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“Hmmm,” Finn said thoughtfully, holding out his large hand. “Pleased to meet you, Morgan.” He gave Alyce an odd glance, as if she had introduced him to a questionable character.
Alyce smiled. “Morgan, this is Finn Foster. He’s helping me in the shop,” she explained. To Finn she added, “Morgan is a dedicated customer.” She offered no other explanation, and with Finn’s eyes on me I felt even more strongly that I had committed a faux pas.
“Who do you study with?” Finn asked.
“Um, right now a lot by myself, and some with Hunter Niall.”
Finn blinked. “The Seeker?”
“Yes.”
“You’re Morgan Rowlands,” Finn said, as if he’d just made a connection.
“Yes.” I glanced at Alyce uncertainly, but she just smiled reassuringly.
Finn hesitated, as if debating whether to say something more, but then he just smiled and nodded. “Nice meeting you,” he said. “Hope to see you again soon.” He gave Alyce a glance and took the box of candles to the other side of the store. A moment later I heard Bree asking him about some clover oil. I looked for Mary K. and saw that she was holding some silver earrings up, looking at them in a small mirror.
“What was that about?” I asked Alyce, and she chuckled softly.
“I’m afraid you’re a bit notorious,” she said. “I’m sorry if you feel like a performing seal, but lots of people have already heard of your power, your heritage—not to mention what happened with Cal and Selene—and they’re curious.”
Ugh. I shifted uncomfortably.
Alyce reached past me to straighten some books on a shelf. “Has Hunter talked to you about your studies? About
tàth meànma brach
?”
“Yes,” I answered, surprised by the change of subject.
“What do you think of the idea?” Her clear, blue-violet eyes searched mine.
“It sounded exciting,” I said slowly. “I want to do it. What do you think about it?”
“I think it might be a good idea,” she said, looking thoughtful. “Hunter’s right—you need to learn as much as you can as fast as you can. For almost any other witch I would advise against it. It’s hard, and I’m sure Hunter told you it can be dangerous. But you’re an exceptional case. Of course, it’s your decision alone. But you should consider it carefully.”
“Would you do it with me?” I asked.
She looked deeply into my eyes. I had no idea how old she was—in her fifties?—but I saw a wealth of knowledge in her gaze. What she knew could help me, and I suddenly wanted her knowledge with a surprising hunger that I tried not to show.
“I’ll think about it, my dear,” she said quietly. “I’ll talk to Hunter, and we can decide.”
“Thank you,” I whispered.
“Are you about ready?” Bree called down the aisle. Finn had already rung up her purchases; she held a small green bag with silver handles.
“Yes,” I called back. “Where’s Mary K.?”
“Right here,” my sister said, emerging from the other aisle.
“Did you want those earrings you were looking at?” I asked, and she shook her head, her shiny auburn hair swinging around her shoulders. I wondered if she thought buying those earrings would be like taking witchcraft into the house and resolved to try to put her fears to rest on that point. Maybe I could surprise her with them for Christmas.
It was late afternoon when we headed home in Breezy. I was quiet and full of thought about the possibility of doing the
tàth meànma brach
with Alyce.
“Why do you like that store so much?” Mary K. asked from the backseat.
“Don’t you think it’s cool?” Bree asked. “Even if I wasn’t into Wicca, I would still be into the candles and jewelry and incense and stuff.”
“I guess.” My sister sounded subdued, and I knew she was struggling with the conflict of liking anything that had to do with witchcraft while remaining true to her own religion and to my parents. She looked out her window, distant and withdrawn. None of us spoke for several miles, and I looked out my window at the rapidly darkening landscape, the rolling hills, the old farms, the snow clinging to everything. With a start I realized that Bree had taken her old route toward home and that we were in Cal’s neighborhood. My heart sped up as we drew closer to the large stone house he had shared with his mother. I hadn’t been past here since the night I’d almost died in the pool house, and my skin broke out in a clammy sweat at the memory.
“I’m sorry,” Bree murmured as she realized where we were.
I swallowed and didn’t say anything, my hand clenching the door handle tightly, my breathing fast and shallow. Relax, I told myself. Relax. They’re gone. They’re nowhere around. Hunter looks for them—scries for them every day—and he hasn’t found them. They’re gone. They won’t hurt you.
