Struck (2 page)

The upside was Acute Stress Disorder usually lasted a maximum of four weeks, and it had been four weeks to the day since the earthquake. Three weeks and four days since rescue workers pulled Mom’s unconscious, dehydrated body from beneath several tons of rubble. It was a miracle she’d still been breathing. The people who’d been found with her were not so lucky. Some were crushed instantly. Others suffocated, and it was their deaths that saved my mom’s life. There wasn’t enough oxygen in the small cavern beneath the wreckage to go around.

Four weeks since the quake … it seemed like four thousand.

“Mom?” I said again. I kept my voice low, gentle, as though my words might hurt her if they came out too hard. She stiffened and her shoulders hunched as she craned her head around. It had been so long since she’d washed her hair that it appeared wet with grease. The scars on her face stood out in waxy, salmon-colored lines against skin that hadn’t seen the sun in weeks. It was an effort not to flinch every time I looked at her. At least my face had been spared from the lightning scars that etched the rest of my body. Mom’s face, on the other hand … she would need
plastic surgery to remove the scars if she didn’t want to be reminded of the quake every time she looked in a mirror.

“We have already begun to witness God’s wrath,” Prophet continued. “He whispered to me that He would strike Los Angeles only minutes before His fist came down. The end of all things is at hand, brothers and sisters, and it will commence right here, in Los Angeles. For this is not the city of angels, but a city where devils rule from their hillside mansions and immense studios, spreading their corruption like a plague through your television screens and movie theaters and the Internet. Is it any surprise, in a city so amoral, that our young people—the ones who call themselves ‘rovers’—dance and drink and cavort on the graves of the dead in the Waste?”

I turned the volume down, averting my gaze from the milky orbs of Prophet’s eyes. His snowy hair avalanched over his shoulders, thick and frosty as a polar bear’s pelt, though he couldn’t be older than thirty-five, with that peanut-butter-smooth, tanned face. That bleach-white crescent of a smile. But mostly when I looked at him I saw the eyes, empty and opaque, filmed with cataracts.

“Mom, Parker and I have to go,” I said.

“What?” she finally responded. “Where … where are you going?” Her voice dragged, weighted with the antipsychotics and anti-anxiety medications I’d procured for her through less than legitimate means. Even if I could get Mom an appointment with one of the overburdened doctors in the city, they’d just give me prescriptions I couldn’t fill. Pharmacies had been looted within the first days after the quake. Supplies of food, water, and medications were trickling back into the city by air, but with most of the freeways
shut down, and the trucks that did make it in being looted, there wasn’t enough to go around.

When the quake hit, there were nineteen million people living in the greater metropolitan area. The population had thinned since then. Those who could manage it had abandoned the city like the proverbial sinking ship. But there were still too many people to feed and medicate. Even counting the private jets celebrities loaned to aid organizations, there were only so many planes and helicopters available to import goods. Supplies were divided up for the area hospitals and clinics and consumed as soon as they left the trucks.
If
the trucks made it from the airports to their drop-off destinations.

The only option I was left with for getting Mom’s meds was the black market. I knew I was buying the same pills that were being stolen, but I couldn’t afford to care. My moral compass didn’t point the same direction it used to.

“Mom,” I said again. I could tell she was having a hard time focusing on me. Half her attention was on the window and half on Prophet. “Parker and I have to go back to school today. But we’ll come straight home after. You’ll only be alone for a few hours.”

A look started to surface on Mom’s face. Terror at the prospect of being left alone in the house, with rioting and looting still going on throughout the city, water and power and cell service still unreliable.

Mom twisted her hands together in her lap, like she was trying to mold them into some new shape. “What if someone tries to get in while you’re gone?”

“I checked the doors and windows. Everything’s locked up tight. No one’s getting in.” It was a good thing I’d checked
the windows again this morning. I’d found the one in the garage unlocked. It was a small window, but someone could squeeze through if he or she really wanted to.

