Secret Desires (7 page)

Sadie wanted to change the subject. ‘I don’t know. How many boys have
you
kissed?’ She hadn’t meant it to sound so harsh.

Georgia sighed and began to swing. ‘Are you afraid of kissing?’

Sadie considered this for a moment. True, she had never kissed anyone before. She was a little bit afraid, but she did not want to kiss some disgusting guy.

Sadie’s silence answered Georgia’s question.

‘You don’t know how to kiss?’ Georgia asked, grinding to a halt and staring at Sadie.

Sadie shrugged. ‘It’s just not my first priority.’

Georgia rolled her eyes. ‘You don’t know what you’re missing out on. I can show you, if you like,’ said Georgia, casually.

‘I don’t want to watch you make out with Mike, or who ever it is you’re seeing at the moment.’

Georgia waved a hand, ‘I dumped Mike last week. He was too clingy. I’m seeing Derrick now.’

Sadie sighed. Georgia had a new boyfriend every week. She couldn’t seem to settle on one guy. She got restless, and annoyed easily.

‘But that isn’t what I meant,’ Georgia said. ‘I can teach you how to kiss.’

‘What, you mean we kiss each other?’

Georgia shrugged. ‘Sure, why not? Lot’s of girls do it.’

Sadie felt a rush of anger. ‘Yeah, girls who want attention from boys at parties.’ She knew all too well of those women who pretended to be attracted to other females, for the sake of turning on a man.

Sadie was confused. She didn’t want her first kiss with Georgia to be meaningless, yet at the same time she was unsure as to whether there would be another opportunity to do so.

‘That reminds me, I got invited to a party this weekend,’ Georgia continued. ‘Will you come?’

‘Is Derrick going?’ Sadie asked testily.

Georgia shook her head. ‘No, he is out of state for the weekend.’

‘All right, I’ll go, but don’t leave me alone, okay? I don’t want to be left standing in the corner by myself.’

‘I promise,’ said Georgia.

~

The party was being hosted by one of the more popular boys at school, someone who Sadie didn’t know very well, but Georgia did. The house was crowded, and full of loud music. Of course, there was underage drinking taking place – it was inevitable. Georgia was friendly with everyone, but kept her promise by dragging Sadie between conversations.

Georgia was drinking; vodka and orange juice, but Sadie settled for plain juice. It wasn’t long before Georgia was giddy, talking non-stop,  and hugging people left, right, and centre.

Drinking games were taking place in every corner of the house, couples were making out on the deck, and Sadie remained as quiet as ever, lingering on the outskirts of conversations.

It wasn’t until a boy produced an empty tequila bottle and shouted, ‘Spin the bottle!’ did Sadie try to shrink away from the commotion. Georgia’s hand was on her wrist like a vice.

‘Come on,’ Georgia urged, dragging Sadie towards the circle that formed in the centre of the room. 

‘No,’ Sadie said, rather panicked. ‘I don’t think I want to.’

‘But it’s perfect,’ Georgia said, thrusting Sadie into the circle. ‘Everyone is drunk. No one will remember if you’re a rubbish kisser.’

Sadie groaned as Georgia forced her to sit in the circle along with ten other people. She prayed that the party-goers would become bored of the game before the bottle pointed in her direction. Georgia grabbed the bottled from the boy, and declared that she would go first, to Sadie’s annoyance.

Placing it in the centre of the circle, she spun it as hard as she could. It whirled around for several seconds before slowing, and finally stopping. It was pointing at a boy from the grade below us. He looked absolutely ecstatic to kiss Georgia, and almost leapt forwards. Georgia pulled a face, but kissed him anyway.

Hot jealously trickled down Sadie’s spine as she watched the boy try to shove his tongue down Georgia’s throat. Somewhere, a camera flashed.
So much for Derrick,
Sadie thought. Georgia pulled away and wiped her mouth with the back of her hand, looking rather disgruntled. When she took her place in the circle beside Sadie, she leant over and whispered, ‘that was gross. His breath stunk!’

Sadie forced a smile as she watched the other person next to Georgia grab the bottle.
Thank goodness
, Sadie thought.
I’ll be last
. Slowly the bottle was worked around the circle. Many boys refused, point blank, to kiss another man, but cheered childishly when two girls kissed.

