Ship of Brides (45 page)

Frances, still lost in the captain’s previous words, barely noticed.

The captain sat down again, dropping the papers beside him on the desk. There was a long silence.

‘Was he . . . shot down?’ she said.

‘No,’ he said, after another slug of his drink. ‘No. I think he would have preferred that. One of the bombs dropped into number-two hold and blew out several decks, from the officers’ berths to the centre engine room. I lost sixteen men in that first explosion.’

Frances could imagine the scene on board, her nose scenting the smoke and oil, the screams of trapped and burning men in her ears. ‘Including your nephew.’

‘No . . . no, that’s the problem. I was too late getting them out, you see? I’d been blown off my feet, and I was a bit dazed. I didn’t realise how close the explosion had been to the ammunition stores.

‘The fire cracked several of the internal pipes. It ran along the tiller flat, the steering-gear store and the admiral’s store and came up again under the ammunition conveyor. Fifteen minutes after the first, they caught and blew out half the innards of the ship.’ He shook his head. ‘It was deafening . . . deafening. I thought the heavens themselves had cracked open. I should have had more men down there, checking the hatches were closed, stopping the fire.’

‘You might have lost more.’

‘Fifty-eight, all told. My nephew had been on the control platform.’ He hesitated. ‘I couldn’t get to him.’

Frances sat very still. ‘I’m sorry,’ she said.

‘They made me get off,’ he said, his words coming thick and fast now as if they had waited too long. ‘She was going down, and I had my men – those who could still stand – in the boats. The seas were eerily calm, and I could see the boats all sitting there below me, almost still, like lily-pads on a pond, all smeared with blood and oil as the men hauled in the injured from the water. It was so hot. Those of us still aboard were spraying ourselves with the hoses, just to try to stay on the ship. And while we were trying to reach our injured men, while bits of the ship were cracking open and burning, the bloody Japanese kept circling. Not firing any more, just circling above us, like vultures, as if they were enjoying watching us suffer.’

He took a gulp of his drink.

‘I was still trying to find him when they ordered me off.’ He dropped his head. ‘Two destroyers came alongside to help us. Finally saw off the Japanese. I was ordered off. And all my men sat there and watched as I let the ship go down, knowing that there were probably men alive down there, injured men. Perhaps even Hart.’

He paused. ‘None of them said a word to me. They just . . . stared.’

Frances closed her eyes. She had heard similar stories, knew the scars they caused. There was nothing she could say to comfort him.

They listened to the Tannoy calling the ladies to a display of feltwork in the forward lounge. Frances noted, with surprise, that at some point it had become completely dark outside.

‘Not much of a way to end a career, is it?’

She heard the break in his voice. ‘Captain,’ she said, ‘the only people who still have all the answers are those who have never been faced with the questions.’

Outside his rooms the deck light stuttered into life, throwing a cold neon glow through the window. There was a brief burst of conversation as several men left the squadron office and a pipe called repetitively ‘stand by to receive gash barge alongside’.

Captain Highfield stared at his feet, then at her, digesting the truth of what she had said. He had a long slug of his drink, his eyes not leaving hers as he finished it. ‘Sister Mackenzie,’ he said, as he put his glass on the table, ‘tell me about your husband.’

Nicol had stood outside the cinema projection room for almost three-quarters of an hour. Had he been allowed in to view the film, he would have been unwilling to watch
The Best Years of Our Lives
, even with its happy endings for those servicemen returning home. His attention was focused on the other end of the corridor.

‘I can’t believe this,’ Jones-the-Welsh had said, as he dried himself in the mess. ‘I heard she was being put off. The next thing captain’s saying it’s all a bloody misunderstanding. It was not, I can tell you. You saw her, didn’t you, Duckworth? We both recognised her. Don’t understand it.’ He rubbed briskly under his arms.

‘I know why,’ said another marine. ‘She’s in there having a drink with the skipper.’

‘What?’

‘In his rooms. The old weather-guesser just took him in the long-range reports, and there she is, curled up with him on the settee having a drink.’

‘The sly old dog,’ Jones said.

‘She’s not silly, eh?’

‘Highfield? He couldn’t get a bag-off in a brothel with a fiver sticking out of his ear.’

