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Chapter Nineteen

20th March, 11:00 a.m.

‘I’ll break his legs!’ Dave roared.

‘No you won’t,’ Maz yelled. ‘I will!’

‘And ’is arms.’ Dave mimed a snapping motion with his monstrous hands.

I shivered.

‘His neck!’ Maz shouted. ‘I’ll break his bleedin’ neck, man.’

She punched the air with staggering force. I heard the molecules of oxygen whizz past my ears and career into the wall behind me.

‘Maybe I got it wrong,’ I pleaded meekly. ‘Maybe it wasn’t him after all.’

‘
Wrong
,’ Maz repeated. ‘Yeah, you got it wrong. The minute you started seein’ him, that’s when you got it wrong.’

I frowned and fiddled with my fingernails. Dave punched the wall.

‘I never liked him.’ Maz growled.

‘Yes you did!’

‘No I didn’t.’

‘Yes you did. You said he was nice and canny and an enigma.’

‘Didn’t!’

‘Did.’

We scowled at each other and looked away huffily. Dave kicked the table.

Things had been escalating since Maz and Dave had come out to the hall to investigate what all the slamming and unslamming of the telephone was about. Of course, I hadn’t had the good sense to keep my big mouth shut. Instead, through the tears, sobs and heaving of shoulders, I had relayed every detail of my phone conversation with Matt. I should have known. Maz was already feeling fragile and Dave needed very little excuse to throw his weight around – there was so much of it, it had to be put to some use. My story had only served to exacerbate the situation and we now stood precariously on the edge of World War III. A gang of hooded Geordies could soon be on their way round to Randall’s flat to give him a good lynching and it was all my fault.

‘Listen,’ I said loudly above the wailing, shouting and gnashing of teeth, ‘there’s no point getting carried away until I find out exactly what happened.’

‘Aye there is,’ Dave protested, headbutting the door frame.

‘No. Let me go round there and find out.’

‘Why?’

‘Because there might be a perfectly logical explanation.’

‘Aye right, ha!’

‘It could all be a big misunderstanding.’ I forced a smile.

‘Misunderstanding,’ Maz tisked.

‘Misum … gin … don.’ Too many syllables for Dave at this time in the morning.

‘But you’ll go all ga-ga,’ Maz groaned.

‘No I won’t.’

‘Yes you will. He’ll tell you what he thinks you want to hear and you’ll believe him.’

‘No I won’t.’

‘Yes you will.’

And so on.

Somehow I managed to convince Maz and Dave that it would be best if I visited Randall alone. The problem was I had been so caught up in arguing my point and averting a murder that I hadn’t even thought about what I would say to him. So it was that I found myself standing in the street outside his flat, too afraid to ring the bell, but too outraged to run away, without an iota of a plan.

It was then that it began to rain. I don’t just mean light, slightly dampening, refreshing rain. I mean gallons and gallons of the stuff. Multitudes of torrential, drenching, hair-frizzing, sock-soaking rain. One minute it was dry and the next, totally without warning, the heavens opened, the clouds burst, God emptied the contents of his Olympic-sized swimming pool and it
pissed
down. Of course, with rain, there always comes commotion. People ran in all directions, squealing and cursing, as if hydrochloric acid was being poured over their heads. The organised few produced
brollies, and Pac-a-macs from the depths of their bags, the brave pulled out oversized plastic ponchos. People scurried for shelter holding carrier bags, newspapers, small hankies, wallets, chairs and tables above their heads in a vain attempt to keep two square inches of their hair dry. All down the street, windows and doors slammed shut as people dived into the nearest house or car. A skinny blonde girl, with long brown legs up to just below her eyebrows, and a skirt the size of a stamp, ran down the street towards me, shrieking as if the rain would melt her tan.

I often think I’m invisible to beautiful people. Either they ignore me completely or they walk into me, step on my toes, or push me out of the way if I dare to take up more than the airspace of a small moth. Sure enough, she careered into me, sending me flying into a puddle which filled my shoes with water, and soaked the bottom of my jeans.

‘S … s … sorry,’ I stammered in response to her icy glare, and immediately kicked myself for having apologised when it was totally her fault. It’s a self-esteem thing – she had some and I didn’t.

‘Are you OK?’ I pleaded.

‘No thanks to you!’ she huffed.

Tell her to piss off, my mind hissed.

‘Sorry,’ I begged.

