The Beloved One (3 page)

"I say trepan him — and let the decision rest with God, not us, as to whether he lives or dies."

"He won't be the same as he was before this happened to him," Plummer warned, resting a possessive, almost affectionate hand over the gaping wound as though he couldn't wait to get started on it.  "You know that, don't you?"

"We have to give him the chance.  After all, the poor fellow did do what he could for America, didn't he?"

Amy was the only one who saw her brother wince as though he'd been struck.  Ophelia and Mildred were too busy making their exit.  Sylvanus was still looking at the stranger.  And Dr. Plummer was laying things out on the table:  a linen rag, a razor, two long metal retractors with hooked ends, and the trephine — a small, ring-shaped saw with a handle in the center and deep, jagged teeth designed for grinding a small plug out of a person's skull.  Amy looked at it and felt her knees go all wobbly.

Don't you dare get squeamish!
she berated herself, fiercely.  She gazed down at Adam, whose long eyelashes just brushed the table.  Poor Adam with the blue, blue eyes that might never open again.

Her heart ached with pity for him.  "I'll help you if you need me to, Dr. Plummer," she said quietly.  "Just tell me what I have to do."

Five minutes later, Sylvanus, who couldn't stand the sight of blood, made his excuses and Amy found herself pressed into service.  Under Plummer's direction, she fetched a bowl of warm water and a pillow from her bed while Plummer went outside to have a few pulls on his pipe — no doubt to steady his own nerves, Amy thought.  Racing back downstairs, she gently lifted Adam's head, put the pillow beneath it, and then eased him back down so that his brow was cradled on soft down instead of oak.  Involuntarily, her hand smoothed the hair back from his temple, as though she could comfort and encourage him for the ordeal that lay ahead; then she dampened a rag and washed the wound, trying not to look at the blood and water running in halting pink streams through his pale hair.

Plummer returned, rolling up his sleeves and grimly eyeing his patient as though trying to determine the best way to approach the task ahead of him.  Amy's heart begin to pound with apprehension.

"Stand at the head of the table, Amy, and put your hands on either side of his head to steady it," the doctor directed.  "Good."  Wiping the razor on the leg of his breeches, he shaved the area around the wound with as much skill as any barber.  Amy watched the soft clumps of hair tumbling forlornly down over her knuckles, falling on the pillow, the table, the floor.  Finally Plummer set the blade aside.  "There.  That ought to do it.  Now, brace his head real steady, Amy, and don't let it move."  And then, noting her pallor, he added, "You don't have to watch if you don't want to."

She didn't want to — but she could no more look away than she could stop breathing.  It was as though by finding the courage to watch, she was somehow going through this ordeal right along with him.  To look away and abandon Adam to such a thing, to allow him to suffer it all by himself, seemed cowardly.  She would be brave — for him.  And so she held his head and held up her own and forced herself to take deep, steadying breaths as she watched Plummer draw his scalpel and make his first cut.  As the doctor progressed, first with scalpel and then with the trephine, Amy found herself gently talking to the unconscious man as though she could somehow soothe him.

"He'll not hear you," Plummer grunted, leaning his weight into the trephine and rotating it, "but if it makes you feel better, go ahead and talk to him."

"It
does
make me feel better.  And maybe he
can
hear me. . . after all, who's to say that he can't?"

"What a fanciful girl you are," Plummer said, amused.  "But the best assistant I ever had.  Now, keep your wits about you.  We're almost there."

Amy no longer wanted to look.  She squeezed her eyes shut and locked her knees together and it was then, as she stood there holding so tightly onto Adam's head that her arms began to ache, that she noticed that his breathing had changed.  Her eyes flew open.

"Dr. Plummer?"

"For God's sake, girl, not now."

"His breathing — it doesn't sound the way it did a moment ago . . ."

Still gripping the trephine, Plummer paused only long enough to note that Amy was correct.

"Tarnal hell, I'm losing him."

Amy, fingers entwined in Adam's hair to better anchor his head, the terrible grinding vibrations of the trephine coming up through her palms, shut her eyes and prayed like she never had in all her seventeen years. 
Please don't die
, she begged silently, pressing her palms to Adam's ears and willing her own life into his fading body,
please, please, don't die . . .