As we passed, my eyes were irresistibly drawn to the house. It looked dark, abandoned, forbidding. I recalled the first floor, with its large kitchen, the huge living room with a fireplace where Cal and I had kissed on the sofa. Selene’s hidden, spelled private library that I had found, where I had discovered Maeve’s Book of Shadows. Cal’s room that ran the length of the attic. His wide, low bed where we had kissed and touched each other. The pool house, where he had trapped me and tried to burn me to death . . .
I felt like I was choking and swallowed again, unable to move my eyes away. Then I stared hard as a flickering light, as if from a candle, passed in front of a dark window. Just one moment and it was gone, but I was sure I had seen it. Wildly I looked over at Bree for her reaction, but her eyes were on the road, her hands poised on the leather steering wheel. In the backseat Mary K. gazed out her window, unhappiness making her face seem younger, rounder.
“Did you—” I started to ask. I stopped. Was I sure I had seen it? I thought so. But what was the point of mentioning it? Mary K. would be upset and worried. Bree wouldn’t know what to do, either. If only Hunter was here, I thought, and then grimaced as I realized what would be set in action if Hunter had seen it: a full-blown investigation, worry, trouble, fear.
And had I really seen it? A flickering candle in an abandoned house, at night, for just a moment? I leaned my head against the cold car window, my heart aching. Was this ordeal never going to be over? Would I ever relax again?
“Did we what?” Bree asked, glancing at me.
“Nothing,” I mumbled. Surely it had been my imagination. Cal and Selene were gone. “Never mind.”
6
The Lueg
March 18, 1971
 
At the age of twenty-seven, I have completed the Great Trial. It was four days ago, and I am only now able to hold
a pen and sit up to write. Clyda thought I was ready, and I was so eager to do it that I didn’t listen to the people who warned me not to.
The Great Trial. I have wondered how to describe it, and when my words get close, I want to cry. Twenty-seven is
young—many people are never ready. Most people, when they do it, are older, have been preparing for years. But I insisted I was ready, and in the end Clyda agreed.
 
 
It took place on top of Windy Tor, past the Old Stones
left by the Druids. Below me I could hear the waves crashing against rocks in a timeless rhythm. There was no moon, and it was as black as the end of the world. With me were Clyda and another Welsh witch, Scott Mattox. I was naked, sky clad, and we cast the circle and started the rite. At midnight Clyda held out the goblet. I stared at it, knowing I was scared. It was the Wine of Shadows: where she had gotten it, I don’t know. If I passed the Great Trial, I would live. If I didn’t
pass, this wine would kill me. I took the goblet with a shaking hand and drank it.
Clyda and Scott sat nearby, staying to keep me from going over the edge of the cliff. I sat down, my lips numb, muttering
all the spells of power and strength that I knew. Then the
first needlelike tingles of pain started in my fingertips, and I
cried out.
It was a long, long night.
And here I am, alive, on the other side. I am wasted by fasting, by vomiting, by a sharp-edged sickness in my gut that makes me wonder if they fed me glass. This morning I saw myself in the mirror and screamed at the dull-haired, hollow-eyed, greatly aged woman I beheld. Clyda says not to
worry: my beauty will come back with my strength. What is it to her? She was never beautiful and has no idea how it feels
to lose it.
Yet hollowed out as I am, like a tree struck by lightning, I
can tell the difference. I was strong before, but now I’m a force
of nature. I feel like wind, like rain, like lava in my strength.
I’m in tune with the universe, my heart beating to its primordial, deeply held thrum. I’m made of magick, I’m walking magick, and I can cause death or life with a snap of my fingers.
Was the Great Trial worth this? The illness, the scream
ing agony, the clawed, ripped hands, the gouges in my thighs made when I was shrieking in terror and desperation and try
ing to feel anything normal, anything recognizable, even physical pain? My brain was split open and put on display, my body was turned inside out. Yet in the destruction is the resurrection, in the agony is the joy, in the terror is the hope. And
now I’ve taken that terrible, mortal journey and I’ve come through it. And I’ll be like a Goddess myself, and lesser beings will follow me. And I’ll found a dynasty of witches
that will amaze the world.
