Slow and Steady Rush
Slow and Steady Rush
Laura Trentham
ST. MARTIN’S PRESS
NEW YORK
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To Steve. For everything.
My sincere thanks go out to my agent Kevan Lyon for not only selling books but also guiding my (hopefully long and successful) career. And to my editor Eileen Rothschild for making the editing, cover, and launch of my first book smooth and fun!
To my college girlfriends, aka The ‘Tuplets, for all your support but especially for the hilarious email exchange brainstorming porn titles. Some of them even made it into the book.
To my Alabama cousin, Will, for his patience in answering all my city-girl questions about guns and wild pigs.
Slow and Steady Rush
wouldn’t be what it is without my amazing critique partners Heather McGovern, Melissa Chambers, and Noelle Pierce. Thanks, ladies!
A special thanks go to my parents who have always supported me in whatever I have attempted. And to my funny, awesome husband for sharing me with my imaginary worlds and not minding when I’ve forgotten to do laundry.
Falcon, Alabama, July
“Abandon all hope ye who enter here,” Darcy Wilde intoned with the city limits sign in sight. Tenacious kudzu vines wove up the metal poles and partly obscured the lettering. She gave it the finger. Childish? Yes, but infinitely satisfying.
Blue and white lights whirled from the shadow of the trees lining the two-lane road. She dropped her head to the seat back and eased to a stop on the shoulder. The leather seat squeaked against her legs, and an asphalt-seared breeze ruffled her hair. A car door slammed, prodding her heart and bottoming out her stomach. She stole a peek in her mirror. The cop sauntered up with the gait of a former athlete, his football-sized paunch protruding over the strap of his gun belt.
“Hot little ride, ma’am. Do you know why I pulled you over?” His words melded into a self-satisfied, over-confident drawl.
“Not a clue.” She pasted on an innocent smile.
“Going a little fast, and did I see you shoot me the bird, ma’am?”
Her sigh wiped the smile away. Of course this was how her blazing reentry into Falcon would go. “Not you. The sign. How’ve you been, Rick?”
The man settled one hand on the door, one on the front window joint, and loomed over the open convertible roof. His shadow offered a smidgen of relief from the early afternoon sun. Mirrored sunglasses disguised the roam of his gaze, but by the tilt of his head, he was checking out her legs, exposed by well-worn cutoffs.
“Dar-cee Wilde. Well, I’ll be. Where you been hiding? Atlanta?”
“Yep,” she replied, popping the word between her lips.
His neck craned to inspect the small backseat. Bags that wouldn’t fit in the convertible’s toaster-sized trunk crammed every nook. “Planning to stay awhile, are you?”
She answered the obvious with a one-shouldered shrug. Rick had graduated a few years ahead of her, and had been the starting quarterback his senior year. But he hadn’t been recruited to play college ball and stayed in Falcon, his once good looks marred by extra weight and dissatisfaction.
Rick didn’t attempt gentlemanly eye contact, his gaze fixed somewhere south of Darcy’s face. Lips pursed in a no-woman-can-resist-this smirk, he said, “How about we meet up for a drink tonight?”
His attention fired an embarrassed heat, and sweat trickled down her neck to her chest. Nothing, save being cuffed, could stop her hand from tugging the scooped-necked T-shirt north of her collarbone. “Are you going to write me a ticket or not?”
“I’ll let you slide with a warning. Just this once. You in for that drink?”
“Thank you kindly, but no.”
“Really?” Honest surprise drawled the word. “Another time, then. I’ll be seeing you around, girl.” He rapped her door with a fist before pointing his finger in either promise or threat and disappearing into a black-and-tan police car.
The cruiser slid onto the pot-holed road, spitting gravel and fishtailing like a peacock flashing its feathers. In contrast, she pulled out slow and sedate, even used her signal. The buzzards lazily circling overhead were the only ones to appreciate her conscientious effort.
One thing was certain. Word of her arrival would be around town by supper. A mile from the first traffic light, she turned onto a nearly invisible gravel road between a thick growth of trees. The car crawled through washed-out holes, jostling her side to side, until her grandmother’s house came into sight around a tight bend. The closer she drew, the more her anxiety rose.
She had been raised in the house, for the most part. Occasionally her mother, cleaned up and ready to try again, would sweep into town and whisk her off to an apartment somewhere. Darcy was never there long enough to determine where she had landed. The tall buildings, endless sidewalks, and foreign smells made her imagine she’d rocketed to a different planet. Her only friends had resided in the books her grandmother pressed into her arms whenever she left.