Mom unraveled her fingers and parted the blinds again. “There was a boy watching the house earlier. A boy your age with glasses. I’ve seen him before. I can’t … can’t remember where. He saw me looking and he went away. I know him from somewhere, Mia. I
know
him, but I can’t
remember
.” She pounded both fists against her temples so hard I jumped. “Why do you both have to go? Can’t one of you stay here with me? I don’t want to be alone in this house with him out there watching.”

I didn’t want to tell her why it was so important that both Parker and I return to school, why it couldn’t wait another week. We were down to our last cans of food, and the few schools that had reopened not only offered free lunch, but the kids who started attending classes again got priority aid. Parker and I would each receive a ration of food to take home with us for every day we showed up.

This was not about education. It was about survival.

Mom’s fists were curled against her temples, her body hunched like she was bracing for impact. Was there really someone watching the house, or was she seeing things again?

“Mom …
Mom
, I need you to take your pills before we leave.” Xanax for anxiety. Thorazine for the hallucinations and flashbacks.

She pulled her chin against her chest. “I already took them.”

“Are you sure?” I sounded patronizing, but Mom hardly
ever remembered to take her pills. Most of the time she hardly seemed to remember her own name.

She gave me a sharp look. “I’m sure,” she said.

A soft knock at the open door. Parker poked his head in, his thick, straw-colored hair, still wet from the shower, hung in his eyes. The water was on today. That had been a relief. I hadn’t taken more than a handful of showers since the quake, and I didn’t want to return to school smelling like one of the Displaced.

Parker went to Mom, put his arms around her. “Love you,” he said. “We’ll be back before you know it, okay?”

Mom tensed at his touch. Parker released her, trying not to look hurt by her rejection, but I knew he was. Out of the two of us, Parker had always been the sensitive one. “Empathetic” was the word Mom used to describe him, but it was more than that. Parker didn’t just empathize. He was a “fixer.” When someone was hurting, he tried to find a way to make them better.

But Parker couldn’t crack the wall Mom had put up around herself, and it was killing him. Mom’s rejection wasn’t personal, though. At least, that was what I told myself. But she didn’t like people to get too close anymore. Every day she seemed to fold more tightly into herself, growing smaller and smaller, as though she were still being crushed under that fallen building.

“I’ll wait in the car.” Parker avoided my eyes as he walked past me, but I saw they were wet, and I felt emotion close my throat.

When he was gone, I went to Mom. I wanted to hug her, too, even though I knew she would be as rigid and unresponsive as a twist of wood. But more than that, I
wanted to grab her by the shoulders and shake her and demand she come back to us. We needed her.

My eyes strayed to the TV. On-screen, the camera panned back, revealing the stage. Several identically dressed teenagers—the boys wearing crisp white shirts and white slacks, the girls in long white dresses—flanked Prophet on each side. Two of them were twins, a boy and a girl, with white-blond hair a shade more ivory than Prophet’s; both so tall and thin, they looked like they’d been stretched. Prophet’s entourage of adopted children. His Twelve Apostles, he called them, though I only counted eleven on stage with him.

Considering how Prophet had managed to brainwash millions of people into believing he was not just a man named Prophet, not just
a
prophet, but
the
prophet God had chosen to let us know the world was about over, I didn’t want to imagine the conditioning that went on in the privacy of the man’s home.

“He’s out there again … watching the house,” Mom said urgently. “The boy. Look.”

I bent to squint through the blinds into the bright sunlight. People passed by on the sidewalk, wandering aimlessly. The Displaced. Those whose homes had been destroyed by the earthquake. But I didn’t see any boy watching the house.

“What does he want?” Mom asked. Her hand fluttered to her face; fingers traced the knotted line of a jagged pink scar along her jaw.

“I don’t know,” I told her, hearing the despair in my voice, thick as an accent.

Her voice shook. “Everything is coming apart, and Prophet says things are only going to get worse. He knows what’s coming, Mia. God speaks to him.”

God. Oh, God, God, God. I was sick of hearing about God, maybe because I hadn’t heard much about him (or her, or it) since Mom’s mom—our fanatically God-fearing, Bible-thumping grandma—passed away a couple years ago. After that, Mom was free to stop pretending she bought into Grandma’s fire-and-brimstone theology. Grandma went to the grave thinking her daughter would someday join her in fluffy white-cloud heaven, instead of plummeting straight to hell, where my father was roasting on a spit with the rest of the unbelievers.

