Authors: Rachel Van Dyken
Taming Wilde (10 page)
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The ink was in one of the desk drawers. She remembered seeing her father putting the
bottle in there after refilling his own inkwell long ago. One of the drawers on the
left, she was almost certain.
Rummaging through the drawers felt somewhat wrong, but Gemma had to have the ink.
She resolved to put everything back as she had found it, so she took note of the state
of the drawer when she opened it. A stack of contracts, a book for the accounts, a
bundle of letters tied with a string…
She set each item in turn on the desktop out of her way and knelt down to get a better
look at the back of the drawer. When she did, she caught a whiff of lilacs. The same
scent her personal stationery carried.
Her gaze rose to the desktop where the package of letters was sitting at eye level,
only inches away from her face.
That was her stationery.
She lifted the bundle to examine it more closely. Turning it over in her hands, she
recognized her own handwriting.
Sir Colin Wilde
was inscribed across the back of the top letter. Her throat tightened around the
lump that had instantly formed there.
The string that held the letters together was tied in a tight knot. Gemma reached
for the letter opener on the desk and cut the string. She lifted the top letter and
looked beneath it.
Sir Colin Wilde
in broad strokes was etched across that one as well.
Frantically, Gemma thumbed through the rest of the parcel. One after another of her
letters — all addressed to Colin, each with a broken seal — stared up at her from
the stack.
So that was what Hawke had meant when he’d said he had dealt with Colin. She’d had
no idea how far his sabotage had gone. But the evidence was there in her hands. The
dozens of letters Gemma had written to Colin — every last one — praising him, professing
her affection. He hadn’t received a single one.
Then what had he received?
She shuddered to think what damage Hawke might have done.
Gemma had to speak with Bridget. She would know how to repair this.
Hurriedly, she gathered the pile of letters, tied them with the cut string, shoved
the other papers back into the drawer, and rushed into the hall.
“Simmons!” She caught the old footman on his way up the stairs.
“M’lady?” He stopped mid-step and turned to her.
“Simmons, I wish to visit Lady Maddox at once. Order me a carriage, if you please,
and arrange an escort straight away.”
“Yes, m’lady.”
That done, she hurried to her chamber to ready for the visitation.
I despise women. At least that is what most women believe. For what type of man would
pursue and seduce wom
e
n as a sport? A rake, dear fellows. Never forget that a rake is first a hunter and
second a lover. You must search out your prey carefully
,
and you must at all costs appear to despise those you seek. For wom
e
n love nothing more than a man they cannot seem to obtain.
—
The Private Journal of Viscount Maddox
Lord Maddox’s butler showed Gemma to the drawing room and offered her a seat, but
she was far too upset to sit. She thanked him, and he left to inform his mistress
of the visitor, while Gemma paced briskly through the center of the room, wringing
the top of her reticule with both hands.
Between the letter from her mother and finding the hidden stash of communications
meant for Colin, Gemma was beside herself. She was not equipped for so many upsets
in one day.
The sound of the opening door interrupted her silent fretting.
“Oh, Bridget! Thank goodness!” She rushed toward her friend, experiencing a mixture
of relief and anxiety all at the same time.
Gemma must have looked a fright, because Bridget’s brow furrowed with concern and
she hurried to meet her, taking both of Gemma’s hands in her own.
“My sweet Gemma, whatever is the matter?”
When Gemma opened her mouth to respond, all her sorrows spilled out at once, along
with a fresh batch of tears, though she’d thought she had none left. Her answer was
no doubt unintelligible, as everything that had happened in the past few days swirled
together in a torrential outburst of emotion.
Somehow dear Bridget was able to wade through the mire to the matter at hand, though
it took some time to unwind the tale.
“Oh, Gemma!” she said at long last, when she came to a clear understanding. “Such
a tangled web the marquess has woven!”
“And I alone am captured in it,” Gemma added. She reached into her mangled reticule
and produced the bundle of letters. “These letters. Every one I wrote to Sir Wilde.
Hawke took them and hid them from me.”
“Yet Sir Wilde was often groaning about the letters he received from you.”
“But they are all here! How could he have?”
“Perhaps your brother…”
It was too terrible to even consider. It was one thing to intercept Gemma’s communication
and refuse it to be delivered. It was quite another thing entirely to forge letters
in her name, designed to destroy Colin’s regard for her.
“What… what did he say about them?” She wasn’t altogether certain she wanted to know
the answer to that question.
“He didn’t say in my presence. But he was always crestfallen when he received one.
Together with Lord Maddox, he would retire into the study to compose a response, hoping
somehow to mend things between you.”
Bridget reached for the stack of letters in Gemma’s hand and set them on the table
beside her.
“Do not worry, dear friend. We will come up with some strategy to repair this.” Bridget
shifted in her seat and tilted her head as though she were weighing their options.
But loud voices outside in the hall interrupted their thoughts.
“Hawke!” Gemma rose abruptly from her seat. “What is he doing here?”
“Oh dear, he had some business with Anthony!” Bridget rose with equal haste. “Does
he know you are here?”
“No. I left with some haste. He was… occupied.”
Bridget went to the door and peeked out at the scene in the hall. When she turned,
she seemed deep in thought. “Conrad has shown the marquess into the morning room.”
She shook her head and her brow furrowed. “We have a narrow window of time to get
you safely home again. Anthony cannot endure Lord Van Burge’s company for long.”
Lord Maddox was not the only one.
****
Colin burst into the Maddox townhome, ready to work off some of the aggression he
felt at having to keep Gemma at arm’s length. Anthony had promised they would box
at Gentleman Jackson’s until dawn, if that was what it took to purge thoughts of Gemma
from Colin’s mind.
