Temptation: Reckless Desires (Blue Moon Saloon Book 2) (3 page)

“I mean, a younger version of your grandfather,” she squeaked.

He grimaced, but a shine of pride lit his eyes. The two of them didn’t have much in common, but they both shared that soft spot for memories of home and the loved ones they’d lost.

Soren’s gaze went from sentimental to distant and even bitter, so she put a hand on his arm.

“It was good that you weren’t in Montana when it happened,” she whispered.

He growled at the floorboards, but his shoulders sagged at the mention of
it
– the attack that had annihilated both their packs.

About the only thing that could defeat a man like Soren was that feeling of failure. That alpha pride, that
I should have been there to defend my clan
loyalty. It would haunt him for the rest of his life.

A roar of laughter sounded from the saloon, and Soren’s growl went back to one of displeasure.

“You know better than to mess with a human,” he said.

She clenched her fists and beat back her wolf before it started crowing about mates and love and forever. Cole was just a crush, right?

An all-consuming, all-encompassing crush.

Soren looked toward the front room. “Simon and Jess, they need to be together. Destiny wants that.” His expression went from glad for his brother to mournful. Soren had had a destined mate, too, but she’d been murdered in the rogue attack along with everyone else. “But we have to watch out.”

Her chin snapped up. “You think they’ll be back?”

They
, of course, were the rogues who’d ambushed her and Jess a few weeks ago. The same rogues who had wiped out her pack and Soren’s bear clan months ago in a surprise attack.

“Fucking purists,” Soren spat one of his rare curses. The rogues were part of a movement that called for racial purity among shifters. No wolves mixing with bears, and certainly no mixing with humans. The hard-liners exercised their own brand of terror and vigilante justice.

Janna shivered, thinking of the inferno Jess had pulled her from in Montana, and more recently, the half-dozen rogues who’d appeared in the saloon.

“If we give them reason to come back…” Soren’s eyes traveled toward the front room, and the message was clear. Janna flirting with a human could attract another rogue ambush. The rogues would plan their attack more carefully next time, but they’d be back.

Her wolf snarled inside.
No one will keep me from my mate!

Not my mate,
she insisted.
Just a whole lot of trouble.

Mate!
Her wolf chanted.
Mate!

“Look, Cole is a good guy, but he’s not one of us,” Soren said. “We have to protect what we have here. What we’re building here.”

She could see it in his eyes: the vision of a new clan. A fair and stable clan — or pack or whatever they decided to call their unusual mishmash of bears and wolves. A clan risen from the ashes of what they’d lost in Montana. One in which it didn’t matter what type of shifter you were as long as you worked hard and played by the rules.

Rules that said you had to be a shifter and not human. Janna hung her head. He was right.

Soren gave her a last stern look, then tilted his head toward the door in a weary gesture.

“Back to work,” he murmured, then gave her a tired smile. “Both of us.”

She studied him for a moment, wondering why she felt pity for the mighty bear.

Mighty, but broken, like Simon once was,
her wolf decided.

No wonder she felt pity. Simon and Jess had found their happiness, and she had her whole life ahead of her, too. But Soren faced a long and lonely existence without his destined mate.

A whole life ahead of us,
her wolf agreed, conjuring up an image of Cole.

She strode back into the saloon faster than she’d intended, and her head went right to Cole’s spot at the end of the bar. Now more than ever, she needed the reassurance that he was there. Just one look, one strand of hope. One moment of connection.

She craned her neck past customers, then took another step. Cole’s chair was empty. Her heart stuttered when she saw the saloon doors swinging on their hinges.

He’d left? Already?

Her nostrils flared, tracking his scent. And just like that, her wolf took over and made her race out the door.

Mate! Don’t go!

It was all she could do not to blurt it out loud as she scanned the sidewalk to her left and right. Quiet. Deserted, except for a couple walking across the street.

That way!
Her wolf pushed her to the left, following his scent. She ran down the sidewalk, turned a sharp corner, and spotted a tall figure approaching a pickup.

“Cole!” That time, she did say it out loud. When he spun around, her whole soul sang.
Mine! Mate!

“Cole,” she panted, catching up at last. All but plowing him over in her haste to…to…to what, exactly, she had no clue. Only that she wasn’t ready to let him go. Not so soon, and not without a word, a parting touch.

His arms came up just as hers did, and they stood there for a second, gripping each other by the forearms like a couple of trapeze artists getting ready to jump. His dark eyes were lit with pinpoints of light, a universe that sucked her right in on a magical ride.

“Um…uh…” she mumbled, lost for words.

“You okay?”

His voice was shaky, so she boomeranged the question back. “Yeah. You?”

He nodded, and a tiny grin opened on his face. He didn’t seem okay, not by a long shot, but he was glad to see her. As glad as she was to see him, it seemed.

She slid her arms up to his shoulders — ridiculously boxy shoulders she could barely get a grip on — and grinned right back. “Leaving already?”

He pinched his lips together for a moment and closed his eyes. “Don’t want to go, but…”

She searched his face. But, what? What exactly was wrong?

His cheek twitched, and when he opened his eyes, he scanned the sky before looking at her.

“I have to. I have to go.”

She wanted to shake him and ask why, but his eyes begged her not to.

“Cole…” She ran her thumb along his collarbone, wishing she could ease whatever weighed so heavily on his mind. But Cole was like the Voss brothers in many ways; talking would only make him as grumbly as a bear.

“Gotta go.” He whispered, and his voice cracked as if he really, really didn’t want any such thing.

Must help our mate!
her wolf whimpered inside.

Easier said than done, because how could she help a man who refused any help?