Mom always claimed she was firmly agnostic despite her extreme evangelical upbringing. She didn’t believe in anything in particular, and she was perfectly content to wait until she died to find out the real deal. I figured her obsession with Prophet was a phase born out of desperation, like people on an airplane who start praying when they go through a nasty bit of turbulence.

I touched Mom’s shoulder. It was a hard, protruding angle. She was nothing but bones under her bathrobe.

“Everything’s going to be okay,” I told her, even though the words had lost their meaning from too frequent use. I was always saying them to someone now, to Mom, to Parker, or to myself.

“Be careful out there,” Mom said, touching me briefly on my gloved hand before pulling away. “Take care of your brother.”

“I will.” I turned to go, and Prophet whispered over my
shoulder, like he was standing right behind me. “
And I beheld when he had opened the sixth seal, and, lo, there was a great earthquake; and the sun became black as a sackcloth of hair, and the moon became as blood
.

“The time is coming,” Prophet said. “The end is coming.”

3

PARKER SAT IN
the front passenger seat of my silver hatch-back, watching the Displaced wander past on the sidewalk, looking as tattered and lifeless as a herd of zombies. I wished, not for the first time, that we had a bigger garage so I didn’t have to leave my car on the street. So far the Displaced hadn’t messed with it, but I expected every morning to come outside and find a window busted out, and maybe a family sleeping inside.

Our Craftsman bungalow was located only a few blocks east of Venice Beach, where so many of the Displaced had migrated after the quake and set up tents as temporary homes. A lot of them made their way up to our neighborhood to knock on doors and ask for food or clothing or clean water.

But sometimes they didn’t ask.

I looked around again for the boy Mom mentioned. I didn’t want to think someone might be casing our house, but I also didn’t want to believe Mom was hallucinating again. The Dealer—that was the only name I knew him by—told me the Thorazine was supposed to control that.

For some reason I thought of the dream I’d had about Nightmare Boy and that knife he’d been ready to plunge
into me. And I thought of the unlocked window in our garage. Then I forgot those things as a middle-aged man with grime etched deep into the lines on his forehead spotted Parker in my car and stooped to knock on the window.

I hurried down the walk, bracing for trouble. The Displaced weren’t like people who’d been homeless before the quake. They weren’t used to going without, and it made them more aggressive, a fact Parker often chose to ignore. He probably would have turned our house into a temporary shelter if it weren’t for Mom.

By the time I reached the car, Parker had already rolled down the window. He held out several rumpled bills to the man.

“It’s all I’ve got,” Parker said. I caught his eye over the man’s shoulder and shook my head. A few dollars was more than we could spare these days. Black market meds weren’t cheap.

Parker ignored me.

“Thank you,” the man said, nodding over the money. “This helps. Everything helps. I have a family, you know. It’s for my family.”

A militiaman I’d seen patrolling the area jogged up the sidewalk toward us, one hand resting on the Taser fastened to his belt. He was dressed head-to-toe in black, like he thought he was a Navy SEAL or something.

When riots and looting broke out after the quake, it quickly became apparent that the LAPD didn’t have anywhere near enough officers to control the chaos, and the National Guard and FEMA were tied up elsewhere. Droughts and wildfires in the Midwest had destroyed over a million acres of farmland, resulting in food shortages all
over the country. A series of unseasonal hurricanes had ripped through the Gulf of Mexico, killing thousands and wiping out the fishing industry. Fierce tornadoes were showing up in states where they had no business existing, tearing up whole communities. Add to that the United States was involved in more wars at the moment than I could keep track of, and military forces were deployed overseas. Humanitarian organizations were occupied with famine in Africa and mass outbreaks of some new pandemic in India.

Our federal government was too busy saving the world to focus on Los Angeles, and our city government wasn’t doing much better. A number of high-ranking officials, including the mayor, had perished during the quake, and those who were left couldn’t figure out who was in charge, much less make any decisions about a riot solution. It was up to the people to protect themselves, so that’s what they did, forming neighborhood militias composed of ordinary citizens.