The sentence held a certain bitter fatalism. For reasons that Tony did not fully understand, it made him want to talk. âYou know what really happened today?' he said. âI thought Dana had come to arrest me.'
Ernie turned to him, watching his face.
âI didn't do it, Ernie. Someone else was there that night.'
Ernie cocked his head, green eyes narrowing. âDid you see anyone?'
âNo. But I
heard
him.'
Ernie propped his chin on folded hands, gazing at the field. âLots of people in that park. Lots of places to hide. I probably know most of them.'
The off hand comment surprised Tony, then disturbed him. He had never explored the park; since Alison's murder, he had not gone near it.
âCan you show me?' he asked.
The two of them stood in the park, looking through the grove of trees at the Taylors' Gothic roofline. It was late afternoon; for a moment, he imagined Alison's mother, preparing to serve dinner to three people and an empty chair. A dull sickness settled on him.
By unspoken consent, they turned and walked from the grove.
For the first time in Tony's memory, the park seemed exotic, haunted â clusters of oak trees crowding each other where their seeds once had fallen close together; a hedge of vines and thistles, taller than both of them, extending from the grove that marked the Taylors' lot to circle the front of the park. As they approached, Tony saw that the hedges were thickets â twisted, tangled, green with new spring growth.
Silent, Ernie reached out and pulled back a clump of vines.
Behind it was a hollow space hidden amongst the vines and branches â a matted patch of grass, sunless and dark, like a cave. On the grass were an empty cigarette pack, cigarette butts stained by dampness, the torn foil from a condom. Ernie gave a soft laugh.
The furtive traces of a human presence unsettled Tony. âHow did you know to find this?'
âMy brother showed me, when I was fourteen. Summers, we'd sneak out of the house at night, pretend to be commandos, and go different places. Some nights we'd sleep in the old graveyard, other nights we'd come here.' He paused, remembering. âPretty soon, we figured out we weren't the only people out here late at night. There were bums, people fucking â lately even a few guys selling marijuana. Lot more folks hitching through town these days, it seems like, college-age kids a lot of them. The cops know all that â they come through in patrol cars at two, three in the morning, sometimes sniffing around with flashlights. Ducking the cops was the best part of it. That, and wondering who else was out there.'
Tony found himself staring at the crushed cigarette pack; though Saul had mentioned transients, this evidence of a second, nocturnal park, which had once surrounded him and Alison, disturbed him deeply. âThere are a lot of places, like this,' Ernie said. âBut people don't know to find them.'
Tony turned to him. âEver come out here alone?'
âNow and then. Until she died.' Ernie let go of the vines in his hand, covering the hiding place. âIt was lonelier when my brother left. But some nights it was like being the secret king of Lake City. For a few hours, no one could see me, and I could do any damn thing I wanted.' He gave a final ironic smile. âMidnight to five, it was the one country club in town that let in blacks. But it wasn't exclusive â there are a lot of people in this park who could've killed her. The cops know
that
part too.
She
must have known it.'
âAlison?'
âSure. Even when I was a kid, and my folks would bring Gerald and me here for picnics, I'd see her playing here all the time.' Ernie's voice grew softer. âYou know, with her friends.'
The last phrase, Tony felt certain, carried a secret, perhaps unconscious meaning â that it had not then been in the order of things, social or racial, that Alison Taylor and a black boy be friends.
âI miss her a lot,' Tony said simply.
After a time, Ernie nodded; the gesture was oddly reluctant. âShe seemed nice. But if you're me, you never really know what that means. I mean, are you supposed to think she wants to go out with you?'
Tony knew the answer. He had seldom imagined Ernie Nixon other than as a team-mate or a social curiosity; now he sensed what lay behind Ernie's reserve â some people were nice, others weren't, but all of them saw you for what, in their minds, you were and would always be.
Against his will, Tony once more gazed at the Taylors' backyard, thought of what he had found there, and turned away.
Silent, they walked across the grass to Tony's car. The park was unpeopled, quieter than Tony had remembered. Only when they got to the car did Tony speak again. âI'm sorry about the Lancers. But it really
is
stupid.'
