Authors: Melissa de la Cruz
Chapter 9
L
EAVING THE FOREST B
EHIND,
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stepped toward the cliffs that led into the clouds where the white city began. There were stairs carved into the rock leading upward.
Where is everybody?
she wondered. There was nobody on the stairs. This was the capital of Vallonis and yet she and Faix were the only two people at its entrance.
There are other ways into the city, but everyone must come through this entrance the first time he or she approaches Apis,
Faix sent, as if he were merely a piece of her mind that contained knowledge she did not yet have access to.
You will travel this route only once.
They started to climb. A soft breeze blew. Birds fluttered in the great void beneath the city. The blue- and red-winged creatures looked familiar, like the birds that came to her on the black ocean when she was alone with Wes in a cargo container on the slave ship.
She climbed, eyes downcast, focusing on the steps, careful not to trip or lose her balance. She had no thought but not to fall, and even her telepathic conversation with Faix ceased. After what felt like a long and arduous hike, she felt the air getting colder, and when she looked up, she saw that they were nearing the top and that the city was coming into view. The stairs terminated in a great promontory, a stone outcropping that extended outward from the cliff to the gates of the city.
Nat walked right up to the edge and stopped. There was a gap of about ten feet between the cliff and the doorway to the city. It was too far to leap across.
She turned to look at Faix, who had been walking behind her, but he wasn't thereâand when she looked across, he was standing at the doorway, underneath the stone archway, his bright hair almost as white as the city stone.
“How did you do that?” Nat frowned. She was fairly certain she didn't want to know the answer, whatever it was.
“Simple. Just walk across.”
“Yeah, right.” She looked at the great chasm below. She had once leapt from a hospital window, falling many stories without injury. She had flown on the drakon's back, had soared at greater heights than these. She was not afraid of heights, but something about the gap made her hesitate.
“Walk across the bridge, Nat,” said Faix. “Every pupil of mine has succeeded in doing so.”
“But I'll fall. There's nothing there.”
“It only looks like there is nothing,” he said. “You must walk on the ether, must command it to hold you upright. One cannot simply enter the city; the city must admit you. To prove you are worthy of Apis, you must step upon the ether and cross the void.”
“A leap of faith.”
Faix nodded. “So it appears.”
“But if I fall, I'll die.”
“You will not fall if you believe you can cross.” He stared at her for a moment and tapped his chin. “There is a story from your world, a tale of a king who conquered a land and wished to know its people. He wanted to understand their customs, what they would and would not do. He asked about their burial practices. He asked what sum he must pay to induce his new subjects to eat the bodies of their dead.
No sum,
the people said. Their dead were burned. They could not imagine consuming the flesh of their mothers and fathers. This same king asked the opposite question of the barbarian tribesmen that lived outside the kingdom. How much must I pay you to
burn
your dead?
No sum,
the barbarians said. In their culture, they consumed the flesh of their dead. To burn the flesh of their loved ones was inconceivable.”
Nat saw the images Faix was sending her, of two ancient peoples and their revulsion for each other's death rites. The dead that were burned and the dead that were eaten.
“Do you understand? The two cultures, the âcivilized' people and the so-called âbarbarians,' understood their world in completely different ways. You and I suffer a similar misunderstanding. In the gray lands, your people see the material world, the things you touch, the possessions you collect. But in Vallonis, we see the ether, the void. We do not build cars and ships, guns and planes. We build music and theory, ideas and visions, all crafted from the ether. To enter Vallonis, you must believe that the ether, the void, the nothingness, that which you cannot see, is as real as a table or a chair. Trust in your power, Nat, and enter Vallonis.” He held out his hand. “Take your place as a member of the Queen's Council, a citizen of the White City.”
But instead of stepping forward, Nat took a step back, fear and doubt on her face. “I can't. I'm not one of you. Where I come from, nothing is nothing. I'll fall.”
“You will not. You must shape the ether into a walkway. Imagine it into being and it will be as sturdy as the stone steps that you stand on. Trust me. Learn to live in Vallonis.”