‘Ugh, see what I mean?’ Sadie hissed to Georgia. ‘Those girls are kissing for show.’

Georgia laughed. ‘It’s just a bit of fun, Sade!’

Unfortunately, the time came for Sadie to spin the bottle. The onlookers seemed to lose some of their interest when it was her turn. Perhaps they thought nerdy Sadie wouldn’t go through with it. Sadie wasn’t even sure herself. But Georgia sat next to her, nodding eagerly, pushing her on.

Screwing up her eyes, Sadie spun the bottle and didn’t look until it had stopped. A cheer sounded around the circle, and Sadie opened one eye timidly. The onlookers waited eagerly, ridiculous smiles plastered to their faces. They knew who Sadie must kiss.

She looked down at the bottle and was startled to see that it was pointing in her own direction. No, wait. Sadie stared. The bottle pointed slightly to the right. It was pointing at Georgia. 

Sadie knew her face must be red. Georgia was grinning from ear to ear.

‘C’mon Sade!’ She said, turning to face her.

Sadie swiveled to face Georgia, and took a calming breath. Her heart pounded in her throat when Georgia closed her eyes and leaned forwards. They were going to do it. They were going to kiss in this room full of people.
Oh god, she is going to kiss me.

Sadie leaned forwards and closed the few inches between them. Her slightly parted lips touched Georgia’s. They were soft, and sweet. Sadie could taste the citrus. Georgia parted her lips and kissed Sadie gently, sending chills through Sadie’s spine. She felt Georgia’s tongue seeking entrance to her mouth. She allowed it, opening her own mouth and letting their tongues swirl together.

Georgia’s hand was on Sadie’s knee, squeezing gently. She was instantly aroused, a tingling spreading through her crotch. Sadie didn’t want it to end, but she knew this kiss had lasted too long. If they continued, their audience might think they were enjoying it a little too much. Somewhere, another camera flashed, and Sadie knew photos of her and Georgia kissing would be plastered onto Facebook by morning.

When the kiss ended, Georgia’s eyes sparkled, and she grinned from ear to ear. Sadie’s face was very pink, and she couldn’t help but wish the kiss had been in private.

~

That night, Sadie slept at Georgia’s house, as it was closest to the party. Georgia was a little bit tipsy, and chatted away merrily as the two girls got into the double bed in Georgia’s pink bedroom. Her bed was far more comfortable than Sadie’s old, single bed. Georgia’s family was far richer than Sadie’s.

‘Wasn’t that fun?’ Georgia said for the fiftieth time. ‘I had a blast.’

‘Mmh,’ Sadie agreed half-heartedly. The highlight of the night had been kissing Georgia, but she thought the rest of the party had been a bore. She simply could not stop thinking about how Georgia’s lips had felt. Warmth spread through Sadie’s stomach, reaching her womanhood. She knew she would be drenched.

‘What about spin-the-bottle?’ Georgia smiled before turning off the lamp on her bedside table. ‘Wild, huh?’

‘I guess,’ Sadie said, feeling her face growing hot. 

‘It was fun. You were by far the best kisser.’ Georgia scooted close enough for Sadie to feel her body heat.

‘Really?’ Sadie said, wide-eyed. Her skin prickled at the proximity between them

‘By a mile!’ Georgia nodded, her arm accidently brushing Sadie’s.

Sadie almost had the nerve to ask whether Georgia wanted to try it again, but she was far too shy. To her surprise though, it was Georgia who made the next move.

‘Can we try again?’ Georgia asked.

Sadie raised her eyebrows. ‘Really?’

‘Yeah!’ Georgia said enthusiastically. ‘It was really fun. I liked it – way better than kissing Derrick.’

Sadie frowned. ‘Are you drunk?’

Georgia smiled sheepishly. ‘Maybe a little.’

‘Perhaps it’s not a good idea-’ Sadie began.

‘Oh, come on. Don’t be such a prude.’ Georgia slapped Sadie’s knee playfully. ‘I’ve wanted to try kissing a girl for ages. Who better to experiment with?’

Sadie was slightly annoyed. She didn’t want to be an experiment. She
wanted
Georgia. She wanted to be
with
her.