It felt like an eternity since they had kissed. And no matter what he did, he could
not rid his lips of the tingling sensation. He could not forget the way her touch
had sent him to the heights of heaven.
“Where is Lord Maddox?” he demanded of Anthony’s butler.
“He will be with you shortly, sir. The lady of the house has set tea for you in the
drawing room, if you’ll just follow me.” Conrad led him into the drawing room.
Colin sat on the nearest chair and sighed heavily. “Did he say how long he would be?”
The butler sighed and gave him a pointed look.
“Right, I’ll just drink the blasted tea.” Colin didn’t want tea. He didn’t want food.
All he wanted was Gemma.
With a sigh, he stood and began pacing the room, most likely ruining the rug in the
process. Perhaps if he wrote down what he was feeling? What if he had Lady Maddox
deliver a note? So many things were not making sense. What exactly had Van Burge done?
He sat in a different chair, the one nearest the fireplace, but something felt wrong
about the seat. He twisted around a bit, then finally reached underneath the soft
leather and pulled out a stack of letters.
All addressed to him.
What the devil?
He opened the first one and read…
Colin,
I wish I could tell you how sorry I am. How
much my heart aches every moment
that I am not in your arms. I will find a way to fight Hawke. This I promise you.
We will be together.
I did n
ot know he was sending me away.
My only hope is that this letter finds you well, and that your heart isn’t saddened
by my su
dden retirement to the country.
I love you
. M
y heart, my soul, my bod
y, everything is yours. That is
,
if you still desire it. How I wish I
were
not so uncertain! But distance has a way o
f toying with you, does it not?
Yours
,
Gemma
Colin exhaled and dropped the letter to the ground. Shaking, he ran his hands through
his hair and cursed aloud, hoping it would relieve some of the growing anger he felt
surging through him.
She had not rejected him.
But that still did not explain…
This letter was a far cry from the letters he had received. Letters that spurned him
and bid him to forget she existed, to think not on her again. Letters that demanded
he wipe the memory of kissing her from his mind forever.
Why had he not received this letter? Colin stooped to retrieve the letter. He opened
it and scanned the contents again. Its lilac scent permeated his senses.
The other letters had smelled of rose. And the script was different. There was no
flourish on the
G
of Gemma’s signature.
He grabbed another letter from the stack and opened it. Same writing as the first.
Letter after letter, the same.
Perhaps if he had not received her true letters, she did not—
Of course.
He was a fool.
He grabbed all the letters, bundled them together, and slipped them into his coat
pocket. With a grin and not so much as a word to the butler, he quit the house and
walked purposefully toward Gemma’s.
****
She wasn’t home.
Nor was she at the park.
Or down the street.
Or at Gunther’s. Colin would know. He checked. An hour later, he was still wondering
where the blazes she was, but he could not be late for that evening’s soiree hosted
by Lady Edengreen. She would be furious if he did not show. After all, she was his
great aunt and prone to throwing a great fuss if her nephew was not present at her
events.
Dejected, he went home to change into his evening attire. The minute he stepped into
his townhome, his butler, Godfrey, handed him a letter from his solicitor.
It would have to wait.
“Apologies, Godfrey, I will be out all evening. I shall check my correspondence in
the morning.”
“But sir, this is the fourth letter and—”
Colin held up his hand and shook his head. He felt a headache coming on. “I said,
not now.”
“Very well, sir.” Godfrey bowed and quit the hall.
Colin took the stairs two at a time and called for his valet. Tonight was the night
he would get answers. After greeting his aunt, he would find Gemma. He would locate
her, and he would… What would he do? Apologize? Grovel? No, no. He was going to kiss
her. Yes, that would be his first move.
He grinned at his reflection in the mirror as the image of what he planned to do unfolded
in his mind.
A rake must always be cautious with his first move. If he is too hasty in his advances,
the woman may
shy
away like a timid lamb. If he is not hasty enough, then she s
hall laugh in his face. Gentleme
n, if you do not understand the art of perfect timing when it come
s to your first seduction,
perhaps you should find a watch. Or a different dream. –The Private Journal of Viscount
Maddox
Gemma’s heart pounded as she took her seat at the pianoforte. The last time she had
performed at an event, Colin had been there, smiling at her from the front row. She
glanced around the room, searching the expectant faces.
He was nowhere to be seen.
She tried to swallow the bitter disappointment. Though she had no reason to believe
he would have stayed to listen to her play, Gemma couldn’t help but pine for him.
Instead, in the same seat Colin had occupied last Season, her brother sat with his
fiancée
, wearing a triumphant smirk. And of course, he was surrounded by his horrid friends.
The gentlemen he had been pushing on her since her return to Town — the oppressive
Mr. Percival, and the foolish Mr. Sumner, closely attended by Lady Judith.
Taking a deep breath, she set to playing a beautiful sonata, one she had practiced
during the months of her seclusion at Brookshire. Over and over she had played it.
A sad, mournful piece she had chosen specifically because it matched the music her
heart played when she thought of Colin. She had missed him so much when she’d been
away, and now it felt as if he was lost to her forever.
It was a long piece, and she easily lost herself in the somber melody drifting from
the keys as she played. Gemma closed her eyes and felt her way through the song, forgetting
where she was for the time being. She imagined Colin holding her as he had that day
in Bridget’s morning room.
The renewed sense of her loss brought thick emotion to her throat. Uninvited tears
threatened to spill over onto her cheeks, but she pressed on to the final note, only
then allowing a single tear to leave a moist trail down her face.
There was complete silence when she struck the final key. Gemma opened her eyes slowly
and lifted her gaze to the audience.
