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The sky rumbles again, but this time I don’t care, nothing matters more than this moment, this man.

As another rumble of thunder crashes in the sky, I orgasm with a violent shaking of my body. The coldness, the heat, the uncertainty of being caught, the fear of the storm upon us, the love words coming from his lips, the love that is reflecting out of his eyes, so many emotions, so many feelings are released in that torrent of pleasure. I feel Ethan orgasm too, deep inside of me, spilling his release with a great groan of satisfaction.

Laying there in the stillness, we hold onto each other
as another clap of thunder rumbles over and around us.

“We better go,”
Ethan says and the moment dissolves into what will become one of my most beautiful memories.

We pack up quickly and run back to our waiting vehicles
. With a quick kiss and a, “Be safe,” I follow him all the way home.

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

 

T-Minus One Day
to Anniversary…

 

Hi.
The text messages flashes up on the screen of my phone as the soft beep grabs my attention. I’ve been at work for a few hours now, trying desperately to keep my mind focused on the project at hand, failing miserably as my mind keeps remembering our time by the waterfall last night and then the gentle lovemaking of this morning.

I pick up my phone with a big smile on my face.

Hi
I reply, hugging myself, knowing that he was simply thinking of me and wanting to let me know.

Ethan
:
I love you.  I love you feels inadequate.  Consumed.

My body
tenses, deep inside, and my back arches involuntarily as I read that one innocent word on my screen. I close my eyes as “consumed” plays through my mind and I find myself completely agreeing with his train of thought.

Me:
Oh. My.  I’m consumed by you too. And I miss you. Terribly and desperately. The sex is wonderful, amazing, but that isn’t why I miss you.

I pause for a moment, thinking quickly.

Me: I miss…I miss being close to your heartbeat.

Ethan
:
Oh baby, I love that.

I’ve been thinking about last night, making love to you in the rain, watching your face change with pleasure while the streams of water run down your skin. You’ve never been more beautiful to
me, I’ve never felt closer to you. I can’t get you off of my mind.

Me:
Do you know that I have no control over my body when you speak to me like that? My back arches and my head rolls back, movements I simply can’t control.

Ethan
:
Good, I love that I affect you that way. What happens to your body when I tell you…

And I wait, watching the three dots of my phone working, and I wonder what will appear.

Ethan:
That I want to tie your wrists to the bed. Your legs spread, ankles bound to the post.

Me:
Oh. Everything, every cell inside of me is on fire.

Ethan
:
You are restricted completely. I can explore you. I can start at your toes.
Run my tongue slowly up the inside of your leg, up to your inner thigh. Then back to your toes.

Me:
Oh. Yes. Please.

Ethan
:
Up the other leg very slowly. When I get to the top of your inner thigh, you feel my hot breath on you, I lick you very gently. Your body wants to move but you can't fight the restraints. I push my tongue inside you. Tasting you.

Me:
Oh, yes, I feel you.

Ethan
:
I can feel your clit swell and twitch against my tongue. I lower my mouth and push my tongue back inside you as my finger circles your swollen sensitive place. You are moaning with pleasure, moaning with desire, I enter you with my fingers and my tongue.

Me:
Please

Ethan
:
You explode all over me. I work my way up to your nipples, licking one and playing with the other, then swapping back and forth. I move on up as my lips find yours, our mouths open as our tongues find each other’s. My fingers are inside you and you can’t fight the orgasm that's needs to explode. You come on my hand. I line myself up to your entry and forcefully enter you… fast hard deep. I feel your body, so tight, so hot, so wet.

Me:
Please. Be in me. Love me. Hard.

Ethan
:
Your hips thrust up to meet mine. Our rhythm is perfect. In out.  Fast and hard I'm looking in your eyes. My climax is near. I'm deep inside you. We are locked in motion, perfect harmony, as I can feel myself shoot deep inside you. So hot.
Your own orgasm hits you as mine erupts, and we come together, perfectly.

Oh goodness…I’m panting as I’m reading, as each line appears one after the other.
I want…need…him so much. Consumed.

Me:
I want that too. So badly. I need you deep inside of me, on top of me, moving inside of me. Your mouth on mine.

Ethan
:
I want to wake up with you every day, for the rest of my life. I want to wake you up as I'm sliding inside of you. I want to wake you up with me between your legs, licking you to an orgasm alarm.

Me:
I want to be in your arms. Sleep with you. Make love to you. Suck you. Fuck you. What a wonderful way to open my eyes.

Ethan
:
I'm addicted to you. I'm in love with you. I love knowing that you love me too.

Me:
Consumed.

Ethan
: Yes, consumed. Tomorrow is our anniversary. I know how I want to celebrate. I’ve loved these past ten days, and I want to consume you some more.

Me:
Will we be alone?

I press the “send” button and hold my breath while the three little dots get to work.

Ethan:
I’m not telling, it’s a secret. But I will say that I’ve spoken to Rebecca and she is free, if I choose to call. Is that still ok with you?

Oh my.
Is it? Isn’t it? My mind is whirling. I’ve come out of my shell to the point where adding her would be exciting. But I’m still worried, just a bit, about how I would feel seeing her with Ethan, feeling inadequate about myself. Not knowing how to please her, worrying that she would please him more. The Bitch is cackling with delight as all of the worry points float through my mind.

Me:
I’m all in, however and whatever it looks like.

Geez
…pushing the “send” button feels like I’ve pushed the button to launch an atomic bomb. I wait.

Ethan
:
Thank you baby. I’ve got to go, I’ve got some plans to make.

Me:
Bye. For now.

 

I lay my head down on my desk, breathing deeply in and out.

“I can do this,” I mutter.
“I’ll be damn good at it too.”