Soon enough, her mother would dump her back in Falcon, full of apologies and excuses. Ada would give her hugs, some cookies and milk, and her life would resume as if the jaunts had been weird little vacations.
Darcy parked on the backside of an old metal shed in a small rectangle of shadow. She got out slowly and stretched, not quite ready to leave the safety of her car. The grass had been mowed recently, the clippings green and the wild onions pungent. Bugs, frogs, and the caw of a pair of crows having a conversation broke the silence, but nothing rustled the trees. Everything was static, waiting.
Leaving her bags, she rapped softly on the front door. No answer. Where was her cousin Logan? She let herself inside—the door never stayed locked—and called out softly, “Ada?”
No answer. She called out again, her voice rising, “Ada.”
Her heart tapped a quickened rhythm, and she rushed down the hall, checking each room. She found her grandmother asleep on a portable hospital bed in the den. Darcy sighed with a relief that was short-lived.
A white sheet was tucked under Ada’s arms, and her hands were crossed as if positioned by an undertaker. Veins and tendons stood in stark relief under thin, age-spotted skin. Ada looked … old.
That spring, they had gone to a Braves game and had cleared the vegetable garden for planting. Work had gotten busy, and Darcy hadn’t made it back to Falcon in a couple of months, but Ada had sounded like her strong and sassy self on the phone.
Her grandmother stirred. She brushed a hand through her fluffy, white hair and heaved a yawn. Her eyes fluttered. Seeing Darcy, she startled into the pillows before her lips curled into a welcoming smile.
“Darlin’, you’re here. Thank God. I’ve got to take a piss, and I refused to ask Logan to help me. He’s off getting my pills filled.” Ada’s familiar sleep-dampened drawl made Darcy huff.
“What’s your poison, bedpan or toilet?” Darcy forced a bright, unworried tone. Her grandmother’s usually rosy cheeks lacked color and were drawn tight.
“As much as it pains me … bedpan.”
As Darcy helped Ada, they both ignored the stark reality of the situation.
“What did the muckity-mucks at Emory have to say?” Ada asked.
“They’ll hold my job until the end of November. After that, it’s fair game.” At least two women were eyeing her job as head research librarian, and the thought of them jockeying for her position while she was on leave added to her already heightened anxiety.
“I know how much you love Atlanta and your job. I’m sorry about this.” Ada waved a hand that seemed too heavy for her delicate wrist.
A lump of emotion turned in Darcy’s stomach until she felt nauseous. She turned away to fold a fraying multicolored afghan blanket that had been around since her memories began. Sun and age had faded its once vibrant yarn.
“I kept my apartment, and we can see how things stand at Thanksgiving. I’m glad to be away from the bustle for a while,” she finally replied. The little lie added to the lump in her stomach.
“I’ll be up and chopping wood by the holidays.”
“Last I checked you have central heat and air. Why on earth were you out chopping wood in July?”
“It keeps me in shape—”
“You broke both hips. You are eighty-five. Next time take a Jazzercise class. Don’t go swinging an ax nearly as big as you are,” Darcy said as she rubbed two fingers over the throb in her temple.
Ada settled her arms across her chest. “I refuse to prance around at the Senior Center with a bunch of old ladies. Anyway, I save a fortune during the winter with my stockpile.”
Darcy shook her head and saved her breath.
Ada continued, “I’ll have nursing help, and Logan got me a fancy new phone. I’ll not expect you at my bedside all the time, you know. I plan to catch up on my reading.”
“Wouldn’t it be easier to move—just for a week or two—into the rehab center? I would be there every day.” Darcy held her hands up to deflect Ada’s glare.
“Easier for whom?”
“You wouldn’t be stuck waiting for someone to help you go to the bathroom. Logan’s busy doing whatever it is he does all day, and I’m not sure how best to help you. I’m a librarian, not a nurse,” Darcy said.
“Speaking of, I hoped you might pop around to the library and see how they’re managing without me. Those women will argue with an ear of corn. Nothing will get done.”
Darcy wanted to steer them back on the topic of rehabilitation, not that a logical argument would help. Her grandmother had dug her heels in, and there would be no changing her mind.
“I’ll swing by the library, but you know as well as I do no one can tell those ladies what to do.”
Ada harrumphed and settled into her cocoon of pillows.
“Did Logan mow?” Darcy flicked the drapes open to the vegetable garden and the woods beyond.
“No, Dalt took care of it. Weeded the garden too. Such a nice boy. He checks in every day on his way home. He’s after me to sell him the old Wilson home place—the land included.”
