Spirit of the Wolf (41 page)
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Authors: Loree Lough
"My woman?"
And then it all began to make sense...the boys' rage, the agony in Bess's wide eyes as he left her in town earlier, her accusation just now that he'd ridden off to see to another woman's needs. What would she say if he told her that
Mamie
was that woman?
Chance
felt like a fool for having thought, even for a moment, that Bess hadn't waited for him. He should have known that a woman like her could never give her body to a man without first giving him her heart. Relief coursed through him.
"You're the only woman in my life, Bess Beckley, and if you weren't so all-fired
mule-headed
, you'd know it."
"B-but
…earlier,
in town...you said
—“
"I said my horse needed tending. Period." He held out his arms. "Now, will you bring that young'un over here and introduce her to
me, proper
?"
He wasn't the only one who knew the meaning of the word 'relief'.
Chance
saw the proof of it shining in Bess's brown eyes. "
This young'un
," she said, heading toward him, "has a name. Mary Ann...Mary for
my
ma
,
and Ann for
hers
."
Bess
quickly explained how, while in town several months ago, she'd found a young girl, cringing and crying as she gave birth in the
filthy
alley behind the granary.
Bess
told him how s
he'd fetched the doctor, and
,
as the poor girl
struggled to give birth to her baby, listened to the harrowing tale of how she'd run away from ho
me
to escape her own
father—the fire-and-brimstone preacher of a church in the next county—who
had raped her.
"
She made me swear
that I'd never tell anyone whose baby it was
," Bess continued. "And after she died, I asked Doc what would become of the baby, and when he said she'd likely end up in some awful orphanage, I came up with a way to
save her from that
and
keep my promise to her ma."
He loved her so much at that moment that words failed him. She'd gone through
so much, alone,
while he'd been
gone.
"You're the bravest woman I've ever known."
Bess blushed. "You talk as though I'm the first woman ever to
adopt a child
!"
He looked deep into her eyes. "Well, you're the first
I've met who was willing to put her own reputation on the line to protect a total stranger."
The baby whimpered, and, s
miling, he
said
"Can I...
. I
s it all right if I hold her?"
Gently, Bess lay the baby in the crook of his arm.
"She's beautiful," he said, pressing a ligh
t kiss to Mary Ann's forehead.
He stood then, and handed the infant back to
Bess. "High time, don't you think, that I make an honest woman of you?
"
Immediately, Bess's eyes filled with tears. "
Before I answer that," she said, "y
ou have a lot of explaining to do,
Chance
Walker." She leaned closer and whispered, "Or shall I say W.C. Atwood?" A quiet laugh punctuated her question. "No need to answer
right
now.
W
e have a lifetime to work out the details."
"A lifetime," he said on a relieved sigh. Drawing
Bess and the child c
lose in a tender embrace, he raised one eyebrow. "
Was that
...was that a 'yes'?"
She nodded as
a
silvery tear rolled down her cheek.
He lifted the shot glass he'd just filled when Bess appeared in the doorway. "Ladies and gentleman," he announced, holding it aloft, "a toast to my daughter
and the beautiful woman who gave her to me!"
Bar patrons raised their glasses, nodding their consent as
Chance
placed a loving kiss on Bess's waiting lips.
TWENTY
-FIVE YEARS LATER....
The quiet hour after supper had always been her favorite of the day. As a girl, she'd sit on this very porch, reading until the evening light faded, then listening to the songs of bugs and frogs as darkness pulled up over her world like a heavy black blanket.
As a young woman, her dreams had been spun here.
Today, it was where she counted her blessings.
And she had much to be grateful for...a beautiful home on a productive farm, physical and emotional vitality.
She could count
four healthy children, all grown,
and
three of
them now h
ad youngsters of their own.
Two
little
tykes now frolicked in the yard where she had played in as a child
, while
the third slumbered peacefully in the room that had once belonged to her brother, Matt.
Her twin brothers had fought for the South during the Civil War, and thankfully, they'd both come home safe and sound.
Chance
fought at Gettysburg, too, and the Lord had seen fit to send him home to her
,
again.
Yes, there was much to be thankful for....
A hand over her mouth, Bess hid a grin, remembering how, on the morning he'd returned to Freeland, she had mistaken his rambling promises about taking care of his horse...for promises made to another woman.
"What are you smiling about, pretty lady?"
In place of an answer, Bess held out her hand. And, as always,
Chance
instinctively wrapped it in his own. It wasn't necessary to look away from the children to know what she would read in his eyes if she turned her face toward him, and the mere thought of it swelled her heart.
"Johnny," she scolded gently, "don't climb so high. How will you ever get down?"
"Aw, Gramma," Mary Ann's four year old son complained, "don't be such a worry wart. I always get down, don't I?"
"Yes, yes you do."
Sighing, she shook her head. "That namesake of yours is such a tease!" She squeezed
Chance
's hand. "He's so much like you, it's terrifying."
