Authors: Ben Bova
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To Laurie and Fred Towers: new friend, old friend, dear friends both.
And to Lloyd McDaniel, for suggesting one of the themes of this novel; thanks, buddy.
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I do not believe in a fate that falls on men however they act; but I do believe in a fate that falls on men unless they act.
âG. K. Chesterton
I wage not any feud with Death
For changes wrought on form and face;
No lower life that earth's embrace
May breed with him, can fright my faith.
ORE SHIP
SYRACUSE
: MAIN POWER BAY
“Don't touch that switch!”
“Ow!”
His father's shouted warning made Theo Zacharias jerk upright. He banged his head painfully on the steel shelf that jutted out over the power bus recess set into the floor plates of the cramped compartment.
“You could trip all the breakers on the power bus,” Victor Zacharias admonished his son. “The whole damned ship would go dark.”
Fifteen-year-old Theo sat there surrounded by relays and circuit breakers, his knees poking up from the recess like a pair of folded ladders. He rubbed his throbbing head with one hand and glowered sullenly at his father.
“How many times do I have to tell you to be careful?” Victor demanded. “Do you have any idea of how many megavolts are in those circuits?”
“Twenty-two point six,” Theo muttered. “You've told me often enough.”
Victor offered a hand to his son and helped to pull him out of the recess. “I'll handle it,” he said, climbing down to where the teenager had been.
“Yeah. Right,” said Theo, thinking he knew what his father had left unsaid: Never send a boy to do a man's job.
Nearly an hour later Victor clambered out of the recess and hunched beneath the low overhead alongside Theo.
“That ought to hold until we get back to Ceres,” he said. “Come on, Thee, help me put the deck plates back in place.”
Theo skinned his knuckles wrestling with the heavy deck plates, but he avoided mashing his fingers, as he'd done once before. The fingernail on his left ring finger was still black from that one. They finished and crabbed out into the passageway, where they could at last stand erect. Theo stretched to his full height, several centimeters taller than his father. While Victor was thickset and bullnecked, his once-trim midsection had spread, stretching the fabric of his coveralls. Theo was tall and slender, but youthfully awkward, all gangling arms and legs. Victor's hair was jet black and thickly curled; Theo's was a light sandy brown, like his mother's.
“How's your head?” Victor asked gruffly as they started back toward the living quarters.
Theo rubbed the spot he had whacked. “No lump,” he said. He flexed the fingers where he'd skinned his knuckles; the hand stung, but not badly.
“This old vessel needs a lot of tender loving care,” Victor said, more to himself than to his son. “We've got to nurse her along until we put in at Ceres for a major overhaul.”
Theo started to reply, but his mouth went dry. He knew what he wanted to say, but found that it wasn't easy to speak the words. At last, working up his courage, he tried, “Dad, when we get to Ceres⦔ But the words dried up in his throat.
His father's expression turned hard. “What about when we get back to Ceres?”
Theo blurted, “I don't want to spend the rest of my life taking care of this rust bucket.”
“Neither do I, son. I thought we'd spend a year or two out here in the Belt and then cash in. But it hasn't worked out that way. The years just seem to slip past.”
Theo had heard the sad story many times before. “I don't want to be a rock rat all my life,” he said.
“You don't want to be like me, is that it?” Victor asked, his voice suddenly sharp.
Feeling miserable, Theo replied, “It's not that, Dad. It's ⦠jeeze, there's got to be more to life than running around the Belt picking up ores and delivering them to Ceres, for cripes sake.”
“Don't let your mother hear that kind of language. She expects you to be a gentleman.”
“Yeah, I know,” Theo sighed.
More softly Victor said, “Theo, this ship is our home. It's our whole lifeâ”
“Your life,” Theo muttered. “I want something more.”
“Like what?”
“I don't know. I'm not sure. I'm getting good grades in my science classes.”
“High school classes over the ednet are a far cry from real science, Thee.”
“The guidance program says my test scores are good enough for a scholarship.”
“Scholarships pay tuition. Who's going to pay all the other expenses?”
“I can work, support myself. Selene University scholarships include transportation, at least.”
“Selene?” Victor stopped in the middle of the passageway, forcing Theo to stop and turn to face him. “You want to go to the Moon?”
“Just long enough to get a degree in biology.”
“And then what?”
