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Sleepwalkers

Tom Grieves

UK (2012)

Ben is your average married man: wife, two kids, steady job. Toby is
your average schoolboy: fifteen years old, sweet-natured and shy. Two
people, two separate, unremarkable lives.

Except
for their dreams. Dreams of violence. Dreams of rage. Dreams of torture.
Dreams that are always followed the next morning by scratches,
scars and pain.

When their dreams and doubts become
too powerful to ignore, one fact will become clearer than any other:
that the truth they are running towards is the very thing that they
should be running away from.

CONTENTS

Cover Page

Title Page

Copyright Page

Dedication

One

Two

Three

Four

Five

Six

Seven

Eight

Nine

Ten

Eleven

Twelve

Thirteen

Fourteen

Fifteen

Sixteen

Seventeen

Eighteen

Nineteen

Twenty

Twenty-One

Twenty-Two

Twenty-Three

Twenty-Four

Twenty-Five

Twenty-Six

Twenty-Seven

Twenty-Eight

Acknowledgements

Also Available

First published in Great Britain in 2012 by

Quercus

55 Baker Street

7th Floor, South Block

London W1U 8EW

Copyright © 2012 Tom Grieves

The moral right of Tom Grieves to be identified as the author of this work has been asserted in accordance with the Copyright, Designs and Patents Act, 1988.

All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopy, recording, or any information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from the publisher.

A CIP catalogue record for this book is available from the British Library

EBOOK ISBN 978 0 85738 982 4
HB ISBN 978 0 85738 980 0
TPB ISBN 978 0 85738 981 7

This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, organizations, places and events are either the product of the authors’ imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events or locales is entirely coincidental.

You can find this and many other great books at:
www.quercusbooks.co.uk

Tom Grieves has worked in television as a script editor, producer and executive producer, as well as a writer.
Sleepwalkers
is his first novel. He lives in Sussex.

For Ceetah. Always Ceetah

ONE

Blink. Keep your eyes open. Blink. That’s it, don’t go back to sleep, not yet.

I’m staring up at the ceiling in the middle of the night cos I’ve just had a nightmare. I get them all the time, to be honest, but they can really get to me and I know that if I try to go to sleep now then I’ll just let the bloody thing back in. So I need to stay awake, just remind myself where I am, distract my brain, get the nightmare out of the system and then I’ll be okay.

A car passes outside and the noise is rough and reassuring. I roll over and look at Carrie who’s fast asleep. Her mouth’s open and she’s snoring. It makes me smile. But then the boy in my head cries out again.

In my dream there was this boy, you see. They’d tied him down to a bed and he was struggling, trying to get up, screaming louder and louder.

I sit up. Stop thinking about it, you idiot, it’s always like this. I’ve learned to shove the memories away and I know this one will go too, in a bit, but right now it’s so fresh. The way
he looked at me, the way his eyes pleaded, like I was the only one who could help him.

I pull the covers off, making sure I don’t wake Carrie, and slip out of the bed. She rolls over with a groan but she’s gone, I can tell. I pad out of the bedroom. My clothes are just where I left them, grubby jeans on the battered armchair (ripped to shreds by the old cat) and pants and the rest on the floor by the door. I walk past them into the passage, past the stain where Carrie dropped the bottle of red wine when she was off her face. Fuck me, that was funny. Keep on walking. I feel better now I’m up.

Next to us is Joe’s room. Our first. He’s asleep inside and I can hear his short, quick breaths. A nightlight glows gentle greens and blues and a leg dangles out from under the sheets. There are toys scattered all over the floor. Next door to him is Emma. Her tiny face is buried in a pillow and the dummy she needs to get her to sleep has fallen under her chin. I go and sit on the edge of the bed. I could watch her forever, sit here all night, the way some people will stare into a fire. At the end of her bed is a shed-load of stuffed animals. Right now it’s a camel that’s her favourite. She’s named him Dooley and he’s clutched tight under her arm.

That boy. Screaming and panicking.

‘It’s alright, son, it’s alright,’ I said, trying to calm him down. But I was scared too. I was scared because I thought the way he was acting would cause trouble. ‘Just close your eyes and it’ll all go away.’ Why would I say that? And then I remember that I was tied down too. I was in the bed next to him, tied down, and I was as scared as he was. ‘Please, kid, shut up,’ I begged him. And then I could hear people walking
towards us and I looked up and the lighting was so bright and—

Stop thinking about it, you moron. Look at your gorgeous four-soon-to-be-five-year-old daughter. Look at where you are.

