Storms (66 page)

Today his voice no longer has the power to haunt me, but it always, always makes me stop and remember.

I went on to have a successful career as a costume designer. I designed the wardrobe for the music videos of Billy Idol, Mötley Crüe, Ben E. King, Jon Bon Jovi, Slaughter, James Brown, KISS, Queensryche, and Guns N' Roses' debut videos “Welcome to the Jungle” and “Sweet Child of Mine”—along with 150 other artists. And, to make the circle complete, I was booked for the pick-up shots for Fleetwood Mac's “Little Lies.”

By that time, I was so busy that sometimes I would be shooting two videos on the same day—and because of this, I was on another set when Lindsey shot his segments. Which was how I wanted it. It was still a bit soon for me to take any encounters with him lightly, and I'm sure that he felt the same way. I did, however, arrive in time to spend hours with John McVie and Mick—and it was both sad and wonderful to be with them again. As the years passed, I would spend time with every member of Fleetwood Mac at weddings, baby showers, and chance encounters.

In the early 1990s, I was reunited with my daughter and I learned that her adoptive parents had kept their promises to me. My daughter was not only highly educated, she was beautiful, funny, and one of the sweetest women you could hope to meet. It was one of the happiest days of my life when I once again was able to put my arms around her and tell her that I loved her. A short time later, I attended her wedding.

In 1993 I saw Lindsey at the funeral of our beloved housekeeper Desi. We'd lost her to a sudden heart attack and both Lindsey and I were devastated. I sat next to him at the memorial service and he held me close as I sobbed. The very last thing that he said to me before I walked out of the church with Sara Fleetwood was, “You still have the most fragile feel to your shoulders of anyone I've ever met.” We stood and looked at each other, faces wet with tears, and we smiled.

And then we walked away—back to our separate lives.

A

Academy Awards,
199

AC/DC (band),
350

Aguirre, Bob

concern,
263

drummer,
34

Harris, friendship,
91–92

marijuana, smoking,
91

move-in, Harris invitation,
188

Aja
(album),
152

alcohol, usage,
164

Alice in Wonderland

book,
139

real-life version, feeling,
189

“Alison”,
184

all in the family sex,
301

Altamount,
259

American Bandstand
,
134

American Music Awards (AMAs)

Best Album of the Year award,
138

Fleetwood Mac, winner,
138–139
,
143

Best Band of the Year award,
135–136

Fleetwood Mac, winner,
136

Buckingham

coordination problems,
138–140

Dilantin preshow administration,
132

vomiting,
140–141

cocaine, usage,
135

fans,
134

imminence,
132

lesser awards,
135

quaaludes, problem,
137–138

red carpet event,
133

Anderson, Kim,
330

marriage/divorce.
See
Nicks “Angel”,
206

Animal House
(movie),
92

Armani, Georgi

clothes, usage.
See
Buckingham

pride,
246

Arthur.
See
King Arthur

Auckland (New Zealand),
Tusk
performance,
285–286

Australia,
Tusk
tour,
270

Azoff, Irving (manager),
309

B

Bam
(magazine), negative
Rumours
review,
39

Bardot, Brigitte,
55
,
69

Basic track, explanation,
157

Beach Boys (band),
202
,
361

listening,
58

performance.
See
Universal Ampitheatre Beard, Peter (photographer),
224–225

Beatle haircut,
146

Beatles, The,
146

breakup,
313

music,
331

Bel-Air, Buckingham/Harris home,
311

problems,
320

Bella Donna
(album),
260
,
316

Billboard
status,
328

reviews,
320

success, impact,
362

Benedict Canyon, Harris home,
365

Bennett, Tony,
150

Billboard
(magazine)

full-page Harris ad, Bjorn announcement,
173–174

Rumours
number one status,
54–55

change,
135

SIX MILLION (advertisement),
130

Birmingham (England)

