wondered how much Cal could see. All he had to go on about
fairy vision were tidbits about
shining
and
seeing the truth
.
“What?” Cal went with innocence. “We can"t pretend
that it"s a full moon and one of those nights where you"re
alone in your car, and you just
happen
to drive by wherever I
am?”
Ray gave a startled flinch and turned his head so Cal
couldn"t read his guilt. He never meant to do that, find Cal
like that, it was just, sometimes, with the windows down and
the moon so bright, he found himself trailing Cal through the
city and not realizing it until he saw the puff of glitter and
the small, iridescent wings.
He swallowed and thought that he should have gotten
something to drink. There honestly wasn"t an answer he
could give Cal that wouldn"t reveal too much. But not once
had he ever thought that Cal had known he was there. He
wanted to ask how or why Cal hadn"t confronted him about
it until now, but his throat went tight at the possible
answers.
“Okay,” Cal changed the subject in a light voice, like he
was granting Ray mercy, with a strange tact even a half-fairy
shouldn"t have possessed. “I"m here because it occurred to
me just now… what Ross and the boys said in there….”
“Never mind that, Daffodil.” Ray couldn"t manage much
more than the feather-soft insult. He quickly glanced back
over, watched Cal watch him in the dark, watched the
longing come and stay in Cal"s face.
“No, Ray, it made me think. What if we"re going about
this the wrong way? I mean. I know I"m only here to consult
about magic but—”
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“Knock it off,” Ray interrupted. “If you"d ever bothered,
you"d be detective by now.” Cal"s grin was beautiful, a flash
of light in the shadowy interior of the car.
“A situation that would have been unacceptable to most
other fairies and entirely too acceptable to my pain-in-the-
ass father, but thank you, Branigan. I"m touched. I love you
too.”
“Back to the case.” Ray was really hoping fairies
couldn"t see in the dark as well as he could, so his flush
would stay hidden. He tried to sound annoyed, but he could
almost hear Penn saying,
With a capital „T"
again. “And I
mean this case, the one you are
supposed
to be sticking your
nose into.” He also pretended that he hadn"t been wishing to
have Cal around to help with Nasreen and Audrey"s case.
Cal paused quite obviously for one moment, and then,
without actually admitting it, let the subject change to
Nasreen and Audrey anyway.
“You know, Audrey"s shop serves everything in these
cute heart-shaped boxes, ribbon and everything. Pricey, but
totally worth it. Aesthetics, Ray. They count. Hmm.” So he
had
been there. He was probably a regular and not just
keeping track of Ray"s cases. Or both, Ray instantly thought.
“Cal.”
“Ray.”
Ray inhaled to try again. “I don"t need you to….” He
couldn"t say it. Anyway, Cal would do whatever he wanted
just the same. “I saw that place and knew you"d been there,”
he said instead. Cal reeked of delight at that, even made a
sound, almost like a purr, and Ray felt a touch of guilt to
think that so little from him could make Cal so happy. He
pressed on. “If they"re friends of yours, you should know that
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we caught the guy. She doesn"t have to worry. The trial won"t
be pleasant, but I think Nasreen can handle it.”
“Ray,” Cal made a sound. A rude one. “Nasreen will do
whatever she has to for Audrey. Surely you sniffed that out?”
Ray turned to look out the driver"s side window. He
didn"t answer right away. He strangely didn"t want to, but
Cal was waiting. He turned back. “I didn"t think they were
sleeping together.”
“They"re not. Audrey is… I don"t think… I don"t know. I
don"t understand humans sometimes. And they aren"t the
only ones….”
“Really? All that insight and you"ve drawn a blank?” Ray
hadn"t. He looked at Cal in the dark and thought about
Audrey.
Like looking into a mirror
. “Maybe she"s….” He
couldn"t say worried, because that wasn"t it at all. “Afraid.”
There was a gasp. “Why? Why, when they both want it
so much?” Cal"s voice broke and the sadness, even for
others, made Ray shift to be nearer to him. But he bit down
so he wouldn"t respond. “What"s there to be afraid of? There"s
no reason at all to suddenly…. Or
is
it sudden?”
Ray glanced over. Cal"s longing was so intense
sometimes. Like waves of memory that hit you for no obvious
reason.
Cal straightened, and for a second Ray almost thought
the air tightened, like a spell was being worked.
“Remember when we met, Ray….” Cal had never been so
hesitant. Almost never. Ray felt himself grow warm, and as
though he could feel that, Cal shook his head. “Not exactly
then, but a little later, when you were so beautifully naked
and just red all over with embarrassment and—”
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“Cal,” Ray warned. But of course he
vividly
remembered
that night, and Cal"s words.
Ray Ray. Look at you. Look at
you. You can… just drag me… anywhere. Anywhere you want
to take me, and I"m there. There you are, and here I am. Just
take me.
That probably wasn"t what Cal was talking about. But
Ray didn"t feel like reliving the past right now.
“The case.” He grabbed at it.
“This case or the one we had then?” Cal floundered for a
moment then yanked himself back upright. He was
breathing hard. “Right.” He whipped out a pink box. Cookie
sticks covered in strawberry cream. Sweet, sweet strawberry,
mixed with the clean warm scent of him and that
want/need/want
that never went away around Ray. It made
Ray want to crush strawberries against Cal"s mouth. He
inhaled and pulled at his tie. Cal didn"t seem to notice. “That
list of his enemies.”