For some reason I check my wrists where the restraints were – well, would have been. Of course there’s nothing, but I needed to check. I told you, these nightmares get to me. I budge along the bed and get close up to Emma and slip my index finger into her closed hand and she instinctively grips it tightly. I stroke her blonde locks with my other hand and then gently pull myself away. I go into Joe’s room, slip his leg back under the covers and then head back for our bed. But as I come into the passage I see that I’ve woken Carrie, and now she’s standing by our bedroom door, crumpled, hair all over the place, looking at me with her wonderful ‘what the fuck?’ face on.

‘Nightmare,’ I say.

She nods, used to it. She holds out a hand – come back to bed – and I take it. We snuggle back into each other, the covers pulled right over our heads, and soon Carrie’s breathing deeply again. She falls asleep so easily, always. Once, I was trying to explain something – can’t remember what – about being stressed or something. Anyway, I was saying to her about that feeling when you get into bed and you know you won’t be able to get to sleep no matter what, and she looked at me as though I’d been down the pub with the boys again. And I pushed her about this and she said she just gets into bed, puts her head on the pillow and goes to sleep. Always.

Isn’t that incredible? I can toss and turn for half the bloody night. Lucky cow.

Soon it’s too hot and airless and I have to pull the covers
back down from over our faces. She’s snoring again – really light, nothing gross – and I laugh quietly, half hoping I’m going to wake her, but she’s so deep in it now it’d take an army. For a moment my brain lets the boy back in so I have to stare at the ceiling and push him away. I think back to the time when Carrie first led me in here, pulling me by the hand, so excited. There was a crack in the ceiling and the window sills were rotting but she couldn’t be talked down.
It’s perfect
. She squeezed my hand tight with her tiny fingers, trying not to let the estate agent see just how keen she was and whispered in my ear, ‘We’ll make babies in here. I know it. We will, we will.’

How could I deny her? Suddenly I was a part of something grown-up, something real and permanent. A family. It’s something you imagine, but when it becomes real it’s … it’s … I don’t know. I’m no good with words. Too simple. But we bought it and now there is no crack in the bedroom ceiling. And the colour swabs that she painted in neat, organised squares are gone too. And now the kids are growing and the house is fraying in places and life is good.

Carrie rolls over and throws an arm over me, holding me down. Just like she did when we were in Greece that time, ages ago, long before all of this. We went to sleep in the sun, drunk on the wine in the middle of the day, and woke up shivering and burnt. We spent the next three days holed up in our tiny villa, scared of the sun. I remember finally opening the shuttered windows – a lizard sped away – and we looked out together at that fantastic view. Below was a small harbour, white fishing boats moored in the bay and a sea so blue and calm. She had laid her head against my chest.

‘Let’s come back here every year,’ she said. ‘Make it a tradition. I want us to have loads and loads of traditions.’

We never did go back, but that’s not so bad. We’re happy and the memory feels special for it. I remember the way the leaves moved in the breeze and when I moaned about my sunburn she laughed at me and slapped me so hard on my arm I thought the bloody skin would peel off right then and there.

‘Wanna see my marks?’ she said, and suddenly she was doing this crazy striptease on the bed, her legs all wobbly on the uneven mattress. She was singing that pop tune that was on the radio all summer and she was singing it
so
badly and we were both laughing. Red skin, pink knickers.

She fell asleep afterwards, her hot arm pinning me down, just the same as now, and she dribbled on my shoulder. I realise that the boy in my dream has gone and I can close my eyes. Pink knickers and dribble. What a girl.

*

Joe’s always had his mother’s balls and attitude, which makes me laugh and drives her up the wall. He’s just got ants in his pants, that’s the thing. It never bothers me really, but keeping him still or getting him to concentrate on anything for more than five seconds can do your head in. Right now, I’m having to push him back against the wall, hold him by the shoulders so he’s in place.
Stand still
. I pull the pencil from behind my ear and draw a line against the wall. He turns, excited, sees how much he’s grown.

‘Mate, if you’d eaten your broccoli, you’d be a giant by now,’ I tell him.

‘Yeah, like if you eat carrots, you can see in the dark. Nice one, Dad.’ Eight years old and he’s already a teenager.

Now it’s Emma’s turn. She’s only grown the tiniest bit, so I fake it on the board and she rewards me with a sneaky grin. I look at the wall, see the uneven chart of my children’s growth. Different colours, different times. I see one, Joe – three years before – remember him trying to stand on tiptoe to cheat the height. We had four different pencil lines in one day. Chose the smallest one as a jokey punishment. Laughing, I remind him of this.

‘I don’t remember that.’

‘Sure you do. It was hilarious. Your mum had tears down her face. You were stood just there, all grumpy, arms crossed.’

He stares at me with a James Dean sneer. ‘How old was I?’

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