But after that lesson was done, he found himself at loose ends. Ulrich had forsaken meetings and discussions in the face of this greater threat, which left Karal with nothing whatsoever to do as Ulrich plied his other avocation of Priest-Mage.
Ulrich reappeared for lunch, just long enough to snatch a hasty meal and ask Karal if he had taken care of the appointments that had been canceled.
“Yes, sir,” Karal replied. “Is there anything else you want me to do?”
“Not really,” the Priest told him. “Really, just take a rest; do whatever you want to do this afternoon. I’ll be in conference with the rest of the mages. We’re still mostly at the talking stage, now that we’ve reinforced all the shields and—well, never mind. Just take a little holiday.”
With that he was gone, leaving Karal to trail forlornly around the suite, finally ending up in his own room.
For the first time in a very long time, he had leisure to be lonely—and, suddenly, homesick. Up until now, he’d been so busy that he hadn’t had much time to think about himself. When he wasn’t actually working, he was encouraging An’desha, learning as much as he could about the land and the Heralds that guided it from the library and from Florian, or discussing what he’d learned with Ulrich.
He hadn’t even had a chance to talk about this latest crisis with his mentor, and that bothered him more than he had thought it would. He sat on the bed, staring at the wall, feeling very much left out. No point in looking for An’desha, he’d be with the others. Natoli was out doing whatever her Master assigned her. Florian was like Altra—you didn’t go to the Companion,
he
showed up when he wanted to. Karal wasn’t a mage—and he wasn’t one of the Blues, either. That left him with no purpose at all, and nothing useful to contribute.
:Oh, do stop feeling sorry for yourself!:
Altra snapped, appearing out of nowhere and jumping up onto his bed.
:You’ve taken the initiative before. What’s to stop you from doing it again? You’re an adult, Karal, an acolyte, not a novice! Of course you have a purpose! You’re supposed to be Ulrich’s assistant, aren’t you?:
“Ah—yes, but—” Karal began, starting a little at the Firecat’s sudden appearance.
The Firecat snorted.
:Well, go assist him, then! Do your job! Who’s going to remind him to eat and rest if you don’t? Didn’t Solaris tell you to take care of him? All of the rest of them are younger than he is; if they don’t feel tired, they’ll keep going, and he’ll feel he has to keep up with them. Who’s going to take notes? Even if you don’t understand all that mage-babble, you can take notes, can’t you?:
Altra’s tail switched from side to side, annoyance in every twitch.
Karal nodded, tentatively at first, then with more enthusiasm. There was a very good chance they wouldn’t exclude him if he presented himself at the door of the meeting. He was Ulrich’s assistant, after all. And there probably
wasn’t
anyone else playing secretary in all the mage-conferences.
:Besides, what you learn there, you can take to Natoli and the others,:
Altra added, narrowing his eyes, which gave him a very sly, self-satisfied look.
:The Seekers need that information as much as they need measurements. They really don’t know how magic works, and the more you can tell them, the better they can do their job. Right?:
“Right.” Karal got to his feet, and gathered up his pouch of note-taking materials. “Thank you, Altra.”
:My pleasure.:
The Firecat twitched his tail again, jumped down off the bed—and vanished before he touched the floor.
Karal shivered. He really wished that Altra would at least get out of sight before he pulled one of those disappearing tricks. Having the Firecat
there
one moment and
not-there
the next was decidedly unnerving.
Oh, well.
He knew where the meeting was going to be, since Ulrich had let that drop—not in the Council Chamber this time, since they couldn’t keep usurping it from governmental business, but in the gryphons’ suite, since it was the only other set of rooms large enough to hold the gryphons comfortably.
He had never been there, but it was easy enough to find a page to show him the way; they
all
seemed to know where the gryphons were. The tiny child who led him down the maze of corridors confessed as they walked that he often played with the young gryphons. Karal had to shake his head at that; how in Vkandis’ name had his parents been persuaded to allow him to play with meat-eating raptors that could easily bite his hand off? That said a lot for the ability of Treyvan and Hydona to convince Valdemarans that they were as friendly as they claimed.
