. “You paint such an attractive picture, I'm tempted to stow away in your reticule and take part in the evening.”
“Louisa, I'm sure you'll have a grand time at Matheson House,” Julia added. “We'll be having plum pudding here, which I've been told is dreadfully common.”
Not even this mild joke lifted the discouraged expression from Louisa's face, and her sister's dilemma clanged through Julia like a caroler's bell. Not yet a wife, Louisa must balance her own family's needs with those of her future husband's. This included trying to make peace with a woman who had no desire to make peace with her.
“If you have to go, I understand,” Julia said stoutly. “James will love to see you on Christmas. And I'll save you a slice of pudding as big as the smile you can make right . . . now.”
Such nonsense teased a small smile from Louisa.
“That's not big enough for two bites,” Julia scoffed. “Give us a big false one.”
Laughing, Louisa opened her mouth in a huge yawn, and Julia poked an almond into it before she could close it, sputtering.
“Much better,” Lady Irving agreed. “Now that we're falling all over each other, we've a proper celebration under way. Breathe your fill of evergreen, girls, and then we'll get ready for church.”
They obliged, then pounded back upstairs to dress for Christmas morning services.
All the trappings of the holiday surrounded them, and for that, Julia was deeply grateful to her aunt. But she was divided all the same. Though her body stood in Grosvenor Square, her heart went out to the girls caught in the chill of Matheson House, and to the hopes and plans of their uncle.
Especially to their uncle.

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