“Maybe I could go to the research station at Jupiter. They need biologists to study the life forms there.”
“Jupiter,” Victor murmured, shaking his head. He clutched at his son's arm hard enough almost to hurt. “A biologist. At the Jupiter station.”
“If I'm good enough to make it.”
“You'll have to be pretty damned good,” Victor told his son. Then he chuckled and added, “If you don't kill yourself first trying to keep this ship going.”
Theo did not laugh.
“Let's face it, Mom,” Theo mumbled into his bowl of yogurt and honey, “Dad doesn't trust me. He thinks I'm still a kid.”
His mother, Pauline, stood at the one microwave oven that was still functioning and smiled understandingly at her son.
“I don't think that's true, Theo,” she said gently.
“I'm fifteen!” Theo burst. “Almost sixteen! And he still doesn't trust me with anything.”
“Your father has an awful lot of responsibility on his shoulders,” Pauline replied. “This ship, our lives ⦠there's a war going on out there, you know.”
“And he doesn't trust me.”
Pauline sighed, wondering if the microwave was functioning properly.
Syracuse
was an old, creaking bucket of an ore carrier. The family spent most of their time on maintenance and repairs, just trying to keep the vessel going on its lonely circuit through the Asteroid Belt. The galley was a tight little compartment, its bulkheads and deck scuffed and dulled from long years of use.
Theo sat hunched over his bowl, muttering unhappily into his unfinished breakfast. His sister Angela, sitting across the galley's narrow table from Theo, was slightly more than two years older; she was still carrying more weight than she should, still wearing an extra layer of teenage fat. Theo taunted her about it. She responded by calling her lanky, gawky brother “the giraffe.”
When Pauline looked at her daughter she could see a dark-haired, dark-eyed beauty waiting to blossom. We'll have to be careful about her once we put in at Ceres, she reminded herself. There'll be plenty of young men chasing after her.
“Dad's got enough to worry about, Thee,” Angie said, in the authoritative voice of an older sister.
“I could help him if he'd let me,” Theo grumbled.
“Like you fixed the leak in the fuel tank? Dad had to come down andâ”
“Hydrogen's tricky stuff!” he protested. “It seeps right through ordinary seals.”
“Never send a giraffe to do a man's job.” Angela smirked.
“Like you'd do better, hippo?”
“Mom! He's calling me names again!”
“You started it!”
“Both of you, stop this at once,” Pauline said firmly. “I won't have you calling each other ugly names.”
The microwave dinged at last. As Pauline opened it and pulled out her own breakfast of steaming oatmeal, she said, “Let me talk to your father about this, Thee. Perhaps there's something that we can do.”
Theo brightened a bit and sat up a little straighter. “I could pilot the ship into Ceres!”
“I don't know.⦔
“Dad lets Angie pilot the ship sometimes.”
“I'm more mature than you,” Angela said loftily. “You have to be reliable, you know.”
But their mother smiled. “We'll see.”
ORE SHIP
SYRACUSE
: MASTER BEDROOM
Pauline Zacharias looked into the mirror as she sat at her dresser. I'm getting old, she realized, studying the fine lines that were beginning to spiderweb across her face.
She had never been a beauty, not in her own critical estimation. Her jaw was too long, she thought, her lips too thin. Her gray eyes were large and Victor often called them luminous, the dear. But her hair. It was sorrowful. Dirty blonde. Victor called it sandy. It never behaved. Pauline had cropped it short, close to the skull, and still it stuck out all around in a sea of cowlicks. She tried to consider her good points: she was tall and her figure still slimly elegant. She had always strived to carry herself proudly, chin up, shoulders back, head erect. Now she was beginning to wonder if it was worth the effort.
Victor stepped into the bedroom and slid the door shut. The lock didn't catch at first; he had to jiggle it a few times.
“This whole tub is breaking down around our ears,” Victor Zacharias muttered.
He was right, Pauline knew. Glancing around their bedroom she saw that the dresser and cabinets were badly in need of upgrading. Even the wall screens had developed an annoying little flicker. But the bed, she would never replace their bed. Victor had ripped out the compartment's built-in bunk when they'd first leased
Syracuse,
and he'd built a handsome oversized bed with his own hands. Painted the plastic paneling to resemble real wood. Made a mattress out of discarded elastic water bags. Their one luxury, their bed.