The chamber was at the end of a long corridor that looked vaguely familiar to Karal. It looked as if it had been originally intended for some other use than as guest quarters, with its huge double doors of carved wood. Had it been a lesser Audience Chamber, perhaps? Tentatively, he tapped on the door and was a little surprised when Ulrich himself answered it.
“Karal?” the Priest said, when he recognized who was there. He held the door as if he was thinking about shutting it again, a frown just beginning to crease his brow. “Didn’t I tell you—”
“You don’t have anyone here to take notes for you all, do you?” Karal interrupted, before Ulrich could chide him. “You don’t have anyone here to fetch things for you; you’ll have to call for a page and wait until one comes. You don’t have anyone to run out and have meals and drink sent up. I can do all of that, and you already
know
that I won’t get in the way.” He swallowed a bit, and let a little pleading creep into his voice. “Please sir, I want to help. I want to help
you.
It’s not a duty, it’s a pleasure.”
Ulrich’s frown faded when he heard Karal’s intentions. “I didn’t—think you’d care to be here,” he replied, with a hesitancy he had never shown before. “You’ve been working hard, and I thought I’d been exploiting your good nature. I was afraid we’d overwork you—”
Karal coughed as his cheeks heated. “Master, one of my duties is to make certain that
you
don’t overwork.” He lowered his voice to a near-whisper. “You aren’t exploiting my good nature, sir. I am proud to serve and honor you as I would serve and honor my own father.”
Ulrich bowed his head, and he blinked rapidly for a moment. “Karal, you are a remarkable young man. I am proud to be here to help you when I can. Thank you. We can certainly use your services.”
Karal slipped inside the door as Ulrich held it open just enough for him to get inside. There was no furniture, just the bare wooden floor and huge pillows and featherbeds; logical, actually, since this place was meant for the comfort of gryphons, not humans. Firesong was holding forth and did not even notice as Karal took a place on the edge of the gathering, got out his pens and paper, and began taking notes in the middle of Firesong’s current sentence.
“—if all of you are really set on it, I can’t see how it’s going to hurt anything,” the Healing Adept was saying, his voice full of contemptuous amusement. “But I repeat, I don’t think that these—craftsmen of yours, these
engineers,
as you call them—are going to accomplish anything at all useful. Magic simply does not work the way they are used to thinking. Magic is a thing of intuition, of art; you can’t dissect it, set down logic, make it march in step.”
“But haven’t
you
been teaching me the laws of magic?” An‘desha objected stubbornly. Karal’s eyebrows arched in surprise, though he kept quiet, true to his promise. Was An’desha actually
disagreeing
with Firesong? If so, it must be for the very first time!
“Yes, but—” Firesong floundered for a moment, then regained his poise. “But the ‘laws’ of magic are simply guidelines! Haven’t Elspeth and Darkwind accomplished things the mages of k’Sheyna thought could not be done, simply because Elspeth was not aware that common thought was that they were impossible? That is because magic simply is not
logical.
It doesn’t always answer the way you think it will. You can’t call it to the glove like an imprinted falcon!”
“But you won’t object if I assist the engineers?” An’desha persisted. “So long as I don’t use time and energy we need to put into shields?”
He’s opposing Firesong? Has the moon started rising in the west?
Firesong flung up his hands in defeat. “How can I object to what you do with your free time?” he asked sourly. “If you want to waste it, go right ahead. I simply don’t see where you are going to accomplish anything concrete.”
“Well, now that we have that out of the way, shall we get down to the business at hand?” Darkwind asked dryly.
Firesong shrugged and sat down again, settling into a more comfortable position against one of the huge pillows, a bolster of a green so dark it approached black. Karal noted with amusement that he had chosen the only pillow in the room that harmonized with his brilliant emerald costume.
“I asked Rris if there was any oral kyree tradition about the mage-storms that followed the Cataclysm,” Darkwind told them all. “So here he is, and he’s going to recite it to you.”
