Swept Away (3 page)

“Looks good. So how you been?” He hated these damn Skype calls. He wasn't sure where he was supposed to stare. If it were up to him he'd talk to her on a regular phone while he was on the back porch where he could just close his eyes and imagine what she looked like. Naked, would be good.

“I'm okay,” she said. “The work is pretty dull but I've been meeting some great people.”

Not
what he was hoping to hear, he had to admit.

“Yeah? That's great. How's your German coming?”

“Crappy. Everyone I'm hanging with speaks English so I just speak English.”

“I can see how that'd be tempting,” he said.

Was it his imagination or were these calls becoming positively painful?

“How about you?” she said. “You still in Atlanta?”

“Going home tomorrow,” he said. “Then it's doing all the usual Marshal shit. Transporting, guarding, cleaning up the FBI's messes.”

She laughed and he thought of how that laugh had felt when she had done it from the snug confines of his arms. It brought back the memory of her scent, all flowers and lemons. Suddenly, the memory of how it used to be with her felt so strong—and the realization of what he'd lost so palpable—that he wanted to just remove himself and be done with it.
What was this slow death they both insisted on enduring? What was that? Were they masochists?

“Hey, listen, Rowan,” she said. “I can't talk long tonight. I told Heidi I'd meet her at
Chism
in about an hour and I need to get ready.”

“Yeah, that's cool,” he said, taking another long pull off his beer.
What is that? A nightclub? A bar?

“I miss you, Rowan,” she said.

“I miss you, too, Ella,” he said.

“Talk to you tomorrow?”

“Same Bat channel,” he said.

She laughed. “See ya, Rowan.”

“Bye, beautiful,” he said.

He sat there after they'd disconnected just staring at the screen saver on his computer for another ten minutes before he finally moved to the living room where his parents sat watching reruns of
Hell on Wheels
on the flat screen TV.

E
lla sat
in her living room and stared at the blank computer screen. He had sounded almost listless, she thought. Compared to Hugo and some of the other guys who had started to come out with her and Heidi on their nightly sojourns in the
Altstadt
, he sounded like a sad sack. Ella scolded herself for thinking that. He just spent five weeks living in this parents' split level in a suburb in Atlanta, for God's sake. Of course, he sounds a little monotone. Anyone would.

Sighing, she got up to put the final touches on her makeup. Heidi would be here to pick her up any minute. She dropped a handful of Euros in her purse for the taxi ride home tonight. She knew she would not be buying her own drinks. What a difference from her life in Atlanta! She had been so right to make this move. Everything was so new and different and fresh.

Just learning the names of the streets that led to her favorite café or the market in
Altstadt
was a thrill in its own way. When she added her new best girlfriend, Heidi, to the mix, the evenings began to fill up with laughter and the antics of new friends. Heidi knew everyone. She had attended the University of Heidelberg and still had friends and professors there. She brought Ella into her world of intellectuals and musicians, actors and academics.

As Ella applied her lipstick, she saw that her cellphone was vibrating. Frowning, and thinking it might be Heidi, she snatched it up without looking at the screen first.

“Hello?”

“Ella, honey?”

Oh, crap
. It was her father.

“Oh, Dad,” she said. “I am so sorry I haven't called in awhile. You have no idea how busy I've been.”

“That's all right, sweetheart,” her dad said. “I'm glad you're busy. So everything's going well with the new job?”

“Just perfect.”

“You got the Taser I sent you, right?”

Give me a break. What is with him?

“Yes, Dad,” she said, patiently. I've got it and I carry it.” She glanced in the direction of her day bag. She wasn't lying to him. She
did
carry the Taser—a small handheld wireless model—but she certainly wasn't going to bring it into nightclubs with her.

“That's good, darling. You can never be too careful.”

Honestly, Dad? I bet you can.

“Listen, I hate to cut you off, Dad but I'm just on my way out—”

“Yes, that's fine,” he said. “Just checking on you. Ah, Ella, I was wondering if you intended to do any, you know, visiting with family while you were there.”

Ella sat down on the couch. “Visiting?” she said.

“Well, we never talked about it before you left but you know your mother's people came from that area of Germany.”

“Heidelberg?”

This was news.

“Or thereabouts.”

“Is there family left over here? I thought her whole family came over when she was like six or something.”

“There may be one or two people left.” He cleared his throat and laughed and Ella's hands froze on the phone. It was an affectation she had heard before when he was nervous or about to lie. Or both.

“Really.”

“And if you do,” he said, clearing his throat again. “I'd appreciate it if you kept me in the loop on anything you might, you know, find out.”

“
Find out
?”

“Well, any people you might meet.”

“As in relatives?”

“That's right.”

“Sure, Dad,” she said.

“And, on the other hand,” he said. “If you have no intention of looking up your mother's relatives, well, just forget I said anything.”

T
hat night Ella
and Heidi had dinner in one of their favorite restaurants in the old town facing the pedestrian bridge. It had taken Ella all of one day to officially retire any desire to ever eat
sauerbraten
or
wienerschnitzel
again. Fortunately, Heidi was a vegan and so was happy to discover less than traditional dishes when they went out together.

“We are drinking beer tonight?” Heidi asked, as Ella ordered two pilsners and they looked over their menus.

“I thought we'd be different,” Ella said.

Heidi laughed. “Drinking beer in Heidelberg is different?”

“I know, right?” Ella laughed. “But we always drink wine or Appletinis. I thought tonight we'd go native.”

“You forget I am already native.”

“That's where the irony comes in, darling.”

They toasted their pilsners and relaxed into casual office gossip and people watching. Their table was on the outdoor terrace and the autumn air was cold.

“So,” Heidi said, sipping her beer. “What are we up to tonight? I, for one, am ready to meet some men.”

