Authors: Fabrice Humbert
The day after their meeting at the restaurant, Shoshana was still thinking about the Parisian waiter. She was plagued with doubts. Hypnotised by the memory, her thoughts constantly returned to him, she couldn't shake them off. She had to know. She went back to the restaurant.
The moment he saw her, Sila went over to her.
âSo you've decided to come.'
She smiled self-consciously.
âWould you like a table?' he asked.
âPlease. A table for one. I'll be having lunch alone.'
It was very early. The crowds had not yet arrived. Sila led her to a small table by the window.
âA waiter will come by to look after you.'
The young woman nodded, then said suddenly: âExcuse me. Would it be possible for you to serve me?'
Sila looked surprised.
âIt's just, I don't know, I just like your French accent, it's so lovely.' Shoshana gave a theatrical smile which she felt was completely fake but actually came off quite well. âI love France. In fact I've been there,' she added sitting up, proud of herself, like a diligent schoolgirl. âAnd since we're in a French restaurant, I would really, really love it if I could be served by a man
with a French accent.'
âI'm not sure my accent is particularly French, madame, I suspect a real Frenchman might disagree with you, but if I can be of any service, I would be only too happy.'
âHe's not French. So it can't be him,' she thought, relieved.
Sila brought the menu.
âYou choose for me. Whatever the specialities are. I trust you. You know I once went to Lemerre's Paris restaurant. A great chef. He owns this place too, doesn't he? It was an unforgettable experience. And you didn't get to choose. If you ordered the tasting menu, they just brought you everything. It was delicious, no, it was more than that, I can't explain it, it was, you know, sort of a whole experience, like it was art, or a mysterious journey, and the flavours were sublime. I had no idea what was on my plate, it was like magic, and with flavours that blended perfectly or that contrasted perfectly depending on what the chef was doing. I'm sorry, I can't really explain it â¦'
âYou describe it very well, madame,' said Sila, who was not staring at her.
âReally? Oh, I'm so glad ⦠Have you â¦' Shoshana went on, increasingly nervous now, âI mean, do you know the restaurant?'
âI worked there before I moved here.'
The young woman's face fell.
âOh, really? You worked there?'
Then she stopped and stammered: âIt really was a wonderful, wonderful experience.'
âIt's him. It's got to be him. I was right. And he recognised me. I saw it in his face. I'm sure he recognised me. I feel so
ashamed. Why did I come here? He must really hate me.'
âA wonderful experience,' she said again.
âI'll bring you a selection of our specialities,' said Sila. âIt may not be as good as Paris, but we just might surprise you.'
He walked away a little abruptly. The customer's comments had reminded him of the other arsehole, the lunatic who lost it. Why? The young woman had been rather nice, but, without knowing why, the memory came flooding back and with it a feeling of unease.
Shoshana's embarrassment was tempered with relief. She felt horribly guilty, as though she were the one who had hit Sila, yet at the same time she was happy to know she had not been wrong because here, perhaps, was a chance for her to put things right, to get to know him, to explain, apologise, to finally do something in her husband's stead. After all, it had been his thuggish behaviour in the restaurant in Paris that had shattered the balance of the relationship, and transformed Mark into a gargoyle, so much so that she could no longer consider him rationally. It had been this brutality which had set in motion the breakdown of her marriage, which had distanced her from Mark's infantile play-acting, whereas before that they had made rather a good couple; they rarely argued; of course they rarely argued even now but the arguments weren't the worst, the worst was the awkwardness between them which meant that everything rang false, as though drowned out by the silence and mutual incomprehension. And maybe, by some magical gesture, something that would have to be creative, harmony could be restored just as a broken nose could be reset. And though it was strange to run into this man in Miami as
though he'd followed them, at least it was still an opportunity to put things right. Obviously, it was something she couldn't talk about to Mark, he had other things to do and he'd already forgotten the whole story, but behind his back, by some luminous, magical gestures, perhaps she could restore unity as though by some voodoo ritual. Of course, nothing can repair the shattered pieces of a vase smashed in anger. Nothing except a gesture of conciliation, a plea to the man sprawled on the floor, a man who seemed good and kind, who had an innocence about him and would surely not reject her gesture of peace. No, he couldn't refuse, all she had to do was speak to him frankly, with the sincerity of an honest heart, and everything could be put right. Between Mark and her, between Chris and her, between them and the waiter and perhaps, she thought obscurely in the naive, instinctive way she had, in the world itself. All that was needed was to replace this piece that had been dislodged by violence, this tiny piece that was crucial to the equilibrium of the world.
