Spin Ruin: (A Mafia Romance Two-Book Bundle) (51 page)

“Just think about it,” he said. “My insistence might be a favor in the end.”

“I will.”

When I stood, I saw a picture on a shelf, a big one of the ten of us at the Santa Barbara campground, each in our own world. Margie looked more a sister to Mom than a daughter. Jonathan, at twelve, was already bursting with puberty. Fiona’s hair was tangled. And there I was in a button down shirt and lace collar, chin up, skin without pimple or blemish from sheer force of will.

“This was the year after,” I said, stopping in my tracks.

“After what?”

“The boy.”

“Which one?”

“The one at the bottom of a ditch,” I said.

“Yes?”

“I went through middle and high school convinced you did it.”

He held up his palms, one finger still wrapped in a ring that didn’t mean what it had decades before. “These hands are clean,” he said and denied it no further.

theresa

 need your phone,” Antonio said standing over me in a jacket and trousers. I’d grabbed his pillow and pressed it to my face, breathing in his burned-pine smell.

“Why?” I grumbled into the pillow. Why was I so relaxed in that happy limbo between living and dying?

“Because I need to put a detonator in it.”

It was a normal, weekday-morning conversation. It wasn’t even exciting or titillating, but right and real in a way nothing in my life had been before. I shuffled around in my bag and handed him the phone. He took it and pulled me to him, pressing my nakedness against his clothes.

“You have a call from your sister,” he said, holding the glass to face me.

“Of course I do. She must be scolding me about something.”

The text came up first.

—Jon is at Sequoia. Heart attack. Looking at a bypass where the fuck are you?—

My hand covered my mouth. I’d ignored my phone because nothing seemed as important as what we were doing, but Jon at the hospital? I hadn’t expected this.

Antonio held his hand out for the phone. “What is it?”

“He’s thirty-two.”

“Who?” He looked at the text.

“I have to go see my brother.” I stepped away and headed for my pile of clothes. I had no intention of bathing or delaying another second. Antonio just stood in the middle of the room, my phone in his palm.

“We should call this off,” he said.

“Let me see what it is first.”

“You love your family.”

“Antonio!” I shouted. I hadn’t meant to shout. “Just let me go see him, okay? Then we can decide.”

***

Sequoia took up a few city blocks on the west side, the hub of a medical community with research centers for spokes and uniform and equipment suppliers at the outer rings.

I found Jonathan sitting on the edge of his bed with tubes all over him. He looked drained of everything but frustration. Sheila sat in the chair by the window, tapping on her phone like she wanted to poke through it. Under stress, the rage came out.

“Hi,” I said, kissing his cheek. “You look good.”

“He wants to get out of here,” Sheila said.

“They’re holding me until I’m stable,” he growled. “And I’m feeling more unstable every hour.”

“What happened?” I asked. “You’re hardly old enough for this.”

“Can I not review this again?” he said.

“Honestly,” Sheila said, all the singsong gone, “It’s just his youthful indiscretions catching up with him. But if you make him tell the story again, he’s going to chew your face off and it’s not worth it. He needs a bypass. He’s going to get it. End.”

“They do them during their lunch hour. It’s just which lunch hour that’s the question.” He laid back. I sat in the chair next to the bed. A tray sat next to him with a plastic container that was empty but for a piece of cut pineapple.

“They’re letting you eat pineapple?” I asked.

He looked at me as if I were crazy, then followed my gaze to the container. “That’s Monica’s.”

“Where is she?” I asked. “Is this the new girl?”

“She comes at night,” Jonathan said.

“Mom thinks she’s a gold digger taking advantage of Jonathan’s infirmity,” Sheila piped in. “So she comes at night and we avoid the drama.”

“That’s ridiculous,” I said, pointing at Jonathan. “How can you do that to her? Do you love her or not?”

“She doesn’t need the aggravation. Believe me.”

I shouldn’t have cared about some girl I’d never met. I shouldn’t have cared about one of my brother’s dalliances. But he was so young and so sick, and I was disappearing in a short time: I felt as if the smallest problems were dire, and that if I had one tiny bit of wisdom to offer him, I owed it to him because it would be the last.

“Commit, Jonathan. Just commit.”

I walked out a couple of hours later, after laughing and crying with them, knowing I’d take my own advice to heart.

theresa

 felt as if I were studying for a test. We drilled day in and out. We drilled in the shower and in the bed. He fucked me and wouldn’t let me come until I got all the answers right. He still had my phone, so I called Jonathan from his phone. My brother invariably growled at me because he wanted to be out making money or bedding the new girl. Then Antonio would begin again as soon as I hung up. He was a rough taskmaster, demanding perfection.

