Authors: Nancy Thayer
Imogene was at her desk, typing. She looked up in surprise when Morgan crashed into the office in her shorts and tee shirt.
“Hi, Imogene.” Morgan gave the girl her best official smile. “I need to see Josh a minute. Play with Petey for me a bit, will you?” Before the secretary could protest, she thrust her son onto Imogene’s lap.
Imogene looked scandalized and uncertain. Morgan didn’t stay to watch, but as she opened Josh’s door, she heard her son say, “Pretty.” No doubt he was pointing toward Imogene’s sparkly jewelry.
“Why, thank you,” Imogene replied, formally. “Would you like to see pictures on my computer?”
Morgan shut the door behind her. Josh looked up from his desk, startled. His hair was rumpled, he wore yesterday’s clothing, and he had dark circles under his eyes. He must have slept on the sofa in his office.
Josh stood up. “Morgan. Is everything all right?”
“More than all right. Everything is wonderful. Well, it’s going to be.” She picked up the office chair in front of his desk and carried it around to the side, so she was within touching distance of her husband. “Josh. I have a plan.”
Josh looked worried.
“I’m going back to work. I’m going to take the job they’re offering at U. Mass. in biosafety.
You
are going to stay home with Petey and write your novel.” She grinned triumphantly.
Josh stared at her. “That’s your plan.”
“It is.”
Josh nodded. “Okay, I can see how you think this will work. I can see the sense of it. But, Morgan, first, you don’t have the job. Second, you don’t know what it pays. Third, whatever it pays, it won’t be as much as I make here at Bio-Green.”
“So we sell the house.”
“Sell the house?”
“Josh, we don’t have to live on the lake. There are lakes all over this area. We can drive to a lake when we want to. We don’t have to have a posh house. We don’t have to have our huge automobiles.”
“Morgan, that’s too optimistic. I’m pretty sure an agent will take my book, and he’s pretty sure it will find a publisher, but no one has a clue how much money I’ll make, if any.”
“But that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t give it a try. Josh, it’s important to you. Maybe even
crucial
.”
Her husband looked at her with his clear green eyes. His shoulders relaxed. He leaned back in his chair. He stared at Morgan, and he understood. “As crucial as your work is to you.”
“I’m not saying I don’t love taking care of Petey—”
“I know. I know that.” He ran his hands through his hair as he always did when he was thinking, and gazed around his office.
“Do you love it here?” she asked.
“It’s a really cool office.” After a moment, he continued, “But if you’re asking would I give it up in order to write, the answer is yes.” Pushing back his desk chair, Josh stalked around the room. “This is pretty drastic. Remember, Morgan, how miserable we were in Boston, living in a dump, struggling financially.”
Morgan nodded. “I remember.”
“It’s not going to be easy,” Josh continued, thinking aloud.
“No,” Morgan agreed. “Not easy.”
“Complicated details.” Josh began to name them. “Selling the house. Finding a new house. Dealing with realtors. Packing stuff. Helping Petey cope with another move.”
Morgan held her breath.
Josh warned her: “You’re talking about radical changes.”
“I am.”
“Let’s break it down.” A spark burned in his eyes, that fire of challenge and boldness she’d always loved in Josh, which made him so charismatic. “Why don’t you apply for the job? If you get it—”
Morgan was almost shivering with hope. “
When
I get it—”
“—we’ll move on to phase two. I’ll talk to Ronald about my position here. Maybe I can downsize it. Maybe not, but it’s worth asking about.”
“Oh, Josh!” Morgan threw herself at her husband, kissing him passionately on the mouth.
Josh laughed through the kiss and gently pushed Morgan away.
“You’d better stop that or I’ll take advantage of you all over my desk.”
“Well, there’s an idea!” For a moment, Morgan desired sex with her husband more than anything she’d ever wanted in her life.
They looked at each other, turned on, elated, mischievous—
connected
.
“Go over and talk to them,” Josh said. “You know that’s what you really want to do.”
