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She looked over at Marc. There hadn’t been much time for talk. First there had been Nicole, horribly sick with some stomach virus. Claire had spent two hours holding her head over the toilet and mopping her brow. In her misery Nicole couldn’t summon even the rudiments of English, and Claire had cursed her lack of French for the hundredth time. By the time the retching had ceased and Nicole had fallen into an exhausted sleep, all Claire wanted to do was the same.


Chérie
, you look dreadful,” Marc murmured, his voice low and soothing as he led her toward the bathroom. “You take your shower first and I’ll join you in bed. What a hell of a homecoming, eh?”

For once in her life Claire wanted to protest. She didn’t want to take the shower Marc always insisted upon, she didn’t want to wait for him in bed, and she didn’t want to make love. But she said nothing. The few occasions she’d told Marc no, he’d refused to listen. And within minutes he’d had her begging him, helpless in the response he could always bring forth. He was a very adept man, almost frighteningly so.

She looked over at him. How could she be frightened of him? He was the kindest, sexiest man. And how patient he was with Nicole, and what little he got in return. He’d gone to get her simply because her grandmother had finally returned from Los Angeles, the grandmother Nicole adored above all people. Nicole could stay here for the next few weeks, while Marc went on tour with the Théâtre du Mime, and his three ladies, as he termed them, could keep each other company.

She was looking forward to meeting Mme. Langlois. She was both anticipating and dreading the next month. She looked on it as some sort of test. If she could survive, even thrive, in Marc’s house, Marc’s life, without Marc there to
cloud her thinking, then there might be a future for them. She would have time to think things through, to make up her mind. And when he finally returned she could greet him with all her doubts resolved. Or she could be gone.

That alternative was looking oddly attractive. But she couldn’t leave Nicole. Not until she was sure that Mme. Langlois would be enough buffer against Marc’s exacting nature. He was a good father, a loving father. He was just a tiny bit … cold, at times. And Claire couldn’t rid herself of the feeling that Nicole knew it.

She slid down further on the soft bed, sighing. She’d forgotten to pick up the sheets at the laundry yesterday. No, she hadn’t forgotten—she hadn’t wanted to. For one thing, the rain had been so depressing she hadn’t wanted to go out in it. For another, no one at the laundry spoke English, and each visit was a nightmare of humiliation.

But Marc expected fresh sheets daily, and she had made up the bed this morning with the last set. Rain or no rain, she would have to go out tomorrow. Humiliation or no, she would have to face M. Gorgogne. Perhaps Nicole could come with her and translate.

She shifted uneasily. The bed was too soft and too small, and the heavy damask hangings made her feel claustrophobic. While he was gone she could see about bringing in a queen-size bed, one with a good hard mattress, plenty of pillows, and plenty of room. If she was going to make the decision to stay, she would have to do so on at least some of her own terms. If Marc couldn’t accept that, then there was no future for them, and she could go back to Massachusetts and face what she’d been running from so desperately.

“Chérie,”
Marc murmured, reaching out for her, his strong, delicate-looking hand clasping her wrist. Like a handcuff, she thought for a brief, disloyal moment. His skin was hot, almost feverish against her cold, clammy flesh, and his eyes glittered in the darkness. “Claire,” he murmured, his mouth moving over her collarbone, his voice soft and loving, as other, incomprehensible words tumbled from his mouth against her sensitive skin. And she put out her other
wrist, accepting his imprisoning hand, accepting his imprisoning body, shutting out the night and the memories, leaving only pleasure in the stuffy bedroom.

Thomas Jefferson Parkhurst was in the midst of a creative frenzy. His long, deft fingers were flying over the ancient manual typewriter, he no longer shuddered every time he drained his wine glass, and the late-night traffic from the rain-wet Paris streets made an agreeable rumble. It would have been especially nice, he thought, leaning back and running a hand through his shaggy brown hair, if he could have worked by candlelight. But he had trouble seeing the ink-blotched print as it was, and candlelight would make it impossible.