How is it going to go, Contessa? Say it again.

First thing, I deliver the earpieces to the bathroom attendant. I come back. During the cocktail hour, before they introduce the bride and groom, I go outside.

Why?

I’m meeting you for a fuck. There’s a florist’s truck in the parking space over the grate. The florists are setting up the ballroom. I go in. The florist is owned by a business associate. You made the truck and sold it to them. I go in the false bottom. You have left a brick of C4 and a handheld crowbar under the chassis.

What else?

Guns.

What am I doing then?

Asking Donna Maria permission to marry her granddaughter.

Then what?

I wait for you.

Wait for me, Contessa, no matter what you think you hear. No matter how long you think it’s taking. I’ll be there. We’ll run across the street and blow up the truck.

And there will be two explosions, because C4 explodes twice.

In the chaos, we come from the grate in the street and get in the car.

What kind of car is it?

A Porsche.

Perfect. No one would believe it was you.

Do you have it?

I have it.

theresa

t wasn’t my wedding. I wasn’t wearing white. I didn’t have bridesmaids or an excited family. I hadn’t chosen the venue or the catering, but in a way, I was coming out of the event a woman entangled with a man to the death. We were committed, tied in ropes of lies and deceit, each able to destroy the other if we escaped the net.

I wore a short grey dress with matte silver-bugle beads. The looseness of the skirt made it easy to move in, with heels that were more comfortable than they looked. In my bag I had lipstick, credit cards, jewelry, and an obscene wad of cash. I’d memorized my account numbers and passwords for my overseas banks.

I heard Antonio come into the loft, downstairs.

We’d never discussed getting married. It was too soon, but with the intensity of our commitment, I wondered if we’d both been too busy with practicalities to bring it up or if we were simply scared of making it official.

He came behind me in a black tux that fit him without an errant crease or curve, brushing his fingertips on my arms. His touch was still perfect, still arousing, designed to bring my skin to life. He dropped my phone on the vanity.

“It’s done,” he said.

“I press the home key?”

“Yes. Three seconds. But wait for me. We can both detonate. If we’re not together, one has a good chance of blowing the other up.”

He kissed my bare shoulder and looked at me in the mirror. “You look like a queen.”

“How do I taste?”

“Like a woman.”

I shuddered, arching my neck until the back of my head was on his shoulder. “You didn’t have this power over me three months ago.”

“And you? You were just a figurine on television,” he said.

I turned, put my arms around his neck, and pulled him to me. “A miserable one.”

He cast his eyes down. “So many things could go wrong today.”

“Nothing will go wrong.”

“Wait for me. You have to wait for me.”

“I’ll wait in the tunnel under the car, I promise,” I said.

“You don’t come out until I’m there. Then we exit the tunnel together. I checked. It’s open on the other side.”

“Yes, boss,” I whispered.

“
Ti amo
, Theresa. Please don’t ever doubt that.”

I kissed him because the doubt he forbade me was all over his voice. I knew he loved me, at that moment. I knew I had his heart and owned his soul. Today.

But maybe he was wondering about tomorrow. Something was off.

I didn’t want to doubt our plans. I wanted to be on a plane to Greece as Persephone, goddess of the underworld, with my Adonis next to me.

“You have to know,” he said, “I’ll always take care of you. I’ll always think of you first. You’re precious to me.”

“Can you get that suit off and show me?” I hiked my dress up to show him the terribly impractical garters I wore.

He looked at them with a ruefulness I didn’t understand, drawing his finger around one of the legs and yanking it.

“Do you want to be late?”

“I don’t see that it matters. Come on, Capo. I’m wet. You’re hard. Give me that cock one last time before we die.”

With a quick stroke, he ripped them, reducing them to tatters in seconds. He threw me onto the bed. “Open your legs,” he said, undoing his belt. “Show me your pussy.”

I bent my knees and spread them apart. My pussy cooled when the air hit it. I kept my eyes on Antonio and then on his cock as he pulled it out. “I love you, Capo.”

He kneeled on the bed then licked his hand and pressed it between my legs, entering me with three fingers. “Wet to the death, my love.”

He didn’t make me beg but fucked me without preamble. I thought, as he drove into me, growling my name, wrinkling our good clothes, that this was the man I was fucking forever. I dug my fingers in his hair and said his name over and over until I could no longer form words.

antonio

 was a bad man. I knew that when I met her and when I stood at her door the night she called me
Capo
the first time. And I knew that when I came inside her on the day she planned to disappear with me.