Secrets Amoung The Shadows (5 page)

He shook his head, one side of his mouth quirking up in an expression that was more a grimace than a smile. "My life was completely normal and uneventful until all this started."

Though she suspected he could—and would—have blocked any such recent trauma from his conscious memory, Leanne didn't press him. "Okay, so what do you remember about your parents' accident?"

"Nothing," he admitted reluctantly, confirming her suspicions of his ability to block distressing events. "In fact, I have only hazy memories of my mother and father, and some of those probably came from pictures and stories. Mom and Dad, friends of my real parents, adopted me. I had a perfectly normal, happy childhood, I might add."

"Oh?" She raised a skeptical eyebrow. "Exactly how do you define
normal
?"

He smiled and shrugged. "I don't suppose you get many people in here who say that. Well, I'm sorry to disappoint you, but mine couldn't have been any more normal. I know the accident must have been a shock, but I was so young, it had no lasting effect. I've always adored my adoptive parents, and they've always been there for me. I went to school, played football, made decent grades, had a lot of friends. Dad's an investment banker. He wanted me to follow in his footsteps, and I wanted to." He shrugged. "Except for the mundane details, like what we had for Sunday dinner, that's about it."

She sensed that he was telling the truth...at least as far as he knew the truth. "I'd like to have another session with hypnosis and explore the accident. When do you want to come in again?"

"Tomorrow," he stated firmly. "I'd like to come tomorrow, but I'll understand if you want to go home at a reasonable hour for a change."

His gritty determination coming to the fore again. "Tomorrow at five," she agreed, making a notation on her calendar.

Eliot rose from the recliner, checking the gold watch on his wrist. "Damn, it's nearly seven o'clock. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to keep you so late."

She looked at the wall of windows, surprised to see that they were growing dark. She hadn't realized so much time had passed.

"No problem," she assured him, but her failure to notice the passage of time bothered her. She had turned off her timer for fear it would interrupt the hypnotic session; even so, she always had a sixth sense of the approaching end of the hour—always until tonight.

True, Eliot's case was interesting, out of the ordinary, but she couldn't afford to let her interest get out of hand. She couldn't become personally involved. The thought of that terrified her every bit as much as the possibility that he might be a cold-blooded killer.

The mentally ill had the capacity to murder the soul of anyone who cared too deeply for them. For more reasons than professional ethics, she had to maintain a proper distance from the case...from Eliot Kane.

He extended his hand, and she took it, enjoying the feel of his flesh against hers even as she ordered herself to ignore such inappropriate, dangerous feelings.

"I really appreciate your working me into your schedule like this," he said. "Since it's so late, let me take you to dinner. It's the least I can do."

For a fleeting, insane instant she wanted to go with him, to pretend theirs was an ordinary relationship.

But it wasn't.

"Thanks, but I couldn't do that," she said, distressed to hear her words come out in a breathless manner. "Doctor-patient ethics." She made a slight movement of withdrawal from his fingers, and he released her immediately.

"Tomorrow at five, then," he said and strode from her office looking every inch the confident, successful businessman with no hint of the tortured person who'd come to her for help. She could see what he meant when he said he'd always been in control of his life. In spite of their relationship, his dependency on her skills, he left her feeling as though he were the one in charge.

She listened for the outer office door to close, then began clearing her desk. Her brief vision of dinner with Eliot Kane had been tantalizing—seeing his smile from across a table rather than a desk, being allowed to savor the tough but gentle touch of his hand on hers. Eliot Kane was a dangerous man, a possible threat to her bodily safety as well as her emotional.

The outer door opened and closed again. "Eliot, did you forget something?" she called, and the idea that he had returned both excited and frightened her. Would it be the charming Eliot or the man who'd stood across the street from her house? Which one was the most threatening?

The door to her inner office slammed open.

Chapter 5

"It's not Eliot!" A gnome-like man burst into the room, eyes glazed, thin gray hair flying. "Didn't expect to see me, did you?"

Dealing with Eliot and the multitude of emotions he evoked in her had left her exhausted. She wanted to go home, bask in the undemanding love of her little dog, then crawl into bed. She definitely did not feel up to dealing with Bruce Hedlund.

Leanne rubbed at the knot in the back of her neck that always appeared toward the end of particularly trying days. "So you've stopped taking your medication. Bruce, your system is out of balance. You need those drugs. We've discussed this before."

"No!"

She jumped as he slammed a small hand onto the desk top. Bruce was prone to paranoid fantasies and hyperactivity, but he'd never before exhibited violent tendencies. For a brief moment she considered the fact that she was alone with this irrational man.

Immediately she dismissed the thought. Why was she suddenly seeing danger at every turn? First the scene outside her house last night and now a man smaller than she. She could handle the situation by herself. That's what she was trained to do. She'd never feared a patient...before Eliot Kane.

"Why don't you sit down, and we'll talk about this," she said, keeping her voice even.

"No!" He snatched the letter opener from her desk and glared at her, his small eyes wild and unfocused.

She had to make an effort to not to flinch. She must not allow him to have the upper hand. Moving slowly, maintaining eye contact, she rose to a standing position. "Sit down, Bruce," she ordered firmly.

But he whirled away and charged across the room.

"Don't spy on me!" he shouted, stabbing the drapes viciously and repeatedly though the letter opener didn't penetrate the smooth, heavy material. "You'll be sorry!" The threat, issued in his high-pitched voice, was almost comical. Almost.