“You’re right.” Morgan laughed. “That’s certainly one of the things I want to do,” she said, locking eyes with him before she flew across his office and out the door. She grabbed Petey from Imogene and raced through the building, out to her car.
The July morning was dense with humidity, the air so thick and moist it was spongy. Natalie woke with a glaze of sweat on her skin. The heat pressed down on her eyelids, as if forcing her back into her swamp of sleep. She struggled to comprehend why she was so hot; the air-conditioning at Aunt Eleanor’s worked efficiently.…
She wasn’t at Aunt Eleanor’s.
She was in Ben’s bed.
Her eyes flew open. All her senses flipped awake like flowers eager for rain. Next to her, Ben lay on his side, one arm over Natalie’s waist, as if to keep her from leaving, although he should know after last night she had no intention of leaving. The warm gust of air ruffling the top of her head was Ben’s breath. She glanced down at his strong, tanned arm, each individual hair golden in the morning light. Perspiration glistened along his arm. His room was not air-conditioned. Why bother buying a window air conditioner? He was hardly ever here, he told her last night.
Her eyes wandered the room, noticing what last night she’d been too occupied to see. Ben’s room was in an ordinary condominium—four square rooms, white walls, venetian blinds over the windows, an oatmeal-colored wall-to-wall carpet, commonplace moldings, hollow-core doors, basic. His bedroom held a double bed taken from his grandparents’ house, covered simply with one white bottom sheet; why, he’d asked sensibly, would he need a top sheet
in such heat? Natalie had replied—this conversation had taken place late at night, when they were sated from lovemaking—that she couldn’t sleep without something over her to make her feel safe. “I’ll be your safety,” Ben had promised, spooning next to her and wrapping his arm around her.
His arm was still there.
A battered wooden chest stood against one wall, one of the drawers open, a cotton rugby shirt spilling out. In the corner was a wicker chair, its strands unweaving from around its arms and legs and sticking out like antennae covered with discarded clothing. Through the open closet door, she saw proof that he could be organized: All his pants hung together, his shirts together, his jackets together. Around the room, towers of books, journals, and monographs rose, teetering dangerously the higher they grew. Six fat tomes rose on his bedside table. How he managed to turn on the light or shut off the alarm clock without knocking the books on the floor, Natalie could only wonder.
The clock. It was after nine! They’d slept late. Well, they’d been awake half the night. At certain moments, they’d spoken words of love, although occasionally Natalie had coached Ben. “Now,” she said, “is when you tell me I’m beautiful.” That was during the second time they made love, or maybe the third, and she held herself a certain way, teasing him. He had groaned, “You know you’re beautiful.” And she’d moved just exactly the right way, to reward him.
He had told her he loved her. Without prompting, Ben told Natalie he loved her. She loved him, too, she’d replied, over and over. She’d never been more nakedly honest with any person. No words had ever meant more. She smiled, remembering.
“Are you awake?” Ben’s voice was a whisper stirring her hair.
“Mmm,” she answered, wriggling tighter against him.
“Hungry?” he asked.
“Starving.”
He released her and rolled on his back. “I’ve crushed all feeling from this arm,” he confessed, rubbing the arm he’d been lying on in order to put his other arm over her.
Natalie flipped over to face him. “Poor baby. Want me to kiss it?”
“If you kiss anything of mine, we’ll never get out of bed, and we have things to do today,” Ben told her.
“Oh, really?” She nudged him with her pelvis.
“Stop. I’m serious.” He sat up, tossed his legs over the side of the bed, and rose. “I’ve got to take a shower. I smell like a sty.”
“I have to take a shower, too. Shall I take one with you?” Natalie offered.
“Natalie, behave yourself.” Ben’s expression was serious, but his eyes were full of light. “You know what would happen if we tried to shower together. If you want to take one first, go ahead. I’ll make coffee.” He strode, naked, from the room.