Ernie did not answer for a while. âMaybe. But “stupid” is something other people get to decide.'
Tony turned to look at him, and then curiosity overcame self-consciousness. âWhy did your parents ever come here?'
Ernie's green-eyed gaze combined irony with a certain tolerance. âProbably for the same reason your parents did,' he answered. âLake City's a great place to raise kids.'
âWhat happened?' Tony asked. He held the telephone tightly, wishing that he could see Saul Ravin's face.
âI'll put it this way, Tony. From what Morelli tells me, John Taylor went away mad. So did the police.'
âThey're not charging me?'
âNot yet. Morelli's still against it. He's a smart and principled man, educated by your friends the Jesuits, and capable of placing justice above politics.'
âThen what was this “new” evidence?'
âI'm not sure, except that it's something they found on the body which squares with your blood type â whether it's blood different from Alison's type, or hair, or something else altogether, they won't say. But I did point out to Morelli that sixty percent of the populace has the same blood type as yours, so that all he could say is that you weren't ruled out.'
âDid you talk about anything else?'
âI told him I thought you were innocent. It seemed to leave him speechless.'
âWhy?'
âI don't know.' Tony heard the first trace of humor in Saul's voice. âI guess because I've never said that to him before.'
For a moment, Tony himself did not know what to say. âThanks, Saul . . .'
âDon't thank me. Morelli knows what a prosecution would do to you. He's got the rest of your life to put together a case.'
Tony felt himself slump, torn between relief and this seemingly endless shadow. âAt the baseball game,' he said, âDana and Alison's father were there, watching me. I spent the whole game thinking Dana would arrest me once it was over.'
For a moment, Saul was quiet. âThen I'm sure that's why they did it â to make you stew in your own guilt. As I say, they're frustrated.' His voice turned apologetic. âI should have told you, Tony. What would happen is Morelli would call me, and I'd take you in myself. This is bad enough without your having to see ghosts.'
âJesus . . .'
âSo that's it. You're not going to be busted tomorrow, or the next day.' Saul sounded tired now. âWe can all go back to watching television.'
Tony gave a short laugh. âNot me. I'm catching up on my sleep. . . .'
âHaven't you heard?'
âWhat?'
âMartin Luther King's been shot, Tony. He's dead.'
Tony was stunned. âGod, I'm sorry. . . .'
âSo am I. There'll be hell to pay for this, and for years. It's a loss for every decent person in this country.' With that, Saul got off.
Tony went to the basement, turning on the television. He did not tell his parents what had happened.
On the screen, Robert Kennedy, campaigning for President in Indianapolis, stood before a silent crowd in a black neighborhood. Many in the crowd seemed to be weeping; Kennedy spoke spontaneously, near tears himself:
âMartin Luther King dedicated his life to love and to justice for his fellow human beings, and he died because of that effort. . . .
â
What me need in the United States is not division; what we need in the United States is not hatred; what me need in the United States is not violence or lawlessness, but love and wisdom, and compassion toward one another, and a feeling of justice toward those who still suffer in our country, whether they be white or they be black
. . . .
âSo I ask you to return home, to say a prayer for the family of Martin Luther King, Jr. , that's true but also to say a prayer for our own country, which all of us love, a prayer for understanding and compassion. . . .'
Listening, Tony discovered that he, like Robert Kennedy, was deeply shaken. For a moment, he thought to call Ernie Nixon, to say that he was sorry for what happened. But that would have been presumptuous, Tony thought, even foolish. Ernie Nixon lived in Lake City; his life tomorrow would be much like his life yesterday. Martin Luther King had little to do with Ernie Nixon.
Chapter 15
Fumbling with the studs to his rented tuxedo, Tony had steeled himself for a senior prom that, a week before, he had sworn not to attend.
âAt least think about it.' Sue's brown eyes were serious. âIt's like you're running away. . . .'
