Tempted (22 page)

I am too stunned to speak and the perspective check is unbearable.
 
Here I am whining about a scrape and bruise or two while Danielle has just
...

The thought is more than I can take and I suddenly feel guilty about my recent bliss at a time when others are facing things like the death of their only daughter, or the horrors of war, or cancer, or abuse, or starvation.
 

When Alex comes online a little later, I am unsure how to act, how to relate to him just now.
 
Being so gooey over a guy seems inappropriate at the moment, but I can’t deny
that
my heart skips a beat when he ‘pings’ me.
 

8:47pm

Alexander Armstrong

Sustenance: accomplished. Nourishment awaits. Now are we well prepared to learn the pleasure of our fair Lady, Claire.

8:48pm

Claire Nichole Eden

I
f you don't mind me being out of sorts... I just received some distressing news

8:48pm

Alexander Armstrong

Aww. I'm sorry to hear that. Hugs. Are you ok?

Tell me about it.

What’s your number
?

If it weren’t for my cell phone’s battery dying, Alex and I may never have hung up.
 
Suddenly
, I’
m cursing my prudent decision to dispense with my landline.
 
After our five-hour chat
,
I finally get ready for bed.
 
I throw on my tank top and boxers in record time and jump into my king-size, feather-bedded, goose down-comfortered sleep oasis, my laptop poised on my legs and begging for action.
 
Persephone has taken advantage of my absence by hogging the bulk of the bed, snoring loudly on
her back, and is utterly unwake
able.
 
Jasper is curled up
on my favorite pillows.
 
He me
ws, lifts a paw and employs some sort of feline mind trick that tells me, “These are not the pillows you’re looking for.
Move along.”

Once situated on other pillows, I open my laptop, hoping that, like me, Alex is eager to continue our dialogue.
 
I squeal to see he’s already written since our call.
 
From the sunroom
,
I hear a fluttering of feathers and a thud.
 
The birds are really having a tough time with my behavior and I have squealed Rosencrantz off his perch.
 
That never would have h
appened to Legolas, I ponder.  A
fter all, elves can walk on snow.
 
I laugh aloud at my goofiness, which I attribute entirely to Alex.

I start reading his message, rerouting my squealing energy into wiggly toes under the covers
,
so as not to disturb or up-end the birds.
 
Persephone awakens, and, believing my moving feet to be play toys, begins to attack them with take-no-prisoners verve.

2:10am

Alexander Armstrong

I'm enraptured by you. Oh, the naughty nice things I'll
share with you. I told you
you
create a tightness of the chest and a lack of breath. But you do something wonderful, erotic, and a few inches lower than my tum. You're the real deal, Lady Claire. And I hope it's not out of line to say je t'adore. How do you DO that? Or is it some siren's secret? I don't care. I'll just bask, and smile, and take cold showers til we meet.

2:17am

Claire Nichole Eden

Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeep breaths......... and content smiles here

Do you know we talked for more than 5 hours tonight?

2:18am

Alexander Armstrong

Time had no meaning. We slipped into eternity, where everything is present.

2:19am

Claire Nichole Eden

This feels like a dream. YOU are a dream

2:20am

Alexander Armstrong

Something momentous and intimate IS happening between us. Not like a faucet that can be turned off. It flows. We flow.

But how does one say THAT in a phone conversation????

2:22am

Claire Nichole Eden

One does it by fits and starts..... stammers and giggles...... and still makes a muddle of it....... but it’s
 
adorable in the process

2:23am

Alexander Armstrong

God I wish I could take you in my arms and squeeze & lift you off the ground and spin you til
l
we both dizzy fall in the sand and roll...

2:23am

Claire Nichole Eden

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I
warn you I
would be laughing uncontrollably the whole time

2:23am

Alexander Armstrong

I would wish for nothing less, and that would be perfect!

See, I want to make you squeal and giggle and laugh and moan and sigh. And more.

Well, I’ve got the squealing down, as the bird’s can attest.
 
And during our call
,
there was a fair amount of all of the above.