“Yes?” His answer was short, but Ray was starting to
think Cal ate around him deliberately to push him over the
edge. A stick went in and out of his mouth before he
crunched it. Ray could close his eyes, but he couldn"t stop
breathing
.
He grabbed at the seat then loosened his collar.
“I read those files.”
“
All
of them?” That was a distracting thought. But then,
Ray instantly reasoned, with the amount of sugar in him Cal
had to be borderline manic. Add to that his natural
brilliance, and it was no wonder his father had worried that
he would need to be grounded.
“Yes, and your name came up a few times. Arresting
officer, etc….” Cal cleared his throat and put his treat away.
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The sign of tact from him made Ray suddenly very nervous.
“Also… also two of them are already dead. Accidents, the
reports said. Whoever investigated only noted them as
accidents.”
Ray had read that too, glancing over it because the
investigators hadn"t flagged them. He hadn"t read cause of
death. He sat up.
“Broken necks?” He asked, but Cal was already
nodding. Ray"s breath whooshed out of him, but he looked
straight ahead and refocused on the station, some officers
smoking outside, others milling around between shifts. “My
name is probably there because I make a lot of arrests.”
“Branigan on the hunt.” He jerked his head to the side
and saw Cal"s small, wistful smile. “You"re probably right.”
“But….” He couldn"t
not
mention that. “I"ll tell Penn
tomorrow.”
“Um….” Cal fidgeted, leaning back carefully to
accommodate his wings. “That"s it? Because, what if I"m
right? What if… well….” He hummed anxiously, shifted his
feet and then held up his hands and spoke in a rush. “You
should know that just now I called and asked Bens to put a
protection spell on you. Don"t be mad!”
His wings made a stuttering sound as they tried to flap
against the seat.
Ray opened his mouth, closed it, then tried to open it
again.
A goddamn… a protection…. If there was anything
more
annoying than a protection spell….
“I don"t need protecting.” He was a werewolf and a
detective. The last thing he needed was Cal worrying about
him not being able to defend himself.
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As proof of that, he was growling, but he barely noticed
with the way his soul automatically sang out at the evidence
of Cal"s concern for him. It made him warm inside. Outside.
Everywhere. Wafts of worry were hitting him, touching and
only too real. Worry and want and strawberry cream, and
damn it, a protection spell? He tried to only think of that,
and not what would happen if he pulled Cal close.
“Really?” Cal was defiant even through his nerves.
“When you go home,
alone
, to that big, lonely, empty
cave
of
a house, you can protect yourself?” He sat up, moving
enough that the stuttering of his wings sounded like a
bicycle wheel with a baseball card in the spokes. He sucked
in a breath then lowered his voice seductively. His hand
attempted to cross the space between them. Ray wanted to
let it. “Unless you want me around with you tonight, Ray
Ray. To keep you safe… after all, there"s nothing scary about
little old me, right?”
Ray"s heart hit his ribs so solidly that Cal should have
heard it.
“It"s been a while since last time in your house… years
in fact. Remember.” Cal moved his hips, his entire body, with
a restlessness Ray understood. It was the second time in a
few minutes Cal had mentioned that night, and Ray tried to
follow his point and not to wonder if Cal was haunted by the
same memories, or to think once again about that painful
realization in his living room and feeling so raw from it that
he hadn"t noticed until it was too late that Cal had followed
him into his bathroom. That Cal had been on the other side
of his shower door, waiting for Ray to emerge from his
shower.
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“Cal—Parker.” He couldn"t quite recover from the shock of
Cal being there with him, and how much his mind and body
and heart seemed to welcome him, and from the idea that this
half-fairy knew anything at all about his kind.
The air was too tight, like there was a spell at work, or
some kind of magic. He looked at Cal and opened his mouth.
“Parker. I told you to leave.”
“No, you didn"t, actually.” Cal hummed again. “Not
explicitly.” Ray grunted and put his hands up high to the
smooth tile by the specially installed showerhead. He was
too… naked… for this.
“Then I"ll be explicit—”
“Please. Be as explicit as you want, Branigan,” Cal
whispered back, and Ray turned, trying to make out his form
through the frosted and steamy glass. But whatever had
compelled Parker to follow him into the bathroom had stopped
him before he"d come into the shower too.
If he had…. Ray swallowed. He couldn"t speak as he
saw himself lifting Cal up and fucking him in the corner of the
shower, Cal"s hand grabbed for the showerhead, his body
wet, bare, the floor swirling with sparkles as his cries echoed
off the tile.
Ray jerked himself back from the memory, furious with
himself. With Cal. His Cal. He smelled like hope.
“Get out of my car, Callalily,” Ray ordered, surprisingly
calm considering the way his heart and body were
screaming. But he wasn"t going to take Cal"s concern and
hurt him with it. He just… couldn"t be around him now.
“But, Ray—”
“Now.”
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He did. Ray"s tone apparently saying clearly that he"d
had enough. Cal wasn"t pouting this time but genuinely
frowning. With worry, Ray knew that, but he didn"t breathe
easier until Cal had closed the door behind him.