—SB
 
“So if your mother comes home, what should I do?” Hunter asked. “I mean, is she going to hit me with a cooking pan?”
I grinned. “Only if she’s in a bad mood.” It was Wednesday, my parents were at work, Mary K. was upstairs, and we were getting ready to study. “Anyway, I told you I could come to your place,” I reminded him.
“Sky and Raven are at my place,” he said. “I assume they wanted privacy.”
“Really?” I asked with interest. “Are they getting serious?”
“I didn’t come here to gossip,” he said primly, and I wanted to smack him. I was trying to think of a clever reply when he looked around the kitchen restlessly.
“Let’s go up to your room,” he said, and I blinked.
“Uh,” I began. Boys were
so
not allowed upstairs in our house.
“You said you’d made an altar,” he said. “I want to see it. Your room is where you do most of your magick, right?” He stood up, pushing his hand through his pale hair, and I tried to gather my thoughts.
“Um.” The only time Cal had ever been in my room was just for a minute, after Bree had almost broken my nose during a volleyball game at school. Even then my mom had gotten twitchy, despite the fact that I was a total invalid and hardly feeling romantic.
“Come on, Morgan,” he coaxed. “We’re working. I’ll try not to jump you, if that’s what you’re afraid of.”
My face burned with embarrassment, and I wondered what he would do to me if I zapped him with witch fire. I was almost willing to find out.
“Sorry,” he said. “Let’s start over. Please, may I see the altar you made in your room? If your parents come home unexpectedly, I’ll do a quick look-over-there spell and get the hell out of here, okay? I don’t want to get you in trouble.”
“It’s just that it’s my parents’ house,” I said stiffly, standing up and leading the way toward the foyer. “I try to respect their rules when I can. But let’s go up quickly. I want you to see it.” I plodded up the stairs, intensely aware of his quiet tread behind me.
I was thankful that my room was no longer pink and stripy. Sea grass window shades replaced my frilly curtains, complementing my new café-au-lait-colored walls. The old cream-colored carpet had been pulled up, and I had a simple jute area rug instead. I loved my new room but stood nervously by my desk as Hunter looked around, taking it all in. I went to the closet and pulled out the old camp foot-locker that served as my altar, complete with violet linen cloth, candles, and four special objects that represented the four elements.
My single bed seemed to take on mythic proportions, almost filling the room, and I blushed furiously, trying to wipe the image of Hunter + bed out of my mind.
He looked at my altar.
“It’s pretty basic,” I muttered. “It’s hard because I have to keep it hidden.”
He nodded, then glanced up at me. “It’s fine. Nice. Perfectly appropriate. I’m glad you made one.” His voice was calm, reassuring. I pushed the altar back in my closet and artfully draped my bathrobe to cover it. Should we go back downstairs? I wondered, but as I came out of my closet, I saw that Hunter was sitting casually on my bed, his fingers playing with the smooth texture of my down comforter. With no warning I wanted to throw myself on him, press him down against the mattress, kiss him, be physically aggressive in a way I never had with Cal. And then of course as soon as that thought crossed my brain, I recoiled, knowing with certainty how attuned Hunter was to my every feeling. Oh, man.
But his face remained neutral, and he said, “Have you been memorizing the true names of things?”
“Sort of,” I said, feeling guilty. I hadn’t done much studying since the David incident, but before that I’d made a start on my memorization. I pulled out my desk chair and sat down in it, and at that moment Mary K. tapped lightly on the door and came in, not waiting for me to invite her. She stopped dead when she saw Hunter sitting on my bed, her mouth open in an almost comical O. She looked from him to me and back again, and even Hunter grinned at her expression, his normally serious face lighting up, making him look younger and lighthearted.
“We have to get a lock for that door,” he said cheerfully, and I wanted to die. My sister’s eyebrows rose, and she looked fascinated.
“I’m sorry,” Mary K. said. “I just wanted to ask you about dinner—but I’ll come back later.”
“No, wait,” I started to say, but she had already whirled out the door, closing it behind her with an audible click. I glanced back at Hunter to see him grinning again.
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