Her father had been like that, too. A pack alpha who tried to solve every problem on his own. But her mother had found a remedy for that. She’d countered darkness with light. With hope. With love.

Her wolf wagged its tail.
Love. Hope. Light.

She leaned in to Cole, not just touching him but warming him with her body. Smiling at him, because nothing was more important than finding something to smile about in life. She slid her arms behind his shoulders and tipped her chin up, just as she had when he’d first walked into the saloon.

“Can’t have you leave without saying goodbye,” she murmured, then eased into a kiss. Slowly, carefully, in case he decided to bolt. Stroking his back gently, willing the tension away.

His lips met hers eagerly. Tenderly, as if he were afraid of hurting her. His chest rose and fell on a silent sigh, and she smiled against his lips. Yep, a kiss was just what her brooding cowboy needed tonight. Her delicious, quivering cowboy, who smelled of pine and mountain air and mustang, wild and free.

Her wolf was all for diving deeper into that kiss, but she fought back the urge. He didn’t need fire and passion right now. He needed an anchor. A light to guide him through whatever thorny maze he’d lost himself in.

So she packed light and hope and happiness into her kiss, communicating in tiny lifts and pulls of her lips. The night was cool and fresh. The streets quiet, the stars bright. She had her man, her mate. She could make this minute last forever if she believed in it hard enough.

Forever
, her wolf hummed deep inside.

She coaxed the tension out of him, one strand of muscle at a time. Her hands warmed his neck, then rubbed his shoulders. Stroked his back the way she might stroke a dog still bristling after a fight. Pressed her chest against his and counted heavy heartbeats. Counted double sometimes, because hers got mixed up with his.

They might have gone hours pressed together like that, all through the night and halfway through the sunrise that was sure to come galloping in on its heels, but a car drove down a side street with the radio thumping loud.

She broke off the kiss but not the contact. Turning her ear to his shoulder, she rested her head, listening to the tune fade down the street.

“We really need to go dancing again sometime, cowboy,” she sighed. Her body tingled just remembering the moves he’d swept her through, the way he’d whispered in her ear.

His arms tightened around her, and he nodded into her hair.

“That, we do.”

“Promise?” Her voice rose in hope.

“Promise,” he rumbled, and his low tone vibrated through her chest, warming her another couple of degrees.

They stood for another minute like that, and she fantasized about hanging on even longer. But before some other reminder of the outside world slammed into their bubble of perfection, she eased away, letting the magic seal around Cole. Let him hang on to that serenity as long as he could. Let him drive home and sleep well and rest his weary soul.

“See you tomorrow?” she asked, sliding her hands back to his forearms. Back to that feeling of a trapeze artist — this time, coming to rest after an amazing feat.

And it was amazing, because Cole smiled, and the stars showered her with silent applause. She’d done it.

“See you tomorrow.” He nodded, locking his eyes on hers.

“Promise?” she added, teasing a little now.

“Promise.”

Cole put his pickup in gear and drove off, still savoring her kiss, still tingling from her touch. His eyes were tempted to stray to the rearview mirror, but he forced them to stay on the road. He clenched his hands around the steering wheel and told himself it was better not to look. Janna had pulled him back from the edge of a cliff with her taste of heaven, and now it was time to go.

He half expected the inner voice to pipe up, screaming something like,
Go back! Take her with us!
But it was mercifully silent for a change. Well, not entirely silent, because if he really listened, he could hear a sleepy, satisfied purr.

He threw the pickup into another gear and stepped on the gas. God, he really was going nuts. The mood swings had been getting worse and worse. He’d gone from flying high when he’d first seen Janna in the saloon to choking on jealousy when Soren had called her to the back room. The second she was out of sight, a fever had started up. An uncontrollable fury and possessiveness.

Get her back! She’s ours! Ours!

He’d been
that
close to following them, because it was all too reminiscent of the day she’d been attacked. The day some sixth sense had told him to stop by the saloon after hours, just in case. To follow the angry voices coming from the back room where he’d found Janna and her sister cornered by five big guys. One of the sisters had been holding a stool up in self-defense, the other, a broken-off bottle. Both of them looking more defiant than scared and absolutely ready to fight.

The room had practically been humming with some kind of weird static electricity, too. Something angry and animalistic, like a bull waiting to be released from a pen. The second he’d walked in, he knew he’d be in for a hell of a fight.

That was weeks ago. Tonight, every inner alarm in his body rang when Janna followed Soren out of sight. Which made no sense. Soren was a good man who’d never hurt her. Janna shared the apartment above the saloon with him and their siblings, for Christ’s sake!

Maybe that’s why he’d started resenting the guy so much.

She’s ours, not his!
the voice had screamed when she’d stepped out of sight.

He wanted to shrug the feeling off and say that Janna wasn’t his, and she wasn’t Soren’s, either. But he couldn’t quite get himself to say the words. Even if Soren wasn’t involved with Janna beyond being a housemate, the man exuded a stallion’s kind of cool arrogance as he watched over his herd. His whole stance screamed,
Mine! I guard them. I care for them. Mine!

Which was good, in a way, because it kept a saloon full of potential rowdies in line. Soren made damn sure the customers didn’t dare get any bad ideas when it came to the waitresses.

Cole cursed.
He
was the one getting bad ideas — like stomping down the hallway to see what was going on. Like standing half a step behind Janna and glaring down Soren as if the saloon manager were the trespasser and not the other way around.

One minute longer in the saloon, and he just might have lost control, so he’d taken off. Headed for his truck with the same urge for motion that had made him come to Arizona in the first place.