Rris rose from his place at Darkwind’s side where he had been lying like an obedient dog, stepped forward into the center of the room, bowed his furry gray head once to all of them, and sat down on his haunches with immense dignity. :1
trust you will not object if I tell it in the traditional manner?:
“Go right ahead,” Firesong said. “You might forget something if you break from tradition, else.”
Rris nodded.
:Hear you all, from the times of the Change, from the times of the Falling of the Sky and the Stars,:
he began, his mental voice ringing in Karal’s mind. It occurred to Karat at that moment, as he scribbled furiously to get all of the story down, that he himself had changed out of all recognition ever since he had come to Valdemar. Not that long ago, simply
seeing
the
kyree
would have put him into shock. Now he was taking down what the creature dictated into his mind, without a second thought.
Was this a good thing, or a bad one?
Neither,
he decided, as his fingers flew across the page, filling line after line with meticulous script.
It’s just change. You change, or you turn into a dry old stick.
And another thing occurred to him.
Dry old sticks break under pressure.
So maybe it was a good thing after all. The last thing they all needed right now was one of their number who would snap like a twig.
It had been a long day; it was going to get longer before Karal saw his bed. Nevertheless, when An‘desha intercepted him on his way out of the gryphons’ room and asked him to make a map of the way to the Compass Rose, he volunteered to act as An’desha’s escort instead, after they both had some supper. Ulrich was to work with the Tayledras and Elspeth, strengthening shields again; that left Karal free to make a hasty copy of the day’s notes and show An’desha the way.
That was why they both found themselves trudging through a night made darker by the clouds still overhead, splashing through puddles left by the rain, with the sounds of carousing coming from the lantern-lit taverns all around them.
“Thank you for coming with me to where these engineers meet,” An’desha said shyly. “I would be very uncomfortable, going there alone.”
Since this would be the first time, to Karal’s knowledge, that An’desha had
ever
left the grounds of the Palace, he suspected that “uncomfortable” was an understatement.
Terrified
might be more apt.
But An‘desha was set on going. He felt that someone was going to have to try to explain magic to those without it, and that he was the best person for the task. That was the argument Karal had walked in on this afternoon. An’desha had volunteered his services, and Firesong had objected.
Firesong might be jealous; he might be afraid that An‘desha will find someone else he’s attracted to. I wonder if that occurred to An’desha as an explanation for all his objections?
“I have all these notes from our meeting to deliver, and I need to get copies of what they’ve done for our mages,” he replied. “And besides—An’desha. I know you’re shy, and I just couldn’t let you walk in there alone, face all those people you don’t even know. That’s what friends are about, right?”
“I had hoped so.” An’desha smiled tentatively. “But you are stretching yourself very thin, running errands for all of us, transcribing the notes of our meetings for us. I hadn’t wanted to ask you.”
“Before this is over, we’re all going to be exhausted, so don’t worry about it,” he told the young mage. At that moment, they reached the door of the tavern, and he paused for a heartbeat on the threshold. “Well, brace yourself. This is not going to be like anything you’ve ever seen before.”
An’desha did visibly brace himself, but he still winced as the door opened and a steady stream of babbling voices poured out over them.
But the voices all stopped when people noticed just who it was that was standing in the doorway. Natoli hurried over to them, and Master Tam was right behind her.
“We’ve got notes and charts for you,” Natoli began.
“And I’ve got notes from the mages’ meeting for you,” he replied. “And more than that, I’ve got a mage with me who wants to show you some of how magic works.” An‘desha clearly wanted to shrink back away from all the people, but only his trembling hands betrayed his nervousness. “An’desha, this is Natoli, and this is Master Tam. Ladies, this is An‘desha; he’s both Shin’a’in and Tayledras, and he’s one of the mages that works with Lady Herald Elspeth.”
“Very pleased to see you, Master An’desha,” Master Tam said, folding her hands together and bowing a little to him, rather than seizing his hand to shake it. That was a rather tactful gesture on her part, Karal thought. “We badly need someone to help us understand how these magic powers of yours work. Right now, we’re in the position of trying to read the wind.”