Ella laughed. “I forget, Heidi,” she said. “Where did you say you were from?”

“From Heidelberg, of course,” Heidi said. “Did you know it is the sister city to Cambridge.”

“Did you ever travel much outside Heidelberg?”

Heidi looked at her and for a moment Ella thought she saw something uncomfortable flash past her eyes before her happy countenance was back.

“I have not been to America,” she said. “That, I would really love to do. When I go, should I visit the American South first? Or the Middle West? You are from the South, right?”

“I'm from everywhere.”

“That's right, you travelled around a lot as a child. Lucky you.”

“But my mother was from Heidelberg.”

“Really?” Heidi looked shocked, so much so that Ella couldn't help but laugh.

“Well, not really Heidelberg,” she said. “But near here. I'm thinking of taking a little field trip over the weekend to see if there's anybody left I might be related to.”

“Did you see Hugo?” Heidi said, craning her neck to look down the pedestrian walkway. “I just saw him walk past. He is totally into you, Ella.”

“No way,” Ella said, forcing a smile. “It's you he likes.”

“Then why did he ask me where you live?”

“I hope you didn't tell him.”

“He's so hot. I can't believe you don't like him.”

“I like him okay but you know I've got this thing back home.”

“The cowboy?”

“Yeah, him.”

Heidi giggled. “You know what the songwriters always say…”

“I know, ‘love the one you're with.'”

“There is truth in the poetry of song, Ella.”

“Even crappy pop music from the seventies?”

They both laughed, but Ella's laugh sounded a little hollow to her ears. On impulse, she leaned over and took Heidi's hand.

“Hey, Heidi? Is everything okay with you?”

Heidi's mouth dropped open in near shock. She looked down to where Ella was holding her hand. Ella tried to remember how Germans felt about people invading their space. Some of them were not very cool about being touched.

“I…yes, of course, Ella. Is everything okay with
you
?”

“You'd tell me, I hope. If you ever need to talk…you know, about anything.”

“We are talking now, Ella. We talk every day.”

“I guess I mean
really
talk. Like about problems we may be having.”

Unless she was wrong, the always jovial Heidi looked very close to tears. Ella prayed she wasn't overstepping her boundaries with her friend.

Heidi pulled her hand out of Ella's grip and then took Ella's hand with both of hers.

“I knew you would be a good friend to me,” she said, her eyes sad and watching Ella. “I knew you would be special in that way.” She squeezed Ella's hand and the smile returned to her face. “Now where is that waiter? I have been craving a tofu melt all day long.”

T
he next morning
, her head throbbing with the fun of the night before, Ella pulled out a map of Heidelberg and located nearby Sandhausen, her mother's hometown. It looked to be just a few miles outside of Heidelberg, easily reachable by bus. She looked at her watch. On the other hand, Hugo had offered to drive her there and she figured that would work too.

It doesn't mean anything, she thought. It's just an afternoon between friends. Although she recognized she'd feel a little better if Heidi had been available to accompany them, she wasn't going to make a big deal of it. She liked Hugo. And she could certainly handle him.

What had her father meant last night? Was there something to be learned about her mother that she didn't know? Could it possibly have something to do with the mysterious circumstances of her mother's death? How could finding some distant aunt or cousin possibly be cause for concern or worry for her father? While Ella knew he had a habit of worrying over nothing, still, there was something about the way he had approached the topic last night that had her thinking that maybe there
was
something.

An hour later, she and Hugo were driving through the streets of Sandhausen in his Renault. Ella knew her mother's maiden name was Klaus, which seemed to be the German version of Jones. She found a Sandhausen address on the Internet for a Klaus, but no phone number or email address. Her plan was to knock on the door.

“Germans don't usually like that sort of thing,” Hugo said as he pulled up to a stop sign and read the street sign. “Brings back memories of storm troopers coming to the door.”

“That's silly,” Ella said. “Don't tell me y'all didn't have door-to-door salesmen in the sixties.”

“
Y'all
?” Hugo grinned and gave Ella a little poke in the ribs. “You are my own little Scarlett O'Hara, aren't you?”

Ella forgot how annoying it could be to have someone relentlessly come on to you. She forced herself to smile. He was doing her a favor after all. She began to wonder how bad the bus trip could've been.

“I'm not going to bang on the door and demand identification papers,” she said.

“It will probably amount to the same thing,” he said, driving slowly down the block. “This is the street. What's the number?”

“508,” she said, looking at the house numbers. It was a typical German suburban street with the homes built in the last twenty or thirty years. If her relatives did live on this street, they had moved here after the war. “There it is!”

Hugo pulled the car into the driveway. “It will be better if I stay here,” he said.

“I was going to suggest it.” Ella smiled and hopped out of the car.

The house was a tidy two-story with an orange tile roof. The shutters were blue and under the windows there were flower boxes full of geraniums. As she walked up to the front door, Ella noticed that the flowers were dramatic and full—even this late in the season. Whoever lived here was conscientious and proud of their home.

As she tapped on the door—damn that Hugo for making her nervous—she rehearsed what she would say.
Hi! I think I'm your long-lost American cousin…

A tall woman with red hair and a lined face answered the door quickly, making Ella wonder if her approach had been observed.
Could this be someone I'm related to?
Ella felt her heart beat faster.

“
Guten morgen
,” Ella said.

The woman frowned. “
Guten tag
,” she said. She looked at Ella's empty hands and then at her face.

“I am looking for Jane Klaus.
Ich bin auf der suche nach Jane
—”

“
Ich weiss jenen namen nicht
,” the woman said.
I don't know that name
.

“Her family name was Klaus,” Ella said hurriedly, picking up on the impression that the woman was ready to end the interview. “They moved to America after the…after the…in about 1950 or so? I'm just trying to find if anybody is left because it was my mother, you see.”