Spiral of Bliss 01 Arouse (6 page)

I was helping another customer, answering a question about the difference between a cappuccino and a caffe latte.

“So a cappuccino has a stronger coffee flavor?” the guy asked, peering at me intently.

“That’s correct.” I looked over his shoulder to check how many other customers were waiting.

My gaze collided with Professor West’s.

I drew in a sharp breath, my pulse thudding a stream of heat through my blood. How had I not known the instant he stepped inside?

I couldn’t stop staring at him, tracking my gaze over his ruffled, dark brown hair, the angles of his features, the curve of his beautiful mouth. He was all-professor in a tailored suit and a perfectly knotted tie, his briefcase in hand.

A smile crinkled his eyes as he looked at me, then he tilted his head slightly toward the guy I was supposed to be helping.

“Oh.” I swung my attention back to the customer, who looked a little annoyed at having been dismissed. “Sorry, what?” I said.

“I asked if you could make the latte with an extra shot of espresso,” he repeated.

“Sure.” My hands trembled as I rang up the order and conveyed it to the girl who was making the drinks. “It’ll be ready in a sec.”

The guy took ten years to get out his wallet and pay for the latte. By the time Professor West approached the counter, my stomach was taut with nerves.

“Um…” I gripped the edge of the counter. “Hi.”

Amusement flashed in his expression. “Hi.”

“Can I help you?” I tried to muster a professional tone, aware of my coworkers bustling around behind me, the hum of conversation from other customers.

“Medium coffee, please.” He slid a hand into his pocket. “For here.”

I turned to grab a cup and pour the coffee. “Room for cream in your coffee, sir?”

“No, thanks. Did you get everything straightened out with the registrar?”

I looked at him in surprise, wondering why he cared. “Yes, I did what you suggested. A couple of professors filled out the right forms indicating I’d already covered the curriculum.”

“Good.”

“Thanks for the help… Professor West.”

“Dean.”

I put the cup on the counter, painfully aware of the beat of my heart, fast as a hummingbird’s wings. “Dean?”

“My name. Dean West.”

“Oh. I’m—”

“Olivia,” he said.

The sound of my name in his deep voice rolled through me like a breaking cloud.

“How did you know?” I asked.

“I saw your name on the papers at the registrar’s office.” He handed me a couple of dollars. “I remembered it. Olivia R. Winter.”

I rang up the order and counted out his change. “Why did you remember my name?”

“Actually…” He lifted the cup and turned to the tables. “I remembered
you
.”

I stared after him as he sat at a table beside the window and opened a newspaper. We didn’t speak again that day, but I saw him leave and gave him a little wave of farewell. I had the instinctive sense he would come back. I wanted him to.

And he did. He always ordered a medium coffee, no room for cream, and sometimes a muffin. It was my favorite time of year—early September with crisp, clean air and warm colors and a touch of fall.

I couldn’t help it. Every time I went to work, I hoped I’d see him. I didn’t want to hope for it, didn’t think anything could come of it, but a thousand happy sparks twirled through me whenever he came into Jitter Beans.

I liked everything about him—his masculine features and thick-lashed eyes, his jaw sometimes dusted with a hint of stubble. I liked his dark hair, his tall, strong body, his smile, and the twinkle that shone in his eyes when he looked at me.

I started to welcome the feelings he aroused in me, all so utterly different from the narrow practicality that had driven my life for years. One morning he pushed a folded piece of paper across the counter along with his dollar bills.

Half-expecting it to be his phone number, I opened the paper. There was a library call number written in scrawled, masculine handwriting: PR9199.3 R5115 Y68.

I looked at Dean in confusion.

“Memorial Library,” was all he said before taking his coffee and going to his usual table by the window.

I tucked the paper safely into my pocket. As soon as my shift ended, I hurried down State Street to the massive campus library. I took the stairs to the second floor and checked the numbers on the ends of the stacks that stood like sentries throughout the floor.

PR9199.3 R5115 Y68. I ran my finger along the rows of dusty, old books before I came to the correct volume. My heart thumped as I pulled it off the shelf and looked at the title.

Your Mouth Is Lovely.

I smiled.

When Dean walked into Jitter Beans the next day, I pulled the book from beneath the counter and handed it to him. I’d stuck a Post-It on the front with another call number: Aston 552.

“Cooperative Children’s Book Center,” I said. “What can I get for you, sir?”

“Medium coffee, please.” He put the book under his arm. “No room for cream.”

He returned two days later and held up a children’s picture book titled
A Rock Is Lively
. I grinned.

His eyes twinkled. “Lots of stuff buried beneath the surface of a rock, the book says. Very turbulent. Molten, even.”

“The book is right.”

Our gazes met. A bolt of energy arced between us, one that made my heart hum with warmth and excitement.

“Medium coffee, no cream?” I asked, turning to the dispenser.

I pushed his cup across the counter at the same moment that he reached for it. Our fingers met, and a shiver of awareness jolted clear up my arm.

I jerked my hand back, my breath shortening. “Sorry.”

“It’s okay.” His eyebrows drew together, faintly puzzled by my reaction.

My face grew hot.
Now he must think you’re a freak.

I wiped my damp palms on my apron and tried to regain my equilibrium. “We… uh, we have some fresh scones in.”

“No, thanks.” He continued looking at me, one hand curved around the cup, a frown tugging at his mouth.

Yeah. You should probably stay away from me, Professor West.