But Adam's soft respirations were coming more and more slowly, growing ineffective, growing faint.

Please God.  Oh, please, give him a chance, I beg of you —

"Pay attention there, Amy!" barked Plummer, his upper lip beaded with sweat as he tossed the trephine down on the table.  It began to roll away.  Impatiently he slammed it back down.  The trephine rolled again, this time falling off the table and hitting the floor.  Plummer swore and left it there.  And now Adam was no longer taking shallow little breaths, but gasping desperately, trying to draw air into his dying lungs.  Tears stung Amy's eyes, burned in her sinuses.  She had seen fish in buckets die like that; to see a man going the same route, especially one as strong and handsome as this one, filled her with an unbearable agony.

"The devil take it," Plummer swore, grabbing up the scalpel and prying the plug of bone loose.  "Damnation!"

And now even the erratic gasps were coming slower and slower.  Amy sniffed back the tears.  Oh, God help her, this was awful, awful, awful —

"Come on, damn you, breathe!" Plummer all but yelled, his voice rising in urgency as Adam gave a final, heavy sigh and fell still.  He watched the trickle of red, red blood oozing up and out of the gaping wound.  "
Breathe!
"

But as each moment filed past, Adam did not move, did not breathe, and Plummer's frozen, rapt expression began to melt into despair.  He stood staring down at his patient, hands clenched and a myriad emotions crossing his face, before his shoulders finally sank and, looking haggard and old, he swore beneath his breath and turned away in defeat.

"Call in the undertaker, then," he said bitterly.  "I've lost him."

Chapter 2

Will fled.  Plummer wiped his brow and trudged off to tell Sylvanus the bad news.

And Amy was left alone with Adam.

She stood there with him for what seemed like a long time, her hands caught in his bloody hair, her palms still pressed to his ears as though she could keep the life from leaving him.  As she stared down at his body, its fragile warmth still caught between her hands, its still face buried in her pillow, her throat closed on a harsh sob.  He couldn't be dead, he just couldn't, he was too young, too strong, too handsome —

But he was.

Gently turning his head and coming around to his side, she bent, bringing her cheek to his cheek, her temple to his temple, and let the tears come.

And it was then, with her damp face pressed to his, that she felt the tremulous fluttering of a pulse, soft as a butterfly's wings, beating in his temple.

She pulled back.

"Adam?" she whispered, barely daring to speak.

Another moment passed.  And then his shoulders rose on an inhalation of Herculean proportions, rising up, up, up, only to settle back down on an equally huge exhalation.

"Breathe, Adam!  Oh, please, breathe!"  And then, when he didn't, Amy put her lips next to his ear and yelled, straight into his head, "
Breathe!
"

Adam breathed.  Plummer came charging back in, Sylvanus right behind him.  Seeing the rise and fall of Adam's shoulders, Plummer hurried forward, opening his bag as he went.  Adam was coming back to life — literally — beneath Amy's bloodstained fingers.  She returned to the head of the table, put her cheek next to his, and unable to contain her excitement, unable to stop the tears from coursing down her face, coached each slow, gathering breath by matching it to her own.

"Breathe . . . breathe . . . breathe . . ."

Each respiration was stronger than the last.  Whispering words of encouragement, Amy stroked the sides of Adam's head with her thumbs, marvelling at the strength and will of a man who could come through what this one just had, and live.  She looked up at the doctor and laughed with joy.

"Oh, Dr. Plummer — you did it, he's breathing!"

"
We
did it," he corrected with a wry smile, and reaching into his bag, extracted a handful of lint.  He was just pulling off a wad of it when tremors began moving through Adam's body, ending in twitches of his fingers, a jerk of one leg.

"What's wrong with him now?" Amy cried in alarm.

"Nothing."  The doctor smiled.  "He's just waking up."

"Waking up?"

"Yes.  Once I took the pressure off his brain by releasing the blood clot, it's only natural that he regain consciousness.  That is, if God wanted him to live."

"Obviously, God
does
want him to live!"

A groan of pain came from deep within the pillow.  Quickly, the doctor plugged the wound with lint and threaded his needle, preparing to stitch it shut.  Adam was flexing his fingers now.  Trying, weakly, to raise his head.  Plummer pulled the wound shut, pinched it with one finger, and stabbed the needle through.