She strutted away and folded her endless legs into a sleek red sports car. Screeching away, she made sure not to miss the puddle in the gutter which tidal-waved over the kerb and almost washed me away.

‘Bitch!’ I yelled, as she disappeared from view. I was all for venting my anger after the event. Less trouble that way.
‘Stupid slag! I hope you crash. I hope your engine floods on a level crossing and an Intercity 125 flattens your stupid poncey car. I hope you break both your scrawny legs, you rich, bulimic little COW! And … and I hope all your hair falls out and you get spots and cellulite and club feet and …’

I felt a hand on my shoulder and whipped round, expecting to see Little Miss Rich Bitch ready to scratch my eyes out. But it wasn’t her, it was Randall. Gorgeous, irresistible, lightly soaked Randall, and he was smiling at me. I gasped visibly at the sight of him. Shit. What was I going to say?

‘Jenny, you’re soaked,’ he frowned. ‘What are you doing standing in the rain, pet?’

‘Um …’

‘And who were you talking to?’

‘Er …’

‘Why didn’t you come in?’

‘Oh …’

I shuffled my feet and tried to wipe my dripping hair from my face. He stared at me curiously.

‘Let’s get out of the rain,’ he said, wrapping his arm round my shoulders and leading me across the road to his flat. I was powerless to refuse.

Once inside, he took my coat, wrapped me in a warm, soft towel and made me hot chocolate. I had wanted to say no but it was made with milk and it had whipped cream on the top, and it came with four chocolate digestives for dipping. Any girl would have done the same. Of course, it was perfect. Not too sweet, just enough cream, not too burny on the tongue. Perfect. Just like the rest of his faultless flat. In fact, he probably kept a small Chilean woman
in the kitchen cupboard, specially trained in the art of hot chocolate making, next to the one who cleaned, the one who cooked and the one who specialised in how to deceive your girlfriend. The flat had all been created by someone else, why not the hot chocolate? I felt the resurgence of my rage and glared at him across the room. It served to break the silence.

‘Jenny,’ he said, ‘I’ve been so worried, I didn’t know what was wrong.’

‘Huh!’ I sneered at him, slamming down the empty cup.

‘I got your messages and I didn’t understand what was going on.’

‘Hmm!’

‘I … I was about to come round and see you, pet.’

‘Yeah right.’

‘Aye, but then I saw you standing outside in the rain and …’

His voice trailed off uncomfortably. I looked at my fingernails. He hummed nervously.

Don’t let him get away with it.
Maz’s words reverberated in my head.
Don’t be a bleedin’ walkover.

‘What is it, Jenny?’ he asked.

I pursed my lips.

‘What have I done?’

‘Huh.’ I lifted my nose in the air.

‘What?’

‘You know.’

‘I don’t.’

‘Yes, you
do
.’

‘I
don’t.
’

‘Yes y …’ Fearing we could get stuck in an endless rally of dos and don’ts, I decided to be a tad more direct.

‘You
do
know. You deceived me.’ Just a tad.

‘
Deceived
you. How?’

I paused and looked him in the eye. My heart leapt at the sight of his beautiful face. Beautiful in my eyes, anyway. But I had to find out. I couldn’t be a ‘bleedin’ walkover’. Anyway, maybe all the worry would be for nothing. Maybe it was all a mistake.

‘Everything, Randall,’ I replied. ‘Your flat, your life, the pub. Everything.’

His eyes narrowed. ‘The
pub.
What do you mean by that?’ His voice was weak.

‘I know,’ I said firmly, ‘I found out. The pub has been sold, I’m out of a job, Maz and I are going to be thrown out on the streets to live in cardboard boxes and eat chicken Pot Noodles and it’s all your doing. You, my boyfriend. Why would you do that?’

His eyes widened. My breathing was short and sharp. Deny it, I pleaded, tell me it’s not true.

‘H … how …?’ he stammered.

My heart missed a beat.

‘Wh … who …?’ he croaked.

I almost threw up. Tell me I’m wrong.

‘Who told you?’ he said.

Wanker.

‘Who told me!’ I screamed. ‘Who told me! What the hell is that supposed to mean?’

‘You weren’t supposed to know about it yet.’

‘Not supposed to know …!’ I sucked the air through my
teeth. ‘And when exactly was I supposed to know, hmm? When they came to take my bed away or maybe when they came to drag me out of the door by my hair. Or maybe just when the demolition truck pulled up outside the door, hmm, would that be a better time? Would it?’