She waited. She felt both nervous and impatient because this man could not refuse to listen to her, because honesty and sincerity were bound to be respected. A sunbeam lit up her hair and her left hand. She felt embarrassed by it. It felt rather warm. Sila personally brought her a plate of
confit
and caramelised meats, small sweet mouthfuls. She thanked him.
âIt looks delicious,' she said.
And she couldn't say another word. Sila left and she tried to enjoy the dish he had brought, though she wasn't even hungry. She devised phrases and readied herself to say them. But when Sila returned, she found herself unable to do so.
She wanted to say, âI just have to talk to you.' She wanted
to say, âMy whole future depends on you.' would have said: âWould it be possible to discuss a matter that's very important to me?' But she said nothing. Honesty and sincerity remained silent. With an absurdly enthusiastic smile, Shoshana asked, âDo you like Paris? I just love the city! I love it!'
Sila gave a polite smile. What could he say?
And so the lunch played out, between silences and ridiculous, incongruous excesses. Sila would come to the table and Shoshana would suddenly be all keyed up with excitement, while inside she was tormented by the confession she could not make.
It came time to pay. She could already see herself getting up, leaving the restaurant, stepping out into the street, only for the confusion of thoughts and regrets to start again. She would go home and replay the scene ten times, a hundred times, dream up perfect scenarios for other encounters. And so, desperate, mustering all her courage, in a whispered confession that sounded as though it had just slipped out, she said: âI'm the wife of the man who hit you.'
Sila froze.
âI'm the wife of the man who punched you in Paris. I'm so sorry. I came to apologise to you.'
Sila said nothing. He was astonished and yet at the same time he understood why this woman had come, why she had needed to talk to him. He hadn't recognised her. In fact, had he even seen her before? All he remembered glimpsing was a face, savage, baboon-like, a face he wasn't sure he would recognise. So the woman sitting with him at the table â¦
He extended his arm, opened his hand. He did not know the
reason for this gesture. In itself, his raised hand meant little. A gesture someone might use to stop a car. Or a hypnotist placing his palm on a subject's forehead. A black hand spread wide, the fingers splayed, the pink palm proffered, naked, vulnerable. But at this simple gesture, Shoshana felt calm. She did not interpret it as a refusal or a dismissal, but as a sign of peace. Perhaps because all she had hoped for was a silent, perfect reconciliation, something like this open hand.
âThank you, thank you,' the young woman stammered, rushing out.
And as she fled, she took with her the iconic image of this man, one hand raised, like a saint or a healer.
Lev considered the man he was speaking to with suspicion. It had been a long time since they had met. He knew the Chechens were occupied elsewhere. They were having problems with the Slavic Brotherhood who, for some years now, had been fighting for supremacy in Moscow. This was a turning point in the war between the gangs. The decentralised structure of the Slavic Brotherhood, affording considerable autonomy to local gangs and taking no interest in their trafficking and racketeering in exchange for a bond of fealty by which they freely provided men in times of armed conflict, proved to be stronger than the strict centralisation of the Chechens. There were always more gangs prepared to ally themselves with the Brotherhood, while the Chechen franchise, in spite of its reputation, attracted fewer. And the disparity in numbers was becoming glaring although, since the 1993 turf war when a machine-gun battle between the gangs in a Moscow cinema had left one of the leaders of the Brotherhood dead, both sides had favoured skirmishes over all-out confrontation.