Adam's whole body jerked, his hand flailing blindly before hitting Plummer's wrist with nearly enough force to break it.  The needle went flying, only to be jerked back by the thread.  Plummer let out a curse, and Adam began thrashing about.

Amy couldn't hold him down.

"Keep him still, Amy!"

She threw her full weight across him, trying desperately to restrain him.  He fell back to the table, struggling, as both Will and Sylvanus added their weight.  Her heart pounding, Amy leaned down and put her lips against Adam's ear.  "It's all right," she soothed.  "You're going to be just fine, but you have to be still!  We're not trying to hurt you.  I know how frightened you must be, but the doctor must do this in order to save your life."

A muffled groan came from deep within the pillow.

"Dr. Plummer?"

"What, Amy?"

"He's suffocating; can we at least let him turn his head so he can breathe?"

Plummer pushed back.  "Aye, go on."

Gently lifting Adam's head, Amy turned it so that his right cheek lay on the pillow.  The pale blue eyes were wide and staring, the handsome face flushed and damp with sweat.  "Just give him a moment," Amy pleaded, noting Plummer's impatient scowl.  She dipped the rag in clean water and tenderly wiped Adam's cheek and brow.  "That's not too much to ask, is it?"

Plummer nodded his assent and allowed Sylvanus to draw him off into the parlor.  No sooner had they left than Amy noticed Will, his face like paste, standing nearby.

"Will, what
is
the matter?"

"Nothing," he whispered, staring down at his friend.  "Nothing a'tall."

Amy gave him a sharp glance, then returned her attention to the man who lay on the table.  "It's all right, Adam," she murmured, stroking the damp hair that still adorned all but the back of his head.  "Just relax."

Adam stared fixedly at the wall, his lips just grazing the bloodstained pillow.  "Not Adam . . . Charles."

It came out
Chaaahles
, on a deep and startlingly elegant drawl that left the "r" from the name and marked him as anything but the rebel they'd all assumed him to be.

Amy's jaw dropped open and horrified, she whirled to stare at her brother.  "He's a —"

"Redcoat."  Will went green and shot a terrified glance at the door through which the doctor had just passed.  "An officer, if you must know."  He hugged his arms to himself and stared at Amy, his lower lip thrust out, his eyes both fearful and defiant.  He looked like the frightened child he was.  "What would you have me do, leave him out in a field to die?"

Amy, paling, grabbed Will by the sleeve.  "Do you realize what you've
done
?"

Will looked as though he were about to cry.  "Now you know why I was half-hoping he wouldn't make it."

"Why on earth did you bring him home?"

"I felt guilty."

"For heaven's
sake
, Will!"

Beneath them, the officer lay quietly on the table.  In despair, Amy realized he must've heard every word — and known they were his enemy, long before they could say the same about him.  Lying gravely wounded and separated from his countrymen, his army, and everything familiar to him, helpless and at the mercy of the very people who'd declared themselves to be his enemy, he must be terrified.  Waking up to what he had, he probably thought they were practicing some wicked torture on him.

She touched his brow and gently smoothed his hair back.  "Charles."

"Oh, Juliet, forgive me," he whispered — and hooking an arm around Amy's neck, pulled her roughly down against him.  Caught off balance and completely off guard, Amy all but tumbled across his chest.  As she flung out an arm to stop her fall, his lips found hers, and in the next moment, he was kissing her with a desperate passion, one arm locked around her back like a vise.

Will ripped her from his embrace.  "Don't you touch my sister, you damned lobsterback, you!"

"Will!" Amy cried.  "Can't you see he's mistaken me for someone else?  Leave him be, he's clearly out of his head!"

"Juliet . . ."  The officer sounded confused, groggy, his voice rising in worry.  "Juliet, where am I?"

With a nervous glance toward the door, Amy leaned down to whisper in his ear.  "Listen —" Her cheeks were flushed, her pulse pounding madly; heaven help her, her legs were weaker now than they'd been all during the surgery!  "I don't know who this Juliet is, but I'm not her.  I'm Amy. 
Amy
.  Can you understand that?"