‘No!’ he wailed, reaching for my flailing arms.

‘Piss off!’

‘Jenny,’ his eyes looked pained, ‘I was going to tell you.’

‘Oh well thank you very much but I’ve saved you the trouble … or the
pleasure
perhaps.’

‘It was supposed to be a surprise.’

‘A
surprise.
A sur-fucking-prise. Oh it was a surprise all right. “Jenny, you’re losing your job,” oh cool, “and you’ll be penniless and homeless too,” ooh goody, what a surprise. Are you completely mad? Are you certifiably
insane
?’

I sprang up from the futon. He lunged towards me and tried to pull me to him.

‘Don’t touch me!’

He looked hurt. ‘Who told you?’ he asked again.

‘Jack told me, that’s who. He wrote a lovely letter. The person who despises me more than anyone in the world, even more than my mother.’

‘I didn’t ask him to write it.’

‘Oh, so you know each other then?’ I growled. ‘Ooh, let me guess, he’s your half brother.’

‘No.’

‘Your boyfriend?’

‘No!’

‘Well, whatever it is, nothing could surprise me now.’ I glared at him.

‘But Jenny, you don’t have to move out.’

‘Oh, don’t be stupid.’

‘I’m not, I —’

‘What am I supposed to do, live in the rubble when you demolish the place?’

‘But I’m not —’

‘You make me sick.’

‘But —’

‘How
could
you, Randall?’

‘But I —’

‘I trusted you.’

‘Let me —’

‘
I liked
you.’

‘Please let —’

‘I even let you see me naked.’

‘Jenny please —’

‘I had
sex
with you.’

‘Jenny —’

‘I let you lick chocolate spread out of my belly button!’

‘But —’

‘God, I’m so stupid. You were probably laughing at me all the time.’

‘No! I —’

‘Fun was it, your little game?’

‘Jenny!’

‘Enjoy yourself did you?’

‘Jenny,
PLEASE!
’ he yelled.

‘Don’t shout at me!’ I screamed back.

‘But I can’t get a word in edgeways.’

‘I don’t care. I don’t want to hear it.’

‘Please, just let me explain.’

Randall insisted on launching into a lengthy explanation, but I wasn’t listening. Something behind him had caught my attention. His words faded into oblivion. My eyes opened wide with horror and my jaw almost hit the floor.

‘… and so I decided to … what, what is it? What are you looking at me like that for?’

‘So you got some photos then?’ I said nastily.

‘Pardon me?’

‘
Photos,
Randall. You decided to put some photos around the place like I suggested.’

‘Oh, oh yes.’

He followed my gaze to the silver photo frame over his shoulder. Cautiously he lifted the frame and held it out towards me. ‘They … they do brighten the place up,’ he said gently, trying to smile.

‘Who
is
that in the photo with you, Randall?’ I asked firmly, already knowing the answer.

‘Wh … who?’

‘Yes, Randall,
who?
Who is that person you have your arm round?’ I could almost feel smoke coming out of my ears. Thick, black, choking smoke and flames.

‘Who. Oh um … that’s Troy,’ he smiled.

Smile once more and you’ll be having your teeth for lunch,
I thought.

‘Oh, Troy,’ I snorted. ‘Now would that be the all-American, physically perfect, white-toothed, very tanned, extremely homosexual Troy?’

‘Yes, that’s right. Oh …’

‘Oh. Would that also be the Troy I thought was going to
be my boyfriend until I discovered that’s exactly what he was looking for.’

‘Oh, of course, you —’

‘Don’t say anything!’ I said hotly.

‘But …’

He looked uneasily at my outraged expression and edged closer towards me. He was so close I could smell him, the warm, musky smell of my man. I wanted to cry.

‘Please, Jenny,’ he pleaded, reaching out a shaking hand to touch my shoulder. ‘I can explain everything.’

‘I swear, Randall,’ I said, shrugging off his hand, ‘if you touch me again I’ll break both your arms.’

He took a sharp step backwards, his eyes flickering over my face.

‘I don’t want to hear your explanations. What are you going to do? Tell me even more lies?’

‘No,’ he shook his head vigorously. ‘You don’t understand.’

‘No, I don’t. I can’t.’

There was an uncomfortable silence as we stood apart, staring into each other’s eyes. I wanted to punch him yet, at the same time, I wanted to kiss him. I just felt so disappointed.
Why me?
I thought sadly.
Why do these things always happen to me?