“Do you eat your dead here?” she asked. “Who is the civilized man and who is the barbarianâthe one who takes the leap or the one who does not?”
Faix stared at her, unblinking.
No one has ever asked me that, young Nat. You have the mind of a drakonrydder. Within and without.
“That's not an answer,” Nat said, crossing her arms.
Faix sighed. “From our perspective, yours is the cruder sensibility. A world that only trusts in what can be seen feels very vulgar to us.”
“Why am I not surprised?” Nat raised an eyebrow.
“I understand that from your point of view, a world that prizes what is unseen might seem primitive and backward, like the people in your world who believe in nonsense such as astrology. I hope to show you that our world is rich in intellect and history, that there is reason and logic in our âmagic.'”
Nat looked down at the gap again. Wind whistled across her face. At this particular moment, she wished to be anywhere else in the world.
Even under the world,
she thought,
with my drakon.
That would be safer for me than this.
But here she was.
She looked up at Faix. “If I were to tryâand I'm not saying I amâhow would I start? A little help, here?”
“Picture the water that fills the glass, instead of the glass that holds the water. See the shape of nothingness, feel the presence of the void.”
Nat shook her head. She didn't understand. She didn't know how. Her power was unpredictable, uncontrollable. She looked across to the open doorway where Faix stood. There was light beyond, and people, the sounds of a market, the chatter of a crowd, laughter. She had come so far from that living room in Ashes, from her first trip into Garbage Country and her stay at MacArthur.
She had flown upon the back of the drakon, but this simple step, this leap of faith, was an even greater hurdle. Faix had taught countless pupils like her, and each one had been able to accomplish this step.
So what am I so afraid of?
The air? The gap? Falling? Oblivion?
She stared across the void, trying to sort out the chaos in her mind.
No. She did not fear the air or the gap. The risk of falling from the sky, of sudden death, those possibilities were with her always. Those were familiar fears, almost comforting ones. At least, consistent.
What is it, then?
She stared across the void until she knew the answer.
She feared Vallonis itself, feared that she was not worthy to join a world she had spent her whole life searching for. She was anxious about finally meeting the great Queen Nineveh. She was afraid of disappointing her.
What if the city did not allow her admittance? What if she was left outside forever?
What if her search had been meaningless, after all?
Nat looked at the void, tried to will the ether into some shapeâa bridge, or a wooden plankâbut nothing happened. She tried again. And again. And again. Sweat glistened on her brow. Her legs felt heavy, her fingers tingled, then became numb, her eyes twitched. She tried again. Nothing happened. Long minutes passed. Faix reached out to her mind but she pushed him away, silenced him. She had to do this on her own.
She had to clear her thoughts, to take control, but her head throbbed with resentment and confusion. With dark memories of her past, and an aching sadness at parting from Wes. With endless anxiety, even guilt, about her drakon.
I am made of shadow and unsettled darkness.
There is nothing so steady as a bridge inside of me.
Nat looked across the gap at the warm light, the people, the city beyond, everything so close and yet so very far away. The beautiful queen she had never met, but only glimpsed in Faix's memories and thoughts. She belonged in Apis, she only had to believe it to make it true, but she couldn't.
The fear was too great.
Chapter 10
I
N THE BACK
SEAT OF THE WHITE
limousine, Wes had changed into a cheap black suit with fake heat buttons; Shakes wore a similar getup. He tossed Shakes a pair of mirrored sunglasses like his own and peered anxiously at the narrow one-laned bridges as the gold domes loomed in the windshield. The pair of bridges extended from the mainland to the domes and back, like a pair of tendrils floating above the water. They were the only way into and out of the floating city of El Dorado.
Shakes turned to him. “You all right, boss? You're pale.”
Wes grunted. “It's cold. What do you want?”
Shakes studied him. “Screw you âit's cold.' Like I don't see your face every day you freeze your ass off back home. You paid the data hacks, right? Manifests are good? What, you think we might've been ripped off?”