And it would have been nice if some ripe young mademoiselle were lying in bed waiting for him to finish his night’s work. Someone who would pout prettily, come up behind him and press her bare breasts against his back, someone who would lead him back to bed when his chapter was done.

But the bed was empty, and had been since Susan had left him and gone back to her yuppie life in Marin County. Somehow he hadn’t been in the mood for transients. He’d thrown all his energy into the book, working on it endlessly, until his neck was cramped and his long, lean body grew stiff and weary.

He was a tall man, and for a while he’d tried Thomas Wolfe’s trick of standing up and writing on the top of the refrigerator. But he always kept crackers and dishes up there, and he hated having to clear them off, and it was hard to see the paper when he perched the typewriter up there. Wolfe had written longhand, but Parkhurst knew that no one, himself included, could read his handwriting. Besides, the man at the pawnshop assured him this typewriter had once belonged to Hemingway himself. Maybe some of that creative aura still lingered.

God knows, he needed all the help he could get. He was running out of time. Two more months, and then he’d have to go back. He’d made a promise to himself, and he couldn’t
break it. He had two years to find himself, find his art. After twenty-two months he still hadn’t gotten it right.

He pushed back from the rickety table, stretching his long arms out over his head, and surveyed his apartment with regret and nostalgia. It was the perfect artist’s garret, from the crescent windows overlooking the city, the six flights of stairs that left even a marathon runner winded, the nooks and crannies and clear, bright daylight from the skylights. During his painting phase its ambiance had almost fooled him into thinking he had talent. During his play-writing stage it had helped him write bohemian tragedies. It had provided him with enough space to practice when he thought he might be a dancer, it had provided him unnervingly good acoustics during his very brief stint with the clarinet. Now, during the great new expatriate novel stage, it made him feel like a wonderful cross between Hemingway and Gene Kelly.

He pulled the finished page out of the typewriter and lay it face down on the table. He never read what he wrote, never revised. First things first, he told himself. He’d write the damned thing straight through, then sit down and read it. And if it had no value at all he’d burn it, book the next flight for New York, and go back and face life.

Susan would have him back. As long as he’d gotten over this artistic nonsense and went back to work she’d be more than willing to share his life. But somehow Thomas Jefferson Parkhurst wasn’t sure it was going to be the same life. Even if the novel didn’t work out, even if he did have to go back to the brokerage house, the last twenty-two months had changed him. Thank God.

He drained the last of the wine, then grimaced at the label. Park-Millet Vineyards. His first venture into modified creativity, buying an ancient vineyard in a barren, sparsely populated area in the northeast of France, had been a resounding failure. The wine was undrinkable, the vineyard unsalable. At least he could use the tax write-off.

His bed was an ancient iron affair, halfway between a twin and a double, with a sagging mattress, aging springs, and not enough pillows. It protested audibly as Parkhurst
threw himself down on it. For a moment he remembered the noise it made when Susan had shared it, remembered with a brief, salacious grin. And then he dismissed the thought, rolling over on his back and turning off the low-wattage bedside light.

It was raining again, raining hard on the metal roof just over his head. He used to like the steady drone of rain. Now it just made him depressed and restless.

He’d chosen Paris for his sabbatical because he’d always loved it. The clear, beautiful light that was now, too often, obscured by smog, the magnificence of the architecture, the self-possessed friendliness of the people. He always thought the French were like cats—charming on their own terms but not on anyone else’s.

But the French had begun to lose their charm. For some reason the Grandmother Murders particularly depressed him. He’d imagined copycat killers were the province of places like L.A. and New York, not his beloved City of Lights.

Another old lady killed today, not three blocks away. He might have seen her in that park where the old ones hang out, he might even have seen her killer. Punching the inadequate pillow, he rolled over, searching for the one comfortable spot in the concave mattress. They were always killed on rainy days, and Paris was breaking records for rainfall this year. He didn’t want to watch the death count rise. Maybe he’d stop buying the papers.

A cold, wet breeze blew in his open window, and he shivered lightly. Maybe it was time to go back.