‘It’s one rule for us and another for them, that’s for sure,’ said Duckworth, bitterly. ‘Can you imagine them letting us bring a brass back to the mess?’

‘You must be mistaken.’ Nicol had spoken before he realised what he was saying. The words hung heavy in the ensuing silence. ‘She wouldn’t be in the captain’s rooms.’ He lowered his voice. ‘I mean, there’s no reason for her to be there.’

‘Taylor knows what he saw. I can tell you something else. It’s not the first time, either. He reckons it’s the third time this week he’s seen her in there.’

‘Third time, eh? C’mon, Nicol, old boy. You know the reason as well as I do.’ Jones’s braying voice had exploded into laughter. ‘How’d you like that, boys? Sixty years old and our skipper’s finally discovered the joys of the flesh!’

Finally, he heard voices. As he stood back against the pipes, the captain’s lobby door opened. The air was punched silently from his lungs as he saw the slim figure step out lightly and turn to face the captain. He didn’t have to look long to confirm who it was: her image, every last detail, was now as deeply imprinted on his soul as if it had been etched there.

‘Thank you,’ Highfield was saying. ‘I don’t really know what else to say. I’m not usually given to . . .’

She shook her head, as if whatever she had bestowed upon him was nothing. Then she smoothed her hair. He found himself stepping back into the shadows. I’m not given to . . . to what? Nicol’s breath lodged in his chest and his mind went blank. This was not how he had felt when his wife had revealed her affair. This was worse.

They muttered something he couldn’t catch, and then her voice rose again. ‘Oh, Captain,’ she called, ‘I forgot to say . . . Sixteen.’

Nicol could just make out Highfield staring at her, his expression quizzical.

She began to make her way towards the main hangar. ‘Sixteen penicillin left in the big bottle. Seven in the smaller one. And ten sealed dressings in the white bag. At least, there should be.’

He could hear the captain’s laughter the whole way down the gangway.

20

The boredom of weeks at sea has to be experienced to be fully understood and the frustrations of such an existence were to many, in the long run, infinitely more damaging to the mind than the potential hazards of being blown up by the enemy . . . when we were not fighting the enemy, we were fighting amongst ourselves.

L. Troman,
Wine, Women and War

Two days to Plymouth

In the absence of horses and a track, or of trainee pilots who could be guaranteed to end up in the soup occasionally, it should perhaps have been of little surprise that such fierce betting lay on the immaculately coiffed heads of the Queen of the
Victoria
contestants. It was possible that Mrs Ivy Tuttle and Mrs Jeanette Latham might have been a little demoralised to know that they were joint forty to one against or, indeed, that knowing she was five to two on might have put a swagger into Irene Carter’s already undulating step. But for days now it had been common knowledge that the real favourite, with a good proportion of the ship’s company putting a shilling or more on her blonde tresses, was Avice Radley.

‘Foster says there’s some fair-sized punts on her,’ yelled Plummer, the junior stoker.

‘There’s some fair-sized somethings,’ roared the departing watch.

‘He reckons if she comes in first he’s going to have to pay out half the money he won on the gee-gees at Bombay.’

Within hours they would have entered the cool, choppy waters of the Bay of Biscay, but more than a hundred feet below the flight deck, down in the engine pit, the temperatures were still at a shirt-drenching hundred or so degrees. Tims, naked to the waist, swung the polished wheels that sent the steam into the engine’s turbines while Plummer, who had been oiling the main engine, felt round the bearings for overheating, occasionally swearing as his skin met scalding metal.

Between them, the bridge telegraph dial relayed the orders from above to put the engines over to ‘make smoke’ or ‘full speed’ in an effort to get through the rough as soon as possible, and around them, above the incessant grinding and roaring of the engine, the tired old ship creaked and groaned in protest. Steam persisted in escaping through valves in little belches of effort; the rags that tried to quell them were damp and sodden with scalding water. In these emissions, the
Victoria
insisted on showing her age; her many dials and gauges looked out at them with the blank insouciance of a bloody-minded old woman.

Plummer finished tightening a bolt, secured his spanner in its wall-mounting, then turned to Tims. ‘You not had a few bob on one of them, then?’

‘What?’ Tims glowered.