Wes could never keep anything from Shakes. His friend knew something was up. “Maybe,” he finally admitted.
Maybe we'll get out of this alive, or maybe we won't, because maybe we're not on any manifest and maybe I haven't paid anyone off.
“Maybe, huh.” Shakes sighed, knowing that Wes's “maybe” meant he hadn't been able to bribe anyone and they were headed toward disaster. “And maybe you're a bigger idiot than I thought.”
“I find that hard to believe, after all this time.” Wes raised a finger to his lips. He didn't want to have this conversation with Farouk, not yet. He glanced up front. “Slow it down, Farouk. Let's not look too eager.”
Farouk hit the brakes and the limo skidded to a stop.
Wes grabbed the side of the car. “Easy, man, try not to look scared, either. Take it slow. Cool. You've done this a hundred times, right?”
“Yeah, yeah, no sweat,” Farouk said, picking up the speed, trying to drive as normally as possible. “A hundred times before I was dumb enough to bring you two iceholes.” He shook his dreadlocks at them.
Snow blew in waves across the lake, sending ripples drifting toward the causeway's concrete pillars. Red bubbles rose to the lake's surface, gathering and popping. Wes thought the gurgling water looked like his stomach felt: anxious and boiling.
“Like I said, a little slower,” he said, trying to postpone the inevitable as much as he could, but the limo was already at the dome's entryway, right at the golden arch.
“Like I said, make up your mind already,” Farouk groused.
The shiny half loop of gold-plated steel glistened, its surface newly polished. Guards flanked the arch in front of the checkpoint, weapons raised, robo-hounds held back by leashes. El Dorado was a paradise for those who could pay to get insideâVallonis for the wealthy. The people of El Dorado didn't suffer from military raids or eat processed glop; here in the domed cities, they could pretend the apocalypse had never happened. Who wouldn't want that?
“Boss,” Shakes said, nudging him. “Boss.”
“A minute,” Wes said, trying to figure out what he would say once the guards asked for his ID and told Farouk they weren't on the manifest.
“You need to look at this,” Shakes said, pointing to the tip of the dome.
A plume of black smoke drifted from the far side of the golden hemisphere. Cracks appeared across the face of its glass shield.
“Damn. What is that?” Wes fumbled for his field binoculars. “Looks like they're venting smoke.” Enclosures needed an exhaust system; otherwise a simple fire could clog the dome with smoke and threaten the lives of everyone inside.
Wes lowered the binoculars.
They were next at the guardhouse. One of the soldiers raised his weapon; the robo-dogs howled. The limo slowed to a stop. A security officer wearing a crisp white shirt, red tie, and blue blazer with a gold dome embroidered on the pocket stepped out of the booth, radio in hand and dark glasses on his face as he approached the front window.
“Hey, man, where's Rolf?” Farouk asked, handing over his ID.
The security guard tipped his hat, gestured back toward the booth. His radio buzzed and he put the receiver in his ear, nodding as he listened.
“Passengers?” he asked.
“Casino bosses from the Loss. They should be on the manifest,” Farouk said, offering the fake IDs Wes had given him earlier.
The guard nodded and studied the IDs, radioing in their names.
Wes looked from the guard to the dome and back to Farouk. Smoke continued to pour out of the vent, creating black clouds around the dome. More guards appeared, surrounding the limo, listening to headsets, hands pressed to their earpieces.
Something was happening. Someone screamed, and the guards whipped around, watching smoke billow out of the entryway.
“Repeat, I need clearance for a Dr. Jekyll and a Mr. Hyde,” the guard said into his radio, waiting.
Shakes rolled his eyes. Wes tried not to smile. They were two of his favorite aliases. No one read books anymore, so no one would get the joke.
The guard's radio buzzed.
“Turn around,” he said. “Turn around, the domes are closed for today.” He made a spinning motion with his index finger, indicating the act of turning the limo in a circle.
“Are you serious? I can't turn this beast around.” Farouk gestured to the limo.