band arrival, problems,
63

drugs, absence,
64–65

Rumours
show

recollection,
269

success,
66

Bjorn,
144–145
,
151
,
347

announcement.
See Billboard; Record World

assistance.
See
Harris

friend,
144

Harris

modeling, continuation,
218

photo shoots,
162
,
172–176

portfolio,
172
,
177

makeup

quality,
246

sessions,
135

modeling news.
See
Harris

recommendation.
See
Harris

transformation.
See
Harris

Tusk
appearance,
253

black, favorite color,
29–30

Blob, The (discussion),
310–311

“Blue Letter” (Forum performance),
98
,
99

Blue Whale, the (home),
311
,
335

partying,
348
,
349

Bombs Away Dream Babies
(album),
325

Bon Jovi, Jon,
372

Bootleg records, Harris explanation,
332

Bootleg tapes,
15

Bowie, David,
91
,
150

Boyd, Pattie (Jenny's sister),
69

Bozo the Clown,
136
,
143

Bradley, Tom (L.A. mayor),
231–232

Brando, Marlon,
291

Brown, James,
372

Browne, Jackson,
218

Buckingham, Greg (Olympic swimmer),
35

Buckingham, Jeff (impact),
34

Buckingham, Lindsey

affair, admission,
8–9

anger,
96–97
,
173–175
,
321
,
346

anxiety, decrease,
155

appearance

band, reaction,
242–243

Courage, opinion,
244

cutting edge,
238–239

McVie (John), opinion,
243

Armani clothes, usage,
237–238
,
291

Aspen ski trip,
20–21

avant-garde musical direction,
215

beard/mustache, shave,
161–162

BMW purchase,
131

breath, sharpness,
103

constructive criticism, absence (desire),
180

convulsions,
105–107

Philadelphia hospital, transfer (argument),
107–109

creative transformation,
239

creativity

Harris, emotional participant,
158

wellspring,
157

cynicism,
350–351

Dashut roommate,
7

Demerol, administration,
127

Dilantin

administration,
181
,
272

offstage administration,
128

prescription,
116

preshow administration.
See
American Music Awards disorientation,
103

doctor, arrival/discussion,
109–112

doubt, decrease,
155

dry socket, impact,
59–60

emotional support,
43

epilepsy

diagnosis,
116

publicity, desire,
117–118

exhaustion,
103

Ezrin job offer, impact,
82–83

family, meeting,
33–34

father, passing,
35–36

flashes

attacks,
103
,
107
,
110

blackouts, prediction,
116

imminence,
128

Fleetwood (Mick) meeting,
179–180

unhappiness,
180

frustration, scream,
179

genius, acceptance,
214

grand mal seizure, diagnosis,
109–110

Greg, assistance,
106

guitars, theft,
101

gun, purchase,
265–266

haircut,
160–161

hands off orders,
307

hangover,
143
,
196

happiness,
87

Harris

emotional closeness,
158

engagement, secret,
183

helplessness, feelings,
106

move-in,
85–86

support,
38–39
,
141–143

Hawaii trip,
310–311

home recording studio, setup,
156–157

honeymoon period, shock,
77

house

alarm installation,
205

burglary,
97–98
,
205
,
263
,
265–266

discovery,
86–87

hunting,
79–80

new home purchase,
131

impacted wisdom teeth, effect,
58–60

insensitivity.
See
Harris interaction.
See
Jagger introduction,
1

invitation.
See
Europe tour jamming, absence (desire),
180

kitten, purchase,
332–333

love, declaration,
17

makeup,
241–243

man/myth, fusion,
46–47

medical tests, negative results,
103

metamorphosis,
93

Midway Hospital, admission,
187

music, importance,
362–363

nausea,
103

Nicks breakup,
6

paramedics, arrival/help,
107–108

personality, volatility,
214

Philadelphia hospitalization,
115–116

physical attack.
See
Harris power/purity,
33

projectile vomiting,
141

recording secret, burden,
178–179

reviews.
See Tusk
rubber-leg walk,
139
,
142

San Francisco show

fear,
45

nervousness,
42–43

sarcasm,
150–151
,
159
.
See also
Rogers seizure

blame, concern,
119–120

Harris, fear,
123–127

separation.
See
Harris sex symbol,
246

songs

band review,
184
,
197

debut,
196–197

spinal leakage, possibility,
116
,
118–119

spinal tap,
116

stage presence/persona,
247
,
249–250

change, McVie compliment,
255–256

stomach pains,
187

stress

impact,
187

increase,
188

technical proficiency, comparison.
See
Nicks

tension,
22

trial separation, suggestion,
364

understanding,
45–46

upstaging.
See
Nicks

vomiting,
140–142

warning signs,
345–346

Washington doctor, examination,
126–127

Washington emergency,
120–126

work methods, criticism,
315

Buckingham, Rutheda (mother) (distance),
36

Buckingham Nicks, formation,
34

Buckingham's Folly,
215

Burnette, Billy,
348

Burnette, Rocky,
348

Burrows, Stephen (dress).
See
Stephen Burrows dress Busey, Gary,
304

Bush, Charles,
145
,
147