He was a mean-looking man in a bad mood, but Plummer, who was used to him, rattled on: ‘The contest tonight.’ The noise of the engine was such that he used gesture to convey added meaning to his words. ‘There’s a lot of money riding on it.’

‘Load of rubbish,’ said Tims, dismissively.

‘Like to see them all lined up in their little swimsuits, though, eh?’ He drew curves in the air, and pulled a lascivious face. It sat almost comically on his adolescent features. ‘Get you in the mood for the missus.’

This seemed to make Tims more bad-tempered. He wiped his shining forehead with a filthy rag, then reached down for a wrench. The choppier waters sent tools thumping and clanging across the floor, a hazard to shins and toes. ‘Don’t know what you’re getting so excited about,’ he growled. ‘You’re on duty all night.’

‘Two pounds I’ve got on that Radley girl,’ Plummer said. ‘Two pounds! I got my bet on when she was still three to one against so if she wins I’m bloody quids in. If not, I’m in the drink. I promised my old ma I’d pay for us all to go to Scarborough. But I’m an optimist by nature, see? I reckon I can’t lose.’

He was lost in appreciation of some imagined scene upstairs. ‘Looked bloody fantastic in her swimsuit for the Miss Lovely Legs, that girl. Great pair of pins on her. D’you think it’s something they give them in Australia? I’ve heard half the girls back home have got rickets.’

Tims, apparently oblivious, was staring at his watch.

Plummer rambled on: ‘All the officers get to see it, you know. How’s that fair, eh? Two more nights on board, and all the officers get to see the girls in their swimsuits and we’re stuck down here in bloody centre engine. You know the marines are switching shifts at nine so even they’ll catch some of it. One rule for one lot, another rule for us. Hardly fair, is it? Now the war’s over, they should take a look at all the injustices of the bloody Navy.’

Plummer checked a dial, swore, then glanced at Tims, who was staring at the wall. ‘Here, you all right, Tims? Something got on your wick, has it?’

‘Cover me for half an hour,’ Tims said, turning towards the exit hatch. ‘Something I need to do.’

Had he been able to see the opening stages of the Queen of the
Victoria
contest, young Plummer might have felt less confident about his trip to Scarborough. For Avice Radley, despite being widely considered a shoo-in for winner, was looking curiously lacklustre. Or in racing terms, as one of the seamen put it, not dissimilar to a three-legged donkey.

Perched on the makeshift stage alongside her fellow contestants, faced by the heaving tables that made up the women’s last formal supper, she looked pale and preoccupied, despite the glowing scarlet of the silk dress she wore, and the glossy wheat sheen of her blonde hair. As the other girls giggled and clutched each other, trying to keep their balance in high heels as the ship dipped under them, she stood alone and aside, smile fading, eyes shadowed with some distant concern.

Twice Dr Duxbury, the host for the evening’s proceedings, had taken her hand, tried to get her to elaborate on her plans for her new life, to recall her favourite moments of the voyage. She had seemed not to notice him, even when he broke into his third rendition of ‘Waltzing Matilda’.

That’ll be the morning sickness kicking in, at least one bride had observed. All mothers-to-be looked rotten for the first few months. It was only a matter of time. A few, less generous types suggested that perhaps without foundation garments and cosmetics Avice Radley had never been the beauty everyone had taken her for. And when you compared her to the glowing Irene Carter, resplendent in pale peach and blue, apparently heedless of the heaving waters, it was hard to disagree.

Dr Duxbury tailed off to polite, scattered applause. There were only so many times one could applaud the same song, and it was possible the surgeon was too well lubricated to be aware of his audience anyway.

At last he registered the frantically signalling lieutenant commander at the end of the stage and, after several attempts, pointed theatrically at the captain, raising his palms as if to suggest that no one had told him.

‘Ladies,’ said Highfield, standing quickly, perhaps before Duxbury could start singing again. He waited as the hangar gradually fell silent. ‘Ladies . . . As you know, this is our last night’s entertainment on
Victoria
. Tomorrow night we will dock at Plymouth, and you will spend the evening organising your belongings and double checking with the women’s service officers that you have someone to meet you and somewhere to go. Tomorrow morning I will discuss the arrangements more fully on the flight deck, but for now I just wanted to say a few words.’