I bang my forehead on the
desk, rhythmically up and down, in total and complete frustration at not knowing what to expect.

 

CHAPTER NINETEEN

 

Driving home, I find myself nervous and jittery and tense.
Deciding a hot bath will relax me, I schedule out the evening to make sure I fit one in.

Ethan
won’t be home until eight at the earliest, which leaves me plenty of time to make dinner and then pamper myself.

The gift I ordered as his anniversary present arrived today, so I added wrapping it to my list.
It’s beautiful. And perfect. I hope he thinks the same.

My phone rings…
it’s Rebecca! Oh good heavens, what could she want?

“Hello,” I answer.

“Hi, it’s Rebecca,” she says, not realizing I already know.

“How are you?”

“I’m very good, just thought I would chat for a few minutes before you make your decision about tomorrow. Ethan called me, and I was excited to know that I was the chosen one for your fantasy. I just wanted to make sure that you were ok with it too.”

“Well…I…uh…yes,” I st
ammer out, a bit taken aback by her forwardness, at the same time realizing she is very smart and very kind to check in with me first.

“I really appreciate you calling and checking with me, that’s very kind of you
.” My mortified mouth is finally able to string together a series of words.

“I’m so glad.
We don’t really know each other, and this is certainly an unusual way of getting better acquainted. Can I ask you some pretty frank questions?”

“Uh, sure
.” I gulp.

“Is there anything you aren’t comfortable with?
Bondage? Spanking? Anything like that?”

Bondage!

Spanking!

With Rebecca?

Oh my heavens!

“Honestly, I don’t know what I am comfortable with, and what I’m not.
All of this is completely new to me. How do these things normally work?”

“Generally, the focus is on the man when there are two women involved.
But I’m bisexual and enjoy being with women as well. Are you ok with me pleasuring you too?”

The world stopped.
There was a choice? The women didn’t automatically go down on each other during these things?

Revelation!

I really should have known better than to let a porn video
provide me with threesome strategies!

Face palm.

“So…you don’t expect me to…uh…you know…” I fade off, not knowing exactly what to say.

“You can if you want to, of course
.” She laughs. “And I would certainly enjoy it. I want to be able to pleasure you, if that’s ok. But I don’t expect anything if you aren’t into it.”

I’m speechless.
Stunned. Here I have been worrying about this for the past ten days, completely unnecessarily. If I decide to touch her, it is completely through my own choice, my decision. Nothing else is expected of me. Wow!

“I’m glad you called
, and we were able to chat through this. You’ve given me a lot to think about. And please know that if we don’t call you, it isn’t because of you, it’s just because we decided to not, uh, go in that direction.”

“I’m here if you need me.
Honestly and with all sincerity, I hope you don’t. Not that I wouldn’t love to make love to you,” she says hurriedly.

She pauses, and then with a shaky voice continues, “
I really enjoy the freedom my relationship with Jake creates for me, but there are times when I wish it was only me and him. That we loved each other enough to be enough to each other. I think it is beautiful what you and Ethan have, what Amy, Renee and Melanie have…” She trails off.

My heart
goes out to her in that moment. I can see both of her points. On one side, she is in a relationship, but not. There is a freedom there that traditional couples don’t have. On the flip side, there is a loss of the deep connection, the safety net of knowing it is just the two of you against the world, the comfort of having one love, one person who wants only you in their bed.

“If you ever need someone to talk to, I’m here,” I say quietly.

Is she crying, I wonder?

“T
hank you,” she says, sounding strangled, and she hurriedly says goodbye and hangs up her end of the phone.

I sit there staring, surprised on
ce again at the complexities of relationships.

Why must they be so difficult?
So complicated? So lonely at times?

Was God
clapping his hands in delight when he popped a man and a woman down on the planet? Did He cackle with glee at their first argument?

I shake my head at my wonderings
. Maybe we really did just result from a cosmic moment of time, a big bang that catapulted us into standing humans who are muddling around the best we can. Surely no loving God would allow the self-doubts and fears that trap us, keep us from ever finding happiness. But, then again, we can never know happiness if we’ve never experienced sadness. A loving God would understand that.

I shake my head at my ponderings, over-thinking things as usual.
I head into the kitchen to quickly assemble our dinner, pop it in the over and set to the timer to 45 minutes. No charred dinner tonight, I promise, and head up to my bathroom for that much needed submersion.

 

CHAPTER TWENTY

 

After my bath, I smooth lotion all over and then pamper myself further with
a quick painting of my nails. Allowing them to dry, I sit in the bay window seat of our bedroom, watching a boat speed over the lake and a few of the neighbor’s children frolicking knee deep in the water.

Still needing to wrap
Ethan’s present, I test my nails and decide they are dry enough for the task. It only takes a few minutes to surround the box with paper and tape, a few moments more to make sure the bow is perfect. I smile as I remember how much time I took searching for it, both online and in various stores, knowing what I wanted, but not finding the perfect one.

Will he like it?


Yes
,” assures my Inner Goddess.


He’ll think you are making fun of him
,” chimes in The Bitch.

I stick my tongue out at her and
stash the present in my underwear drawer, heading downstairs as the timer of the oven starts beeping. Ah, the kitchen smells heavenly as I bend to remove the bubbling steaks from the heat.

They look perfect, as I baste them once again with the spicy juices of the marinade.
I set about to quickly broil the asparagus and boil the rice. I had stopped to buy a cheesecake, knowing I wouldn’t have time to make one from scratch. I quickly slice strawberries and wash the blueberries that will go with it.

Beautiful.
Everything looks beautiful to me now, through this rose-colored world that is tinted with love. I’m lighting candles as I hear keys jingle, and I turn to see my husband walk in the front door.

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