The shower felt wonderful, cleansing and refreshing. She soaped her hair with his shampoo, scrubbed her body, and stood for long minutes rinsing beneath the flood of water. His towels were old but clean, no doubt borrowed from the Barnabys’ house. Her hair, almost chin-length now, lay in cooling spikes against her face and head.
She saw her face in the mirror. She looked good. Happy.
Glowing
.
What possible plans could Ben have for today that would propel him from bed so quickly? What “things” did they have to do? Her heart jumped like a startled doe. She forced herself to calm down. She had gotten so bossy in her life on her own, she hardly knew how to act around a man, let alone one as reserved as Ben.
She dressed in the clothing she’d worn the evening before, just shorts and sandals and a pretty, sleeveless cotton top. They were wrinkled, but fresh enough, and anyway, everything got wrinkled in this damp heat.
She followed her nose toward the aroma of coffee coming from the galley kitchen.
“The coffee’s ready. Help yourself to juice and cereal,” Ben told her, and went to take his own shower.
He’d set out a box of granola for her, and a bowl, and a spoon. She found the milk and juice in the refrigerator and, on the spur of the moment, opened the cupboard door. On the shelf were cans of
baked beans and corned beef, and a box of Apple Jacks. For some reason, she loved it that he had Apple Jacks. It helped her spy the boy in this serious man.
She ate her breakfast. Ben came out of the bedroom, dressed in khakis and a polo shirt in a turquoise that made his eyes silvery blue.
“Ready?” he asked.
“Just let me wash the bowls,” she told him.
He nodded. “You’re right. In this heat, they’d start smelling sour quickly. I’ll dry.”
She treasured standing next to him, not talking, performing such a humble, ordinary task.
“Now,” he said, grabbing his keys up from the counter. “Off we go.”
“Okay.” She hesitated. “Ben, I don’t know where we’re going. I’m only wearing shorts. Am I dressed appropriately?”
“Sure,” he assured her. “I’m taking you to see my office and lab.”
If he’d said he was taking her on a rocket to the moon, she couldn’t have been more surprised.
“Oh!” she said, and smiled. “Well!”
“Come on.” He took her arm and ushered her out of his condo, down the stairs, and into his car.
His condo was on the outskirts of the small town of Amherst. As he drove along the shaded streets, past grand old Victorian houses and into the maze of the university, he informed her like a tour guide, “This is my regular route. I bike to my office whenever I can.”
The university was enormous, sprawling over more than fourteen hundred acres of land, its buildings a mixture of modern and historic, the campus so extensive the streets required traffic lights, metered parking spots, and a university bus system.
Ben parked in a lot in the middle of the campus.
“I’m totally lost,” Natalie told him. “I’d wander around here forever and never get home.”
“I’ll take care of you.” Ben took her arm.
His manner had changed; his words were not flirtatious but sounded practical, and Natalie realized that before her eyes he was morphing into Science Man.
“This is Draper Hall.” He opened the door into a stately Victorian building. “My office is this way.”
She went quietly alongside him as they walked down a shadowy corridor. He unlocked his door and they stepped into his office.
It was a small room with a window looking out on a well-groomed lawn crisscrossed by sidewalks. Along three walls were bookcases reaching to the ceiling. A beaten-up wooden desk, obviously university-issue, sat in front of the window. Behind it was Ben’s ergonomic chair, and in front of it was a plain, uncushioned wooden office one. Ben’s computer took up a great part of the desk surface, and all around it piles of papers of various sizes and thicknesses sprawled like several giant decks of cards. Yet Natalie could see some order to it all. One pile of manila envelopes. One pile with ring binders, probably student essays. One pile of pads of graph paper with penciled equations slanting upward on the page.
Ben held out his hand. “Sit down.” He indicated his desk chair.
“That’s your chair.”
“Yes, and it’s comfortable. I’ll sit here.”
Natalie hid her delighted smile at this unexpected gallantry. She went around his desk and lowered herself into his chair.
“Now,” Ben said. He sat forward, his elbows on his knees, hands on his elbows. “You know we’ve got an oil crisis.”