âAs fast as I can. From all the extra chaperons they'd need to make sure the girls make it home alive.' His voice rose in irritation. âSue, you're the homecoming queen. I'm a murderer.'
Sue looked down. Quietly, she said, âOnly if you act like one. If you go, people will respect that.' She gazed up at him again. âHow are you going to feel that night, watching TV by yourself? Any better?'
Despite himself, Tony was suddenly touched by her hope, forlorn as it was, that at least this moment of his senior year would be a little like the yearbook picture she might once have imagined for the four of them. More gently, he said, âI can't bring a date, Sue. While you're with Sam, getting your prom picture taken, I'll be alone in a corner â'
â
I'll
dance with you, Tony.'
For the first time, Tony smiled. âDo you plan on sedating Sam? He hasn't dropped by to encourage me to go â'
âBut he'll support you.' Sue's voice took on an unwonted firmness. âWe've all been friends too long. It's time for both of you to grow up.'
Tony felt this strike his deep vein of resentment toward Sam: he sensed that neither the prom, nor watching Tony dance with Sue, was a likely occasion for Sam to bury his own grievances. Then, perversely, Tony decided to put Sam to the test. âMaybe,' he said, âfor a little while . . .'
Which is how it was that, after suffering through his parents' picture-taking session, Tony found himself holding Sue Cash as the band played âThe Way You Look Tonight.'
The Lake City Country Club was theirs for this one occasion, the first time Tony had set foot inside, and swirls of paper and makeshift balls of glass hung from the ceiling. Tony found the effort somewhat short of magical: the band was a compromise with faculty and parents â its singer was much better at âSmoke Gets in Your Eyes' than âA Hard Day's Night,' and Aretha Franklin's âRespect' was entirely beyond him â and the Casino Night theme, featuring roulette wheels and blackjack tables where one could gamble for stuffed dolls and drink pink lemonade from champagne glasses, was the parents' wan attempt to prevent satellite drinking parties on the golf course. Nor, Tony thought, could the alchemy of black tie and evening dresses turn a bunch of teenagers into Cary Grant and Grace Kelly in
To Catch a Thief
: too many guys wore their ties askew, and others looked so stiff that they resembled the protagonist of an open-casket funeral. There was the usual prom-night complement of awful pairings, social non-combatants fixed up by a committee of teachers so that everyone would have a partner. Spotting Ernie Nixon trying to extract conversation from his date, an unattractive blonde who occupied a folding chair in a state of mortification that seemed almost otherworldly, Tony regretted that he had hardly spoken to Ernie since the night Martin Luther King was shot. But a look at Sue Cash tonight, Tony admitted to himself, was nothing to regret.
She had a light tan â by May the first sunny days had come â and that and her makeup went so well with her pink satin gown that the effect was one of great naturalness. The gown itself had been sewn by her mother, and it fit Sue's round curves without seeming to make a point of them. For Tony, the effect was both touching and a little awesome: it was as though Sue Cash, his friend, had graduated to womanhood with such ease and assurance that the Sue in his arms was someone new to him. Yet she felt warm, relaxed; though they had never before danced together, from the first few notes it seemed quite effortless. The touch of her hair against his face carried the scent of perfume.
âYou,' he murmured, âare absolutely beautiful.'
He felt her smile against his shoulder, and then the music ended. As she leaned back, the grin she gave him was the old Sue with a little mischief thrown in. âBetter than in the pink-striped dress?'
Tony eyed her critically, pretending to consider this. âI really don't think it would fit now, Sue.'
For a moment more, they smiled at each other, and then she went to find Sam.
Curious, Tony let his gaze follow her. It was clear that with respect to Tony, Sue was on her own. Sam had turned from the dance floor and was laughing with Charlie Moore; Tony sensed something a little stagy about his indifference to Sue's return, and he and Charlie looked as if they were united in the superiority of a secret shared. Then Sam took a quick, emphatic swallow from his paper cup, and Tony guessed the secret â whiskey, hidden in Sam's locker in the men's shower room. Perhaps, Tony thought, it was time to test Sam's feelings.