“Turn around now.” The guard stepped back, a hand resting on the grip of his sidearm.
In the distance, sirens boomed, and red and blue strobe lights reflected off the dome. Wes turned around to see as emergency vehicles approached from behind, blocking the causeway. Even if Farouk could turn around, the fire trucks and ambulances were blocking the bridge. There was no going back. A convoy of high-tech Humvees carrying armed soldiers rolled behind them as well.
Why would a fire draw military vehicles? Something else was happening, something bigger than a crack in the dome and a plume of smoke.
Maybe something as big as a drakon on the streets of New Vegas,
Wes thought.
Something unstoppable.
“Come on, man, I'll get in trouble if I don't deliver,” Farouk said, pleading with the guard.
The guard shook his head. “Pull to the side, please.”
Farouk sighed, shifted the car into drive, and angled the limo to the right. “Bad luck, boss,” he said. “Looks like no one's getting into Dorado today.”
“We'll wait it out,” Wes said. “Try again when they open back up.”
“There's a way station not too farâI guess we can stay there. Godfreezeit, I was looking forward to the domes,” Farouk replied.
They watched as the conclave of emergency and military vehicles made their way inside, when a group of guards suddenly surrounded the limousine, and the young security officer led the pack, holding his gun. “Out of the car,” he yelled over the sirens. “Out of the car now!”
“What the ice?” Farouk cursed and shot an accusatory glance at Wes.
“Out of the car!” the guard ordered.
“Stay in the limo,” Wes growled, picking up his own weapon.
Farouk rolled down the window. “What's this about?”
“Your passengers aren't on any manifest. No one's expecting them. Out of the car now.”
“No way, man. It's a mistake. Ask your people to check the roster again. Can you get Rolf out here? The man knows me. Help me outâyou know I'm going to lose my job if I don't drop off these iceholes. Come on, man.”
“Hold on,” the security officer said, looking annoyed and confused.
When the guard left, Farouk turned to Wes. “What's going on, boss? Looks like we're getting screwed by your guysâthey bungle the job or something? Why aren't you on the manifest?” Then realization hit. “You're not on the freezing manifest, are you?” He cursed. “You could have told me.”
“I didn't have the watts,” Wes mumbled. “Sorry. I thought we'd be able to talk our way in. Thought you wouldn't take us here if you knew.”
“I wouldn't take you here? Of course I wouldn't take you hereâ” Farouk began to argue, but the rest of his words were muffled by the sound of more ambulances rushing past.
Wes watched as they sped through the gate, pulling the smoke behind it, leaving the gate clear for an instant. A girl stood in the archway, dressed in a blue hospital gown, shivering in the street, her hair a mess, her eyes flashing scarlet. Shards of gold littered the street, and gunfire mixed with the sounds of shattering glass. Smoke billowed through the air.
“Was that a girl?” Shakes stared at the surreal scene.
“What the . . . ?” Farouk said as a shiny new car shot through the face of the dome, arcing through the sky, and crashing into the guard booth, exploding in a giant burst of glass and steel and flame.
The guards left the limo and ran toward the booth, yelling and cursing.
“Hit it!” Wes yelled. “Go! Now, Farouk.”
Farouk didn't hesitate; he jammed the accelerator, spinning the wheels, careening past the stunned guards who were still staring at the burning booth, and blasting into the entrance of the smoke-filled city.
They were inside.
Farouk slid into a tangle of alleyways, turning deeper and deeper off the main road and into the heart of the city. As far away from anything like law enforcement as possible. Only then did he slow down and choke a few words out. “You both can go to hell.”
“Think we just did, brother.” Wes clapped him on the shoulder.
Shakes looked like he was going to puke, which was just another way Wes could rationalize the positive side of having no watts for breakfast today.
“See,” Wes said, nudging Shakes. “Told you we'd make it.”
“What he said,” Shakes muttered back.
Wes smiled.
But getting inside was one thing, and getting Eliza out was something else entirely.