‘Please?’ Georgia asked.

How could Sadie refuse? Reluctantly, she nodded, and Georgia grinned excitedly.

‘Okay, ready?’ Georgia asked, tucking her hair behind her ears. Sadie nodded again.

Georgia took Sadie’s face in her hands and kissed her deeply, and thoroughly. Sadie was momentarily frozen to the spot, taken aback by the enthusiasm with which Georgia had kissed her. Slowly, she warmed to the intimacy, and placed her hands on Georgia’s waist. They kissed passionately, their tongues massaging against each other. Georgia moaned softly against Sadie’s lips, and butterflies took flight in her stomach. It was bliss, the feel of her mouth, and the warmth of her breath.

Georgia’s hands traveled to Sadie’s shoulders, and slowly moved downwards to her chest, until her palms cupped her breasts.

Sadie broke away. ‘What are you doing?’ she whispered.

Georgia shrugged, nonchalant. ‘We can stop if you like.’

Georgia must be quite drunk, Sadie thought. It would be unfair to let her continue.

‘We should sleep,’ Sadie said.

Georgia sighed. ‘You’re right.’

Sadie lay down in the bed, and listened as Georgia made herself comfortable. She lay awake for what felt like hours, listening to Georgia breathe. The lack of her snores told Sadie that Georgia was also awake. Yet neither of them spoke.

Then, after lying in silence for an hour, something happened that made Sadie’s heart skip a beat. Georgia moaned.

Sadie felt the bed begin to rock gently. Georgia’s breathing became harder. Sadie opened her eyes a tiny amount, just enough to peek through her eyelashes. Georgia’s shoulder was shaking, and her knees were in the air. One hand was between her thighs, rubbing furiously.

Sadie didn’t dare open her eyes. She didn’t want Georgia to know she was awake. She watched as Georgia touched herself, writhing against the bed unashamedly, as if she didn’t care that Sadie was there.

When Sadie had touched herself in Georgia’s presence, she had always been very careful to make sure she did not disturb her friend. Georgia however, was not making any attempts at being quiet.

And then Georgia did something that almost made Sadie gasp. She turned to face Sadie, and began to rub herself more vigorously whilst staring at her.  Was Georgia really masturbating to Sadie?

Sadie let out a soft, pretend snore so Georgia would think she was still asleep.

Georgia kicked the blankets from around her, so Sadie had full-view of what she was doing. Legs in the air, Georgia massaged her clit. The sight made Sadie shiver with physical pleasure. Slowly, Georgia sunk two fingers between her folds, and pulled them out again, her fingers slick with juices. She let out a sigh of pleasure. Wetness pooled between Sadie’s thighs as she watched Georgia fingered herself, not daring to move a muscle in case she stopped.

Georgia writhed, and moaned; Sadie’s own cunt ached to be touched, yet she knew she mustn’t. Finally, Georgia let out a stifled moan, and screwed up her face as though she was in pain. She fucked herself faster, and Sadie knew she was about to come. The mere sight of Georgia having an orgasm was almost enough to send Sadie over the edge.

Georgia gave a spasm that lasted for ages. The orgasm seemed to rocket through her entire body, and she was left panting, and shuddering in the aftermath of her pleasure.

Calming down, Georgia removed her hand from her crotch, gave Sadie one last, longing look, before rolling over and going to sleep.

~

Sadie could not forget what she had seen. It was embedded in her memory forever. Over the net few days, she pondered over what it had meant. Sadie wanted nothing more than to be intimate with Georgia, yet she didn’t know how to go about it. Did she just kiss her, out of the blue? Perhaps she should confess her feelings?

Sadie and Georgia sat at the coffee shop together on a Friday afternoon. Sadie had decided to confess her sexuality to Georgia that day.

Nervous and sweating bullets, Sadie tried to bring the subject up.

‘Hey, so you know how I’ve never had a boyfriend,’ Sadie began nervously.

Georgia sipped her coffee. ‘Mmmh.’

‘Well, I think … I think there might be a reason for it.’

Georgia sighed. ‘Look, I know you’re not a very sexual person.’

Sadie shook her head. ‘No, It’s not that. I am a sexual person. Very sexual.’