But the man with the wrestler's neck standing before him, the same Chechen who had first come to his office to make the âproposition', had good reasons to be here.
âRiabine's had an offer from Liekom. We're sure of it. And
that means Liekom have as much chance of getting the oilfield as we do.'
â
We?
' Lev snapped.
âWe, you, however you want to put it. But the Chechens share your interests. We're connected now.'
âLike Litvinov and the Brotherhood?' asked Lev.
âSure,' the wrestler grumbled, âbut that's obvious. Things have changed. The gangs have allied themselves with the oligarchs, we're not mafia any more, these days we're businessmen just like you.'
Or these days we're all mafia, thought Lev.
âAnything that hurts Liekom, hurts the Brotherhood,' the wrestler went on. âAnd anything that's good for ELK is good for the Chechens. We can't lose that oilfield. Liekom is taking over everything, and pretty soon they'll be taking us over.'
âNot a chance,' Lev interrupted, âI'll never let that happen.'
The wrestler fell silent. And in the silence, Lev understood. Things really had changed. If they had to, the Brotherhood would eliminate him, and launch an all-out war to exterminate the Chechens.
Lev's voice grew fainter. He tried to stick to the subject of Riabine.
âI made him a decent offer. He refused. It's his loss. It's not like it's a particularly large oilfield. I mean, it's only three wells.'
âThat's not true, as you well know!' said the Chechen in a tone that had none of the humility of their early meetings, when he had been all fake deference. Now, he knew that Lev's life was safe only by virtue of his connection to the Chechens.
âThat field has serious possibilities. It could be a major
supply. And Riabine should never have been in a position to refuse. It sets a bad precedent. You accepted defeat. And in our world, that's not good.'
Lev angrily got to his feet.
âThere was no failure on my part! I'm president of ELK and I'm head of the Chechens since I'm the one who pays you. Without my money, the Chechens would be nothing any more, and it's not like the diminishing returns from your rackets or your humiliations at the hands of the Brotherhood are going to save you. Your money, your reputation, it's all me. If it weren't for my money, the Chechens would be nothing! The Brotherhood would hunt you down on the streets of Moscow and slit your throats.'
The Chechen lowered his head.
âI'm sorry if I offended you,' he said in a quiet, submissive tone, âit wasn't my intention. As you say, you're the boss. But I'd like you to give the situation some thought. The situation is very delicate, the mergers between oil companies are constantly accelerating. Word gets out about things, including Riabine turning down our offer.'
âSo? I'm supposed to kill the man for refusing to sell me his oilfield?'
The Chechen did not answer.
âSo that's it? You think I should have killed him?'
âNo, probably not. But you could have let us handle things. You had two men with you. All you had to do was ask. They can be very persuasive.'
âVery persuasive? I'm sure they are. But it's not my style. I won't have anything to do with such methods.'
The man picked up his hat.
âIf I might suggest, Councillor, give the matter some thought. Another week and Liekom will get Riabine to sign, whether he likes it or not. It would be better for us â and for him too â if he were to accept our offer.'
The door closed. Lev's head ached and he felt tired. Lying, cheating, threatening, bribing, he had done all these things. He could not quite understand how, but he had been that man, he took no pleasure in it, but he was ruthless. But torturing a man for his signature, that was something he could not do. He knew exactly how such things worked: the men would simply walk in with a briefcase full of money in one hand and a gun in the other. They'd open the briefcase, point the gun at the man's head and the negotiations would proceed at a fantastic pace. But Riabine would refuse, Lev was sure of that. So then they would start hitting him. Until he gave in, or died from the blows.
And he did not want to give the order. Litvinov would decide whatever he decided, but he could not do it. No, such methods were not for him. Not murder. If he gave the order, he was lost. Everything he had believed in, however faintly, however tempered by his cynicism, would be lost. He would never again be able to think of himself as an ordinary businessman forced to make difficult decisions by prevailing circumstances in Russia, just as one must weather a storm, whatever the cost. He would become a criminal, nothing more. As surely as if he himself had beaten Riabine.