“Olivia, I’m giving a lecture at the Chazen Museum on Friday night,” he said. “I’d like it if you’d come. We can go somewhere afterward.”

I blinked. “Are you asking me out?”

The bluntness of the question made him smile. “I am.”

“Oh.”
Oh!

He waited. I flushed. Panic fluttered in my chest.

“I don’t… I don’t really date,” I stammered. “In fact, I don’t date at all.”

“Okay.” He scratched his chin. “Well, we don’t have to think of it as a date, if you don’t want to. We can just go out.”

The tight knot of dismay inside me loosened a little. I badly wanted to spend time alone with him, this medieval history professor who was luring me with library call numbers.

“Isn’t us going out against university policy?” I asked. “Since you’re a professor?”

A shadow eclipsed his expression for an instant, as if I’d reminded him of inviolable rules. Then I got worried he would retract the invitation.

What the hell is wrong with me?

“It’s not against policy if you’re not a student of mine,” he said. “But if you’d rather not—”

“No, that’s not it,” I interrupted. “I just… I was just making sure.”

“Do you plan to take any medieval history classes?” he asked.

“Actually, I plan to stay far away from the medieval history department,” I admitted.

“Good idea.” He paused. “So what do you think?”

I took a breath.
For God’s sake, Liv. It’s a lecture and maybe coffee afterward. That’s it.

“Okay,” I finally said. “Friday night.”

“Good. The lecture starts at seven.”

“What’s it about?” I asked.

“Monastic architecture and sarcophagi.” He lifted his cup in a salute and winked at me. “Prepare to be dazzled.”

I already am
, I thought as I watched him walk away.

I arrived at the Chazen Museum an hour before the lecture and spent the extra time looking at the exhibits. I was still a little nervous about the evening, but in a good way. After two days of wrestling with the whole issue, I’d firmly told myself that I liked Professor Dean West and I was looking forward to seeing him outside of Jitter Beans. It was exactly the kind of nice, normal evening that I wanted.

A large crowd filled the lecture hall of the museum, the buzz of conversation fading as a woman came out to announce the other museum events and introduce Professor West. I was sitting in the fifth row, and my heart gave a little leap when he approached the podium and began speaking.

Warm and rich, Dean’s voice flowed over the audience and seemed to settle in the core of my being. I welcomed the opportunity to stare at him without reservation, drinking in the sight of him in a crisp, navy suit and striped tie, his hair burnished by the lights.

I remember him talking about a medieval church in France, the structure of a town, Roman sculptures, but more than the subject matter I was enraptured by the sound of his deep voice, the authoritative way he spoke and discussed the images on the screen behind him. I loved the gracious way he answered questions and listened to people’s comments. I loved that he knew so much.

There was a reception after the lecture was over, and people kept vying for the distinguished professor’s attention. I drank a glass of cherry-flavored mineral water and ate about twenty grapes before I finally found a chance, and worked up my courage, to approach him.

He gave me an easy smile, one that made my heart flutter.

“Hello, Olivia,” he said. “I’m glad you came.”

“So am I. It was a really interesting lecture.”

“Thanks.” He curled his hand beneath my elbow in a gesture that seemed utterly natural. I felt the warmth of his palm through my sleeve, and this time I didn’t pull away. I didn’t want to.

“I need to go and thank the curators,” Dean said, his voice a low rumble over my skin. “Then if you’re free, we can go somewhere. Will you wait for me?”

I nodded. I thought he might be the only man I would ever wait for.

After ten minutes, he returned and we went to get our coats from the coatroom. Dean held out my coat while I slipped into it.

I reached back to tug my hair from the collar, but he got there first. His fingers brushed the back of my neck as he eased my ponytail free of the coat. A waterfall of shivers ran down my spine, and my breath caught in my throat.

“Thanks.” I quickly stepped away from him, ducking my head as I fastened the buttons.

“Sure.” A slight tension ran through his voice.

Shit.
I turned back to him and forced a smile. “So where should we go?”

“There’s a place over by the Capitol where we can get a drink or something to eat,” he suggested, hitching up the collar of his coat. “We can walk, if you don’t mind that it’s a little cold.”

“I don’t mind.”

He seemed to make a conscious effort not to touch me as we left the museum. I felt like I should apologize, knowing I was sending him mixed signals, but I didn’t know how to without getting into treacherous waters.

We walked the length of State Street to a restaurant called The White Rose situated in a corner of the square. He held open the door of the restaurant for me, then spoke to the hostess. She smiled at him and led us past a crowd of waiting customers to a secluded, linen-covered table in the corner.

“How’d you manage that?” I asked as Dean pulled my chair out for me.

“Magic.”

I didn’t doubt it. One look from him probably turned the hostess into a puddle of goo.

“Actually…” He flashed me a grin. “Reservation.”

Nice that he’d planned in advance where we would go. Made me feel like he’d been thinking about me.

The waiter handed us leather-covered menus. Shadows and candlelight cascaded over the intimate tables, voices rose in a low hum, silver clinked against china plates.

I studied Dean as he looked at his menu. The flame of the candle cast warm, dancing light over his face, illuminated the flecks of gold in his chocolate-brown eyes. The perfect, smooth knot of his tie nestled at the hollow of his throat. A swath of hair tumbled over his forehead. I curled my fingers into my palm against the urge to brush it back, to feel the sweep of the thick strands beneath my hand.