Chance
chuckled, returned the squeeze. "And he's stubborn as the day is long
,
so there's more than a
morsel of
you
in him, too...."
Standing, Bess stooped, kissed his cheek, then walked to the porch rail to stare into the yard. How many nights had she leaned against this same banister, looking past the sea of grass that separated the house from the river? How often had she peered into the darkening sky, ears tuned to the distant wail of the wolf?
It wasn't so very long ago that she'd come up with an explanation for the beast's mysterious and sudden disappearance. What she'd been hearing hadn't been a wolf at all, she convinced herself, but
Chance
's wild, wandering spirit, calling to her, pleading with her to wait for him.
If she’d
share
d
her theory with anyone
, they'd have thought her daft
, but how else was she to interpret the fact that she'd heard the lamenting cry every night while
Chance
had been gone...and hadn't heard it
, not
even once
,
since he'd come home again, home to stay?
Hours later, after the grandchildren had been bathed and tucked into their beds, Bess and
Chance
said goodnight to their children, who'd come home to help them celebrate. Leaning on the rail surrounding the balcony outside their room, she glanced at her husband, slouched in the bentwood rocker that had been her father's, whittling a toy truck for their grandson.
He'd been a doting grandpa, a loving father, right from the start. Mary Ann and her sister Susan
had always
adored him
, a
nd their brothers, William
—named
for
Chance
's father, and Micah, named for hers
—felt
the same way.
"
Now
what are you smiling about?" he wanted to know.
She faced the yard once more, where her mother's birch trees continued to thrive in soil that everyone had been certain would kill them, where the red roses Bess had planted on her first anniversary still bloomed bright and bold from spring thaw to first frost.
Suddenly,
Chance
was behind her, sliding strong sure arms around her waist. "Tomorrow's the big day," he whispered into her ear.
"Every day I've spent with you has been a big day," Bess replied, leaning against his chest.
He kissed
her neck
. "I love you, too."
She turned, wrapped her arms around his barrel chest. "Seems like just yesterday we were married."
"In a sense," she said, "it was."
"
I
t's been twenty-five years!"
Bess nodded. "I know, I know, but I've come to the conclusion that I was born to be your wife. Every morning, when I wake up beside you, it's as though I'm seeing you for the first time, and I fall in love with you all over again."
He hid his face behind one big hand. "Aw, I bet you say that to all the cowboys...."
Pursing her lips, she said, "You know better. There's never been anyone but you."
She took a deep breath, let it out slowly. "You know that porcelain vase in the dining room?"
"The one on the mantel? With all the chips and cracks?"
She nodded. “
Before I met you,
I
was like that vase, fractured and nicked. And then you came along, filling all the gaps with your love, the way rainwater fills crevices in clay soil. You softened my hard edges, made me stronger, and whole, and
—“
"Remind me to send a prayer of thanks to your daddy."
Looking up into his face, Bess raised an eyebrow. "Oh, I like that!
I'm
the one who cooks your meals, cleans your house, raised your children, and
—“
"
—and
keeps me warm at night," he said, pulling her closer. "Let's not forget how good you are at keeping me warm at night...."
"
—and
keep
s
you warm at night," she continued, her voice softly flirtatious. "I do all that, and you're thanking
my
pa
?"
Chance
kissed the tip of her nose. "Well, without him, you wouldn't be here, now would you?"
She
harrumphed
. "Isn't that just like a man
. M
ama did all the work, and Pa gets the credit!"
His quiet laughter rumbled against her chest, and Bess tilted her face to accept his
kis
s. In one smooth move,
Chance
lifted her in his arms and followed the swath of moonlight that slanted across their room, gently depositing her on the
ir feather mattress
.
Then
,
st
anding beside the
massive
four-poster, he shook his head. "I'll never get my fill of
looking at
you, Bess," he rasped, "not even if I live to be a hundred."
"Chance!" she scolded. "The children!"
"They're too busy being children to even notice we're gone," he said. "Besides, their parents are within shouting distance. They're fine…which is more than
I
can say…."
She'd been calling him '
Chance
' since the day he arrived at Foggy Bottom
. O
nly
in the privacy of their room
did she speak his given name.
Bess
whispered
it now: "Walker...."
He
stretched out
beside her, press
ing
kisses to her
temple,
across her cheekbones,
on
the tip of her nose
. She knew what he
was waiting
to hear, and when the time was right, she would say it,
just as she
'd been saying it for twenty-five years.
It was like a ballad between them, music that beg
a
n
after their wedding and
continued to this very
night
.
She snuggled cl
ose, her fingers combing
silver-streaked blond
locks
from his forehead.
Yes, i
t was time to sing the last note in their song, to say the words he
so needed t
o hear.
P
ropping herself on one elbow, she kissed him
, then k
issed him again.
"I love you, W.C. Johnson," she said, her voice filled with strong, abiding warmth, "and I always will."