2:25am

Claire Nichole Eden

Y
ou already do all those things to me

I
stifled MUCH of what was going on!!!!!!!!!

2:25am

Alexander Armstrong

I want to do it in the flesh.

You stifled nothing that I'm aware of.

2:25am

Claire Nichole Eden

M
e too

and we will

And.... I
stifled many a moan

I
was doubled over for more than 5 mins straight in wave after wave of convulsing climax

2:26am

Alexander Armstrong

LOL I heard your moans, even the silent ones. And they arouse me in ways I've not known

2:27am

Claire Nichole Eden

I
can't stop....... feeling
...
..... ugh........... this is tiresome

I
want to be on the phone with you again

2:28am

Alexander Armstrong

You read the poem. Your poem. I can't wait for your body to teach my hands and lips and mouth and tongue and all of me how to speak to you. But when I do, it will be poetry of the most timeless sort

2:28am

Claire Nichole Eden

I
want to fall asleep listening to one of your tales

W
ill you excuse me a moment? I want to go read MY poem again

2:29
am

Alexander Armstrong

I have so many. I'll share them all. If you'll listen. Go. Read. I'll wait.

With a great smile.

And blissful anticipation of your return.

I read it aloud this time and Jasper purrs in appreciation.

2:31am

Claire Nichole Eden

I
am aghast

I
missed soooooooo much the first time

W
ho knows what yet another reading will reveal

Y
our command of me
...
........ takes my breath away

2:32am

Alexander Armstrong

There's more there than even I intended. But all of it came from you.

2:32am

Claire Nichole Eden

G
asp

2:33am

Alexander Armstrong

Is that a bad thing?

I think it sublime.

2:33am

Claire Nichole Eden

O
nly bad in the sense that ‘naughty’ is ‘bad’

2:33am

Alexander Armstrong

Naughty isn't bad. It's naughty. And nice.

2:33am

Claire Nichole Eden

But if you consider abandonment of inhibitions good

if you consider submission to another's body good

...if you consider melding with one who craves you good

then yes

it is ALL good

2:34am

Alexander Armstrong

I do. Bend to me. Come.

And as simple as that
,
my body is a mass of deep internal rapture, brought on, not by a torrent of beautiful flower words, but by just one.
I am in awe of his ability to instantaneously pleasure me from three thousand miles away, and with only a single word:
 
come.

2:36am

Claire Nichole Eden

I
am

and i will

Y
ou compel me

2:37am

Alexander Armstrong

Your ecstasy brought on simply by my words is a phenomena completely foreign to me. I don’t understand it, but it arouses me, and speaks to me in a voice I've never heard.

2:39am

Claire Nichole Eden

I
hang on your every word

and could listen to you talk for ages upon ages

2:40am

Alexander Armstrong

And I could too, listen to you. I feel as though I didn't hear nearly enough of you. And I'm sorry for that. You excite me, though.

2:41am

Claire Nichole Eden

Y
ou simultaneously excite and soothe me

2:41am

Alexander Armstrong

I want to explore you.

2:41am

Claire Nichole Eden

And I
you

for hours on end

without agenda or expectation

2:42am

Alexander Armstrong

For years without end.

2:42am

Claire Nichole Eden

I
t's impossible not to smile when you are involved

2:43am

Alexander Armstrong

That effect is mutual then

And that makes me smile even more

2:43am

Claire Nichole Eden

H
ow on earth are we to navigate our circumstances and distance
?

Uh oh, I’ve dropped the bomb,
the
question.
 
My breath catches as I fear his response.
 
More precisely, I fear causing him to flee from this clingy broad who has just begun chatting with him, and is already trying to work out how to ‘be’ together.
 
I can hardly believe it myself, and have no idea where that thought even came from.

2:44am

Alexander Armstrong

How can we help not to? We'll figure something out.

Meanwhile, we still have each other.

2:44am

Claire Nichole Eden

AAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

2:45am

Alexander Armstrong

LOL I LOVE your laugh!!!!!!!!