Chief Inspector Malgreave leaned his weary face out into the rain, letting the cool mist cover him. He couldn’t sleep—he never could on rainy nights. Not since they’d realized that the old women were always murdered in the rain. He would lie there, careful not to wake Marie, and picture Rocco Guillère skulking through the city.

He had to get over that fixation. Rocco was only part of the answer. There had to be at least three different people murdering the old women—Rocco was only one of them.
Homicide had borrowed some of the best minds in law enforcement in the world, and the physical evidence they were amassing was prodigious. But given the angles of the wounds, the saliva on the women’s mouths, the traces of hair and fiber, it was certain they were dealing with perhaps a whole band of lunatics.

He shivered. His mother’s mother had been a warm, comfortable farm wife in Provence, with a ready cuff to the ear and an inexhaustible supply of cakes for a greedy grandson. His father’s mother had been more austere—a retired schoolteacher who stood no nonsense. He’d loved them both, grieved when they died, and then continued on with his life. Who could hate old ladies so much that they would deprive them of their last few years on this earth?

Of course, the lives that were snuffed out weren’t always the most pleasant. The women lived alone, in tiny, crowded apartments, living out their days in discreet, genteel penury. He’d toyed with the idea that the murderers were fanatics, convinced they were doing the old women a mercy by ending their lonely existence.

But he didn’t think so. It didn’t ring true, any more than the notion of copycat killers felt right to a man of his remarkable instincts. But he had to be wrong about the latter. There was no logical reason for three or four people to be murdering old women.

He looked back over his shoulder at his wife’s sleeping figure. She’d creamed her makeup off, and her mouth was open slackly as soft, polite snores issued forth. She would hate it if she knew he was watching her. At times like these she looked a bit as she would when she was very old. Like the old women who were murdered. And he loved her still. Would she still be with him when she grew old? Or would she leave him?

There was no sleep for him tonight. If he wasn’t tormenting himself about the murders he was tormenting himself about Marie. Maybe if he rewrote his notes something new would catch his eye. Besides, he needed a cigarette, and Marie hated it when he smoked in the bedroom.

Carefully he closed the window, shutting out the steady,
merciless beat of the rain. His feet were silent on the carpeted floor as he left the bedroom, closing the door behind him. By the time he started making notes, Marie was forgotten. She lay alone in the tiny bedroom, her troubled brown eyes staring blankly at the rain-splattered window and the night outside.

Claire measured the coffee carefully, then returned the jar to the freezing compartment of Marc’s state-of-the-art refrigerator. It was just after six, and the rain had finally let up. Maybe they would have a few days of sun.

Nicole was still sleeping when Claire had checked on her, her pale, plain face streaked with the telltale stain of tears. She must have woken some time during the night, Claire thought with a surge of guilt. Marc’s bedroom was at the opposite end of the huge apartment, and Nicole never, ever entered that room. Claire hadn’t figured out whether it was by inclination or Marc’s command, but even when Marc was out of town Nicole avoided it.

Clear liquids for Nicole, fresh croissants for Marc. She’d found a baker who spoke English. She had to walk twice as far to get to it, but it was worth it. And she enjoyed the empty streets of the Left Bank, the sense of solitude. Early morning was like a piece of time stolen from a jealous god—it didn’t even exist for those who slept through it. It was a secret, precious gift and Claire wouldn’t have given it up for anything, not even the dubious comfort of her bed. The time was hers alone, away from suggestions, opinions, and spying eyes.

God, she was getting paranoid! She hadn’t dealt with the accident properly, that was her problem. She’d been so caught up in guilt and misery and running away that she hadn’t had a chance to come to terms with it. It was no wonder that it was affecting the rest of her life, making her unable to open up, to trust.

Maybe she could find a therapist who spoke English. She’d suggested it once to Marc, and he’d promised to look into it, but the subject had been dropped. She knew he
didn’t really approve, considered it a weakness. But damn, right now she felt weak.

The American embassy might be able to help. That was it. Once Marc left next week she’d go over there and talk to someone. They could recommend an American or British therapist living in Paris. They could probably even help her find a laundry where the people spoke English. She’d been passive too long. It was time to face things.

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