Leanne stood at her desk, her heart hammering against her ribs as a shiver of fear ran down her spine despite her best efforts to deny it. She had no choice but to face him down. She took a step closer though what she really wanted to do was back away.

"Bruce Hedlund! Stop that this instant and sit down!"

He turned toward her, arm upraised to strike again. His forehead wrinkled as if in concentration. Thank God! She seemed to be reaching him.

At that moment Eliot charged through the door, his face stormy, and she gasped, taking an involuntary step backward. For a brief moment she thought he had returned to carry out his dream, that he would rush forward and grab her throat, and he frightened her far more than the disturbed little man stabbing her curtains.

But Eliot headed straight for Bruce Hedlund. "Drop it!" he shouted as he grabbed Bruce's arms, forcing them behind the man, then wresting the letter opener from him.

Leanne sagged into her chair, relief flooding through her—relief because Bruce had been taken care of and even greater relief because Eliot had come to rescue her, not to harm her.

Eliot shoved a restraining knee in Bruce's back, but the action was unnecessary. The little man collapsed and began sobbing. Eliot released him, and he slid to the floor in a crumpled heap.

"Are you all right? I saw this guy getting off the elevator when I was getting on. Just as the door was closing with me inside, I saw him heading for your office. I knew you were alone up here, and this guy seemed pretty upset, talking to himself and waving his arms around. I came back as fast as I could."

To Leanne, Eliot looked like an avenging warrior, a knight in a blue suit, as he stood there breathing heavily, face shiny with perspiration, expression anxious, and she wanted to run to him. She had to forcibly remind herself that he was her patient, a mentally ill patient.

She nodded and rose on shaky legs, making herself go to Bruce, do her job. "It's all right now." She extended a hand, but he didn't seem to see or hear her.

"I'd better call his wife," she said to Eliot. "She may want to have him hospitalized again."

While they waited for the ambulance to arrive, Leanne tried to calm him, but the little man alternately sobbed and cursed, carrying on senseless conversations with invisible companions.

Eliot remained, hovering over her and never getting too far from Bruce. And she found herself unable to tell him he to leave. She should; the situation was under control...and she liked having him there entirely too much.

By the time the emergency services arrived, Bruce was calm enough to go with them voluntarily.

"Take him to Westwood General," she directed them. "I'll meet you over there and get him admitted."

Leanne turned to Eliot to thank him for coming to her aid, but the words caught in her throat. She was suddenly, excruciatingly, aware of being alone in the office with him—of the possible danger, of the unaccountable, inexplicable sense of herself as a woman and him as an attractive, desirable man.

Her skin tingled as she watched the same awareness flame in his eyes.

He took a step closer to her, and she turned, hurrying across the room, putting her desk between them, uncertain if she was running from fear of him or from her feelings for him.

"Well," she said, hoping her voice didn't sound as artificial to his ears as it did to hers, "it's been a long day. Thanks for coming to my rescue."

He studied her in silence for a moment, then nodded curtly. "Any time. Are you ready to leave? I'll go down with you."

She should tell him to go on without her, but that would be illogical. She had to leave immediately and get to the hospital. "Sure," she said. "Just let me grab my briefcase."

As they rode together in the elevator, even though they stood stiffly against opposing walls and Leanne kept her eyes trained carefully on the overhead numbers, she could feel Eliot's presence as distinctly as if they touched. And, God help her, she wanted to touch him...wanted him to touch her.

Leftover adrenaline, she told herself, adrenaline heightening her senses. That's all it was. A culmination of the excitement of the day. Everything finally hitting at once now that it was over and she could let her professional guard down.

Nevertheless, when they reached the first floor and the doors slid apart, she burst through the opening with a mingled sense of relief and regret.

The security guard was just coming on duty, and she waved to him. "Good night, Ken."

"Good night, Dr. Warner."

Dr. Warner
. She was still Dr. Warner, the psychiatrist, not Leanne the woman, and she had to remember that. As long as a patient—Eliot—was with her, she was still a doctor, and she had to keep her strangely erratic emotions in line.

Yet when they reached the heavy glass doors of the building and he stepped determinedly in front to open the door for her, for a moment she stood motionless, transfixed by his gaze. The man outside her bedroom window the night before had paralyzed her with the force of his anger and hatred. Now those same eyes held her in place with the force of his desire.

He stood only inches away, so close she could feel the warmth of his breath, smell the scents of peppermint gum and expensive cologne...and feel the electricity arcing between their bodies.

Moving as if she were walking through water, Leanne forced her legs to obey the commands of her brain, not her heart, to walk through the door, into the parking lot and away from Eliot. Still she could feel his presence behind her, his eyes on her back. Her car, parked only a few spaces from the building, seemed to be miles away. With every step she heard his footsteps like an echo of her own. The sensation warmed and chilled her at the same time.

And then she was beside her car. The strange evening was over...Eliot with his frightening dream, Bruce stabbing her curtains and Eliot coming to her rescue, then this curious journey from her office.

Fumbling in her purse, she located her keys and pulled them out, then turned to him, forcing a smile on her face.

He loomed above her, close and intimidating and exciting. The harsh light atop a pole picked out shadows on his face, but, oddly enough, the effect was to soften the lines rather than make them ominous. Or was she just looking for confirmation of his goodness, refutation of the evil she'd seen on his face the night before?

"Oh!" She laughed nervously. "Of course. I just...I'm really exhausted. It took my brain a minute to kick in."

He grimaced. "And that's my fault for keeping you so late. Otherwise, you'd have been gone when that guy got here."